|Reading these suicide pages you will find people seeking help and people offering their help. Some witness about suicide from real life experience, others who play along with me would pretend it's a children's game. Some make sick and cruel jokes about it, and angry people blame me for even mentioning the subject. You might also want to read my favourite answers. If you want your answer to be included here, fill in the form.|
What is the best way to kill yourself when you're under 13?
Quelle est la meilleure forme de suicide pour les moins de 13 ans?
|27 Apr 2006||Sa rah||I wish i knew....i almost have the perfect live...my mom's a doctor my dad is a stay at home...and i seem perfetly happy..in fact most times i am perfectly happy...but i cant control my emotions i cant deal with pain...and i feel like sometimes i hate my parents and no matter how good they are to me im still mean to them...i wish i could just slice my wrist but i dont think i could take it and pills just seem like the wrong way to go...i loose everything..but yet i am still spoiled... no one even suspects me to do a thing like t his but whenever i sit down and think i hate where i am...but i cant tell my parents..cause they will think im just exagerating...im scared of what killing myself would do to other people and how i know that this is only thw easy way out of my problems...i wish i just new what to do or how i should control my emotions|
|27 Apr 2006||Mike||I have tried to "KILL" myself 5 times. By hanging myself and even jumping into my pool with weights around my ankles. But after a couple years of therapy i have finnaly realized that i shouldn't try to kill my self anymore.|
|27 Apr 2006||carterluver||well i have no idea but i just felt like saying hi, im not like everyone else, haven't ever tried to commit suicide before but i really want to and all i can say is if i ever try to commit suicide it sure as hell is gonna work, and ppl are going to know and ppl are going to notice and so thats whats im thinking right now. and i know this is really weird, im not depressed & come frum a great christian home, but most of this is all carter sligh's fault b/c i love him but he doesn't love me and yes i am just a kid (14) but this isn't just come little kid crush - i love carter and i always will, but i just found out that he likes 1 of my really good friends (beka west) & another 1 of my friends likes him 2 (becca true) and both of them have a lot better chances with him than i do b/c im just 1 of those weird ppl that noone likes. so im just putting my life story on here everyone will know, i really dont care anymore, when i die i know ppl will think what a waste b/c im really smart (iq 153) & all that crap but i just dont care anymore. and i hope carter reade this & knows although now he is ignoring me. an dthis is my last thought - i want to hate him but i cant b/c i love him too much|
|27 Apr 2006||tom||to tim who said no1 in western countries or from good families should be suicidal they r jus selfish and spoilt.
ur attitide is so ignorant its unbelievable. i hate it wen ppl say only starving and poor ppl should be suicidal.
loneliness, lack of love, low self esteem can all be reasons for suicidal feelings and r situations that can exist in western societies. sumtimes depression can be a mental illness brought on jus by a chemical imbalance in the brain as well. At least ppl in poor backgrounds hav lower expectations and will die of starvation or ill health whereas no1 ever died of depression so it can last longer until ppl can take no more. Sum western problems r more complicated to solve and that is wen ppl cant find the solutions and can feel suicidal.
I am pleased u hav overcome difficult problems in ur life but jus cos u hav doesn't mean every1 can. every1 is different.
Do u really believe ur outburst will hav saved a single life or made any suicidal person feel better?
I hope u never volunteer for the samaritans cos u'd be USELESS!
|27 Apr 2006||Gemma||I am fifteen and have been suffering from depression & self-esteem issues for years now. I've missed so much of my life already over this shit. Crying, contemplating suicide, and just being plain fucking selfish and feeling sorry for myself. Talking to my parents get me nowhere because they think that I am totally full of shit and need to "suck it up" and get on with life. These days I try really hard to get up out of bed and go on with life despite the feeling of not wanting to.
All I need is someone to talk to. Someone who can make me see some hope in this miserable fucking world. I try asking help from my parents, but they don't take me seriously. I don't have friends that I can trust, and I have never been one to go share my personal problems with guidance counsellors.
I just pray every night that I will get over this and will start to feel better about myself and get over this trivial shit. I am so sick of wasting my time and my life crying over it all and feeling like there is no hope. I don't know how to do it. I don't know who to go to to give me guidance on how to carry on.
|27 Apr 2006||vicky lavery||hey my names vicky lavery and i'm 17 years old. i've had a really hard tiem the past few months and i can't help think that suicide is the only way out. i've cut myself before and i've tried to overdose with paracetamol and having alcohol aswell. but it doesn't work. it's really hard trying to put on a face at school so that everyone thinks you're ok so that i don't have to explain why i feel the way i do. i had a steady boyfriedn for two years and 3 months and i loved him sooo much i still do. i found texts on his phone not long ago from a girl called honor and i didnt know what to do at first.he denied it and i went on like always and forgave him anyway.then two years down the line he dumped me for her and i felt like my whole world had fallen in. he was my world. i've never loved or cared about anyone as much. not event ill this day. but he chooses to ignore me and go on hating me when all i ever did was care about him.hes the one who makes me feel like i wanna die hes teh biggest reason and i just can't find the best way to do it.to end it all!! i've tried everything.i still love him.but now he doesn't know i exist! anyone got an ideas on how to end it all for me???
feel free to e-mail me aswell...
|26 Apr 2006||dirt4life||hi my name is nick im 18 years old. My girlfriend of two years and i decide to take a break i no more than get back to school a week lata and fight out that my best friend since we were like six is now chasing after her. The only thing he wants is sex and all i want is her back. she says that i broke up with her and dosent want to get back with me and so i was pissed and needed somone so now i have another girl who i dont want who claims she loves me and is stalking me all i want is my girl back|
|26 Apr 2006||Sarah||CONFUSED
Am I the only one falling into the grey abyss?
Thrives in this soul.
Eat away this being.
Paralyze this smile.
Freedom is locked away.
Forgiveness is never forgiven.
Eats away the enamel of this heart
What is this foreign thing that you speak of?
camouflauged by the deceitful disguise of care.
FALSE HOPE, flowing through my body keeping me alive acting as blood.
BROKEN PROMISES and LIES are my cells.
SELF-MUTILATION is my anti-body, protecting me from foreign invaders.
A FALSE CONTENTNESS is my skin.
Dreams that will NEVER COME TRUE are my bones which hold me up.
My eyes are PAST EXPERIENCES, NIGHTMARES, that have become VERY MUCH REAL.
My Soul is writhing in agony as I see their happy faces.
I envy their smiles and laughter.
But deep down inside, I know this is something that I CANNOT have.
WHY am I such a DISASTER?
WHY am I a piece of SHIT?
I WILL NEVER AMOUNT TO ANYTHING.
WHY am I such a HORRIBLE person?
WHY am I PREDESTINED to this life of HORROR and LONLINESS?
WHAT'S the POINT of LIVING if EVERY DAY HURTS SO MUCH?
MAYBE ONE DAY I"LL HAVE THE COURAGE.......
|26 Apr 2006||Devon Pete||Jump off A Cliff in Smithers|
|26 Apr 2006||Joe||u tell me|
|26 Apr 2006||riley||hi i dont thin kthat this suicide page is such a good thing fore little kids to be reading like im in grade 8 and I only went on this to get real life suicide attempt things for a project im doing and when I was reading some of these I was like what is up with them and then I cried in like 2 or 3 well thank you for reading this this site wuld be ok if you didnt fucking tell kids how to kill em selfs/|
|26 Apr 2006||TB||What is wrong with everyone?!?! I was just messing on the internet when I found this sight, never relised how many people were so unhappy!! You only have one chance to live so why waste it!!! I wish I could talk 2 u all!!! I wish I could help u all!! I'm 15, but dont know any1 who would kill them selves, so I suppose im the luckiest girl in the world!! There is always people here to help you!! and people who care, people who dont even know you!!! If you give up on life, its beaten you. So keep fightin and live you dream!! I hav been bullied b4, and it feels like shit, you feel like u dont want to go 2 skul, but everythin will turn out alrite in the end!! KEEP BELIEVING!!! love you all!!! xxx|
|26 Apr 2006||hannah||hi its hannah again i'd just like to say i made it to my 13th birthday but recently i have been havin panic attacks about scholl and personal reasons i used to think the only way out of things was to commit suicide but i can promise everyone who felt like me there is a happeir way that will let youl ive your life how you want it i'm not sayin that there wont be little troubles on the way but i think you should all give it a try and see if it's changd the way you think even just a little. as i said recently i have been havin several panic attakc when evrythin seems to hit me all my troubles and worries are thrown at me all at once. my mum realised that i had , had a panic atak at school and got in touch with the school and arranged for me to be taken out of some classes within reson may i add and if every wednesday for the next few years if i could see the edjucational physicoligist and also she aranged for me to get my own physicoligist up at the hospital. this means i can discuss my worries and cry and scream and tell someone who will keep all my secrets all i want wihtout worrying about her/him telling anybody else its there job to help people like us who don't see a positive way top life i have realised that i need help quick because as every day goes by my life just seems to get more stressfull and harder i am suffering from hair loss which we have been told it's probably alapeshia but i have an opointment up at the hospital on the 16th of may! I;m finaly getting things sorted and i'm feeling a bit better hopefully soon i will get most of my confidence back and be the girl i used to be bright and bubble hyper hannah :)|
|26 Apr 2006||its strange like a year ago i was a normal horny teen hiting on girls people liked me i liked myself.
but now i never go out .i dont think about girls deprshon has taken over my life. not meny people hang out with me cuz im deprssing to be around. my school work is down i dont speak to my mum n dad most of the time im alone it feels like im emosheny numb and i want it to end good bi
|26 Apr 2006||tim||je pense suicide est mal et les parents de ces enfants doutent prendre responsibilities.Television est trop violent et trop dangereux pour permettre les enfant regarder seul.
L'ecole n'est pas responsible pour les enfants.Seulment la famille. Pourquoi tout le monde est occupe pour les enfants.
Homme American ici--
|26 Apr 2006||Tim||First of all most of you people are from westernized countries and from good families. Something is wrong and it pisses me off that you idiots are dying to kill yourself instead of getting up off your stupid a*** and helping others out. There are so many people starving in Eastern Europe, Texas, India, Uganda, etc. How selfish can you possibly be. If you're suicidally you are a spoiled bi**** I would love to talk to you. You can't even see others because you're blinded by your own stupid things. I was molested, grew up in a house that did not have running water, did not have food growing up, girlfriends both parets and siblings told me to comitt suicide, still broke today yet I'm 24 and working on my graduate degree and will def. help others in need after I graduated. Do you people realize life is ACTUALLY tough to some people yet they listen to the best music, eat the best foods, and enjoy family and friends better. I am ready for you to email me email@example.com. And if you have extra money to waist because your parents give you a hefty allowance to buy pipe bombs with. Bi*****Call Me. I can buy some books. I am more than happy to talk....|
|26 Apr 2006||Paige||ive tried to kill myself 2ce. and im 17 years old. my parents are divorved, my sisters hate me, my boyfriend scares me sometimes, and i hate everything. ive given up on all hope. ive been with my boyfriend for 2 years and seriously hass been a long 2 years. all we do is fight. i sit up till 5am every night. i cant sleep i havnt eaten in a week.. im slowly killing myself. ive taken pills and ended up in the hospital bcuz i said goodbye to the wrong person who called an ambulance to my house. i just wanna say goodbye to everyone. and i hope that everyone thinks 2ce before killing themselves. depression is hard to go through . and dont take anti-depressants. they fuck with ur head.. so goodbye everyone.. good bye life. i hate myself and i cant wait to be gone.|
|25 Apr 2006||Sokputhychhorvywin||the best way to kill yourself is either to drown yourself or have an over dose. ive tried having an od but it didnt work i just became restless and colapsed.no one ever knew about this only my closest friends. i also tried to drink toxic liquids, i drank a lid full of nail polish remover and it stung like hell and i coughed alot. that day i was angry because my mum was bribing me about my birthday. she said that if i had the party i couldnt go to Cambodia this was around the middle of february. Now we are going to Cambodia on the 14th of May and i want to go sleep over at my closest friends house for the second time ever and she said that if i go sleep over i cant go to Cambodia and she isnt my mother anymore. Although i have waited for this day since the begginning of school so i didnt sleep over at anyone elses house this year and now i cant go sleep over at anyones house ever again just becaused i asked to sleep over at my closest friends house for the first time this year. I have no choice but to go to Cambodia because if i dont i wont have any food until they come back and i will eventually die because they were going for about 6 weeks. Whenever i am going somewhere special like the city or overseasor to a birthday party or a wedding etc. a special occassion and it was a few days away or a day before the occasion she would bribe me. if you do this you cant go to this or if you dont do this you cant go to this so thats y i always try to kill myself at times and at school there is a girl who is my friend but she acts more like a bully and she gets credit that i want from lying and i am behind and dont lie i try my best and i get ahead so she gets the credit and she can like tease me for fun but when i do it she gets pissed off and just isnt your friend for the day and ive told her to stop and if she doesnt ill do something that she cant stop, she stopped doing these things for ONE day and started again the next day.when i talk to her about this stuff in the morning she says "but i didn't do anything to you" and i say im not just talking about now she gets angry says that she only does because i do it to her and i was just wondering how am i strong enough to push her onto the road and when do i tease her. when do i hit her. when do i trash her room, when do i offend her, when do i go up to teachers and tell them how annoying i am and try to sound like her in a squeaky vioce like im so weak and stupid. she gets praised for lying. when there is a test and i study and get one of the lowest marks but when it comes to my friend she doesnt pay attention in class and doesnt study for a test and she gets one of the highest marks. she acts childish and jokes around and annoys everyone and im mature helping people when they need help and trying to get along with everyone but it just seems that everyone likes her more and im happy for her but i dont annoy and poke people and jump around like a 5 yr old and yet they dislike me. i try so hard to fit in but i never do except once this was when i changed and everyone liked me until high school and now i cant change back to the way i was. i only changed so i could fit in and now i dont fit in with anyone im so different from everyone i cant do anything right anymore and when i try it never works because im short and i try to fit in but i never can and everyone looks at me like im a weirdo and deserves to be in the lowest class ever.|
|25 Apr 2006||I AM READY TO DIE...BUT ARE YOU?||I dont know what is the best way. I have my way - tablets - amitriptyline (ELAVIL) an lots of them, but dont know for certain if they will work. have tried seriously once and another 2 times were crys for help. the next time wont be a cry for help, but a real serious try at self destruction. I AM NOT JOKING PEOPLE I CANNOT TAKE IT NOMORE!! I FIND IT HARD TO BELIEVE THAT MANY PEOPLE FEEL LIKE I DO, LIKE LIFE HAS JUST GONE BEYOND A JOKE AND LIFE IS NOW JUST SOMETHING TO EITHER ENDURE OR GET RID OFF. I HAVE CHOSEN TO GET RID OF MY LIFE, I WANT NOMORE HOPES AN NOMORE TEARS, NOMORE MUSIC NOMORE FIGHTS NOMORE STRIFF NOMORE WOUNDERING NOMORE BADLUCK NOMORE LET DOWNS AND NOMORE FAILURES AND ALSO NOMORE HEARTACHE AND PRAYING. PRAYING HAS GOT ME NOWHERE. it is all crap.
I DO SERIOUSLY WANT OUT, I WANT TO MAKE THE FEELINGS OF LIFE AND CONCIOUSNESS DISAPPEAR. I WANT IT ALL GONE, I DONT KNOW WHY IM TYPING THIS - MAYBE BECAUSE I AM SCARED OF WHAT WILL BECOME OF MYSELF ONCE I SWALLOW THE GET OUT OF JAIL FREE CARD PILLS. ONLY THE PEOPLE WHO FEEL REAL DESPAIR LIKE ME WILL UNDERSTAND WHAT IM SAYING.
OK EVERYDAY ISENT THAT HARD I CAN COPE......BUT.........I CANT.......I DONT WANT TO TRY ANYMORE.....I DONT WANT TO PUT UP WITH THIS LIFE SENTENCE NOMORE.........DONT WANT TO STRUGGLE NOMORE....OK I USED TO WANT TO FIGHT IT AND I USED TO WANT TO LIVE BEFORE....ON AND OFF.
BUT I DONT WANT TO NOW. I HAVE MADE MY CHOICE NOW, WE ALL MUST & I DONT KNOW WHO YOU ARE OR WHAT YOU WANT? TO DIE OR TO LIVE? TO HAVE PAIN OR BE AT PEACE? YES THERE ARE PEOPLE WHO LIKE PAIN....BUT I DONT...........I HATE PAIN VERY MUCH SO....SO MUCH THAT I HAVE CHOSEN TO OPT OUT OF LIFE AND EXCUSE MYSELF FROM THE FEELING OF PAIN AND ALSO OF PLEASURE........I AM NOT A CHILD NOR AM I AN ATTENTION SEEKER I AM JUST TELLING PEOPLE HOW I HAVE COME TO THIS CONCLUSION AND END OF LIFE..........FOR WE WILL ALL COME TO THE END OF OUR LIVES.
AND OK IM ONLY 19 AND MAYBE I AM TO YOUNG TO BE TALKING IN THIS WAY.........BUT......I AM!!! I AM AND I WILL ALWAYS BE WOUNDERING IF LIFE IS WORTH IT.....IS IT WORTH THE STRIFF AND THE PAIN AND THE ARGUMENTS AND ALSO THE PLEASURE AND HAPPINESS THAT IS WHAT I HAVE BEEN WOUNDERING............IS IT??? TO ME TAKING MY OWN LIFE IS WORTH IT, BUT TO YOU IT MAY NOT BE. I HAVE MADE MY MIND UP BUT HAVE YOU? ARE YOU CERTAIN YOU REALLY WANT OUT? PLEASE LISTEN TO ME, I AM GOING TO BE GONE SOON, BUT WHY SHOULD YOU? IM NOT TRYING TO TALK ANYONE OUT OF IT, BUT IF YOU THINK YOU HAVE THE SLIGHTEST GLIMMER OF HOPE THEN MAYBE JUST MAYBE YOU SHOULD HOLD ONTO LIFE.
IF NOT THEN PLEASE JOIN ME IN HELL OR HEAVEN OR NOWHERE ATOL, JUST IN YOUR DREAMS....BUT PLEASE, I BEG YOU BE SURE.....IF YOU THINK YOU HAVE A CHANCE AT LIFE AND HAPPINESS PLEASE GRAB ONTO IT, IF NOT THEN COME WITH ME TO THE PLACES WE DONT KNOW ABOUT AT THE MOMENT, AND REST WITH ME IN ETERNAL PEACE AND ETERNAL NOTHINGNESS (thats if you are not religious, which i am not, i dont believe in any god) BUT IF YOU ARE RELIGIOUS THEN MAYBE YOU SHOULD'NT DIE, ITS UP TO YOU THOUGH, I WOULD HATE TO SWAY ANYONE WHICH WAY BUT.....IF YOU TRUELY CANNOT TAKE IT ANYMORE THEN PLEASE GRAB ONTO THIS HAND......GRAB IT AND TAKE THE GREATEST LEAP OF YOUR LIFE AND JUMP AND MAYBE JUST MAYBE YOU WILL SEE ME IN HEAVEN........OR HELL......OR MAYBE YOU WONT SEE ME ATOL BUT IF YOU WANT TO, LETS ESCAPE THIS EMPTY WORLD TOGETHER AND ENTER ANOTHER PLACE, A PLACE WHICH IS PEACEFUL BUT EMPTY ALSO A PLACE WHERE YOU CAN SCREAM BUT YOU WONT WAKE UP ANOTHER SOUL.
DO YOU ACCEPT MY HAND OR NOT? DO YOU WANT TO END IT OR NOT? MAKE YOUR MIND UP NOW OR LATER. I DO NOT MIND WHICH WAY YOU DECIDE TO GO.................BUT MAYBE YOU SHOULD DECIDE PROPERLY AND IF YOU DECIDE TO COME WITH ME NOW, THEN MAYBE I WILL SEE YOU SOON IN HELL OR HEAVEN...BUT I DONT BELIEVE IN EITHER,,,,,,,,,OR MAYBE I WONT SEE YOU ATOL, MAYBE I WILL HEAR YOUR SCREAMS AND YOUR MIND PONDERING, OR MAYBE I WILL SEE YOU AND SAY HELLO WELCOME TO PEACE? WHICH IS ALL I WANT I JUST WANT PEACE..........DO YOU? OR DO YOU WANT TO HAVE PEACE ALIVE? ALL IS UP TO YOU THO. I GUESS I HAVE MADE MY CHOICE.....YOUR CHOICE IS NOW! HOPEFULLY YOU WILL MAKE THE RIGHT ONE. (MY OWN WORDS AND REALLY HOW I FELT)
|25 Apr 2006||Lynn||This message is for Ben and for all those who read his message. I know there are some people who are motivated to not kill themselves or not do a lot of things for the fear of going to hell where you burn forever and ever. But there are several problems with this theory:
1) The Bible says that only God is immortal, and that the soul that sins will die (1 Timothy 6:15, 16; Job 4:17)
2) Would a loving parent torture a child for one misdeed the way God supposedly tortures every sinner? Isn't that sadistic and cruel?
3) The Bible says that the wicked are burned up and that the saints walk on the ashes (Malachi 4:1, 3). How can that be if they are still burning?
There are other points, but I need to go to bed. If you have questions, write me.