|Reading these suicide pages you will find people seeking help and people offering their help. Some witness about suicide from real life experience, others who play along with me would pretend it's a children's game. Some make sick and cruel jokes about it, and angry people blame me for even mentioning the subject. You might also want to read my favourite answers. If you want your answer to be included here, fill in the form.|
What is the best way to kill yourself when you're under 13?
Quelle est la meilleure forme de suicide pour les moins de 13 ans?
|13 Dec 2005||speedy||Hi I am 21 years old and I feel like there is nothing left to give. I am in college but not doint to well since this is my 4th year and I still have 2 semesters left but they are progressivly getting worse. My grades are slowly going down hill and life if really starting to crap on me. I broke up with my girlfriend for another girl who I love very much but I still think about my ex. I feel bad because this summer I got an apartment with her even after we broke up. This was a pretty big mistake. Things didnt work out we she hated me to no end because the girl that I fell in love with was one of her friends. The other day I had to ask my ex for a CD that I needed to fix one of my computers and I had felt bad talking to her because I know that she hates me for everything that I have done to her. Her mother was diagnosed with breast cancer this summer and she needed a friend to talk to and she doesnt really open up to many people and the only people that were there to talk to that she ever did talk to were me and the girl I am seeing and her best friend. I felt bad talking to my ex because during the summer she needed some one to talk to because she was far from home and her mother might have died and still might. So I began to talk to my ex feeling so horrible because I was not a friend when she needed one. So I wanted to appologze to her for everything I had done. I had all the thoughts in my head of what I wanted to say to my ex but when it came time to tell her I couldnt tell her. I called her and all I got out was I am sorry but there was so much that I wanted to say. I tried to write it down and I still could not get what I wanted out on paper on in an email. I had an email started that I left open at my present girl friedns house that saw my letter to my ex telling her that I was sorry for what I had done to her and that I miss her as a friend because we use to talk about everything. I have/had friends as school but now I dont because they were her friends too so we grew apart through the summer so when things get hard I dont have anyone to talk to becuase if I am having problem with my current girlfrind I have no to talk to ask seek advise from. I sometimes talk to my brother but he lives in boston and I live in buffalo. my mom lives in TX and I dont really talk to her like that. I have never had a real good relationship with my father just because i think its becuase of a father son thing you know. So right now my current girl friend is mad at me for writing to my ex because I thin that she thinks that I want her back but I realy dont I jsut wanted to tell her that I was sorry for everything that happened. school is not goign well either because I had to find a new place to stay in the middle of the semester and I had to miss a number of classes in order to meet with people and find a place because we were all moving out of my old house and everyone left as soon as we talked about it. so I was left in my old house for almost a month looking for a place to stay. so i knew I had to be out of my house before the end of the month other wise I would have to pay 600@ in rent plus all the bills witch I ould not afford thats why there was 3 of us living at that house so we could all afford it but I Was left there till I found a new place. I told a ew of my profesors that I was looking for a new place so I would have to miss a few classes and they siad ok but then a bout 2 weeks ago one of my professors walked up to me and said that I am going to ail class because I have to many absecnes. now that I have failed that class I will lose my financial aid and I do not know how I am going to finish shcool wiht out any finacila aid. my bills are starting to pile up and its going to get worse becuase I dotn ahve a job anymore because I was working a work study job during the semster and I dont have it again this comming semster. finding a job is going to be hard because my car is starting to die and I live in a large city and the mas transportation system is fairly unrealiable. so find a job just to pay rent and bills is going to be hard if my car dies on me. and second trying to find a job now its almost christmas who is hiringi permanent jobs in buffalo right now. so right now all I think about is dieing because the pain is so great this is how i foudn this site because I was serching for was to kill myself im thinking of either driving my car as fsat as it can go into something since its wants to die itself or just cuttign my wrists and watching the blood run out I just cut the side o my wrist to see if it woud her it burns a little but not to much I don tthink I really want to die i just really need some help this is why I am writing I will admit it I dont want to die I love my girlfriend to much but she just seems to hate me so much I am going to visit my mom on the 19th till the 29th and it will be the irst hristmas i have spent with her in over 10 years since my parent have been divorce. I feel like when I go see my mom it will be lik esaying goodbye because I really don think I can take all this pressure any more I feel so alone because I am basically I have no one to talk to and no one to hang out with I have myself I have sat in my house for the last to day because this is finals week and I dotn even go to school I had one final yesterday and i have one today at 540 which I think that I will fail any way so I dont see a point in going. I just want some help is all I am askign for I want to know that this pain will stop and that the girl who has my heart will lvoe me again as much as I love her because with out her I feel like I really have nothing left no job no real friends here any way i have one realy good frind but he goes to another school. is there antoher way????|
|13 Dec 2005||Samuel||la noyade|
|13 Dec 2005||patricia||l'eau chaude...|
|13 Dec 2005||Error!||First off, anyone who thinks the world sucks or anyone in it....it dosent, some ppl just werent ment to handle it. but if u really want the best way to kill urself, go downtown and leap off a towering building. if u at all hesitate, u really dont want to do it so just back out then, but if ur sure about it, let ur mind go of everything and leap off head first, instant death, and ull have the greatest rush b4 u die an instant death. OD'ing on booze or pills, or hanging ur self is just stupid and painful.|
|13 Dec 2005||will||yeah im not 13 but my real mom left me for crack and my step mom who supposedly said she loved me moved to flordia and my dad treats my sister with the best of manners and kindness but he tells me when i dont want to talk to him because he woulndnt unstand me because i have tried to talk to him countless times and he says hes tired of being my parent i get caught smoking grass and i get punched in the face my sister gets brought home from the POLICE and gets a hug! WTF but yesterday i pressured into doing one line of coke. MY first time and my sister just freaked when i thought she would understand me and try to help me.I was very wrong she just said i was a fucking retard and she smoked my weed with me than later that night she and her freinds said they didnt want me to hit there weed when i let them hit mine. she keeps on trying to black mail me .so im pretty sure i want to drop the hammer and tell my dad befor she does but i would rather just end myself insted of having to keep on keeping on because i feel im underwater and no one wants to save me they all just keep staring at me wacthing me die seeing me gasp for air i cant get there something pulling me down i fell like just giving up and letting my whole body submegre underwater till i cant breath till i cant see till i cant speak.|
|12 Dec 2005||no-expression||it hurts. like its actually a physical pain. ive never understood how something that has no scar can hurt. but it does. so much. plus there's this constant throbbing. i cant make i stop, its always there. i cant figure that out either. there's also the vaccuum. im standing in a crowd but im he only one there. like theres a shield. or a wall, only a clear one. because i can see through it. i can see everyone else. i call them, wait, no, i scream their names. they should hear me right? i mean, they really should. or wait. maybe im not shouting loud enough? ok i shout louder, but still. nothing. and the weight. that i carry around. this unseen burden that seems to grow with every breath i take. sometimes i try not to breathe. maybe if i dont breathe, then it wont get any heavier than it is now. but i cant stop breathing. my body is my enemy in this game. i say stop breaathing, but it continues. and now i dont know. i want to have it ripped out, please, even if it hurts, i want it to be done. then the sun will shine, right? and the birds will sing for me. because right now they are only singing for everyone else but me.|
|12 Dec 2005||victoria just call me vicc<333||hi, my name is victoria, just call me vicc. i live in essex canada. and i am suicidal. not because i have a bad life. actually i have a good life. my problem is i hayte niggers. i know this is wrong but i cant stand them. and it drives me nuts. i pretend to like them. but inside i hate them. i cant take it anymore. january 23th i am going to kill myself. you can email me at firstname.lastname@example.org
or at email@example.com
|12 Dec 2005||spazzy||Slit your throat! you may need a little help with this but make sure to lean your head back so the wind pipe is most vulnerable, if this fails just jump off a cliff.|
|12 Dec 2005||SpookyPenguin||Meriella, Hello there. yOU KNOWS
i once tryed to hang myself, many times,
I took many belts and pput them in a chain tyed the last one stood on a red box and put my head in and kicked the box away...
I have alot trouble kicking the boxes. hehe....
If your from scotland you can propoble gets drugs and beer fast, you silly rabit! :)
|12 Dec 2005||lonely||overdose, die die die die die die die die die die|
|12 Dec 2005||Niki||Still I dont know which way is the best one to finish my life. I may have an incurable disease. I am afraid of death but I may have no way except suicide.|
|12 Dec 2005||Mil||When I was 12 years old I tried all kinds of pills from my mother's medicine cabinet. Later, when I was older, I tried gas from the stove in the kitchen. I remember sitting by the oven inhaling the gas for a while but my boyfriend came home early and stopped me from finishing the deed. Today, I still think about killing myself. Everyday. The worst is when you have to put up a "face" for everyone. No one understand the pain and the agony in your heart. Everyday is the same. How stupid are they? Can't they look into my eyes and see the sadness in my heart? It is so ironic that people want to stop you from killing yourself but in reality the truth is that nobody gives a damn. Family or friends, they don't have time to spend with you, to give you a hug, or to tell you that they love you, but most important, to listen to you. Really listen. Then after you are dead they have the guts to say that they miss you. What a joke!|
|12 Dec 2005||kristal||ok u emailed me, sheeesh i really dont wanna commit suicide and by reading these and including mine everyone thinks this is some kinda game ok.....honestly if someoen wanted to commit suicide id help them and if they wanted to id say just go sleep with ur best friends bf/gf.....or better yet hit ur mom in front of ur dad......or u kno wut instead of doing all these lame ass answers why dont u just like shoot urself....no gone then go to friggin kitchen and take out a knife....there is no house that doesn't have a knife in their kitchen otherwise u gotta be vegan or somethin IN THAT CASE JUST USE SCISSORS OK OR TWEEZERS OR UR RAZOR BLADE ok just trying to help u cuz u wanna kno|
|12 Dec 2005||Kiki||This is not a joke, suicide is real. No one should ever make um lame ass jokes. Many people I knoe cut and may die soon. You people who think suicide is a joke, ask the people who did commit it. YOU CAN'T! Because they're dead! The eaisest way is to either starve, cut, drown, or be murdered by someone. Watch what happens when you OD and no one knows where to find you...|
|12 Dec 2005||Jordan||ok this is it, life has no point...i dont believe in God cuz everything about him sounds so friken corny...im ugly (pig nose) and have bad habits. Where does it stop? itdoesnt theres no tap to let my pain out! i need to tell sumone but noone will listen...im a smart kid but i cant figure a way outta this and to tell u the truth im scared. I have tons of freinds and im popular at school( im 13 ) but i dont have anything valuable...ive never had a girlfreind or anyone to care about...my parents are fags who dont care about me and all they do is compare me to my straight A perfect sister. IM SICK OF IT!! whys it always me whos shoved under while people laugh at me as i lay dying?|
|12 Dec 2005||mariella - 13/f/scotland||# <3 # i am suicidal and i either wanna die by hanging my self in the girls bathroom in my school or by slitting my wrist and watching the blood slowly drip,out either way its gonna happen on january 15th firstname.lastname@example.org|
|12 Dec 2005||Scor-b||Firstly I would like to say that the post I made yesturday was my only post to incorporate fiction*. All my other posts have been based on stuff that I actually experienced. *This will be obvious to you if you read the post.
I would also like to thank all the people who have e-mailed me over the past months in response to posts that I have made. One of the best things about posting here has been the responses from people who really understand your situation. You should try it. Oh, and for all those of you who have posted without an e-mail, because you will get emailed by 'wankers' I would say, don't worry. - Out of all the emails I have recieved there was only 1 which pissed me off. It was from some relious lady telling me not to kill myself and 'I MUST live' blah blah blahjd.... whatever. Oh well. That got deleted. Apart from that the rest were all great. It's nice to know that there are people who think just like you, and I have learnt alot from the things people have told me; I learnt more about how people think. Which has been great. So, thank-you. I hope I gave good replys. So to conclude, I would like to say God bless* us all. Or Allah bless us, or the devil, or your brother, or whoever you belive in. Oh yeah, and even bless Lucy Bloody Cortina. Who I hate. Haha. *Laughs* Thanks for reading. Scors-b.
|12 Dec 2005||Tamlyn||If i knew that answer I certainly would not be here today. Send me an email when you get the answer.|
|12 Dec 2005||SARAH||BELIEVE THAT NO ONE IS BOTHERED, THAT URE USELESS, THAT EVERYTHING IS HOPELESS...U DON KNOW IT BUT URE SLOWLY KILLING YOURSELF...I THINK WE ALL HAVE A CHOICE WHETHER TO LISTEN TO EVERYONE SICK COMMENTS AND CRITISISMS - SOME ARENT STRONG ENOUGH AND DO LISTEN AND FROM THEN ON START SPIRALLING...FALLING...|
|11 Dec 2005||shawty713||There isn't any reason 2 kill ur self b-cuz my best friend has been thinking about it and it has been killing me inside b-cuz she is a very blessed person and she doesn't realize how many people care about her especially me. I don't know what i would do without her. i would put my own life on da line 4 her|