|Reading these suicide pages you will find people seeking help and people offering their help. Some witness about suicide from real life experience, others who play along with me would pretend it's a children's game. Some make sick and cruel jokes about it, and angry people blame me for even mentioning the subject. You might also want to read my favourite answers. If you want your answer to be included here, fill in the form.|
What is the best way to kill yourself when you're under 13?
Quelle est la meilleure forme de suicide pour les moins de 13 ans?
|20 May 2005||kris||uhhhh well kris isnt my real name i am 13 and im a girl......i havent really ever tried to commit suicide but i have cut a few times but i barly bled uhh yes sometimes i feel like i would like to die and just be dead.. ha ha most people say im really pretty and they dont understand why i do the things i do i like to help ppl who want to die but i can't seem to help myself....i really think that no one should commit sucie but i guess it's the only solution when life sucks or run a way umm i have also almost taken an overdose on pills i had them in my hand and everything but i guess i just didn't theres this guy(yes your proabbaly thinking guy another heartbreaker, ut kenny's different)named kenny and i love him with all my heart and yes i would love to go out with him but im lucky to even be friends with him hes the one who made me stop cuz i love him so much i just can't do anything bad to myself cuz he told me to stop so i did i talk to kenny a lot and is ee him as much as possible which isnt a lot i try to make him as happy as possible i would do anything just to make kenny happy even if it means i have to be in hell but o well it's making his life better it's not like my lifes getting any better well im not really sure what else to say if you wanna talk to me my email is: firstname.lastname@example.org or IM me on StuffHappens182 toodles<3|
|19 May 2005||hardy||a) self imposed car crash, distract parent/ annoy / disrupt/ take control of wheel / await critical moment
b) medicine cabinet/ third time lucky
c) cuts/ sharp objects/ playful at first / seek blue sections/ veins
d) painfully/ seek trouble/ provoke
e) genocidal option/ fire/ whole family
|17 May 2005||'Scors-b'||"When things are bad, we take comfort in the thought that they could always be worse. And when they are, we find hope in the thought that things are so bad that they have to get better."
I think this has to be the most true thing I have ever read. Take another look. This pretty much sums up why I'm still alive, and maybe it also does for you. No matter how bad things are, there is always hope. Hope is the most important thing in the world. Without it we would all be doomed - hope is what makes you study at school, take a job interview, try out for a team. Hope can make you get up in the morning and I suppose it can also keep you living a life that you really wish you never had.
For me, it feels like just whenever I'm maybe about to find the one thing that would make it all worthwhile, it just fucks up. It fucks up so much that I wish i was more than dead... because right now i can't even explain the pain and frustration. It's maddening, like a beautiful summers day.. but then the thick black clouds come rushing in from all four corners of the sky and fill the chest with deadening pressure. Uncontrollable, like something eating away at you from the inside. I just don't fucking like it. Get it out, before it eats my soul.
I just wanna be me and feel like thats ok. I just wish I could get to know 'me' before I keep trying to get to know 'you'. I just wish god would stop fucking around and just let me out. I wanna be free. So stop the fear and the pain and unlock me so i can get out. Let me out, i wanna get out.
Maybe if there was one thing i have learnt, it is that you have to look after yourself. Because no-ones really there looking out for you.
"No-one except yourself that is,
No-one except you"
So be kind with yourself (but not unforgiving) and remember that there is always one thing that can keep you alive- hope. Pretty shit I guess but then if you can accept this and forget everything else that you are living for life should be a damn sight easier.
If you've read this far and can see any sense in this post, email me.
|17 May 2005||Jaqui (From UK)||First of all, I'm not using a real name, maybe under an alias, all i have to say will be easier. Maybe if i feel as though i am someone else, I will not feel the torment of being who i am.
I'm 20 years old and for around 14 years now wondered why people treat me different. First of all, I dont blame my parents. Maybe being an only child meant i didnt know the art of defence having not had the practice on siblings. So maybe I was an obvious target from day one. I found it near impossibly to make friends right up until the age of 15. I was alone until then. My first friends were so precious to me that i clung to them too tightly to the point of annoyance and they abandoned me. I've never learnt otherwise. My striving to embrace my own expressions and dress/act how i so choose often causes friction, and makes me feel more uncomfortable in my own skin. I accuse people close to me of betraying me, when all they are guilty of is caring. thus i drive them away. and they take with them stories of how bad a person i am, and how they are glad they left me behind.
I'm in a permanent state of paranoia. I wonder why people i acqauint with do not include me in gatherings. I wonder why lovers don't answer my calls, or cheat on me consistently. (it HAS happened..) It's a self torment, knowing that i need to change my attitude but i cant. help doesn't work. Everyone I try to turn to, who promises they are there for make it only on their terms... when they have time, or when they are not busy. I'm not selfish enough to believe that i come first in anyones book. But to be foremost in someones thoughts for even 5minutes... wow. that would be incredible. i love my parents. and i know deep down they love me. but they live in a world where communication with me is minimal. they keep their distance where possible thinking im an adult, i need the space. when i call out to them, i'm often tastefully rebuked, as though they cannot really be bothered with me. its always "in a minute" with everyone. and those minutes often turn into days, weeks and in many cases, months before anyone even bothers to say "how you doing?". even if its a "i want to die" i normally get a "ahh... shit happens you'll be ok.. anyway... me me me me me me... i have a headache BLAH BLAH".
So many times i've tried to counteract all this by adopting a positive mental attitude, trying to make new friends and seeking guidance help to see how i can better myself from the inside, because i know only if i conquer my inner demons will the visible ones dissipate.
But 14 years, and no visible conquest. i still drive people away, still, noone has time for me. is this the way i am destined to always be? if so, then my constant suicidal thoughts are likely to take on practical form.
maybe then, someone will realise that they can make time for me.
in answer to the question what is the best way to kill yourself when you're under 13? physically... i've no idea. but mentally... hate yourself.
its what i've always done and i've done it for so long there is no way out anymore.
|17 May 2005||InnocenceFaded||Eat all the Crayola crayons in the nice new big box your mommy gave you for Christmas.|
|17 May 2005||mau||i tried committing suicide when i was 13. i brought a knife, alcohol, cotton and towels to school. i hid it in a small bag of mine. i went to the girl's comfort room. i asked my fren to go with me to the toilet. when she found out that i had those stuff with me, she told me not to do it. but i really wanted to. but she didn't help me. in the end, i wasn't able to- duh! i'm still here. haha. anyways, i guess she's a true fren for telling me not to continue what i had planned. you might ask why? it's like this. a lot of things happenned to me. i experienced new things in my life. one reason was because of love. i was so heart-broken! this guy hurt me so much. he was my childhood sweetheart. ever since we were 10 years old! also this guy that became my boyfriend but eventually broke my heart. it really hurt me so i just wanted to end my life. another reason was because i kinda shattered my mom's heart because i wasn't able to pass this entrance exam to this exclusive school. it's a science high school so i really wanted to pass. but i did not. and it hurt me, likewise, my mom. sometimes, when i hurt my mom in such a way, i also get hurt and blame myself. that was one reason, too. and about my taekwondo career too. when that came into my mind, the more i thought i had a lot of reasons to end my life. i don't know! looking back it to it, it really makes me feel so goddamn stupid! damn, why'd i try to do it. i had some scars in my neck 'coz i tried slashing it. but then, it's done. i should really think. YOU should really think. your life is the most special masterpiece of God! you aint got any right takin' it away! got that?? this goes out to y'all tryin' to take away your own life. everythin' happens for a reason, ayt?! so, i guess this is it. y'all take care now! *peace*|
|17 May 2005||*eugena*||lmost die but i dont then ppl will no and i will gvet the attention but after that if the same bullshit keeps cumin up im jst gonna jump out of my room head first JUST JUMP FROM ON TOP OF A BUILDING most people r 2 scared or just cant do it but if u want 2 die peacfully and bueatifully without suffering just choke urself or overdose like 100 of them ull die instantly without pain i should try that BUT a bag over your head doesnt work!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!|
|17 May 2005||Andreya||I think the best way to kill yourself when your under 13 is to.....ummmmm... to get really hi and drunk this things are really is to find where I live and steal a car and crash it in to a really big tree.|
|17 May 2005||Jess M||Drink some bleach, and add something to it so it dont taste to bad going down. And take some stronge sleeping pills with it. Once u start to feel wozzy get a razor and just have at it at you're wrists. It's really easy.|
|17 May 2005||acapulco||cough syrup overdose|
|16 May 2005||Sarah||Why the fuk wud any1 wana kill themselves its so selfish i mean wat abou those who rly love u,u mite not respect n luv urself but whoeva u r there r always ppl who luv n care 4 u so jus fink b4 u kill urself n if u still decide that u wana die then i hope u burn in hell bitch!!!
|16 May 2005||macca||plrobilly the easyest way to kill ur self is to put some bleach in a drink and drink it|
|16 May 2005||emma||attention all 'suicidals', life goes on, the world keeps turning, shit happens so get the fuck over it! mouchette didn't ask for your life fucking stories so unless you want to answer her question stop fucking around with her time!!you know what's more sick than suicide??the attention seekers who try to label themselves as 'suicidal'. you people are a joke and i hope you all get hit by a bus. HEY!! there's an idea!!run infront of a bus and get your teeny tiny asses pancaked!!|
|16 May 2005||tommy le zouf||Sauter sous une voiture. Avantages: facile, accéssible. Inconvénients: paraplégie possible
sauter du balcon. Avtges/inconvs: idem.
|16 May 2005||nobody likes me||dont u fucking just hate everyone i have never tried sucide but im gonna tommarow i already planned it. nobody even treats me good, for fuck sakes my family calls me names and calls me mental, i always try preying to god that never really works either.... i am so depressed i have no freinds and i hope everybody in this world fucking burns. i dont understand why god doesnt even care i wish i had some freinds i cant handle this fucking crap anymore hopefully someday ill be in a better place plz somebody write a response to my note i need somebody who fucking cares|
|16 May 2005||a cynist||If your young, it is pretty much impossible to kill yourself, you can never work up the balls, except one way, you have to psych yourself out, hres how its done. Start smashing shit in your house, get your mom and dad up there and start swninging at them, throwing knives, get the scene so bad the have to choice but to call the cops, get a few knives ready, hidden throughout your house, when the cops come (most likely one squad car, 2 cops) wai ttill theyre in your house trying to restrain you, hit the first cop inthe kneck with a knife and in the same motion stick the blade in the other cops neck, once this is done your parents will back away in horror, now knowing your life is already over pick up the cops gun and blow your head apart (most cops carry 9mm, this will do the trick), this actualy is a well known way to kill yourself and its happened several times, and i would have to say it is by far the most succesful way to do it.|
|16 May 2005||becky||O.D on xtc|
|15 May 2005||Natasha||U wacko should be arrested 4 promoting suicide...ur the one who should kill urself bastard! adn shut down this site!! its madness|
|15 May 2005||Brandy||Mouchette ~ I was surprised to get an email from you. Maybe you send that one out to everyone who posts to your site, but even if that's the case, I wanted to answer your question. Did I think my message might encourage someone to commit suicide? No, of course not, that's the last thing I want for anyone, especially children. I have a brother who becomes severely depressed and suicidal time after time, and these are the same things I want him to know: that he is worthy of love and nurturing, that there IS joy to be found in this life, hopefully peace also. That he has no reason to believe he is a failure or that he has failed anyone else. That his life is important to ME, and all those who love him. That it hurts us to know that he hurts in a way that we don't be able to seem to always understand entirely or to be able to fix, no matter how badly we want to. That he is significant and important, and was put on this Earth for reasons, that his life and existence are MEANINGFUL. That I could never get over the heartache and pain of losing him. I wanted to express the feelings of someone who loves someone who is suicidal, so that maybe it would help someone to understand maybe in a way they hadn't considered, how those around them feel about them. I wanted to answer you, from the standpoint of a mother with a daughter your age, in sincere hopes of maybe just reaching one person and helping them to see things a tiny bit differently, for the sole purpose of helping someone to understand that they are important, and worthy of love, and significant in this life, if perhaps they were questioning those things. In regards to your other question, did I think that reading my message would distract anyone? I wasn't trying to distract anyone, that implies an attempt to fool someone. I have no desire to fool anyone, I just couldn't sit by after reading posts from children who are in so much pain, hurting enough to no longer want to live, without expressing love and validations for them. In addition, to all those adults whose posts I read, that actually ENCOURAGE these babies to harm themselves, go pick on somebody your own size. Find an adult or adult website to express yourselves. Your frame of mind is very different from the frames of mind of these children. You come at it from a whole different place, WHAT ARE YOU THINKING??? I hope that you all find reason and cause to embrace your life and make it your own in a way that leads you to happiness and peace, but you need to leave these babies alone, they are BABIES!! They've never even had a chance to be on their own and make their lives their own in a way that brings them joy and purpose. How can you for one second think that's it okay to help steal that away from them? It's NOT OKAY. Mouchette ~ I don't know why you appear to have thought about suicide to this degree, obviously I don't know you or much about you at all, save what I see on this site. But I can tell from this site that you are gifted, talented, beautiful, and intelligent. Anyone could see that. You have so much time ahead of you to make your life whatever you wish it could be. If you don't like what it is now, you'll be in control of it yourself before long, and you can make it whatever you want it to be. Teenage years are hard for everyone, but I know it's more difficult for some than others, I was myself one of the ones it was very difficult for. But things really do start to change as you get a little older, maybe not all at once, but they do change. You begin to feel a little more emotionally balanced, your moods aren't constantly up and down. You get older and can do things like get a job, a car, your own place to live. You can control your life and make it whatever you want to be. In the meantime, if you are in a bad situation at home, like some of the other people who posted to your site, that is the cause for most or all of your pain, can you think of any way to get help for yourself to get out of that situation? I don't know where you live, are there children's services organizations where you are? If you don't know, you can tell me what city you're in and I will do all I can to find out for you, and will post the information here for you to find.|
|15 May 2005||john doe||I wont encourage or discourage any of you-since only you know your lives best. In my life I know I'd leave a very big hole-many people (family/friends) count on me. The trouble is, I have found very little happiness (and a lot of suffering), though I've tried. I wont take up too much space here, but I will say for those who are serious about suicide, research and find a fail-safe method, what you guys described sounds very dangerous. You dont want to end up paralysed or disfigured by trying something that doesnt work. Till you find something that works, love yourself and your body-there's no need to live in agony, while you're looking for a way to die. One method is to breathe compressed helium gas for 5 minutes (read up on it). Its painless and displaces oxygen, so you dont panic when you die. There are drugs that you can overdose on, but I dont know which would be most effective yet. Its not wrong to want to die at any age, but be certain that its a wise decision for you then follow through (or else you'll continue to suffer in misery). I know for instance that I can make the world better, even in a small way, so it would be a loss to humanity to lose good people like me-so its one of the reasons I wont kill myself yet. I plan to try to make changes while I'm around (when I'm in a position to). Otherwise I feel some of my best years have been wasted already (I'm in my 30s now). I've thought about suicide almost every day since I first realized my life really sucks (guess around 12 or so), the misery got 10x worse through university because I took a very difficult program (got pushed into it by my dad-yes I really hate both my parents with a passion). There are suicide clinics in europe and euthanasia groups with smart people on the net. So lots of info out there-check it out. Anyways, hope you all are able to find your peace, in whatever way you choose to find it.|