|Reading these suicide pages you will find people seeking help and people offering their help. Some witness about suicide from real life experience, others who play along with me would pretend it's a children's game. Some make sick and cruel jokes about it, and angry people blame me for even mentioning the subject. You might also want to read my favourite answers. If you want your answer to be included here, fill in the form.|
What is the best way to kill yourself when you're under 13?
Quelle est la meilleure forme de suicide pour les moins de 13 ans?
|29 Jun 2005||CJ||Yesterday I felt self-loathing.. and it was because I can't change what I did. I was right that what's done is done and what's said is said.. because of my attitude for quite some time, I've lost all my friends.. and the worst part is they all think I'm not sorry. None of them call or e-mail me any more, and I haven't seen them in months. They think every time I say sorry that I don't mean it.. because I always fucked up. They got sick of my aggression, impatience, over criticism, over demanding, paranoia and that I never seemed to take their advice or help, even though I ALWAYS appreciated it.. but maybe it was usually due to my fault. I wanted CONTROL out of fear of failure.. I was afraid that being too passive was being in denial that something wasn't wrong. I would be impulsive or not resist speaking my mind (even though I knew it could cause trouble) and say things I regret or wish I didn't tell. No one's perfect and we all have regrets, but we're still responsible for ourselves. I knew what's for my own good but sometimes I was just stubborn.. but unfortunately, my intuition which (rarely, if EVER fails) would sometimes tell me what I didn't want to believe. It lead to confusion and all logic would not have made a difference.. something is either true or not. Worse, I could say it wouldn't matter any more once it's over, but it never is until you learn from it, otherwise you'll just repeat it in the future.
I didn't mean to take anyone granted.. HONEST TO GOD TRUTH.. that's one thing I knew I should NEVER do.. because of all things you attain, people are probably the hardest to hold on to. Even if they don't want to speak to me again, I just wish they would all know how sorry I am.. I hate living in a guilt and shame.
The only way to get over it is to CHANGE.. to be more calm, passive, patient, trusting and forgiving and NOT EXPECT so much of others and out of life.. just relax.. keep things casual, cool, compassionate and simple.. go with the flow and everything comes out better naturally in its own good time. If you really want something, be confident, pursue it and do what you need to do it.. but YOU CAN ONLY DO SO MUCH.. so wait and let the rest fall into place. If you fail, learn from your mistakes and TRY AGAIN.. patience, perseverance, and persistence is THE KEY
|29 Jun 2005||Anthony||I have beeen depressed for a bout seven years now and have had many thoughts about suicide.
i am seeking good psycological help and if anyone would be kind enough to email me and let me know where some can be found i would travel even to another continent to seek the help.
|29 Jun 2005||me||i did a fundraiser for people.
i shaved down the middle of the head for cancer and i got bullied for it can you believe it...God i hate people sometimes so be glad you are not me in a fundraiser.
|29 Jun 2005||CJ||I dont know why i posted this on this site cuz i am not tring to get attention or sympathy I am just telling it like it is. nothing else can be done or said about this. i guess i am just looking for closure because i know of not one single soul who has ever been sympathetic twards me even in the least bit on the least topic of my anguish. so fuck every one for being "themselves"
i agree with that mate.
i know what it is like to be picked on bullied and never forget it,
my bullying experences have fucked me up i am B.D.D when you think your the uglyist alive when your not.
Some thing i will always battle with man.
im 23 year old female who thinks i'm ugly all the time i can;t see my self for who i really am anymore.
Nobody cares that the real life man
all people are are them selfs and it fucking sucks.
So yeah fuck everyone for being them selfs.
|29 Jun 2005||CJ||Also you think you have it hard.
i did a fund rasier and got laughed at for it really bad.
plus i am really ugly you should be grateful your not me.
i am soooooo ugly.
|29 Jun 2005||CJ||LOOK'S DO MATTER,
i am soo ugly all the time, that's what people tell me.
Nobody want's to know me.
I feel so alone like no body loves me or care's about me or likes' me.
I don't know what to do.
I feel like a ugly freak where i live.
When i was grwoing up i was really ugly i got bullied for it.
i remember having friends who was not friends. People would pick fight's with.they would win,
I had my face bleed becasue of fight's.
i cut my arms and legs too,
The girl's would kick me give me look's be a bitch towards me.
The boy's wwould push me about laugh about laugh at me. be a bastard towards me.
Call me shitty names like that ugly girl; with thick black hair stuff like that.
The teacher's did not care. they laughed at me.
I got bullied by,
peers, family, neighbour's and the fucking rest.
i am now aloner with no friends.
when i was at school people would tell me Nobody want's to be your friend no body will date you your an ugly fucking freak.(minger)
When a teacher got social services on my family.
my brother said your not going to tell them i had a go at you are you.
People were blaming me for that.
So was the teacher.
he said i don't beileve anything you say anymore.( even though it was his fault)
I Hate my sle fnow,
becasue what really made me worse growing up.
when i used to go shopping people would laugh at me in the shops, And say things like i never going to employ her becasue she is ugly.
( who want's someone like that working here) - i have lost people in my family to being a social phobia freak.
Plus people used to say that i had a nice time in my life. which was not true.
ALSO today after haveing everyone blame my for the spocial services thing that is my fault.Also people have never liked me. No one like my family becasue it's like my fault i am born,
i had some say to me like do you like her. plus she told a little boy don't go near her.
People used to run away from me at school.
i cry all the time now.
I hate that crew i grew up with now.
the social services was not my fault a teacher kept asking my question's .
you don't look happy do you want to talk to someone,
So how the fuck can that be my fault.
Also when i went visting people in my family ago.I got dorty looks and they said do you have any other friends to go an be with( these are the ones that call me a liar )
I hate some people in my family.
WHAT i said earlier.
i hate the teacher crew from that school now.
No friends and aloner because of being ugly.
sorry to go on and on,
|29 Jun 2005||jimmy||use stolen needles from the docters ofice fill them with ever clear it will be peaceful and death will only take 5 min this is how i will kill my self next friday after work good luck!
see you in hell bye.
|29 Jun 2005||andrea||okay i know i already wrote but i i do not want any one to kill themswelves on my watch. I promote the use of cutting. I know it may sound sick but having a sharp razor helps me. You do not need to press hard. It depends, use something dull if you like the pain but if like me, i like cutting and seeing the blood slowly seep through. I push a sharp razor gently enough to cut and leave a scare(brings me comfort) but not deep enough to where ill have to get attention. It should be for you not any one else. I want people who relate to e-mail me.|
|29 Jun 2005||Andrea||Wow! what to say. Im pretty drunk right now now but when im drunk i feel my most free- real self. I did not feel suiocidal untill i think 15 or 16. i justy turned 22 and i get relief from cutting myself with razors. i just bought new ones and tonight. it is not the pain or anything because it does not really hurt, it is watching the blood slowly seep through. i would love to be able to pass notes with someone who knows they are depressed, but knows they could not commit suicide because of that annoying feeling for everyone else over their own. Seriously e-mail me email@example.com.|
|29 Jun 2005||THIS PISSES ME OFF||Mouchette, why the fuck aren't any of my answers in your favourites section???!! I have worked so damn hard on those posts and I have done everything I could possibly do to contribute to this fucking sick and perverted site. If I ever see you, I will flatten you like a waffle with my fly squatter you dirty freak!|
|29 Jun 2005||One-Eyed Munkee||Walk into a bank with a toy gun and act like you are robbing the place. If the cops don't shoot ya, at least you get to walk away with some cash. Maybe then you could pay someone to kill you...it'll save you so much trouble.|
|29 Jun 2005||Ryan||That was rude of you IMPOSTER to use my email without asking. I do agree with what you said in your post but I am still mad at you for trying to be like me. And since you did that, I will go jump off a bridge because all my friends are doing it and I don't want to be left out. GOODBYE CRUEL WORLD!!!|
|29 Jun 2005||dissipation||dont bother worrying about life...no one survives it anyways....|
|28 Jun 2005||Meaghan||Okay... I'm going to say OD'ing. Thats what I would do, what I try to do. Its kind of the chicken shit way of killing yourself I have to admitt. The way I look at it, if you slice your wrists, you have to keep slicing, ow thats a lot of pain. Hanging is really hard to do, plus you'll probably end up falling on your ass, or dying from lack of oxygen which takes a while. Shooting yourself takes a lot of guts, pulling that trigger would be scary as hell, same with jumping off something. Those would be easy tho... So this is the part where I tell you not to kill yourself. Don't kill yourself. Blah blah blah its not worth it, people love you... Bullshit right. Thats what I think when I read this crap. Most of us don't have people that give a damn. Do you think it really makes a difference to me if you go and off yourself? Not really. Sure your family and friends will be sad for a bit, but they'll get over it. The way I look at it, they still won't suffer as much as I would if I stayed alive. It doesn't matter how much they cry because I'm dead, they still wouldn't know half the feelings that I felt even in an hour of my shitty life. I read some eentry thing here... About how her mother was the only one who really loved her. I have to say, must be nice. My mothers the one who does this to me. Have any of you ever had somebody that just made you feel like shit jsut because they looked at you? Who brought you up just to bring you down?? Well I have her, thats my wonderful mother. Sure she makes me smile, but I'd give that up just so she wouldn't tell me that I'm a piece of shit. That no one likes me, no wonder I have no friends. That I just sit around and feel sorry for myself and whine. That I'm irresponsible. Okay, I get it, I'll never be good enough. What I don't get is how that is? I get hig 80's in every subject in school, I don't come home after school because I do so much extra curricular stuff. I got first place in the school oritory(speech writing contest), I was student directer for my schools drama club. So why do I believe her when she tells me that? Its not even so much that she doesn't see it that bothers me, its that when she does this, I dont' see it. She just makes me want to die so I dont' have to feel like I want to all the time... So let me introduce myself, I'm Meaghan, I'm 16 going on 17. I havn't technically "tried" to kill myself, but I sit there with my razors and pills about one a week. I've done it so many time I've stoped writing letters because evetually they'll find one of the old ones. And if I do write one, its not sugar coated shit about how its not their fault. It is their fault, its my moms fault and when I finally do it, I hope she finds this. But I'm hoping that I'll grow out of this, that this really is just a teenager thing. That I'll stop hurting myself, I already have enough fucking ugly scars. I'll have to make that point now, if your going to cut, do it on your legs or somewhere that won't be seen often, scars are really ugly. So I don't know if people reply on this thing, but if you do, please tell me if I should be on anti-depressents?? Does it really make things better? Because that would be great.|
|28 Jun 2005||LIFE IS SO FUCKED UP||Your life sounds identical to mine too i have had bullying for ages i mean ages, i will not let people put me down for my lack of friends, and ugly ways.
I HATE PEOPLE i have my reasons,
i will tell you why,
i have had problems with people for years, i has affected me but,
i was werid looking for a couple of years ( maybe 3 years max) anyway in that time i was really really hated becasue i was different, i hate my self now what a pain huh?
you dont want to know me when i was 13 years old.
Nobody ever stood up for me i have no friends becasue of my ugly teenage ways i hate it when people know ya past i hate the way people gossip behind my back i hate them they dont know me why are they doing it, they dont know me.
anyway thats all for now.............
|28 Jun 2005||LIFE IS SO FUCKED UP||I am sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo ugly man.I wish i was dead.
My past is ugly my future is ugly.
Why am i underdeveloped.
why don't i have any friends man.
i am so ugly.
I keep pills awake.
I wish i was dead some one shoot me please.
god people won't leave anyone alone.
your not the only one man. i'm 23 and i you have no idea how horrible my life is. i also used to be picked on a lot when i was 11- today in high school. i've had horrible anxieties since i was a freshman in h.s., and i still have it 8 years later. as a result of this i've not only hurt my life but i've destroyed other ppl's lives as well. i really really wish i could shoot myself, but i don't because of religious reasons. i can't get a job because of unbearable panic when talking to employers. i'm afraid of going out in public because i've earned a horrible reputation about myself as a result of s.a. most people consider me a loser in this world.
GOOOOOO OO OOOOOODDDD DDDD DDDDDDDD DDDDD!!!!!
I'm just happy i can take it out on this forum. why does life have to be so fu**ed up for?
|28 Jun 2005||another good way to kill your self||the other good way to kill your self is to STRESS your self out.
then you will die becasue of stress.
stress kill's people.
|28 Jun 2005||joeri jos verheyden||go bungeejumping with some friends and cut the rope right after you have jumped
of go skydiving anc chen the parachute is open, take it off
|28 Jun 2005||madz||hey everyone...things just got worse again...my dad took me to my guitar lesson tonite n we were at the traffic lights n he put his hand on my knee...I WANTED TO HIT HIM...TO KILL HIM...i just moved ova...HE HAS NO RIGHT TO TOUCH ME...i have made my decision on how to handle it...next time he touchs me im goin to kill him...then b4 i get caught..im goin 2 kill myself...n i do this by hangin myself...seems like tha best way to do it coz i know where to find a rope...
but i dont want anyone to ever concider doin this...
word of warning...when u slit ur wrists..it takes up 2 4 hours be4 u die...so plz dont leave like that...its not worth tha pain
|28 Jun 2005||look's do matter||i hate my life i'm 23 and i don't think it will get any better!!!!!!!!!
Please shoot me.