|Reading these suicide pages you will find people seeking help and people offering their help. Some witness about suicide from real life experience, others who play along with me would pretend it's a children's game. Some make sick and cruel jokes about it, and angry people blame me for even mentioning the subject. You might also want to read my favourite answers. If you want your answer to be included here, fill in the form.|
What is the best way to kill yourself when you're under 13?
Quelle est la meilleure forme de suicide pour les moins de 13 ans?
|09 Feb 2006||froggy frog frog||alright so i feel like dyin sometimes cos theres this guy i like alot tha doesnt like me bak im 15 at tha moment an iduno its like im depressed an then it goes away .. so right now im happy an ya'll should see atleast wun happy comment an im na gon kill ma self cos its too much pain anyways laterrrr|
|09 Feb 2006||tara||fuck the poets of the past, my friends
there are no beautiful suicides
just cold corpses with shit in their pants
& the end of the gifts
where this came from i dont know. the image of my ma finding me with shit in my pants and my brains on the floor like they found von really bothers me.
but i still think about it.
and im jealous.
because i dont have the stones to do it myself. so i hate him for doing it. and i miss him.
the best way to kill yourself is to realize that you can drownhangshoot the people you used to be, one after the other, and create a new person..
the new person can be-is now-will be the person you always wanted to be
mouchette i am sorry, i am becoming the person i always wanted to be. mouchette... i think von watches us. i think there are bad things in this world and i hope none of them are near him. sometimes i smell bad smells for no reason and i know its a bad thing.. and i worry about von. and i try not to cry. But i think that his suicide is keeping me from mine.. or allowing me to kill the fake mes, and let the real me start living...
|09 Feb 2006||The Uncola||Thats it!!!! We have it!!!! It has been revealed!!!! The end is in sight!!!! NOW THIS WRETCHED PLACE SHALL BURN!!!!! Good luck with trying to build your life back after everyone stops caring Mouchette.|
|09 Feb 2006||Tamie||when ur under 13 you shouldnt think like that, actually no human being should think like this at all because ur life is a gift given from..... your choice to choose who from your aim is to find how you got here and why ur here, because everyone is here for a reason, yesterday was my 17th birthday, i had the most special day to! but i could of not reached my 17th because 3weeks before that i attemted to once again take my life, but this time i was hospitalised, which opened my eyes to the real world, life is what you make it! if anyone is ever struggling im always here to talk with anyone, just email me.|
|09 Feb 2006||j.||scream at the tops of your lungs with all your might and throw a tantrum until your mouth starts bleeding, but don't stop and eventually you'll die.
this is what I did. My mother saved me but i'm still dead.
|09 Feb 2006||Ben moore||Sufficate yourself in a nappie preferably huggies so your parents could sue them|
|09 Feb 2006||john biddle||my name is john biddle and i have a science teacher called mr biddle who calls hisself old mac biddie. he pics on me throughout eachday and it makes me like killing myself he invites me in the classroom in the morning and trips me up i go and see a specialist teacher in our school but she dont believe me if their is anyone out there who i can speak to please email me THANKYOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!|
|09 Feb 2006||sarah||the best way is not to im telling you now me n my mate had a pack 2 commit suicide because life is just a screw over and i backed out of it now my mate is gone and i feel so guilty for not going alone n i spent time in hospital for it and people accually cared about me and are glad i didnt go you need to think about who your hurting because they do care even if they don't show it ive lost a mate because thinking life was crap and ther was no way out well there is it does get better apparently i just aint noticed it yet i may still cut my self but i need help if u ask for help and dnt build walls around your self you can make it better xxxxx|
|08 Feb 2006||Mike - I'm Listening||this is in answer to many of the posts on the page im 17 never knew my mother (she died when i was 3) my Dad and his fiance where and are lazy controlling violent arseholes so ive been through pretty much every depresive phase imaginable from self harming to atempted suicide even doing extremly out of charecter things like starting massive fights simply because i needed somebody to notice that something was wrong. Its hard to help a multitude of differnt people in a single message like this but i want all of you to remember that you are never alone. If you want more advice or just need to talk to someone send me a message and i will always reply within 24hours.|
|08 Feb 2006||just trying to help||I don't know if someone post this one already, here is a good painless way to die. You will need an assistant and a bag of salvinorin extract. First, you need to smoke the stuff, as soon as it knocks you out, have your friend cut your head off within 3 minutes. He or she will have to be fast, because during 3 to 5 minutes, that shit will knock out your pain completely. You will not feel a thing.|
|08 Feb 2006||shateara||you can put pinesole in your cereal that way u can barely taste it . Afterward just lay down you'll slip away .|
|08 Feb 2006||Just to tell you, most of your "ways to kill yourself" won't kill you. How stupid are you? Damn.|
|08 Feb 2006||leeann||when i move to a new place my mother was living with a man and i was babysitting a family of 5 well pu until 2 years ago he started hitting my mother and evry so often me so i spent most of my time at a frends house some times till 12;30 in the morning then it got worse my mom never paid attechen to me she allways had broken arms ribes and bruses the police new are name frome the book i got sick of it so i moved out when i was just 13 years old thise lady valire she was so nice to me butduring the first few weeks a man tride to mulest me and i completly shut down i gained wait and stoped tALKING but when i thought nothing could get worse someone tride to get me in there house and what do you know it did get worse i started thise unsual thing called ice burns and to me it took away my pain if i just looked back on my past i aolso took asprins to ease the pain i stoped eating and after a while i couldent even get up but she helped me through and she still and now im just looking for frends|
|08 Feb 2006||Shania||Mouchette your a stupid bitch, you send dumb pics to people and ur not really famous or who u say u are. Go to hell.|
|08 Feb 2006||jose||Fuck that shit...
you can kill yourself with many diferent ways ...
-one of then could be drink poison..
-shot em with a gun
|08 Feb 2006||alex N||im alex, 15, and i wanna commit suicide, i have been trying to get some potassium cyanide, or a gun, or prozac, does anyone know where i could get any of this stuff, i live in plymouth uk, i dont want to speak 2 anyone who wnats 2 know why, and try 2 talk me out of it, cuz it is easy 2 say, oh u can speak to me about anyhting, what i have lernt and i am sure u will know is that the world seems to revolve around money, even shrinks trying 2 talk u out of it want money, and anyone who disses this site is a wanker, this site is the best site ever made!!!!!. and should not be shut down, granted though mouchette is abit weird cuz he sends me strange emails, if i dont get anything by the end of the month i will just slit my throat and bleed to death in 3 mins, the way i see it lifes a bitch and then u die, well i dont want 2 become old, i would rather get my life over and done woth now!!! i would like 2 say thanks 2 a few ppl who i have been keeping in contacts by email and msn, mandy mckelvey who is now dead, she commited suicide just over 2 weeks ago, and i would also like to thank jessie, and 1 of my fav ppl, caty obermiller, email me
or visuite my site www.suicide11.funtigo.com
|08 Feb 2006||I THINK THIS IS SICK||MOUCHETTE IS A ARTIST!
who plays alone with this Movie called "Mouchette" Its not this persons real name!
this person acts out tours from the movie mouchette.
DO YOU ALL UNDERTSTAND ITS LIKE COPING A MOVIE ON STAGE!
I AM NOT BUYING IT I THINK ITS SICK!!
|08 Feb 2006||sam||i think that the best way to kill yourself at any age is to climb to the top of a tall building. but before you jump off there are a few things your going to need, glue, rope, and piano string. first you tie the rope around your feet, and the piano string around your neck (make sure that the piano string is shorter than the rope. finally glue your hand on top of your head. when you jump off the piano string will cut off your head, then the rope will catch and you will be dangling off of a building upside down while holding your head in your hand.|
|08 Feb 2006||I HATE THIS PLACE!!||No wonder this person,
Does not reply to peoples messages!
its not real.
How can i put it in better words
I think this site is For the fans of the movie Mouchette. I AMNOT SURE MIND YOU?????????????????
Come to think of it now!!
when i first found this place i thought ths " well this is werid why would some sick person make a site where for people who were under age could just come on line and find this place"r
Think about this people it is not NORMAL to have some thing like this on line.
with out it NOT HAVING A WARNING!
TO BE CLOSED DOWN!!!!
"My name is Mouchette. I live in Amsterdam. I am nearly 13 years old. " This seemingly innocent introduction by a child artist hides the shocking content within Mouchette's website. Allegedly authored by a twelve-year-old French girl, "Mouchette" is a complex site consisting of various secret links, electronic interactive texts, and poems that reveal the multiple faces of the artist, along with her fears and obsessions. Loosely-based on the 1937 book by Georges Bernanos and the 1967 Robert Bresson movie, Mouchette, the website seems to expand upon the basic storyline of the film. The movie portrays a girl suffering from the pains of abuse, an alcoholic father and dying mother. Eventually she finds that her only escape from the hatred and sexual abuse in her life is suicide. Not only does the net artist draw several character similarities to the female protagonist of the film Mouchette, but also relates similar thematic ideas. The various subpages of the site use visually-shocking pictures, images of flesh and blood, and interactive forums of taboo subjects to explore themes of sexual abuse, violence and hatred, and loneliness. The anonymous authorship of the site, as well as the user interface, poses an underlying question of identity, leaving the viewer curious what the true nature of the website. By creating an interactive site that encourages audience participation, Mouchette.org challenges the viewer to confront these disturbing themes and make a decision of further conduct.
Since the website launch in 1996, the true identity of the alter-ego behind Mouchette.org has been a closely-guarded secret. By concealing his or her identity, the artist preserves the first-person nature of the site, thus enhancing the thematic power. In this manner, the artist provokes heated debates of contemporary political and sexual issues. Since the artist-moderator behind the site remains unknown and anonymous; the author her/himself is referred to as merely Mouchette (1).
The incredibly complex Mouchette.org site relies on both the audio and visual components. One key aspect of the site is its variable nature; there are many different opening screens, and the noises that accompany the images are prone to change as well. The opening screen is always a close-up of a flower, with flies moving around it. The fly is a visual allusion to the name, "Mouchette," which literally means "fly" in French. If one clicks on the flies to the right of the screen, it leads to the "Blind Jump" section of the site. The fly in the center of the screen leads to two more pages about flies, then the viewer is confronted with a dead end. In the corner of the homepage is either a photo of a young girl, a drawing of a young girl, or a picture of an older woman. When the arrow is on the picture, a passage appears. One can click on either the picture, or the passage, and it will lead to different pages-the passage always leads to a seemingly public bulletin board about suicide, whereas the picture can lead to different pages, dependent upon which picture is displayed. The artist Mouchette claims that the young girl pictured is herself. Next to the picture, there is a checklist that lists certain "facts" about Mouchette, some of which contain links to other pages. There is also a scrolling menu at the bottom of the page, which says "browse me" and contains a number of vague links leading to different sub-sections of the site.
The confusion and profusion of links and subdivisions within the site lead the viewer to become disoriented. One cannot easily navigate the site, nor can one easily re-trace one's steps; the "back" button often leads to random new pages. There is an abundance of subsites within the site, as well as links to outside sites. One subsite is an apparently "public" bulletin board, upon which people respond to the question: "What is the best way to kill yourself when you are under thirteen?"-a question seemingly posed by the "young girl" behind the site. The respondents leave a variety of messages ranging from attempts to save Mouchette, to bitter notes pushing Mouchette (and her apparently suicidal correspondents) to actually commit the final act. Mouchette also prompts each viewer to fill in his own form and respond. Yet, it is unclear if these responses are filtered, and by whom-or, are the posted ones even written by real people? If everyone can be Mouchette, who is the driving force behind Mouchette?
Upon closer inspection of the website, the viewer can join Mouchette's fan club, which empowers the audience with enhanced participatory powers within the site. Uploaded user text and images become a part of the site and users can respond to Mouchette's "personal" email. Thus Mouchette's email identity remains anonymous and arbitrary in content. Who is the artist that moderates Mouchette? This remains a virtually impossible question to answer. However, even though one can "become Mouchette" according to edit.mouchette.org, this does not open up access to all parts of the site-areas are still moderated by the unknown artist.
The complexity and navigational difficulties of Mouchette.org challenge the audience's ability to interpret. Several of the sites portray unrelated aspects, linked only by one of the common themes. Sexuality appears as an underlying theme in the site, noticeably in images and sounds, but also in subtle colors and presentation. Obvious sexual references include the subpage of sexual pictures and sounds, and the pedophilic references of the "striped penis" subpage. More understated references include the flower imagery on the opening page and the "secret page" where the artist conveys a sexual mood with the use of such words as "softly," "feel," "touchÈ in the dark," and "penetrate." As the mouse is moved, orgasmic sounds are revealed. Sexuality plays a strong thematic role from the beginning of the first webpage. As the page loads, the site emits crying sounds punctuated by seemingly sexual noises. Similar to the Bresson's movie character, Mouchette, the site identifies the juxtaposition between sexual pleasure and anguish. Although sexual, the site does not convey the imagery on a sensual level, instead associating the sexual theme with violent overtones.
Hatred and abuse also appear as major roles in Mouchette's work. Hatred is expressed on several levels in multiple relationships. Mouchette's underlying hate for her parents proves apparent in the subpage http://mouchette.org/flesh/pere.html (1998). Images of "Papa" and "Maman" etched into pieces of raw meat symbolize the minimal flesh-relationship between the daughter and her respective parents. Although presented in an innocent childlike manner, "I got my parents' permission for the web portraits," the gruesome effect of the sanguine raw meat suggests the tension in Mouchette's parental relationships (2).
Mouchette's own hatred for life exists as the climactic moment of the site. The artist presents the notion of a "suicide kit," innocently questioning the audience on a "way for children to play suicideÖ(as) a new kind of toy" in order to find "best way to kill yourself if you're under thirteen." Using this shocking method of inquiry, Mouchette forces the audience to confront the issue of suicide and respond. She then posts the responses in several categories: recent posts, posts seeking help, offering help, real life experiences, cruel jokes, posts that treat suicide as a child's game, and people that blame the artist (Mouchette). Despite the differences in the responses, most user posts appear strongly emotional, compelling the viewer to consider the veracity behind the messages while making a moral decision, first, whether or not to respond, and second, the content of the response. Mouchette posts her favorite answers, and these are not judged according to morality, but on passion. Passionate answers range from posts celebrating the beauty in life, celebrating the romantic notion of death, and everything in between.
Mouchette.org also explores hatred on the personal level between the viewer and the artist. He dedicates an entire section of the site under "hate," for the audience to voice their loathing for the site and the artist (3). Placed upon a unsettling backdrop-a crowd of people covered in crushed tomatoes that resemble bloody flesh-Mouchette incites an honest response from the viewer. The "hate" responses vary from hatred for Mouchette's seemingly apathetic attitude towards life, to disgust for the audacious manner in which taboo subjects are presented, to personal hatred of the artist.
Hatred is also expressed in its most climactic form, violence. Mouchette.org's "Kill the Cat," first unnerves the viewer with the gaping jaws of a cat, accompanied by periodic bloodcurdling screams (4). The screen shakes violently as it becomes apparent that no peaceful ending is achievable and the only escapable solution is to close the browser or use the back command. Thus this page challenges the viewer's notion of a predictable internet with its abrupt display of violence. Also under the "paintings" subpage, clicking the mouse launches two hands, which violently grab for a pig which is drowning in a spilled bowl of soup. In and of themselves, the images are not blatantly violent; however the juxtaposition of a seemingly monstrous hand looming over the defenseless plastic pig seems to be a threatening imbalance of power. The sanguine color of the soup appears as a blood-like substance violently spilled in all directions.
Mouchette also provides a film quiz in which she highlights the important scenes from the movie. Although this quiz was recently banned from the site due to legal warnings from Robert Bresson's estate, an online mirror site still carries the questions (5). Each question reflects the abusive and depressive nature of Mouchette's short life. In one question, Mouchette provides the following answers: "the hut of the poacher who raped me," "home, where my mother just died," "at the cafÈ, to fetch my drunken father," "the pond where I shall be drowning myself." Mouchette uses each film answer to relate the themes of her website. Sexual abuse, domestic problems of abuse and neglect, and suicide commonly arise throughout the quiz. The backdrop of these quotes is composed of forlorn images of Mouchette, further emphasizing her pitiful state to the reader.
Identity is a central theme in Mouchette's website. Although it is never explicitly explored, it is alluded to indirectly through the user forum. Each post requests the specific name and email address of the author, but uncertain identity is the inherent nature of internet interaction. While browsing the site, the viewer is constantly badgered to post his name and email address, in a sense threatening judgment for any response. This imparts a sense of viewer responsibility for actions taken. The viewer does not know to whom his emails are directed nor does he know who will read them. Messages on each user forum are often disconcerting and upsetting; one does not know whether to take them seriously or not. This emotional distance is essential to the artwork. Though Mouchette presents many upsetting, taboo subjects, she does so dispassionately, in an almost apathetic manner. However, after reading the plethora of charged material from Mouchette and the posted respondents it is easy to become desensitized to the unsettling subject matter. This leads to a moral dilemma as the viewer is confronted repeatedly with the possibility of intervention with potentially suicidal individuals.
Mouchette.org operates on many levels expanding upon the overt themes of sexuality, violence, hatred and isolation, using shocking images and sounds, interactive user forums, and morally ambiguous subject matter to highlight her intended themes. This is layered over a fundamental identity question about the authorship of the site and the responses posted on it. Throughout the site, the viewer is constantly confronted with moral decisions. By challenging the viewer with these decisions, Mouchette.org does not allow the user to remain inactive-the viewer is forced to contemplate and take a position on these taboo subjects.
so you see people thats what this site is all about!!
its SICK i know and i hate this place.
WISH I HAD NEVER FOUND IT!!!!!!!!
AND I HOPE YOU ALL HAVE THE SENSE TO TURN AROUND AND WALK AWAY FROM THIS PLACE TO..
I WOULD LIKE TO SEE THIS POSTED ON YOUR FORUM PLEASE..
but i have not got a clue where this site is really located???????????????????????
and if you don't post this i will post this to you antill you do!!!!!!!!!!!!!
|08 Feb 2006||dannii||pills although some times it don't work it never works with me and i've tried it ten times since i was 12|