|Reading these suicide pages you will find people seeking help and people offering their help. Some witness about suicide from real life experience, others who play along with me would pretend it's a children's game. Some make sick and cruel jokes about it, and angry people blame me for even mentioning the subject. You might also want to read my favourite answers. If you want your answer to be included here, fill in the form.|
What is the best way to kill yourself when you're under 13?
Quelle est la meilleure forme de suicide pour les moins de 13 ans?
|03 Jan 2005||Buck fakes left||Life can be good if you try and if you search for a little charisma and you can pull out the little bit of good that is in everyone around you, or at least be one one the positive side whos presence adds instead of decreases such a thing from happening. Yes, life can be good if you make it that way, and I have not been trying hard enough to make life good. People cant handle nothing but unbroken solitude. or at least you cant. So tear off all the accumulated bitterness and snobbery and rampant narcissism and throw yourself back into life, can thrown around, but maybe eventually make it all worth it if by chance, after being thrown around making yourself vulnerable by showing real emotion and feeling love, you are thrown at random into your spot, the spot in life that is perfect for you and it may not look exactly like you expected to and you may not be rich but you feel good about your life and when you die you will not look back on your life and regret anything you did since this moment because even if it did not work out you were experiencing and trying. And I am going to try and make my life good and get bumped around and see what happens, so at least if I still come out on the suicide decision afterwards, I will feel confident that I really tried.
(This is what I realized, so be 'you' I mean 'I' still this may be useful)
This may be incompressible, I dont know. I was hoping for a Don Delilo / Samuel Beckett effect of ridiculous writing not at all organized but that is still somehow followable: because it is natural brain path movement.
Or maybe dyslexics just shouldnt write things down when they are on drugs.
|03 Jan 2005||adele||i need some help some one help me plz iam on my last legs i need some help i want to die
|03 Jan 2005||Francesco Leotta||How I can make in order to have the KIT?|
|03 Jan 2005||Jason||I've thought about killing myself for about 3 years. Now at the age of 17, i have realized i have nothing to live for. I have done some things that i don't think i can ever fix ( i don't do drugs, or smoke or shit like that ), but just things in general. I know some of my friends and family could care but not me.
I know some of these people at school that torment me everyday, sometimes i wish i could go to school and take them out, before taking mine. I know it seems harsh. But does anybody remember Columbine? Eric and Dylan did that because they were made fun of, day in and day out without any remorse, they were teased, made fun of. Because society, couldn't accept them for who they are.
So guess what, society can't accept me, then fuck you. We'll see what happens sooner or later ;)
i can promise you that.
|03 Jan 2005||Erica||well i attempted suicide about 2 months ago, it was my first time but ive been thinking about it for years. i dont see the point in life, its all pain n anxiety, you work your whole life for nothing just to work some more. i have nothing noone, i have school which i dont even go to because i hate everyone there, i am alone.i would love to kill myself right now but for some reason something is stopping me. maybe the fact that i dont want to go back to that hospital it was scary shit but if i were to do it i wuld have to succeed and who knows if thats gonna happen i duno how i wuld go about doing it, i mean pills are my thing but i duno if thats the way to go, i need a good fast easy way. oh and my friend tried killing herself by drinking nailpolish remover bad idea, she sed it was the worst pain when she peed she ever felt in her life. give me some good tips, is it worth it?|
|03 Jan 2005||Matt P||I dont know the best way to kill yourself if you are under 13, but I have tried to kill myself twice. I've been thinking about death for a long time, ever since I was 7 or 8. I felt neglected at times and I got angry that my parents were paying lots of attention to my sister than to me. After saying that I wished i was dead, i was scheduled appointments to a therapist. My thoughts about dying went away till last wednesday because a lot of things was happening. I was sick of love(after being rejected by some guy), I felt like i was a mistake since I wasn't an ideal son, I thought that my parents wouldn't except the fact that Im gay, and I didn't have the will to live. Then this morning, I hanged myself and when i started to need air, I finally got lose and laid in my bed in shock. I was planning on killing myself tonight, but after realizing that i would have a worse punishment in hell(with help by a friend), I decided that I shouldn't kill myself because its not worth it and I have to take into consideration on the affect that it will have on my family. I want to thank this site because if it wasn't for you, I would have probably been dead in the morning|
|03 Jan 2005||deewouldbeme||everyone needs someone, someone to rant to, to talk to when they are depressed, as i posted earlier i wanted to just die, lately i discovered someone who really cares and i can talk to, getting all my feelings out helped me deal with it. just having a friend to talk to can make a world of difference. i want to be like the wonderful person who has helped me. he has made such a difference in my life... everyone deserves someone who cares... any one need anyone to just be there and listen i will always be there for anyone who just needs someone.. email me|
|03 Jan 2005||drgiggles||this site is cool....i would love to be able to commit suicide...my family is in bad condition...if i died..the rest of there lives would be crap,no one deserves that..i guessmy life is ok...im just depressed...tired alot...the day feels like a blur..im a dork..im ugly,i cant even look in the mirror or ill be to embarassed to goto the store or anything...i cant hold a job..im soon to be homeless..i see no future...i feel a faint bit of hope in my stomache that maybe god will lead the way,but i look at everyone who wants or has commited suicide and know that im no diff. i will have no help..im incapable of living let alone starting alife...if i had a job in a dark closest..no interaction with more then 1person thru the day id be fine..but theres not...conversations wear me out,im exhausted just to try and respond to you,its exhausting,some how people take me as a jerk,i have no idea,im a dumass to,i cant even hold a job in a factory,im 18..im stupid and i got fired because they didnt like...everyone in this world ive met reacted the same so theres jusrt absolutely no way..my family doesnt want to see me homeless and humiliate them with drug abuse laziness ...i just cant make it|
|03 Jan 2005||Buck||-And I am starting to come down
-And the grim reaper causally says Anytime you are ready
-And I feel like sludgy snow stained brown because of the smog
-And my will to live has reached a level best described as ehhh, whatever
-there is nothing to be learned here and I gain only a little comfort by the hollow warmth.
-I am a kid on halloween eating too much candy and guilty and getting sick,
-I am the little innocent told to go away because new people cannot learn to play the castle game
-And I am a little kid buried under books and cold people and words.
-The Grateful Dead is on and using drugs to try and force the will to live only works for so long.
(- for where the new lines really should be)
|03 Jan 2005||REDDEATH||Hey To all you people who think This site is sick FUCK YOU, This site helps people some times people just wana talk in a forum about there life and whats gone wrong, they dont need you to tell them there sick for shearin and all you religous people who come on here say you'll go to hell!!! Iv read the bible 5 times each time i read the thing i saw it in a differnt way! and yet I still dont belive 1/10 whats in it. not every 1 belives in god and they dont have to its there choice. AND ITS OUR CHOICE TO POST ON A WEB SITE LIKE THIS NOT YOURS OURS! if you dont like it leave the site its that easy this site has been around since 1998 so who are you to crittisize|
|03 Jan 2005||Veronika||I dunno, life seems so unfair to me. You know.......i don't know what kind of person you have to be to survive, but i know that i can't.
Every coment and every word stabs me in the heart and i always want to cry, if i only had more courage i would've comitte suicide a long time ago, but every time i take a nife i pray that someday i will be able to do it. There is no sence in living in this world if thereis no one that loves you and when you love nobody,
iti is true that none give a damn but i just wanted to see the good in this worl and somehow i can't i am only 16 but i already given up on life. :) life can be a beautiful thing for some people but for some it is a prison with only one way to get out.
|03 Jan 2005||Mary||Slit Your wrists.|
|02 Jan 2005||tess||hanging yourslef..i tryed but failed but i think if you take the right precoursions it can be acheved with the corect out come.|
|02 Jan 2005||Lucy Cortina||Hellooosh everyone helloosh Mouchettie it's new years eve and Ive had a little drinkie-poo, yes I have. At least it was new years eve when I had my first drinkie-poo. Oh Im so glad to be back again, where is my Felicia? And my Billy? I didnt mean to slice off his sausage meat. I have so much to tell you all because Ive been to the afterlife and Ive experienced my boobies expand to boobnormous heights. I should go nowsh theres a policeman staring at me through the window. I did have my breasts presshed against the window earlier and they left a sort of patch of condensation where they were. I didnt realise that was illegal though.|
|02 Jan 2005||Will Snow||Hey Jaylin, I know suicide isnt funny. Its not meant to be. Its a most horrid feeling to get. Im sorry what has happened with your family. I hope it will make you a stronger person.|
|02 Jan 2005||barb||I guess anyway you can accomplish it is the best way. but besides killing yourself, you will be destroying the lives of your family and friends to some degree. If you have a friend you really like or a brother or sister, well you just showed them that it is possible to do. In other words, you have opened a very dangerous path for your friends and some might follow. And you mom will sit there at night trying to think of how she could have done things different, she'll feel like a piece of garbage and shell probably not want to do much for a long long time (and even if she gets help, it will never bring the happiness back into her life that was once a possibility). At times you suicide could prevent your brother from becomming a cop, he won't pass the background check because he will be determined a 'risk'. All sorts of pain, hurt and loss to everyone around you will happen. And the sad thing is your pain will be over quickly, their pain will live on and on. I wish my Michael had never shot himself, I miss him so much, he was the child closest to me but as a grown child he wouldn't share all his problems and so one night after he and I talked on the phone he hung up and shot himself in the chest. and I wonder ever day what I said wrong, and I feel like a failure that cannot go on, and I too would like to die... but I know what it would do to the people I care about and so I just sit here and suffer.|
|02 Jan 2005||Richard Dean Walters||The best way to kill urself painlesslee is to get a gun with 1 bullet to end ur life put it in ur mouth and close ur eyes and pull the triger... That'll be the end and u wont have to sufer nemore(umm dont killurself now :P)|
|02 Jan 2005||Rick||I came accross this site by accident, i was really looking for more ways or new ways of doing it. I have a messed up story as we all do, i've tried to kill myself a total of 7 times, and almost succeeded in 2 cases, i've been to hospitals, and the "special people hospitals", and taken all kinds of meds.
I'm a bit older now then all of that fun stuff, and take meds that do help balance my moods and "mania or whatever",(damn labels) and i guess in a way help me struggle for the next day.
Yet with all of this i still have that feeling, that we all share, empty, dark, cold feeling at the pit of your stomache, i feel it every morning when i wake up.
It's a brief feeling of how it felt to have that low deep depression, that weight that wouldn't let you eat or sleep, or think of anything else then just how screwed up your life is and how nobody understands or could understand because they aren't you, and they haven't felt this like you have, remembering how that night will be, how you will end your life, what you'll tell your friends, and so on.
The thing is there is no pill out there that will change this, they may help us in balancing things out, or even making us feel happy from time to time, but it won't change the way we think, and as corny as this sounds, only you can change what you think, it's just if you want it enough(do u have the strength, can you find something powerful enough to hang on to).
Situations in your life also effect the way you feel, when in accuatly they are mere distractions, distraction which are good in the sense that you have less time to think with yourself.
anyhow, i needed this to vent on what i was thinking about, thanx all.
|02 Jan 2005||but i have no name||To the guy called Alive Again,
you wrote about having a bad trip on mushroom and looking at yourself in the mirror... HOLY FUCK, you have no idea how much i can relate to that!!! the exact same thing happened to me awhile back... i was stoned and i stared in the mirror and i just contiued staring, i couldn't fucking stop and i could see who i really was. for the first time i could see things realisitically... to tell the truth i hate myself, i hated everythign i saw, but not in the way you ussaully do. i quite smoking pot, i started doing, got on meds for ADD, getting a drivers license, leaving home, doing everything... and i'm going to fuckign do it well to.
i dunno, dude, i was just totally blown away that someone had an experience so similar to mine...
all the psychological games you play in your mind, all the fakness and pretention was just gone. gone. and i could see what was real, i could see it staring back at me... now when i look back i just shake my head and think how stupid i was... how little i knew. you think that you are right but it's only somethign like an experience like that which lets you see the abject truth.
i dunno, it was fucking nuts, it freaked me out at the time, but i've never looked back since. and man, my life is totally different now.
|01 Jan 2005||jazmine||i used to be suicidal. but i am now not. because my friend mouchette helped me. she said become a porn star. she was right. the first time i got on camera was it. i didnt want to kill myself. if you wanna be in a porno with me please email me at XXshroom_queenXX@yahoo.com it dosent matter if your a boy or a girl. you just gotta be over 18. but if your under still write. we can do somrthing off camera or wait till you turn 18.|