|Reading these suicide pages you will find people seeking help and people offering their help. Some witness about suicide from real life experience, others who play along with me would pretend it's a children's game. Some make sick and cruel jokes about it, and angry people blame me for even mentioning the subject. You might also want to read my favourite answers. If you want your answer to be included here, fill in the form.|
What is the best way to kill yourself when you're under 13?
Quelle est la meilleure forme de suicide pour les moins de 13 ans?
|17 Jul 2005||NOT A B.D.D PERSON||I think it is not helpful telling people they may have BDD. I considered that myself but it isn't BDD if you really are ugly. BDD label is often given to good looking or average people who are obsessed with the way they look and are ogften attention seekers. You are either ugly or you are not. For those of you who are not ugly and who say 'just get on with it, beauty is skin deep, people shouldn't judge you by your appearances etc..' then I say see how it would be to spend a day being someone like me.
I am an intelligent 23 year old and I know what I see in the mirror. I have known I was ugly since I was a teenager. I have also suffered from depression on and off since then as well. Being ugly can have a huge impact on your life and can casue the most severe depression. I'm not saying my depression is caused by it, more that the way I feel about myself is made worse by the depression. My doc/counsellor says that people have negative thoguhts caused my distorted thinking. Much the same way an anorexic looks in the mirror and sees someone fat, I think that is crap. I look in the mirror and i can see what i can see. I am well educated and have a good brain, and I know reality when I see it. The fact is I am ugly - not attention seeking like some of the more egotistical of you on here ("I'm pretty so why do people call me ugly?" Get over yourselves and you'd realise that if you had a life to focus on you wouldnt be so self centred and ever thought people might just be seeing your arrogance and ugly personlity - if you're walking round all day thinking how gorgeous you are people will dislike you. It isn't jealousy - it is becasue you are probably not a nice person.)
Most of you on here moan about having a big nose, or being hairy or focus on one or two things. Well think yourself lucky you're not ugly all over. I hate my face and i hate my body - it is revolting and even makes me feel sick. I'm not going to list all that is wrong with me. I dont need to because they just are. I cant find clothes cos i need something that covers me (and no this isn't a weight issue before anyone says that). I need all my skin covered - have you any idea how depressing it is to have to cover yourself up totally or not be able to tgo out of the house? Especially in the summer when you cant take your clothes off and the shops are full of clothes that don't cover you?
When you are ugly all over and need to try and hide it so people arent repulsed it takes over EVERYTHING. I can't live a normal life or do noraml thigns that everyine else can. I miss out on a lot and i wantt o keep away from other people. Yet I am so unhappy and lonely. I have never found the key to acceptign how ugly I am, and how to accept the fact that I wil never find someone to love me totally and who wants to be with me 100%. It just isn't going to happen. I work so hard on my good qualities - I am a good mother, a loyal friend, I have a very good education I worked hard for, and I have a great sense of humour and often an endearing personlity. But it doesn't matter. Truth is we all judge people on first appearances whether consciously not. Who cares if I have the qualities listed above - no one is going to find out. And before anyone says if they cant see past that they're not worth it... please don't bother. I want to know how I accept my ugliness and knowing I will be alone forever?? That's my problem, not BDD. I am only obsessed because i am so repulsive and it's taking over my life and my thoughts. I do not have self esteem issues or else why woud I see my good points?? It's because I am genuinely ugly - I have never seen anyone more ugly than me. There just ins't anyone.
|17 Jul 2005||"Why did i have to be so different to everyone else when i was growing up"
i am going to die soon in the future right now my life is going down the drain. people where i live tell lies about me.
|17 Jul 2005||mimi||i am 14 going on 15 and have tried to kil myself only once. i know that people will say that the younger generation don't understand what it is like to feel depressed. but i was depressed from when i was nine. that is the age i found out my dad had died and had not just left me. it hit me extremly bad and made me perciebe my mother in a completly different way. it hurt that my mum could lie to me so easily. i was deprerssed and at the age of 12 i od'd on paracetamol plus. my mum found me before it took affect so i had to go 2 hospital and had my stomach pumped. it's the worst experience i have had. after i had tried to commit suicide my mother then told me more about my father. she had told me he had died of cancer before, but she revealed he DID have cancer, but commited suicide before he died of cancer. he had hung himself. i was devastated that yet again my mum had kept this from me.
Let me tell you, if you feel like you want 2 die and life isn't worth living, then you are already dead. you are nothing. you don't need a "painless" way to die. you are already in so much pain it won't matter whether you hurt just that little bit more before you are rid of it all forever....
|17 Jul 2005||Balkar||I'm only 13 now, and I've tried 5 times to kill myself.. I have the scars on my arm to show it.. but I never cut myself bad enough to do any lasting damage.. Or have the effect I desired at the time of cutting... Which now I find a good thing, because I met a guy.. I'm now going out with him, and have been for 2 months 19 days.. While going out with him for the first month or so I still used to cut.. but then he found out.. and believe me, he wasnt too happy... He made me promise to stop so I havent cut since then, though sometimes life gets so bad I want to.. But I guess in the end suicide isnt really the answer.. It doesnt solve your problems, it just makes them go away for you, but makes a bigger problem on everyone who loves you.. So committing suicide aint your best choice.. I know it feels like it would work, and for the suicidal person it probly will.. But just think of all the people your gonna hurt and leave behind and think again next time you wanna try to end your life.. Life is a very fragile thing.. You gotta be careful...|
|17 Jul 2005||Randy Matsumoto||jump off an overpass on the highway in rush hour traffic. a highschooler did that in my town bout five yrs ago. got hit twice not counting landing, no just twice he was hit by semi on way down then run over.|
|17 Jul 2005||Chaotyx||The world is truly cruel, i wish i could end my life, but i have people who love me. Those People are becoming detached from my life as i am forced to go through my life knowing the one who takes care of me does not believe i should exist. I have Threatened and attempted to kill myself only to no avail. ive never really had friends. i literally had 3 real friends and just about all of them have shown their true selves and im just there to be used. They consider me inferior and mock at every chance. i can't leave my father because i cannot support myself and this leave me in an abusive relationship with my father. He used to [hysically threaten me, now that i could defend myself, he threatens to strip me of everything i have in my life. My mother, who is just about the only person who i still truly care and love is in such a financial situation that she might soon starve, while everday my father tries to turn me against her. i have emotionally tortured all my life and every day i wish to end it. I still only Bear such pain because i still have a chance at a future where i can support and help my mother and get her out of this endless pit she is in. All of you out there who want to kill your selves before even your first attempt you can turn your life around strive for some goal and years later your pain may pass, but to kill yourself now is for those who cant bear it any longer. If you hold on you can make somthing of your life. it's the only thing that has kept me alive. For those who have made several attempts on your life, i will not lie to you, you have probably messed your life up too much to salvage it and if you wish to proceed with finishing the job go ahead. Those who havent tried it, stop and set a goal cause things may get better later in life, it may not but look at my case, i have no other option than to suffer for the only person left i love. I might grow to enjoy my life, i might go back and kill myself only time will tell. Look for an opportunity in life and take it. A little strength and bearing your suffering might fix your life, i think it's worth at least 5-10 years, if things don't improve do what you will, But i think it is worth it to try to improve you life. Why end this one to start another one when there is still a possibility to make this one liveable with at least some happiness.|
|17 Jul 2005||Heather||I thought life sucked when I was 13, but its only gotten worse. I don't care what anyone says, right now I would be better off dead - aka moving to the other side. I would be much happier there. How do I know this? I've been studying the afterlife for a VERY long time and I am 99% sure of what I know of it.
My journey to this hell we call earth started out rather nicely and was all down hill from there. I'm poor, hungry, very intelligent but no money for college, my mother was murdered two years ago, my recent boyfriend dissapeared off the face of the earth, my family consists mainly of meth-heads and born again christians, I'm beautiful but have chronic depression in which I have to maintain zoloft each day w/out having an 'episode', I ran out of health insurance so I can't afford zoloft.
And, I want to join the military, but they won't accept me because of my depression.
As far as the choices of suicide, I'd rather it look like an accident.
1. Cutting/stabbing/shooting - no, too messy and obvious.
2. drugs - bad reputation for suicide attempts
3. getting hit by a vehicle - too messy, dumb way to die
4. jumping off - too messy
5. Electrocution - Seems to be the most effective method. I might just happen to be listening to my fav cd when the stereo falls in the tub.
|17 Jul 2005||Woe is me.||Oh God, how did I let myself get this way? I looked in the mirror today and noticed all these shiny, pink stretch marks on my belly. No wonder no one likes me. It must be so fucking obvious to them. I just wish I had noticed when they did. Maybe I could have prevented this from happening. Oh God, I actually didn't think I was that bad looking...LMAO. I always wonder why the boys never go after me like they do my friends. It took these disgusting little pink scars to finally wake up to myself. I am fat and ugly. The only people that check me out are my family. It's fucking sick. I wonder if he knew I wasn't really sleeping... Oh God, I wish he wouldn't grab my ass in front of her. Why the fuck doesn't she DO something?? I think it runs in his family. Three fucking generations have fucked me up. Vile. I wish I could bring him back from the dead just so I could kill him myself. Sorry, I complain too much. You would too if you were as ugly as I.|
|17 Jul 2005||megan||im 13. i started having suicidal thoughts about a year ago when my sis was diagnosed with a brain tumor. i thought i couldnt handle it if she died. i thought i should just kill my self now and spare the pain. i could never figure out how to do it tho. but about a couple months ago my sister died. i prayed to god to just kill me over night. somedays it gets better somedays it gets worse.|
|16 Jul 2005||Girl||Hi people, well im 15 and id just like to say that suicide is not the way to go, i no i may not be going through wat u are but i am sure there are gonna people who will turn up at your funeral and that is enough to live. before you die you need to live your life and have fun man, go skinny dipping etc. anyways, if anyone wants to talk or ANYTHING, please add me on msn or email cos i cnt just watch you all suffer in silence.
|16 Jul 2005||Rachael||a drog overdose, just take a few sleeping pills and vicodin, and youll be gone, my sister did that and now she's gone, so i no from experience!!!|
|16 Jul 2005||claire||I have always wanted 2 die and b able 2 b by myself away from every1! i took an overdose on paracetomal, it didnt work i waz just sent to hospital over nite tols it culd hurt my liver and had a row 4 being so selfish and dull wen i got home!( i wuldnt even waste ur time on paracetomal) I will find a way to kill mself so i no longer ave to put up with the feeling of lonliness and the feeling of not being wanted by ur own parents! so if any1 culd help plz emali me|
|16 Jul 2005||N/A||I've read some of these posts and I can't believe what Im saying, kids at the age of 12 trying to commit suicide..
The thought alone makes me sick inside my stomach, I know life isnt easy, I probally haven't experienced what you guys have but believe me suicide isnt the way, somethimes it is and you might think so but life can indeed get better..
I dont know what else to say but if you need someone to talk to, just an ordinary person.. Im 19 years old and still a teenager, I thaught of commiting suicide but I never did.
Im no helper or work for some kind of suicide helpline..
Im a good listener and might even help you out.
You can email me at firstname.lastname@example.org.
Try to live life to its fullest, please.
|16 Jul 2005||in total darkness six feet under||OK, im only 15, and yet iv tried to kill myself too many times to count, and with no availl. im tired of this world treating me the way it does, i was beaten and abused for 7 years by my own schoolmates, it got so bad that i changed schools and moved, ive also had serous depression since ii was about 8 years old. sometimes i cut myself to see just how much it bleeds, that pain helps to make me forget all my other problems. im tired of living, its really over rated, people only focus on the good things, and not on the bad thhings, which usually greatly outweigh the good. no one really relizes what true pain really is till they loose all that makes them happy, so that all they have to focus on is the bad. try never having anything good to block out the bad. the only thing that ever made me happe was my girlfriend, but we broke up. and now theres nothing, nothing to keep me sane. people dont ever really relize how they affect you with there hate, not till ur gone, and they have to think back on what they did to you, and how they affecte you, and visa-versa. ive become acostome to keeping my emotions all bottled up inside, and never letting them out till i finally just snap, which has happend on occasion. no one ever really takes me serously, or understands my problems, not till they get slapped in the face by the real truth. the truth is never pretty, but in any case people deserve to know.|
|16 Jul 2005||Tia||do so much cocaine at one time that you die.|
|16 Jul 2005||Cody||stick tweezers in an outlet and look at the pretty colors
|15 Jul 2005||Sonita||i dont know why.. i feel as though god is calling me early, ive tried many times, but i just fail. my BEST friend told me how to kill myself, i dnt want to tell anyone else, because im selfish, and i dnt want anyone else to try what i am trying. I HATE EVERYTHING in EXISTENCE, somebody? slap me!|
|15 Jul 2005||DAZ||TELL A TEACHER THERE GAY AND HAVE NO FRIENDS!|
|15 Jul 2005||Lucy Cortina||Chorus:
I'be got brains in my boobies
I've got brains in my boobies
I've got brains in my boobies
Mouchette put them there
He now controls my boobs,
after a little operation.
The can float, they can inflate;
they're the world heavyweights.
Everyone is jealous,
cos Mouchette's inside my boobs.
He now gets all his pleasure
living inside my boobs
*repeat chorus x 2*
The world cries "where is Mouchette?!" "where is Mouchette?!"
Nobody knows, nobody cares,
for his brains are in my boobies, my boobies boobies bobies.
Mouchette is here, there's nothing to fear,
for his brains are in my boobies;
and my boobs will go on..and on.....
*chorus x 2*
My boobs want to explode,
when Mouchette is having sex.
No one knows how he does it,
he has a lovely pair of brains!
They could destroy the world,
so must must stay inside my boobies
Mouchette's brains are too big
so they must stay inside my boobies
*chorus x 2*
His brains must stay incide my boobies.
|15 Jul 2005||Its just me||The best way to kill yourself if you are under 13..is by living...its kills you internally..i know...i am being eaten away at this very moment...i feel so empty and alone..and the horrid thing is that i cant and wont do a damn thing to help myself..ive decided that..i dunno i have to live this life out and understand what shit is instore for me...i already know im destined to have horrid mates, no life, a shit family, dumb ass grades, no love life and even the places such as childline tell me to go away and to stop wasting their time with stupid calls...yes..they did say that...And the reason i cant do anything about it is because even though i know they dont like me..the people i used to call my friends are on bloody suicide watch and i bet the only reason they are doing this is because they want to see me suffer and have my heart ripped out everytime a bad piece of news comes my way...they "sympathise" with me....but i know they are laughing really...i know the slag me off and call em names..i heard them...and it hurts me..i try and push it all into a big ball and shove it into the back of my mind....but sometimes bits pop out and im left again crying my heart out to the only person who will listen...me...my family dont care though...i reckon i was their little mistake as i have been called so many times before by them themselves...so now ill wait this one out..not doing anything..sat crying to myself watching this life get more shit by the minute...i have had councilling..didnt help..they all patronised me saying.."And how does that make you feel?"...i just sit there with a bemused look on my face and say..."erm depressed...isnt that usually the answer"...i didnt even want to go a teacher sent me because i was 'full of doom and gloom..' in other words "get outta here you depressed fool"....Im 15 now..and its been like this for..oh i dunno...4-5 years...it isnt a good feeling..in fact its shite...but this is the best way i can think of, of killing yourself on the inside..and isnt that what we want to go away...no feelings..just...peace?|