|Reading these suicide pages you will find people seeking help and people offering their help. Some witness about suicide from real life experience, others who play along with me would pretend it's a children's game. Some make sick and cruel jokes about it, and angry people blame me for even mentioning the subject. You might also want to read my favourite answers. If you want your answer to be included here, fill in the form.|
What is the best way to kill yourself when you're under 13?
Quelle est la meilleure forme de suicide pour les moins de 13 ans?
|30 Sep 2005||anon||the way i'm going to go... covered in petrol and with a flick of a lighter this coming Saturday at 11.00pm|
|29 Sep 2005||razorbladelover4everalways||hey ive been suicidle since i was 7. and i was just wonderin how many sleeping pills id have to take to kill my self. i have about may 8 or 10 or something. is that even enoughi?? itd be nice to know soon....i really need to die now. so thanks. just email me kk|
|29 Sep 2005||Tom||im 17, lately ive been suicidal. my life sux. i dont get to go out cause of my parents. all the ppl i know go out to parties, have fun, enjoy life as teenagers. i dont. i hate the way i look. im not attractive. never had a girlfriend. never will have one. i was thinkin of commiting suicide.. i probably will since nothing ever comes out the way i want it to. i love metal. death,black,thrash,heavy, power. any fucken metal.. i tried practicing guitar and its never gonna work out for me. i dont get better like most would. i hate my genetics from my fucken dad. they suck. i hate my fucken puffy hair although im white. iwould love to have long, smooth hair.. fucken sucks. i think the best way to commit suicide is by injecting urself with a big dose of heroine.|
|29 Sep 2005||Nikki||i am 13 and i was thinkin about commitin sucicide! my mum has started being horrible 2 me lately a real bitch if you like, but then i read your storys about how your lifes are mch worse than mine and you have got through it, so i thought i could 2!!|
|28 Sep 2005||Dave||Geezes fucking christ, sorry G0d, i never thought there was so much pain out there. I was just surfing the web, sad from being alone ( not dating anyone ) and I run into this. Man i have had some sad days, and they get worse many times, and many times i though about ways to kill myself to just end it and get it ovver with, but shit balls, that one single day, that one day when we run into someone that is attracted to us, the one women who really likes being around you, or for you ladies that one guy who really likes being aorund you, changes your life forever and everything we feel. I dreamt of ways to die, ended up in the hosptial on 3 occasiaons, and never wanteed anything else until i met a women that like me for me. Totally changed me, made me feel wanted, all that crap. Ya it took along time, i am happy i didnt die at the bad times now. trust me, i felt evetyhing ll of you feel. fight it. fight the pain, get away from the bad, there are better people out htere.|
|28 Sep 2005||somebody with an S.||rester devant la télévision tous les jours et regarder par la fenêtre durant les commerciaux. Par la fenêtre, tu pourra voir le soleil qui ruisselle sur les fleurs. Les autres joué, marcher, parler, rire, pleuré, et toi tu sera la, enfermé dans la pièce, et alors tu mourreras peut-être de solitude, de tristesse ou d'ennuis.|
|28 Sep 2005||Girl In Trouble||Hi, Um.. I have tried to committ suicide many times before. I need people to talk to.. So plz.. if any of u people can help me.. email me or add me at firstname.lastname@example.org
peace out and thank u all
|28 Sep 2005||Nursey||I sit here now - i have cut my wrists and there is blood pouring from them - unfortunately i have not successfully cut the main arteries (being a nurse i can see this).
I am so depressed i do not see the point in continuing life.
I have ruined everything that was ever good in my life.
Unfortunately i have failed in yet another attempt to destroy the beating in my heart.
Who knows maybe i only meant to harm myself as oppose to kill myself?
Sarah my darling sister i hope to be with you again soon.
|28 Sep 2005||unknown||well im not 13 im 16 and i just want to die cause i get made fun of and other stuff at school.|
|28 Sep 2005||I'm SICK and fucking tired ...||MY LIFE..
i will make you lot feel better,
i am ugly and i have never had a boyfriend.
I am not deformed JUST UGLY..
i have not had a real friend since i was 11.
who has been disconnected from the world pretty much since the age of 11.
have no friends
I have no relationship
I have job BUT IT SUCKS.( Not much income)
my life is mostly online.
I don't drink alcohol, don't take drugs, don't drink any caffeine containing drinks, don't smoke..
I have no friends online.
most people think i am joke becasue i am not good looking enough to work for them..
but i have a job but it is not much.
I hate society. I hate most things, yet I need to be part of it...I can't even escape and live in nature or anything.
If wild animals were similiar to us and were in their same situation, imagine how they would feel. I love animals, but not humans. :sigh:
I don't know what is wrong with me anymore or if I'm ok and everyone else is wrong. I know that humans aren't balanced, so I guess it is both.
I just can't see any positive things really. It's all negative..
Humans are social beings and need some kind of human contact..
well what is wrong with me then.
I lost my ability to communicate during my early/mid/late teens..
I hate this biased world, why do they hate/kill what they can't understand.
The hate probably boils down to jealousy I suppose..
You must be integrated into society or you're outcasted..
I don't like people and I don't hate them. If this was a religious topic you could consider me agnostic in this way.
The way society runs doesn't appeal to me. I'm not saying it's wrong, I am saying that it isn't something I will get all happy about being part of. I have some goals and I have another goal that can be reached by existing in the social world. My final goal can be fulfilled without intergrating myself fully into society.
anyway thank you for your time..
Just needed to get something of my chest.
i will post some more another time...
|28 Sep 2005||i have been where you have.....||Five reasons not to kill yourself.
1) What will it do to your family and friends?
Every person's death affects many people. Those most affected are those closest to them - friends and family. A suicide is even worse. Your family will feel terrible guilt that it was their fault, as well as normal sadness. Many families never recover from the effect of someone's suicide. If you destroy yourself, you may destroy your family too.
2) Remember the past
When you are depressed, it is hard to remember the past, and how things were better. But think - there was a time when you were happier, when life was better, when life seemed worth living. Such a time can happen to you again.
3) What is on the other side of death?
Every religion believes that there is still an existence after dying. Many people who have no religion also believe this is so. And almost everyone knows that there are bad things that may happen to us after dying, as well as the possibility of good things. This is a dangerous journey to take. How do you know what will happen to you after you die. If you are not sure, do not make the journey!
4) You have a purpose
All of us are placed on this earth for a purpose. To walk out of that is a terrible waste.
5) The most important reason of all
God made you. He loves you. He understands how you feel. When no one else understands how you feel, He does. He sent Jesus to die for you. He created you for a purpose. He can bring you through depression, or any other problem you may have. You do not need to be alone. He can help you in your loneliness.
Who else can help me?
If you are considering killing yourself, get help quick, TODAY. You MUST talk to someone. Please make a contract with us - will you promise that you agree to do NOTHING to harm yourself or others, until you have talked with someone - face to face, by phone, or email?
* A friend.
* A nurse, doctor or health worker - perhaps at your place of work or study.
* A counsellor or advisor - your place of work may have such a person.
* A religious advisor.
* Telephone BEFRIENDERS for help.
* Email SAMARITANS.
In many countries of the world, there are organizations called BEFRIENDERS. This movement started in Britain, under the name SAMARITANS, and now almost all countries have similar groups. They have telephone help-lines. You can phone them for help and support on any problem.
They are completely confidential - they will never tell anyone else what you have shared with them.
Not only that, if you still choose to commit suicide, they will respect your wish to do that. They will not trace the phone-call, or call emergency services, unless you ask them to. BEFRIENDERS helpers are trained to help you. They do not belong to any religion. Go to the BEFRIENDERS web-page to find details of the phone numbers for your country. They start half-way down their long page.
They say, "Whatever you are going through, we will go through it with you."
The SAMARITANS are the BEFRIENDER group in Britain. They will give email help and support to anywhere in the world. They promise to email a reply back to you the same day. They will respect your wishes, and will never, ever, tell anyone else what you have told them. Their help will be non-religious. You can email them at:
If you cannot send email while using your browser on-line, or are not sure if you can (with some network systems it is not possible), write the Samaritans email address
down, and email them later. (If you have not set up your browser to send emails, or you are on a network, you may think that you are "sending emails" via the browser 'mailto' function, but they will not be sent.)
In UK and Northern Ireland, Samaritans national phone help line is 08457 90 90 90 available 24 hours a day at local rate. Note, you cannot dial this number from outside UK.
In Republic of Ireland, the national number is 1850 60 90 90.
In USA, Samaritans have offices in over 300 cities. Some of these addresses and phone numbers are given on the BEFRIENDERS web site. To find the US office and phone number nearest you look in the phone book.
|28 Sep 2005||Ira||I see that most of you feel that the best way to kill yourself is to stay alive! But that's so untrue.
There are ways to get out of your misery. The reason why you want to commit a suicide is because you are in deep depression. You need to:
1. remove the reason for depression;
2. to cure the depression.
Depression is successfully cured by taking medications regularly. They make you feel good so you won't need drugs or alcohol. All you have to do is visit a therapist. They WILL NOT ask you to tell them how your father beat you or made you please him orally or any other terrible story you don't feel like sharing. All you have to do is say: "I don't feel like sharing my life story with anyone at this point so please don't ask me any questions. I am in deep depression and have suicidal thoughts and fantasies regularly. I want to fight my depression and not take drugs or drink. Please help me. I would like to try some anti-depressants and perhaps some kind of therapy (later)."
Please remember that the shrinks are not cops and they will not interrogate you, judge you or blame you for anything. They deal with cases like yours every single day. They chose to help people like you, because they care, not because they judge them.
Medications raise your mood and help you feel okay. If you're not content with your medications, ask for another brand. Not every medication helps everyone. Sometimes it takes time to find the right one so make sure you cooperate with your therapist and listen to his or her instructions. There is nothing to be ashamed of. And don't start any therapy at your own responsibility - there are people who are paid to take care of you. Now doesn't that sound good? :)
The other thing you need to think about is what caused your depression. In most cases it's abusive parents. You need to remove yourself from any abusive situations. Go to school, do your homework, find a job, make friends online, engage in some activity that makes you feel good and that will drag you away from the abusers. Don't do anything aggressive, it will make your life even more miserable. You need to understand that not all people are evil and not everybody's life sucks. If your parents are sexually or physically abusive, you need to talk to the social worker that is in charge for your area. They will not put you to a foster home if you show that you're responsible and reliable. They will help you cope with the situation and make the abuse stop. If you've been sexually abused, tell your mother or social worker about it. If you're put in a foster home and the foster parent abuses you, report them! You need to fight for your destiny, not let other people destroy you as they please.
I was sexually abused by the step-father and I wanted to kill myself. I've been having a drinking problem for many years. I married the wrong guy and he left me with two little babies. While I was married I tried to kill myself twice. I just wanted to attract my mom's and ex-husband's attention, but I could've ended up in comma and/or mentally destroyed for the rest of my life. Michael Douglas' brother tried to kill himself with pills, fell in comma, and is now mentally and physically ill.
There IS help to reach out there, you just need to look for it. I've been happy my whole teenage life and I didn't look for help. I should have. I blamed myself for what happened to me and I wasn't even aware what was going on in my life and why. I thought I deserved the misery. But I didn't.
My misery stopped when I left home (the step-monster). That was when I got married. My ex-husband told my mother that he had molested me and she divorced him right away. Since then I became much happier - the reason for my misery was removed for good. Then I got divorced and I realized that another reason for unhappiness (my ex and his daughter) was removed too. Then I wanted to find true love, I put my profile on a dating site, and found a nice boyfriend. We broke up 8 months later, but he brought my self-confidence and self-esteem back, appreciated my personality very much, and I felt loved again. He still loves me very much.
Another reason for unhappiness is my mother who is emotionally abusive (I still live with her). She calls me and my kids names, tells me I am worth nothing, yells at us (we yell back at her, of course), tells us that nobody will ever love us or put up with our shit, that I am a bad mother and don't care about my children (so untrue!), and many other painful things.
But I am beyond her influence now. I am too strong to be affected by her crappy statements. She feels guilty for what she let be done to me, she feels bad for her own miserable life, bad health, etc. I love her very much, but I decided to not mix love with hate. Just because I love her doesn't mean I will believe her words and think she is good. She is not good. She is what she is and I am what I am. I know I am good. I know I am worth loving and living with. I just don't care what she says. I will re-marry soon and leave her forever. I will NEVER again let anyone ruin my life. I will be in charge of it. And I will never do to my children what she did/is doing to me.
I am now 30 years old, have two beautiful 7-year old sons, met the love of my life a year ago, and will soon re-marry and move to another country. My new BF is wonderful. I pray to God (or whatever power is above us) to give my children and the people I love good health, and I will take care of the rest. Nothing will stop me from being happy this time!!!
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|28 Sep 2005||no one||Why put a gun to your head... if your already dead|
|28 Sep 2005||Sick Bastard||This is the ultimate way of killing yourself. You need:
*A tall building
Now, go to the roof of the tall building. Attach the benjirope properly to your feet and tie it to a pole or something similar. Then tie the piano wire around your neck, and around the same pole as the benjirope.
Then put glue on both of your hands and smack them on the both sides of the head. Jump.
The result; your head will deattach itself from your neck, but will be stuck in your hands. The people down the street see you doing a benji jump while holding your own head, spilling blood all over the place. Very cool!
|28 Sep 2005||5th Earth||Sit where no one can observe you until you cease to exist.|
|27 Sep 2005||alyssa||i have some really tough problems in my life that i'am dealing with.Just this past month i od like 3 and it didn't work.Until now im still dealling with my fucked up life.I guess the best way to commit suicide is just to deal with your fucken life.Im only 13 yrs old and i have had thoughts about death and the fact that i'am willing to take my own life just because i cant deal with them.People say that life is precious, that you should always take care 0f them because you only have one chance to live them and atleast live it happy.Well if life was so damn precious tham why the fuck are people trying to take their own life?!i guess life isn't as precious as people thought it was....|
|27 Sep 2005||The Nameless||Aright, I stumbled across this site nearly a year ago. I was in the middle of class, oblivious to everything around me. I was 16 and I wanted out. Now, I'm 17.
I'm not here to talk anyone out of suicide, or anyone into it. As much as I hate to tell things about myself, I'm going to tell you all a little... maybe a lot. I know there's a lot of people that have been here and completely agree, and completely disagree about the whole thing. Well, here's a little view on the neutral, uncaring, people hating, life hating side.
It never really hit me before, in the past 4 years of my sinking depression, that I could remember having the very same thoughts 10 years ago. I always wondered "what would happen if I just grabbed the knife and stabbed myself?" Everytime when I was little and I walked past those knives, that's what I thought. My parents were, and pretty much still are alcoholics. The only thing that stopped me then, was a child's fear of pain. At 11 I was sexually abused by some kid I met. At 14, after being arrested, I reached a breaking point and from then on I have slit my wrists multiple times. I've wanted to end it multiple times. I've had 3 hospital visits under those circumstances, and under malpractice. I've been allergic, immune, and have had the opposite effects from multiple anti-depressants. The therapists here are horrible. They only want money and don't give a shit about you, or understand you. I couldn't eat or drink anything while on cymbalta but the psychiatrist wanted me to keep taking it, and they can't keep a schedule.. EVER. That's just the physical problems with my depression.
I never feel worth the time. I can't see myself with a future. I don't have the motivation to get a job, or do anything. Everyone thinks I'm such a great artist... I don't. I look at everyone else's art and I can't understand why mine's so great. Everyone thinks I'm so pretty. I don't really think so. I don't feel worthy of my friends, and I don't feel worthy of my boyfriend, whose forgiven me, and cared for me and would give up the world for me. I've screwed up and hurt so many people. Nearly everyone I trust stabs me in the back. I don't like people at all, but for some reason, many of them love me. The people that hate me is a different story. These people, I didn't do anything to... I've been framed, betrayed, and rumors have run wild because someone, wanted attention and couldn't deal with their own shit. I became a person to blame everything on. I didn't do a damn thing and this person wants me dead. My current best friend, used to be her best friend and originally started talking to me because she told him to kill me... It may seem twisted to you that my best friend originally wanted to kill me (not because he personally wanted to, but because he was doing what he thought would help a friend) but I wouldn't choose anyone else for a friend. I wouldn't be here now if it wasn't for him. And likewise, he wouldn't be here if it wasn't for me... That and no matter how many times he's tried, and numerous dangerous ways, it just has never worked.
I'm glad that he and my boyfriend are around, because I don't know what I'd do without them, especially at home. My mom at least understands... most of the time. But when she's pissed, you just don't want to be near her because she can say some nasty things sometimes. My dad, however, things I'm a worthless piece of shit. I guess I might as well be. As for school, it's a prison, and the people in it, are for the most part, horrible little sluts, bitches, assholes, and bullies. Of course... it doesn't exactly help when you're bi I guess either. Most of the girls don't care because they know I'm not going to do anything... but the guys are always out to get you into bed with them and their girlfriends. Sure, I'll kiss a girl in public. I think it's so stupid that there are (mainly) girls out there that find it gross. Boys and girls have the same damn skin on their lips and if you think that's gross then you might as well tear your own lips off too.
Now, I know there are probably people out there that are saying "you just want sympathy from everyone." If you're one of those people... Fuck You. Don't judge me. I know someone who really does do it all for attention. She shows her wrists off and complains about them at school. She always has crazy stories about the shit that goes on at home and there's no proof. But of course, she always says mommy and daddy had a fight, mommy walked in while I tried to down my pills.. while I was bleeding... blah blah blah. She says she's been to Juvie, Boot Camp, smoking, doing drugs, has a custom guitar and drum set and her own band, dirtbikes, surfboard, skateboard etc, when she was 8... But she can't do any of them now and there is no proof either. If you want to say that I'm that histrionic, sympathy sucking, know-it-all, show-everyone-up bitch that I know from personal years of a bullshit friendship... then you are sadly mistaken. This is the kind of shit that makes me say life sucks and how anyone that's gone through worse can pull through, I don't know. I don't know that my life will get worse, or better. But it hasn't been great, I can tell you that. I still have my really bad days... when I want to say hello to my jagged little knife again. I've put him away for the last 9 months... the longest time ever. I try not to think about it. But, myself liking pain... it's hard to resist sometimes.
So far all of you contemplating life or death, I'd say go ahead and e-mail me, but you're life is not my business. You have to make your own choice and whether or not someone's there to say 'dont do it' or 'I understand' can be a small or big factor. Fact is... if you're really set on doing it, you wouldn't be able to be talked out of it. But second guessing yourself is a chance you can always take if you're not really sure. One day you'll know what you really have to do. I still don't know.
Now, pertaining to the question... just to stay on task. Maybe this won't work for someone under 13, but I know there's a lot of young people that know people WAY older than them. Anyways, either have someone 18 get you a couple of boxes of triple c, or steal a couple boxes. Find your parents bottle of vodka, or have someone buy you one... Now... put them together like this:
Down the boxes of Corricidin C+C, (not all the pills at once... if you don't weigh much, you might need just 1 box) Then, drink shot after shot till you're feeling pretty drunk. (or just chug the bottle. Might want a chaser though) Grab yourself a razor. By the way you should be feeling, your judgement will be pretty off and you'll probably get yourself a good deep cut or two.. or three... if you have a nice razor, knife, whatever. It'll probably work really well if you use a serated one. After that, either keep drinking until you pass out... or just sit there and wait to. Don't know how well this'll do the trick for those of you that have made up your mind, but this was pretty much my plan not too long ago. You probably wont feel too bad, unless of course you have a bad reaction to the CCC. Then you'll end up with a seizure and possible seeing your body underneath you (meaning you're either dead or hallucinating a LOT) Hopefully, this way you can go out having a little fun before you pass out and die in your sleep. (That's if you dont have the seizure... and chances of that are low unless you've been chronically using Triple C as of lately)
I don't know how long this is, but hopefully something I said, got inside someones head, whoever it was meant for. I don't play sides, so hopefully there was a little bit of something for everyone.
|27 Sep 2005||Candace||grab a gun to the head no one can save u then|
|27 Sep 2005||Candace||i have always been abandoned by my mother she never has truely cared for me my father lives miles away and cant do anything about how i feel and he has never known my deep secret until about a month ago i told him about my cutting but never thoughts of suicide this subject is to hard for him to handle but anyways with all the stuff that has happened in my life i kept it all inside and then when i met a bot who i thought cared for me and all he broke my heart 3 times and i was through i wanted to die i didnt think anyone cared for me until a girl from school invited me to her church and i felt wanted and loved now i go to church every sunday morn and night and every wed night i go to a therapist who is the most awesome person in the world if it wasnt for her and my youth pastor i would be dead today. i would like to be a phsycologist when i get out of school and i cant help people if i die so i guess i will stick around even though i still feel like i dont belong God has a purpose for me and i will obey, i have many friends that come to me for everything because of my past i do not judge people i think that is one of the worst things some one can do to another so i love hearing stories of survivors and love talking to them so bring on the real world because well all of life is real|