|Reading these suicide pages you will find people seeking help and people offering their help. Some witness about suicide from real life experience, others who play along with me would pretend it's a children's game. Some make sick and cruel jokes about it, and angry people blame me for even mentioning the subject. You might also want to read my favourite answers. If you want your answer to be included here, fill in the form.|
What is the best way to kill yourself when you're under 13?
Quelle est la meilleure forme de suicide pour les moins de 13 ans?
|12 Apr 2006||Ger|| Suicide is a companion I live with everyday. We all live in a world filled with suffering. I have been sexually abused by my father since my earliest years, until about junior high. He punched me in my face with a closed fist during my freshman year in high school, reconstructing its bone structure. My mother lives in denialneglecting to protect the child. Being in an emotionally, psychologically, and physically damaging environment has its toll on the human spirit. Even today, affirmation of my experiences and what happened to me is unavailable.
One may ask, "What is worse than death?" My answer being, what is worse than physical death is being kept alive while dead inside (only to watch a body violated and tortured on a daily, weekly, monthly, and yearly basis).
I have attempted suicide three times; however, I have sabotaged my health passively through drugs, addictions, and sexual irresponsibility, hoping death will set me free from my memories, dysfunctions, and lack of motivation.
I am twenty-three years old now (HIV negative) and still alive; wondering what is the result of my survival and how can I give the wisdom I have gained through these experiences to humanity (to move towards world peace and to fight injustice). From living on the streets to turning tricks to pay rent and food I have thrived. Life has its setbacks, but, it has joyous moments which make it worthwhile. Among the hundreds of exploiters of victims and oppressors, to find one who cares, without price, has given me hope in humankind.
I have been reading a book called "Man's Search for Meaning" by Viktor Frankl. It is about a psychiatrist who survived the concentration camps in Germany.
By reading this book, I have learned how one found a reason to live even through an imposed sense of hopelessness and the threat of extinction on routine. It has taught me that one's search for meaning in life is a purpose in itself. Giving back a talent that one possesses to the world is a reason to go on. Also, that suffering has meaning. Are we worthy of our suffering? How one views their suffering and life makes a world of difference.
Although, life is challenging and lonely, I have come to the frame of mind that, "If I am unwilling to live for myself...then for other people." I have been volunteering in a kitchen for a homeless shelter once a week for the past three weeks and it has given me a sense of contribution. To step out of my self-absorbed nature has given me freedom that I desire (even for a moment). My life is still daunting at times, like today, but realizing how life can be so much worse has given me a sense of humility (realizing the selfishness in my ideologies). Others live with disabilities, deformities, cancer, venereal diseases, and still carry a reason to meaning; thus, so can anyone.
I desire to feel and have love in my life. From my traumas, I feel a sense of isolation and self-imposed exile from a world which will likely unknowingly understand my experiences, truly. Some of my faults are an inability to trust others, sexual neurosis, and an ingrained feeling of being unlovable. I have been through countless therapy sessions, medication changes, and lack of emotional stability and belonging. If I have made it this far, I believe almost anyone can and will make it farther.
I have written these thoughts, not to tell others what to do or to think, but to expose the visitors of this website to another's frame of mind. I have read many of the comments on this webpage and I empathize with the numerous thoughts of ending this life. I will like to complete by saying, "There are no guarantees that life will become a fairy tale and all our problems and issues will dissolve; however, our possibilities for growth are endless, for we have embraced death and the depths of despair (which many others utterly fear and may be unprivileged to feel)." Are we worthy of this gift of insight?
|12 Apr 2006||The Bitter Endemail@example.com
No need to get so defensive sweetheart. So fucking what if you chickened out? Or maybe you're just pissed because you never intended to do it in the first place.
And of course, if the person who posted here under that address really IS dead, then they had a very inconsiderate sister to be larking about on MSN so soon afterwards.
But hey, I'm the incurable insomniac here. I've got to fill my nights doing something, and I find talking to people I find on suicide forums vastly more entertaining than the usual late night internet persuits.
|12 Apr 2006||Becks||I really dont know the best way to kill yourself, but I was announced dead September 3, 2005 and look where I am now. I took 50 of my 150mg anti-depressants and my ambulance broke down, I was announced dead at the hospital, but (Unfortunately)Im still here because they tried to revive me and it worked. If you're going to try to kill yourself, make sure that you're alone and will be alone for several hours so that you end up dying, not just doing something and having ppl walk in on you when you're doing it. I really think that I dont deserve to live, and I just feel like shit and I wish that someone would come and kill me so that I dont have to do this myself. If I could turn back time to when I was happy, I would be sad thinking about what's going to come and would have prolly killed myself then and there so that I wouldnt have to put up with the pain that I have now. Someone tell me how to do it right so that I can go through with it. PLEASE! Im begging you to help me out. I need to go. Just help me out and tell me how to do it right. If you want to yell @ someone for causing this, yell at me for bringing it upon myself....I shouldnt have fallen in love and gotten myself into this sopt in the first place. Im sorry...|
|12 Apr 2006||sue||u know...i been reading all these postings and theres every kind of answer out there. the hard part to accept is when there is no answer. when neither life nor death are options...i understand every point of view and have gone thru it, thot it, and tried it. so what comes next? what do u do when ur so tired u can't stand to be awake but so angry u cant sleep? when ur so full of hate for yourself and ur life that u can't stand to even exist? u wanna die, but ur too scared. u don't wanna hurt anyone. what do u do when there is no answer, not even death?|
|12 Apr 2006||Shy9||not by paracetemol OD- that takes forever and its painful.
a gun would be my choice.
make sure you are successful 1st time- it sucks if you arent. Sarah you are amazing for getting through a mental institution- all of you who have been through that are. i barely escaped being forced to go and the very suggestion made me shudder.
as for those of you who say were losers for talking about/attempting suicide...
WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU?! YOU SAY WE ARE SCREWED UP AND MAYBE WE ARE BUT YOU ARE SCREWED UP BEYOND BELIEF!! THE SITES NAME SHOULD GIVE YOU THE HINT- IF YOU DONT LIKE IT, BE BRAVE! RESIST THE 'click on this site' SUBLIMINAL MESSAGE HIDDEN WITHIN THE TITLE- CLICK ON A HAPPIER LINK!!!!!DONT START CRYING AND YELLING ABUSE JUST BECAUSE YOU ARE TO STUPID TO REALIZE THIS SITE MIGHT NOT BE ALL BUTTERFLIES AND DASIES!!!!! YOU PEOPLE FUCK ME OFF BEYOND BELIEF!!! YOU ARE WHAT MAKE ME WANT TO LEAP OFF THE TALLEST BUILDING I CAN FIND, SLIT MY WRISTS, CUT MY THROAT...ANYTHING!!!! YOU MAKE ME SICK!!!!!!!!!!
and for all of you out there who feel like me..... we arent screwed up. those who say we are, should be shot because THEY are the ones who need therepy.
|12 Apr 2006||Sahil||I am 16, since i was 10 life is rubbish. There is a long list of problems, we all have problems, so i wont post those. I DONT WANT TO DIE!, BUT I HAVE TO!, I am emtionally dead. I have lost anything and cannot recover anything. Reading the posts here, brought tears to my eyes. It has been my dream in life to help people. I see so many people facing soo many problems, and i feel helpless for them and now for me. I completely understand what everyone is going through. I wish i could kill myself. The best way to go is obviously by shooting yourself with a gun in the medula oblangata ( a part of the barin which if impacted will kill you immediately, NO PAIN) This is located right behind your right ear. Life is the most amazing thing, but life is not what causes our problems, it is always other people. The thing that i become really fed up with is blaming myself. And i think you should know, that you are not always the problem. I really love life, i can think of a million "what if's" but i cant wait around to get the answer, i have taken torture for too long, and it is time to go. I only wish i had the gun, i am a coward, and cannot even kill mysefl.
I hope you have a good life, im a hypocrite for saying this. But i hope nobody kills themselves, and you should know that i love you all. If i dont get a gun, and die, I PROMISE YOU ALL. I WILL TRY MY BEST TO HELP EVERYONE, BECUASE I WANT YOU TO LIVE. AND I KNOW YOU WANT TO LIVE, TO JUST GRAB OUT AND SQUEEZE SOMEBODY AND SHARE YOUR PAINS AND SORROWS.
YOU ARE MUCH MORE IMPORTANT THAT YOU THINK, EVEN THOUGH SOMETIMES YOU FEEL LIKE CRAP, YOU KNOW THAT DEEP DOWN INSIDE YOU LOVE LIFE, MAYBE NOT THE WAY YOUR LIFE IS GOING, BUT DONT END IT.
If you ever want to talk, or just reach out to a stranger friend, just write to me, my email is : firstname.lastname@example.org
Please dont go, you are the only people who have feeling and understand suffering. Maybe that is why god has given it to you. So that you can change the world. Help others, it is the best drug there is.
I will say it again, please dont go, please, we will all miss you. You say how the world is rubbish and has treated you like crap, so change it, please :(
|11 Apr 2006||un-known||Fuck i have been lving with my rents for to fuckin long! My mom is catholic and says i should go to church! fuck i dont ever wana step foot in a church....god hasnt done anything for me. why in the hell should i praise him then?!!! the best way to commit suicide would to take a bunch of sleeping pills....you get kinda sick but then all u do is go to sleep and then u just dont wake up! Expecialy if u go and try to fall asleep outside casue if it is cold then your blood moves slower and you will die faster! i have tryed it b4 but i didnt take quite enough pills. but i got severly sick so if you use this method make sure you take enough pills. Another way to kill urself is to go down to river when it is cold out and stab urself with a big knife or shoot urself then throw ur self intot the river and ur body will go numb within a min. and u wont b able to feel any pain and u will bleed to death. i tryed that to but one of my friends saw me and pulled me out of the water! fuck cant ppl just understand that if you dont want to b here anymore u should b able to kill urself!|
|11 Apr 2006||The Grudge||HI, I'm 12, and have been living in Georgia all my life. So far, my life has been shit. Some people tell me to get over myself, and live life the fullest. How can you, when your suicidal, is my question.
See, people say that I don't have it as bad as most people. Listen to my story, and you decide wether or not I deserve to live.
At age 6, I was in a small apartment with my mom and my dad. My dad was an alcoholic, and would beat me with a crobar, so I had it pretty bad. My mom was talking to one of the other people in the apartment complex, and he got drunk, and pissed off. He beat me, then told me to shoot my mom, or else he would rape, then kill me. I didn't want to die, but I didn't want to become a murderer. So, that night, I took my dad's gun...and shot my mom in the head. I ran away from the apartment, and took a pockletknife out of my pocket, and ripped the skin on my arms off. A nearby nieghbor called the police department, and they came a picked me up. They took me to a hospitol, asked me questions, while bandaging me up. I've been to 8 foster homes, 4 which have died in fires, and 3 which have died in car accidents, and the other one, took a look at me, found out what had happened in my life, and said, "get her away from us." How's that for a fucking life? Also, when I finally got into school, some guy brought a gun to school. The first thing he did was shoot a teacher, then my leg. Afterwards, they asked him why he did it, he screamed and pointed at me. "She's a murderer! She looks likeThe Grudge!" So that's been my new nickname ever since. And, other then that. I weigh a wopping 23 pounds right now, so imagine. BUt, my dad is still out there somewhere...and I bet you anything he wants to kill me. BUt I seriously, don't give a shit.
|11 Apr 2006||dont_do_it_cuz_ul_regret_it||all of your things make me cry...
i've been molested, raped, and physically abused but i still dont want to die... my brother comes into my room every night and he touches me... he also haves his frends over and they do the same stuff to me... i dont want to die becaause i have JESUS!!! he luvs me and if u gave him a chance and accepted him into your life u would be much hapier.. u can talk to him about anything.. he is always there... if it wasnt for God i prbaly woudl watn to kil myself....
PLZ GIVE JESUS A CHANCE!!!
|11 Apr 2006||I challenge you to pick up a Bible and talk to God before you even think of committing suicide. Death is not the way out, it does not end there. There is life after death. Do you have any idea where you are going when you die? Hell is NO JOKE. Read about it, do some research, watch the movie "Left Behind". It will give you a better understanding about Hell and how absolutely horrible it is. That's all it is, is suffering but the big difference is that its FOREVER and you are surrounded by demons for eternity. There have been people that have died, went to hell, and came back. I truley believe this has happened, God wants people to know that Hell does exist and he doesn't want his people going there. He loves you too much!
If you want to email me or need any one to talk to please email me at email@example.com
|11 Apr 2006||Devon||Are you guys fucking serious? I mean of course people are going to have feelings like this, but how is talking about how your going to kill yourself on here going to help anything. If your going to kill yourself, kill yourself. If your going to get help, get help, but don't try to help each other kill each other and give out ideas to other people. There are still some people that have a chance at getting help.|
|11 Apr 2006||david||I'm 14. I've tried to kill myself 5 times, twice by OD, once by drowning, once by hanging and once by slitting my wrist. none of them worked. Compared to some people here, my life hasn't been too bad.It certainly hasn't been good either. I thought, whats the point of living in such a flawed world? I hope there isn't an afterlife.
However, recently i've found a purpose for living. A motive. HATE.
I agree with my freind below. Hate is wonderful. Find something, hate it, hate it as much as you hate life, more even. Projecting your hate and pain onto that person/thing becomes your reason for living. I'm not sure how long it will last. But it will keep you from the grave a little longer i hope.
|11 Apr 2006||Jc||Hello,
I'm offering a FREE service, my name is JC I am a senior, and I know how hard it is to live with suicidal emotions, almost like you don't know what to do, I've been through that road, if you ever need to talk to someone you can email me at firstname.lastname@example.org, instant answer, please be as specific as possible with your problem and tell me if you want to talk or your just in need of a Prayer., email is email@example.com you will get an instant answer, and everything is 100000% confidential,
|11 Apr 2006||Melissa sky||OKAY!!IM SUACIDEL IM 16 YEARS OLD IM THE POPOULAR GIRL IN SKOOL IM IN HIGH SCHOOL IM A CHEERLEADER AND I HAD THE LOVE OF MY LIFE BUT WHEN I WAZ 6 I WAZ MALESTED BY MY OLDER BROTHER AND NOBODY NOWS AND THAT BURNS ME EVERY DAY AND NITE IM FALLING SKOOL WITCH NO MORE CHEERLEADING 4 ME AND MY FATHER DIED WHEN I WAZ 7 YEARS OLD I HAVE NO MONEY NOT EVEN TO EAT SOME NITES MY MOM IS THE WORST MOTHER IN THIS FUCKING FUCKED UP EARTH AND I CANT TALK 2 HER 4 NO REASON AND IVE TREAD 2 OD AND IT DIDNT WORK IT WAZ LIKE 2-3 WEEKS AGO I TOKE 65 STERIODS AND I DIDN'T DIE ANT I WANT 2 DIE NOW EVEN HARDER CAUSE THERE IS NO POINT OF ME BEEN IN THIS WORLD PEOPLE IN SKOOL THINK IM HAPPY BUT IT IS ALL JUST A BIG FRUNT THAT I PUT EVERY DAY CAUSE I DONT WANT NO BODY 2 FEEL SORRY 4 ME CAUSE I DONT NEED NO WISDOM FROM NO 1 AND I THINK THE BEST WAY 2 DIE IS 2 HANG UR SELF CAUSE THERE IS NO WAY OUT OF IT OR 4 U 2 HELP UR SELF AGAIN AND I THINK THAT IF GOD GAVE U LIFE GOD SHPOULD TAKE IT FROM U BUT SOMETIMES GOD TAKES 2 LONG AND U HAVE 2 DO IT UR SELF JUST KNOW THE CONSECUANSISS OF UR ACTION!!!GOD BLEES EVER SINGLE ONE OF YA!!!|
|11 Apr 2006||Becka B||when you are 13 there is no real reason to kill yourself ya i understand that life is hard I've been through shit but i aint a fuckin pussy thats why i am alive today and if you kill your self thats what people are going to think about you. killing your self isn't the way out its the bitch way out|
|11 Apr 2006||Sunny||The best and most painless method with 100% success rate is to get a charcoal stove, put it in an enclosed space and lock yourself in with charcoal burning and breathe the fumes , you will die of carbon monoxide poisoning without any pain after you feel sleepy and going into a very deep sleep to never get up again|
|11 Apr 2006||almostgone||cover something VERY sharp in copper sulphate solution from the school science rooms then cut your wrists deeply enough for the solution to enter the blood flow.
that should kill you. or if u dont fancy copper sulphate solution, try some other chemical, some kind of concentrated acid should do...
|11 Apr 2006||mike||The best way is absolutely to be patient.
One of these day, your death will arrive, hardly or softly, but certainly.
|11 Apr 2006||I_Love_death||I think i left a comment on this thread but where the hell is it?|
|11 Apr 2006||jonny||Don't kill yourself... Nothin is ever so bad that you can't sort it out!!!
You'll be 18 1 ay and can leave your parents and start a new life!! Stop bein all talk and either get a grip and a life or just pull the fkin trigger!!
In fact, you're all already losers!! Kill yourselves, the world wont miss you!!