|Reading these suicide pages you will find people seeking help and people offering their help. Some witness about suicide from real life experience, others who play along with me would pretend it's a children's game. Some make sick and cruel jokes about it, and angry people blame me for even mentioning the subject. You might also want to read my favourite answers. If you want your answer to be included here, fill in the form.|
What is the best way to kill yourself when you're under 13?
Quelle est la meilleure forme de suicide pour les moins de 13 ans?
|20 Jul 2004||Mr. Void||well, first, sorry if my english has some strange sentence or words; it's not my native language ...
Taking a large amount of pills to comit a suicide is a bad idea. What happen with food in your stomach ? It takes hours to digest something ... That's the same with these pills. Hours to digest it and have it go through your veins ... During this time someone can see you and call ermergency or take you to hospital... You won't die and that's enough so get some critical but not deadly organ wounds (brain, nerves and especially liver and kidneys). You already have so much pain in your mind, don't add more physical pain to that. Or do it properly, I mean, use something which will surely kill you.
I've got suicidal thoughts since I'm 7 years old, and now, I'm 24. I don't know how to explain it... It's like having my mind trapped by/in something, but I don't know what. Sometimes, I feel nothing, it likes I there was nothing in my mind/spirit/soul, only void and emptyness ...
I tried to commit suicide only one time, it was 4 years ago, with pills. I had to vomit, but a part of this mixture was in my stomach and I didn't went to an hospital. My hips and my belly were in pain for 4 weeks...
Now that's different. I'm a student in a university, and I'm trying to get a chemistry diploma... We've got chemistry practice in laboratory and we sometimes work with dangerous components. If, like 4 years ago, I reach the peak of my suicidal thoughts again, I'll get some chemical components at home and make some hydrogen cyanide gas. This time, with this poison, dear Grim Reaper won't miss me.
If only suicide wasn't considered as a shame ... We could simply go to a suicide designer and ...
Movie: My Right to Ravage Myself
|19 Jul 2004||Flamer. Sorry to let you all down, I didn't swear at all in...||The best way to kill yourself eh?? Well let's see, there are about 6 and half billion people in the world right now... and soon each and every one of them, all 6.5 billion will be dead. Everyone who has ever lived has died. You will die too. Everyone dies, not everyone really lives. Why not give life a chance? Your death will come eventually, live your life while you still have it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
|19 Jul 2004||Ignorance is bliss||To all the anti-suicide people. How about you either ignore this site of come on there with something useful to say (ie. some links to help sites or what not) coming on here and telling people they are losers and fuck-ups is only adding to their problems. Grow up and be constructive or, pardon my french, FUCK OFF|
|19 Jul 2004||augusto||shet, I not speack.|
|18 Jul 2004||charlene||hey my name is charlene and im 15. there are a few pretty fucked up ppl in this place! suicide is not a form of attention seeking in most cases! i have been a cutter for almost 3 years now and it is like smoking! once you start you cant stop.... you become addicted! i do it because it releases all my pain... it makes me feel good! i dont tell any1 i do it, and it was only a few days ago that my best friend found out about it. i normally wear loads of bracelets to cover it up but sometimes (because i do it so much) i run out of room to cut so i move down the arm and onto my legs! thats how i got discovered! my friend told me that i should stop it because it is a bad way of getting attention. "if you want attention do something that will make you stand out and dont hurt yourself in the process!" let me tell you all now.... this is no joke! this is real and whether you chose to see it or not heaps of people do it! its not for fun! so b4 you come on here and write some lame ass joke or make fun of the people who do happen to do it stop and think! (if you can-try you simple minded ppl i know you can get there if you just try!) these are real ppl you are makeing fun of! ppl suffering and in pain! your lives may be so perfect that you dont even have to think about it but others aren't that lucky! i do realise that some ppl have it worse than me but no matter how hard i try i cant get out of this habit! i has become a part of who i am! it is a way of releasing all my pain and sorrow! and to tell you the truth i pity all you sad people who can't think beyond your perfect lives and at least see what some other people go through!|
|18 Jul 2004||North carolina kid||I'm only 14 now and my life has been pretty good. I mean my parents have a happy marriage and they're supportive. I've never had to go through anything too tough. Nothing like some of the posts that have been put here. But I've always been a very bleak person. As I was growing up my father took in his parents to live with us. They were going to help around the house and my parents would in-turn take care of them. Well my grandmother and my Grandfather never got along. I always remember them fighting. And it was always over the stupidest things. They would just start with raised voices until it became full out yelling. Well I think they moved in when i was 3 or 4. Well that was 10 years ago. In that 10 years my grandfather lost both of his legs and went through four strokes in the course of a year. But he stayed with us the whole time. He had to have been one of the most stubborn people I have ever known. This made helping him in his condition much harder. Well my grandmother wouldn't put up with it. Her health was also failing but that didn't seem to stop the fighting. Except now she was the one that yelled and my grandpa could only sit, watch, and think. He had to learn to talk again. Well he died in 98 i think and since then my grandmother has only been venting her anger on my father, mother, and myself. She was always pissed about something. Well she just faded and faded until she died. Actually that was just a month ago. I feel kinda happy she's gone but I mean she was my grandmother and she wasn't all bad. I guess i do miss her but now my parents and i can live by ourselves.
Well my father is a portrait painter and was successful until we had to start taking care of my grandpa. Now he's trying to salvage his career. It's like starting from scratch and he's 50. I can't imagine how bad it must be for him. He's a manic/depressive to add to the problems. Well my mother has been supporting our family with her job for as long as i can remember. And it's starting to get to her. She's more depressed than i think she lets on. And that pains me. I have to admit though that things are looking up. And I have no idea what im doing here. But i can't seem to escape being sad. I'm always depressed. My friends are there for me and they try to help. I appreciate the effort but they just seem to make things worse. I just feel like i want to get away from them every time they get near me. Then to top it off I fell in love with this girl. (i mean i think i love her. I wouldn't know off hand. It's not like i can compare it to anything) But i know it wasn't just a fling. Well we dated for almost 2 years. And i enjoyed her company and she always made me feel better. Then she decides that she wants to move on. Ironically she broke up with me on the same day that my grandma died.... And she couldn't even tell me in person. She wrote me an email. That hurt. Just like so many other things i just let her go. What's the point in fighting it. It's her decision and i want her to be happy, with or with out me.
Well, i've never been religious and I don't believe in an after life. The thought of going to a never ending, dreamless sleep consumes my waking moments. I wonder if death is more calm than life. Cause life is just tedious. It doesn't seem to have the fabled silver lining that every dark cloud should have. I want to be a painter like my father. To strike out on my own. But what's the point if life is going to be this bleak. I've been an on and off cutter for 2 years now. I blame it on accidents like if im making dinner ill cut my palm. Or i fell in school. Or some shit. I don't even know why i do it. It seems like the pain kinda wakes me up. It breaks up the monotony of my every day routine. I have considered suicide on a few counts. But i've never tried anything. I guess how much my parents care about me stops me from doing anything serious to myself. I guess i'm just tired of life. I hate waking up in the morning and getting ready to go to my fucking high school. To look at the same stupid jocks walk the halls and try to impose superiority on all my peers. I mean not all of our generation is like that but those people ruin my day. I don't get picked on in school but it's just a depressing place. I do well in my classes and every one seems to think i have this wonderful potential for my future. I just don't see it. Every day I feel more and more alone and every one's attempts to cheer me up just seem stupid. I don't want to push them away but i always do and i don't know why. I wonder if death can bring peace. But I know i would leave a life behind. And i know that too many people would be hurt. I do think that suicide is selfish, and I don't think i will ever be able to go that big step and just take my own life. Even if it does enter my thoughts a lot. But i could see how a lot of people just stop caring. I wonder if i'm there. I haven't felt emotionally sturred in so long i feel dead already any way. But I do find purpose in helping my friends if they have a problem. And I still love art. I'm sorry for taking up the space this meaningless post takes. It basically begins and ends in the same place. I guess i'm on an eternal fence. I can never make up my mind. I don't believe in a god but I think my conscience won't let me do it. For those resolved in killing themselves, I hope you find the calm you're seeking. I can only hope i can find it in life cause i guess i don't have the courage to just end it.
For any who listens, thank you. I guess it helps to write this. No body who hasn't had the same thoughts would understand.
|18 Jul 2004||lisa||i'm not uder 13. I'm a 39 year old woman who wants to die. if i say the truth in hospital i go. if i lie and say everything's fine I can not win for losting.|
|17 Jul 2004||Kat||Hello out there its me again Kat ,
I am having a really hard time right now , my b/f in last month has beat me up several times , this time I think he fracured my skull, I have had a major head ache for almost a week now , my forhead has a huge lump on it and it hurts to even touch my head , The time before this be punched me on my right eye causeing it to bleed for days , I think I should have gotten stiches , The night he fracured my skull , he had hit me a hour prior right in the cheek, I have begged him to stop hitting me , and just kill me , he could so easiely do it , he strangled me till i was passed out , he is talking about getting a gun , I do not want that , He has a bunch of knives now , I know I will be killed soon , At least I will not need to suffer any more . I watch my children change everyday , more and more depressed , my daughter and son both dye there hair black, my son smokes , has a tattoo,he told me has done" Pot" . and he will only be 15 , I feel I am the reason they are like this , They have been through so much in the past two years , We went from living in a large house to being homeless for 6 months, to being in this shitty little house with little money or food, to seeing there mother being abused by a man they fell in love with and trusted, I do not have a place to go or even family to talk too, I have tryed to go , but no where to go, He has gone but just comes back, Everything about him he keeps as a secret, I do not know what is truthful or not, I found out yesterday he stole my wedding set from my jewlery box , the rings i was going to give to my son and daughter , Now I do not have them , the set cost 3500 and he got 80 at a damn pawn shop. He is making sure everything I have worked so hard for , I will loose, he has broken everything I have ever bought him , or he has given me , he has torn up pictue that can never be replaced of my children, and he has a away of getting into my comp , and he fucks it up almost every other day so i need to reinstall everthing, he keeps logs on me , and we do not have a phone in our house he only has a cell phone, that he has 24 /7
I do not know what to do or say any more, I have called the police they just let him go. So now what ???
|17 Jul 2004||Mike||YO YOU WANNA FUCKIN KILL YOURSELF
1. GOTO A BAD AREA IN YOUR NEIGHBORHOOD STICK YOUR NOSE INTO BAD PLACES AND THINGS.... IE. A GANG..... OR MY FAVORATE WAY.... GET 1 GRAM OR HEROIN 1 GRAM OF COCAINE.... GET A SPOON A LIGHTER A NEEDLE 90 UNITS OF WATER MIX IT IN THE SPOON ADD THE WATER.... HEAT UNTILL IT IS COMPLETELY DISSOLVED SUCK UP THE DEADLY MIXTURE WITH THE NEEDLE... FLICK OUT THE BUBBLES AND INJECT INTO A VEIN... FAST PAINLESS DEATH WILL COST U BOUT 180 CANADIAN DOLLARS THO BUT WHO GIVES A FUCK YOUR DEAD ANYWAYS
2 get a needle fill it completly with air and inject into vein... instant heart attack...
OH BTW THIS IS FOR EDUCATIONAL PURPOSES SO I MAY NOT BE CHARGED OR FINED IN ANYWAY
|16 Jul 2004||Jannah||take your favorite cd - break it and slit your body as many times as you can. PRESS HARD!|
|15 Jul 2004||THIS SITE IS AN EXAMPLE OF SPOILED BRATS WITH NOTHING BETTER TO DO.|
|15 Jul 2004||Not amused by this crap||That was really inane and not even entertaining. You have so much time and resources on your hands. It's an absolute shame you don't use it for something more progressive. Spiritual. Political. Instead it's just retarded deadness.|
|15 Jul 2004||Deadlypudding||Everyone who I've seen respond to this in a serious and suicidal way is fucking INSANE! You are adistic and overly self-confident in your belief that lif will rape you for everything you.ve got. Well I got news, I like for life to rape me. It reminds me that I'm not perfect that I have to earn the respect of others, that I have to do my best and be my best for life to not touch me there as much. Every suicaidal person ever thinks that because they don't have the greatest life ever they gotta just escape. My cousin was 16 when he pulled the trigger and he was much better off than I am. He was a heroine addict(as well as a few other drugs) and got fucked up one day and did himself in. Now the sad part he had planned it anyway. He just got fucked up so he wouldn't feel it. He followed in Kurt Cobain's footsteps, right under the chin with a rifle/shotgun. I don't understand how you people can get off from hurting/killing yourself and making those you love and love you back be pained by your self-hate. I understand that most suicidals believe no one loves them but they're all fucking nuts. I believe every damn one of you are loved by someone. Hell I don't even know any of you but I'd hate to hear that you killed yourself. I have no sympathy however to you if you commit the act that only shows how weak and pathetic you were and completely stupid. My cousin wouldn't have killed himself if he was sober. He wouldn't have even thought of it if he weren't a drug addict. Those who do it through drugs are not those who have followed through with the act of their own will. I believe though the body pulled the trigger(drank the poison, od'ed, etc.) the mind was crying for help. I would hope that anyone who is suicidal would really look at their life and just focus on anything good no matter how miniscule and don't tell me you can't think of anything even then because you're fucking lying. and denying the inevitebal truth if you don't die to save another life then you fucked up.|
|14 Jul 2004||Mindy the fucking one who is your death||haa you fuckers want the best way to kill ur self under 13 okay... rip the beak off a fucking platapus embed it in ur chin, shove an adrvark up ur ass, take alot of clonapin thats pills u under aged fucks they blast macy grey music and pretend your a wonderful pretty pretty kiddie while performing open heart surgery on ur dumb weak ass replace ur heat with a piece of a camels toe if ur still alive why hasint the music killed you yeat... haha then come to realize your immortal and u cant die so u can live the process of killing yourself over agian. HOW SWEET!!! OH YEA U COULD FART ON THE POPE AND OFFER HIM A LEPER SANDWICH THAT COMES STRAIT FROM THE ISLAND OF DAECAY THEN TURN CANNIBAL AND EAT HIM< THAT WOULD CAUSE AN AWESOME RIOT FOR THOSE GOD FUCKERS!!!|
|14 Jul 2004||Mindy||Today im feeling like shit! I must have a split personality if you read any of my other entries. This always seems to catch me by surprise even though I know it will come. I mean I constantly set myself up to fall, but sometimes I really believe my way of thinking helps me. I read morticians bread and butter and I realized that im in the same perdicament as her okay so maybe not. Maybe someone can relate to me. You know the stages of suicide. I guess I should share a little more about myself before I get personal. Im 17 years old, A lesbian and im very comfertable in my sexuality and to those of you boy or girl who feel or know there gay or lesbian and it bothers you. Why? It is your life live for yourself. Live to be happy. Dont hide behind a fucking mask because I see right through you. I know the motions life brings us. People give me that fucking mindless bullshit bander question how do u know so much at only 17? What the hell kind of question is that. I dont measure what I know by age but I measure it by experiance. I am the way Iam because of so much shit, everyone seems inferior to me. My ego's talking agian, Who cares I love myself and so should you. I read this article about one girl who crys herself to sleep and who is tired of looking in the mirror seeing inperfections, wether you think your fat or ugly or maybe you think your too skinny dont have those big tits or ass that this propaganda ran media says is in. Why listen to it!!! your brain washing your self! It's all bullshit, so much is bullshit! Im sick of people and myself falling into these longterm depressive self destructive modes. Im tired of sitting back and not being able to feel like I can do anything about it. Im fucking literally sick to my stomach from all the BULLSHIT I have to take. But like I said before in my other writtings pain is nothing but an emotion to me, a rollercoaster ride of torment that fogs up my perception and I forget to see how impotant I can be. Not for this fucked up society but for you people the only ones who truely understand me. I understand you. I understand your pain. I know what it is like to cry everyday. Live inside your room because frankly everyone sucks!!! Every where you turn there someone is waiting to judge you. Well here I am telling you to forget those peole those people!! they are useless fucking pieces of decaying flesh waiting to plauge you with another disease. Setting you up to fall... Dont read into it find friends that are understanding of who you are. I'd look into the gothic crowd. I could sit here and make jokes about this. I could be cold and apathetic as I was in my last entries but what would that do to help you. I cant make you think like me. Im so fucking twisted at times but I always care for peole like you, the lost people. The one who feel they have nothing to live for. Feeling as if they are worthless. I see into you. Please allow me to. the calling of a pain ridden heart to another. Let me see your true self. I promise I will not judge you. FUCK those who do FUCK you peole who come on here and ignore the fact that some people have fucking bleed literally dying just waiting for someone to understand them to reach out to them. Look no longer I am here to listen to you. And only and if only.. I will give you my advice. I cannot promise it will permanitely cure you but hopefully I can get you on the right track. Im still fighting this myself and it's a hard fight but in doing so you become stronger more prone to and immune to these feelings that they become nothing. Trust me you will laugh agian. and if you were at the piont I was a couple of days ago and think that people who laugh are fucking idiots im here to prove there not. Im also here to let you know once more I see through you knowing deep down all you want to do is to laugh agian. Live a life that you deserve to have, If you read this that far you came to understand you dont really want to die or maybe you do. And I understand that too. Im not some fucking poser saying shit just to say shit. I get you I've been there shit I still am it just takes longer for me to crash down not saying that your weak, just implying these feelings do and will subside but over time give youself a chance even if your on your 7th chance dont see it as your last! I say your worth it. Expecially my other gothies we are a fucking community. The ones who have been redeemed outcast to this current society haha but what is society why does it matter. We are all fucking human. I would love to be immortal to see all these peole who caused my suffering to rot slow over and over agian. Fuck I dont know anymore im drifting into a place I love agian and that place is my hate my security. All I fucking want for you people like me. to email me if you have to I will be there. I hate going outside. I have black velvet cutians to keep out the fucking sun!!! All I can think of is saying the word fuck all this is fucked this world is fucked im fucked your fucked this life as a whole is fucked!!! But for some reason im still able to care for you someone who I dont know figitively but mentally. so yea thats it!!! thats all I can say about me...
MY EMAIL IS... SadisticGothie66@yahoo.com that is also my messenger so you can add me to your list just tell me your from here and i'll add you. "The day wasint gone until I came" and here I am ending another day ending the suffering momentarily killing a day one at a time, saving the rare thinkers such as I,telling you it's about time we get together and end this suffering not in death but in complexity. Who says it takes so long to evolve as a person I say it dosin't. and im the fucking proof and you can be too!!! lets shows these fuckers how strong we are!!! What we are about!!! Show them there stupidity and shove it in there faces make them see the pieces of shit they are. maybe they will kill themselfs that would save me a life time in jail. Ah the killing of an asshole society and the rising of ours how great!!!
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|14 Jul 2004||Mindy||suicide wouldin't be suicide if u asked someone to kill u. that would be murder in the first degree. haaa kewl|
|14 Jul 2004||Mindy||HAHAH!!! I already posted but my fucked up self feels an urge to be on every fucking space there is avalible and if it's not fuck u im taking it y??? umm... because I can. gonna come chase me. fuck off the satanic penguins are my security. hah I dont need security. it sucks!!! like life and waking up to sunshine and fucking naked babies and petunyas bullshit cockwhores. I am the fucking one who created suffering it is my art. and it's so beautiful. Dont be weak and give in c'mon it's fun enjoy the fucking ride. your bound to die anyway, Im so enlightened by my suicidal tendencies I see them as wonderful reminders of how much things suck and that makes me so happy. FUll of joy and all that wonderful skip to my fucking gagged and embolmed aunt lou, choke your self will a spoon. roast ur ass and stick a fork in u ur done. How can u not want to ride and play along this wonderful game it's so much fun!!! Wow im so happy thanks agian misery. A shoutout to my bestfriend Malice and a fucking stabby stabby to my fucking masterful self the almighty sadistic one. Iam so happy for all of you!!! I wish you could be as happy as I am to know of pain, to be the one who has become pain, and still be able to live and laugh in the fucking face of this decietful life. Know that things dont get better and if they do they will get fucked up agian trust me i kno. But the only thing to do is to wait it out life is a big joke. dont give up too soon to miss the punchline at the end. dont listen to those god fuckers, those god damn posers telling u it's gonna be okay because u and I both kno it's not!!! take it from someone who excepts these feelings and you'll be able to be like me and turn pain into happiness. Because once you have created something out of an emotion that existed you will be able to manipulate it into anything you want. Im not ur friend although I would like to be. Lets love the pain. and lets start living agian the life of a tainted broken soul searching for nothing except the feeling of knowing you can fight the pain, that u are strong I will help you find that strenth in you if you cannot seem to find it. Thank you for reading this my fucked up way of perception but wouldint you have to agree that my way of thinking is right. if it's allowed me to find all these graet new projects and art to form with pain. I love it. Still hate the world and this society of shit. join in and become the sadistic delusions of delerium ans learn to find happiness in pain im reaching out to you.|
|14 Jul 2004||Mindy||Im 17 and I've been fighting these fucking asshole feelings for 3 years. Im starting to question why. This all seems too fucking messed up. I cry everyday then I laugh. I find it so funny im that hurting and finding so amusing why I continue, WhEn I dont have to. My uncle blew his brains out a couple of weeks ago. I dont know I feel jealous that he dosin't feel anymore. I envy his death, When I was at the funeral I was wanting it to be me in the coffin. A fucking preacher smiled at me I wanted to murder that fucking god cock sucking queef fucker!!! At least that would make me happy for a while. Why Kill me when I can kill you and have someone kill me later on while I rot in jail. seems so inviting.The slow suffering and needing im so addicted to pain maybe I dont wanna die haha im just fucking crazy. I love pain so you piece of shit life keep piling more shit on me please. Im going through withdrawl. Thank you for my girlfriend and her dissapearance. I want to blow up this fucking world and watch it from a temporarily safe place. Then I would dress myself up as a fucking retard look in a mirror to get one last good laugh then blow my fucking head off. If u want to email me go ahead I dont have anything better to do with my fucking life. and by the way misery loves company so the more the better. yeah kill every stupid fuck that gives you the slightest idiotic look. you brainless fucks!!! The future will bury you all. So whats wrong speeding up time???|
|14 Jul 2004||Tony||I am no longer 13 anymore, i'm 17 but aynways. When i was 13 i was constantly smoking marijuana and i couldn't feel anything like a papercut or a heated up razor balde going into my skin. I was so depressed that i took 10 caffein pills and my heart started to pound at extreme rates. I basically almost over dozed on those pills, i really wish i would have. My life has all gone to hell. Like someone els here said to go out and tell people, well that isn't always the right thing to do cause most people won't take your cries for help seriously and they'll just pretend to help and not actaully care about what goes on after that. I told my mom once that i needed help, counseling or whatever and she got the forms for me to see a counseler but after that she just blew everything off. She lost the form and never once after that did she ever try to help me or see if i needed anything. so anyways.. I think the best way to end your own life when you don't have many materials available would be to simply down a bottle or two of IBuprofren ( not Tylenol that won't do aynthing to you, as i have learned form past experiences) then after you take the bottle(s) of IBuprofren start drinking hard alcohol if you can get someone to buy you some. Perferbaly ICE 101. ICE 101 is 100 proof alcohol it tastes like candy in a way and before you even know it you'll be gone. I am sorry to anyone that has to live a life in hell when there is supposed to be a ""great"" life ahead of them.........|