|Reading these suicide pages you will find people seeking help and people offering their help. Some witness about suicide from real life experience, others who play along with me would pretend it's a children's game. Some make sick and cruel jokes about it, and angry people blame me for even mentioning the subject. You might also want to read my favourite answers. If you want your answer to be included here, fill in the form.|
What is the best way to kill yourself when you're under 13?
Quelle est la meilleure forme de suicide pour les moins de 13 ans?
|29 Nov 2004||Addie||i love this site i have done some of the things u have said at this moment in time i am bleeding thank god i will be so happy when i die|
|29 Nov 2004||Some one whos friends always fucking hate him||This sucks i though it would really help me commit suiside dam mother fuckers, cant i find a fucking site that will help me die in fucking peace?|
|29 Nov 2004||Will Snow||OH NO, not you again FLAMER!!! Why dont you get lost and play with yourself or summat. Perhaps you cant physically do it or dont know how.
I keep getting pestered by this oldish man. I may be gay but im not hard up!! Since he found out that im gay he has just constantly pestered me. He even came into my room at the hostel and put his hand on my knee. Then he put his arm around me and practically squashed me. Then he looked at me in the eyes, sorta "I fancy you" look. I started to get panicky and thought oh god.
People just think youre easy when they know youre gay.
|29 Nov 2004||Religious Maggie||Oh and everyone should remember this if they plan to kill themselves - suicide is a sin, and is desecrating Gods holy temple. You see, God will certainly cum again. First time since with the Virgin Mary and so he will be able to judge the good and bad people whether they are alive on earth or dead. If they are good people then they will be offered eternal life to play with their poosies. Those that are bad of course will have their poosies removed for eternal punishment and will be sent to hell.|
|29 Nov 2004||Religious Maggie||Oh Mouchette what happened to my last poos...my post?
Flamer darling, you just need to accept God into your life. Like I have accepted God into my poosy. You will feel so much better for it, plus if you are suicidal or unhappy you get the added bonus of believing in someone who doesnt exist and living your life around them. So you get to live and not kill yourself. Or better yet, you can live to experience God entering your poosy when you go to Heaven.
Wouldnt that be amazing now my darlings?
|29 Nov 2004||Mohinder||HaHa 'tis the season to be merry! There is no better time to decide the best way to kill yourself! Unfortunately there is no foolproof way to kill yourself! Something can always happen and because we are here we know it will. So, we've just got to pick the very best one. So many misconceptions! But hey, everybody's different. So, I'm going to attempt the everyman suicide method. I don't know about you, but I don't have a gun or the money to go buy one. Even if I did get a shotgun...the slightest twitch and YOU ARE FUCKED! Not foolproof! Now, how many people on this site have tried using drugs? slashing their wrists? Not foolproof! How about laying on the railroad tracks. It's not what you think. Even if the train doesn't stop (which contrary to popular belief it can) or you lay down at the last second, it's not like a guilotene! Physics people! There is a chance you can either "bounce off" or get "sucked up". Not foolproof! My personal favorite has always been jumping. Ah the glory of it all. But alas, it is not foolproof. First of all it's got to be twelve stories minimum! Hey, if you can get there to easily jump with no trees then I say do it! But just try getting there and believe me that's doing much better than most people. Try it! All the shit is locked up! Myself, I would want twenty stories anyway. Foolproof, IF you can get it. How about hanging? It's a classic! I don't know how people do it. Hey I can get myself to gag as good as the next person. But actually killing yourself on the first try? Not foolproof! Now, like I said. Nothing is foolproof! However, we have to kill ourselves! So, we've got to go for the all around best. Are you holding your breath? ...it's...!DROWNING! Believe it or not! Any swimming pool, pond, lake, river, or ocean will do the trick! Now this does require a few accessories but if you can't get HANDCUFFS and DUMB-BELLS then I know you can improvise. Why is this foolproof you may ask? All you have to do is stay down there! You are Guaranteed to die! Most importantly you must do it at night so no friendly neighbors will see you and come to the rescue! And unfortunately here's the trouble in paradise for our holiday season suicide. You can't do it if the waters cold! Well you can but it's not recommended. First of all cold water really sucks and warm does not. Most importantly though if the water is too cold, which it most likely is right now, you can be revived for up to an hour. Not good! Hey I didn't make the rules! Scope out those twenty story rooftops. See the city! Say your good-byes and make plans until the summer. Because you and I both know that time will never change the fact that suicide is the only logical answer.|
|29 Nov 2004||alex||just have a poisen thats much hahahah h a|
|29 Nov 2004||Michelle||So... I am not anywhere close to 13... I do remember it. I tried to kill myself many times from 10-21... I have been thinking about it a lot lately.... that is why I found this site. I recently moved to NYC my friends and family are 3,000 miles away and I am lonely, under employed, serious debt, nothing too horrible. Not really the things people kill themselves over. I have always wondered why I really haven't felt like living this life. I have alway imagined going out for lunch and being hit by a speeding car... falling off a ladder at work and breaking my neck... and every time I see a razor blade I want to slit my wrists... when I take my Zoloft at night I want to take the whole bottle... of course it probally won't kill me... I am not really looking for help though some time on the couch would probally benefit... I will look forward to new entries... I check it often.|
|29 Nov 2004||The blood of you are on societys hands||God grant me the serenity to stop worrying about things i cannot change, give me the courage to change the things that i can, and the wisdom to tell the difference.(Everyone is unique as an individual, we all play a part in our society even though it may be a small one, life doesnt pass you by if u dont let it)There is love out there for everyone if that is what one needs. There is an explaination for everything you just have to find it and be willing to find it. You may see your psychologists and take your medication but if u truly dont want to be helped deep inside than you are lost. There is god but there is no heaven nor hell death means the end of existence, it means blackness, nothing. All people are empathic but some more than others and for the people who have no answers to their depression you take on the worrys that are not your own. I know my words fall on deaf ears and blind eyes and i bid everyone fairwell, to each there own and if its death you seek than im sure will find it...|
|29 Nov 2004||Garry||I would like for all of you to do yourselves a favor, which requires you, on the 14th of December, 2004, (at the strike of 12AM) to walk over to the nearest unobstructed window (or go outdoors) and take a minute to stare up at the lonesome moon. This lonely, but defiant object in the far away skies symbolizes the masses, full of deep seeded wounds. Sometimes the clouds of the world block its illuminating reflection, hindering its progression into the next phase of righteous life. That moon, much like yourself, is resilient, in that, it arrives unwillingly at the darkest points of a day; but yet proudly coasts with the flow of its placement. This moon, bares resemblance, in that, it had not been asked by its predecessors to be a part of this unpredictable and demanding universe; but yet it works regardless of its personal conflicts to ensure the world knows its still alive. Sometimes a disturbing and pesturing cloud or two obstructs the desperation of the moon's arrival; but if you concentrate and glance past all the impeding superficial clouds of conflict, you may find a perspective of the moon that could, quite possibly, set your mind at bliss and widen the imagination of possibility. Look up at this resilient moon of yours and you may find a PEACE of yourself lying within the desperate, strong hearts of someone else. Whisper a breath of positive energy to a soul who may relate to your situation. Find hope within yourself and spread it to a deserving neighbor. Wake up and look out a different window.|
|29 Nov 2004||Peter Perez||Well, I really think I will do it. For sure, like a forum said, write that you left somewhere, and just do it. I tried three times killing myself, first was pills, woke up , second drowning in pool, they got me out, and third most devastating, went to a deserted forest, and my camcorder, i recorded 2 hours of me talking of why i have to leave, then i took one bullet and place it in the barrel, a gun my friend let me borrow, and blast it off three times in my head, then i pointed away to the sky, and the bullet came off, blasting off into the sky.|
|29 Nov 2004||seriously, would people quit going on about god!!! I mean, if he is real he is one cruel fucking cunt, I fucking hate him for what he's done!! According to religious people he had done and created and knows everything that has happened and that will happened. Then EVERYTHING that is going wrong here, every one of these people who lives is fucked, whose father abuses them, HE PLANNED!!!
He is a fucking cruel cunt! Man, why the fuck would anyone praise him? why would any one pray to him??? it's fucking nuts.
|29 Nov 2004||beep||to the girl who wrote about satan being worse than death.... you are fucking stupid. all religious people are fucking stupid. relgion is more fukcing retarded and escapist than suicide so really you are teh ones who are fucked.|
|29 Nov 2004||Ericka||I suppose something very simple and easy. Perhaps hanging ones self with a pre-made noose. Or just overdoseing.|
|29 Nov 2004||Jennie||Please don't do it. I was raped and abused between the ages of 7 and 10 and I wanteds to kill myself all through my youth until my late teens and even tried a couple of times. And I survived and my life now is better than I ever believed it could be then. You have so much to look forward to. I know it doesn't feel like that now and I know that suicide may seem like the easy way out but you will be cutting yourself off from so many opportunities and so much future. Talk to someone, get help, don't do it. Believe me you don't know whats round the corner.|
|29 Nov 2004||Annie||I have been real depressed lately, and mostly because I lost everything including my home in the flood, Sept. 17, 2004. I have a 18 year old son that I'm having a lot of problems with, a 26 year old that is in rehab for a heroin addiction, and I lost my relationship of 15 years because he said that he couldn't put up with my 18 year old son. So a lot has happened in a short period of time and it has really been hard. I was really feeling sorry for myself because I'm broke, payments due everywhere, no job (right now) and I miss the love of my life; however after reading some of the stories on this site, I really feel very badly for feeling like I could take my own life. GOD, I know that there are times when life can deal you some real crap, and for some mental illness is a real thing (that there is help for) I'm a Criminal Justice student, 46 years old and wish I knew what I wanted to do and I believe it will come, Tough Love is the hardest thing I really need to deal with because my son is very mentally abusive to me, but that's because he's depressed because he doesn't want to get off his ass and do anything, instead he wants me to do it all for him and him just take it in. He says he takes exasty (?) I don't know how to spell it, I know he smokes pot, and drinks and he drags me down, so low sometimes I get to feeling like there is no way out, because I do not have the guts to throw him out (well I do but he won't leave & he threatens me)I hate being alone and I had to make a choice between him and my guy. Well I chose my son and I knew either way I was going to suffer, if I stayed with him I would have felt bad about my son and now I'm paying the price for losing my guy of 15 years. Life is hard and there is no way around it but you know that just by reading some of these sad thoughts and stories you share breaks my heart! I wish I could put my arms around each and everyone of you and tell you that better days are coming. I especially feel so bad about the young lady who's parents have her in a storage room and have 3 other children that they praise and she's left out of it all, Shame on them for treating her that way! My advise to her is to go and start a life of her own, make your own happiness. I need like others to find the answers to my problems, and they are there, we are just not letting them in, here's something to do when you really feel like crap and you think to yourself Why should I continue on this path? First go out and help someone else to talk to, it makes you feel better, 2)Take a walk, breathe the fresh air, 3) go on a website like this one and read the sad stories and think, is my life really that bad? For some of you that are being abused, IT IS, GO GET HELP! Go tell someone, and get the heaven out of there are shelters. they are better than the place where you are being hurt and you know what, those people at shelters have a lot of connections, they do! They can help you. I'm in an abusive situation, I know what hell is too, but you know what, I'm worth it and I'm going to fight because I'm tired of being a victim! I've put up with a lot of shit and I've even screwed my own Mother over (money wise) trying to help my kids (And I'm paying for that guilt wise)BUT I AM DONE, TODAY! So for ALL of YOU who want to end YOUR life because you are tired of the shit, take a stand, take control, and change things in YOUR life! GOD IS REAL,pray for him to open doors for you, and he will but most of all when your really down, GET OUT AND TAKE A WALK!!! GOD BLESS YOU ALL, Keep Smiling PLEASE.|
|28 Nov 2004||I'llDieWithYou||ive tried too kill myself so many times butthe times that i was about to do it i relilzed that i could wait one more day... see none of my friends(or are they really my friends sometimes i wonder)non of my friends no this.... i dont talk to ppl about my problems it just makes them worst... see at school they found out i was suicidal and now ther e ganna like take e away or something so im thinking y not kill myself now? so i wont have too go on.... yesterday i was so stoned... and ive never beed that stoned and i was in the real world and then this whole other world and when i got home i tried to kill myself... but them i releized that my friend..*Dina* would kill herself and the*Mr.X* would kill himslef when she died...this isnt funny.. ppl die eveyday of suicde today i might that one...someone help me... i dont feel like living.. but the best way too kill ur self is cry.. take pills..drink alot of booze.. and hang yourself while listnign to music so wne ppl find you they will see that u were listnign to music...but still... i have a queation for eveyone would u leave a suicde note?|
|28 Nov 2004||bar@shka||All of you out there, I had a girl in my class who's life went really bad in her 12-15 years of age, she suffered so much, each break-time i saw her run to the bathoom where she would sit, cry, listen to her suicide songs and slit her wrists. She had depression for about 3 years..eventually she didnt pull through, she thought no-one loved her, got in trouble at school, parents didnt care, she thought of herself as a looser and a loner in school because everyone was better than her and she stood out (negatively) One night i called her because our science teacher told me to ask her about this project we had to do, i picked up the phone and dialed her number.. there was no answer but then she picked up, she was crying and suddenly i heard a gunshot, and then i asumed she killed herself, i shouted in the phone and she mumbled 'goodbye' and then it sounded like the she dropped the phone and it fell to the ground. There was nothing i can do, the next day the whole school was in shock, they cried for 3 months over her, it was so sad. The people from my class were telling me how they loved her and that they were just about to goto her and make friends, her mother said she had bad days and financial problems which was the reason why she was busy, not because she didn't love her, the trouble in school was just to help her with her study, they had to be a little rough to get it to her head that she needs to try hard to get to success. But unfortunatly it was too late, if only she talked to someone! As soon as she died everything went to good for her.. If only she waited for one more day before making the biggest mistake, maybe things would change. One more fucking day, if only she waited. Dont let that happen to you, you will regret it. Dont give up and kill yourself or else satan wins. Its better to be free in pain than be trapped in bondage of satan + in pain. But you cant do anything about that pain with satan, But you CAN do something about pain in life, everyone goes through it, just some people more than others, life will go better. Dont worry about it AND DONT KILL YOURSELF BECAUSE....you will regret it! life might be a bitch and might suck, but its better than hell. I can tell you that. Why the fuck do u wana kill urself, hell is a WORSE PLACE. If only The creatures in hell killed themselvs to get into life..Now if it were like that.. It would be acceptable.. But why go From Life to an ever worse place..? COS U THINK HELL IS LESS PAINFUL THAN LIFE? WTF.. IDIOT.. ITS NOT! U WILL SUFFER EVEN MORE! But listen to this, if u live your life and be strong, and don't try to kill itself.. u beat Satan. He wants as many people dead. Fight that moron. Damn him to hell, man.|
|28 Nov 2004||bar@shka||everything in my life seems to go wrong, im getting Fs on all of my exams, my mom recently found out that I smoke and got crazy, well damn that bitch to hell, I hate her! though deep inside I love her :( a week ago I dumped my boyfriend, he was flirting with my best friend when he was still with me, now I badly want him back, but I cant make him go out, to be out on the streets, to at least bump into him accidentally or something, I never had any 'real' friends, because I always betrayed their trust, I don't know why!! its like I cant control it! I cry all the time about my bf, I was so upset that I carved him name in my wrist, I hope it scars so he will be 'with me in my heart' forever, but that hurts real bad. I cant stop and think even for a second and wear a fake smile to at least please some people around me! but all I want to do is cry, I have a song which I play whenever im suicidal and depressed, it keeps me going and at the same time it makes me cry, I have to admit that sadness may feel good, its just something inside which doesn't have to hurt.. you get Goosebumps and tingles. I really want to die but im not strong enough to do it, because every time I think 'what will be tomorrow, if tomorrow gets better. and ill be missing out on so many things' and that keeps me living .....in pain , and I don't know what to do, I really am stuck between 2 worlds!|
|28 Nov 2004||exclusive||hey everyone....
i've written here before, but i won't put my name.
I don't know, i am so much different now than i was before. in some ways i am reasonably smart, but in other ways i am so fucking stupid it's not funny. so many things are my fault. i have fucked up, and i could have made a difference.
man, i look back at my life and i just shake my head at how fucking stupid i have been! i could have done shit so much fucking better! things could have been so different now... but it doesn't matter because i'm okay... i'm am, she's not. she's dead. and i could have made it better.
my advice is to everyone, find someone that you can trust. someone who will trust you back and build a shelter with them. it can make such a difference if you love someone.
but words are easier than reality. it's harder to change things for the better in real life than it is to tell someone to change. i know that. so does everyone here. but that doesn't mean it's impossible. get on prozac and start changing your life.
prozac and ritalin. that's my life. but it's such a fucking good life now, i can barely express how much shit has changed.
but yeah... i know that shit is bad for you. it's worse than just fucking bad, i honestly do know that. i wish i could help someone here but no one really wants to talk to anyone else. this sight is just something to do, some way to waste you time. or perhaps i am just anti-social. nah, fuck that, i'm not. i am realisitic.
i honestly am, i can see the world clearly, i know why people here are fucked up. do you know why? it's basic human nature. before we evolved speach we had to greedy creatures, we literally had to be to survive. we had to be calluse and cruel and think only of ourselves because everyone had to look after themselves. and that basic nature hasn't changed after we evolved speach and gunpowder and mobile phones or fucking whatever. but are basically a fucked species. the people who are here are the unlucky product of our basic nature. we are the scum.
but don't get me wrong, i'm not saying there's anything wrong with that. i think everyone is the scum to some extent. no one has a perfect life, and if they do it's only because they are so blind and stupid to realize that shit is fucked. i mean, the entire world is fucked. look at america. jezus, they are the most powerful nation in the world and yet their leader can barely pronounce his own name. that's reality. and it's not going to get any better.
but like i say, it doesn't matter. that is something that you have to realize. there's no point blaming yourself or dwellng on the little things, because when it come down to it we don't matter. each of us is going to do. mouchette is going to die eventually and this sight will disappear. presidents will change, shit will change all the time. who give a FUCK what the fuck you do or don't do??!! just do what you want, becuase at the end of the day it makes no difference. those of us who live or die or go on to become millionaires our lives will all end the same way. we all fucking die and NO ONE is going to remember us when we are gone. i mean can you remember your grandfather? do you know the details of his life? fuck no you don't. and even if you did, do you care? no. he is forgotten, just like the billions of other people who live and died in this world. so my point is, don't get hung up on little shit beucase that shit doesn't matter. it really doesn't.
anyway, that's enough from me.
sit down and think how you want your life to be and then get on prozac and ritalin and make it like that. it's so fucking easy.