|Reading these suicide pages you will find people seeking help and people offering their help. Some witness about suicide from real life experience, others who play along with me would pretend it's a children's game. Some make sick and cruel jokes about it, and angry people blame me for even mentioning the subject. You might also want to read my favourite answers. If you want your answer to be included here, fill in the form.|
What is the best way to kill yourself when you're under 13?
Quelle est la meilleure forme de suicide pour les moins de 13 ans?
|25 Jul 2006||one night stand||well i think im gonna kil myself for sure now
so my birthday was on the 19th...and i got drunk......for the first time.....it was fun at first and then i was just hangin with my friend and shit....so we were both prty drunk...me more than her.....and we were talkin to sum a the guys at her bar and then we went outside...me my friend and 3 guys....
so we went to the pier by the lake and me and this 24 yr old guy started to make out and shit.....and im only 15...so thats not good.....so we were jus makin out and touchin and shit....then we ended up havin sex.....without fuckin protection....we didnt do it fo that long cuz my friend stopped us...cuz i told her not to let me have sex.....cuz i was a virgin...but yea so she stopped it...but i thik i mite b fuckin pregnant and if i turn out to b pregnant im gonna fuckin kill myself....i have no one to turn to to help me with this cuz if i tld my mom i wud b fuckin dead and if i tld my dad....we wnt go there.....ither way im fucked....so idk wat to do.....but yea i will kill myslef if i find out i am pregnant......so good bye
One night stand
|25 Jul 2006||HATERFOREVER||It's all right to be filled with hate, people are stupid!!!!!
so what if i hate???
if you don't like my posts don't read them for fuck sake!!
I love to write. I used to hate writing with a passion, when I was in high school. In fact, I often couldnt do it. Write a story, they would say. About what? Whatever you like. Three words that struck terror in my heart. You mean, make something up? Be creative? I cant do that.! when i was younger i an NOW !! LOL!!!
hate people. More specifically, I hate people who are stupid, self-centred or have no character. And at one time or another, you could fit anyone into one of these categories - yes, including myself! - so there you go. I dont think those criteria are unreasonable but I suppose they are pretty unrealistic. Anyway I spend quite a bit of time alone. Like now, when Im toying with the idea of going out but where, and with whom?????????????????????????????
|25 Jul 2006||Dave Marshall||I was diagnosed with depression last january 2005 and since then things just seem to be getting worse i lost my dad on the 8th of may this year which was hard enough but about 5weeks ago my wife of 9years left me and took my kids with her now all iwant to do is die plenty of people keep telling me to be strong and things will get better but i am sorry i just dont see it myself. I cant eat or sleep properly she wants me out of the house so that she can sell it but i have nowhere that i can go i came to this town because my wife lived here so i lost touch with the few friends that i had along time ago and now i just feel like i am sinking furter into depression i have tried a few overdoses but they have just made me ill and miss work because i was so sick that now i might lose my job due to so much time off work so you see that suicide looks like the best option at the moment has everyday seems more pointless than the last and i seem to have lost my will to go on i know that you are a stranger but none of the people round me know what i am going through and hopefully you wont judge me for the way i am feeling|
|24 Jul 2006||cyndi||Hey. Guys? Gals? The sigh and the blood dripping is a little over the top. Unless you want me to feel as if I just killed a child living inside of a computer program. I'm into guilt trips - why not add one more wacky one?
Boy, it reminds me of some of the head trips I heard about in psych class.
Did you know that gmail never throws anything out? And, they may have access to my complete goofy letters to everyone else when I used different email programs. Do you work for NSA? Are you part of Bush's homeland security?
Now, I really don't like the blood dripping on the screen. And I don't like the little boy crying and dying. It's a lie. Unless there really are ghosts in my computer (that darn transference again), but if there are, how can they be killed when they are already ghosts?
Transference aside, though, it really is tacky.
Did you want anyone with a brain to take you seriously and respect your bandwidth?
Now, I'm getting witchy. Will you be telling me to take an anger management class soon - people aren't supposed to express dissatisfaction; are we?
Have fun being objective. I'm sure it's a lofty career. Oh, by the way, I'm a little obsessive-compulsive. And you're a program. Hooked up to a bunch of cogs. I might visit you every day.
Did you have to consult a lawyer before putting up this site? Do you understand the basics of journalism so that when you edit messages you do not cause libel against any entity?
Curiosity killed a cat. Which one of us will ...
|24 Jul 2006||cyndi||Why, hello again.
How about a disclaimer. :) Disclaimers can come in handy. :)
Next - there's a little story that I learned about. It was about fish. A lady at a pet store - you know - a lady who keeps the fish in the tank so that she can sell them to whoever for whatever reason they have - told me how nosy people called researchers did all sorts of experiments on the fish to see if fish feel pain. Have you ever seen a fish out of water? The fish look happy to you? Well, these researchers know better than to trust something as simple as observing a fish out of water. They had to go the extra mile and devise experiments to see if fish feel pain. I don't know what the experiments were. But the researchers gathered lots and lots of data. Data was very important while they performed many, many kinds of experiments on the fish.
In the end, even though anyone who is not blind can watch a fish out of water flop all over the place gasping for air, the researchers concluded that fish feel no pain. But, data - ah - data is important.
So, to cheer myself up, I sometimes envision doing experiments on researchers, or whoever allows things that aren't quite kosher (kosher - that's a rule about not causing animals pain even if it is only suspected pain or doing things like tricking or lying to innocent people), to see if they feel pain.
Sometimes that cheers me up. But, it is not a nice thought. But, it does cheer me up for some reason. Until it just makes me wonder more and more and more. Fish. Who's the fish?
|24 Jul 2006||cyndi||Gee - are you gonna put my email and name on the web page?
I may have had a lightbulb go off. Maybe your website is to allow someone to talk about their pain and suicidal ideation in such a way that has been declared legal. But, this is a tricky idea in my head. Because, everyone knows that web pages that become the happenstance of suicide pacts have become an international concern - Japan for some reason having the highest problem with this.
Maybe you're trying to help somehow. I don't know.
But, if you really want to help, legislation of some sort needs to be passed to free clinicians to do their jobs without locking people up. Obviously, if someone poses a threat to someone else or to a child, that makes sense to lock them up. But, the police in their police science classes have been taught that suicidal people are on the same coin as homicidal people. I haven't done the research, so I can't argue with them. But, I've heard stories about those tender-hearted missionaries of justice and how they crack jokes about the "crazies" who attempt suicide, be it a scratch with a pencil or something deeper. I know that cops have hard jobs, but they could use some enlightenment.
Another group that needs release are clinicians themselves. They get burned out with suicide attemptees. Of any age! Once someone attempts suicide, their interest rate, on the whole - not in particular, goes down for that individual. It's a way of distancing themselves.
Am I BoThErInG you? Well, you wanted feedback - right?
Do you think that because I'm not 13, in case you haven't guessed yet, that you can't get some decent feedback?
Do you really, really want me to tell some kid who pops onto this board how to kill him or herself? Maybe you pull out the bonafide sure proof ones - heck I don't know what you're fishing for. No one has the money to hunt down suicidal kids and lock them up if they post comments into your web page.
Here's a suggestion. Help the scardy cats who don't want to kill themselves, but are in so much pain that they just might do so, know who to talk to in person.
Getting personal for just a moment, I was scared to call a suicide hotline once because I was afraid they'd trace my call and put me in lock up. So, I went to a pay phone and called. The fellow was so good. He assured me that they didn't have a budget to trace calls especially from phone booths since it was all volunteer. And, he talked to me like a person, not as if he was reading from a script.
I have lots of suicidal ideation. It is hard to keep it to my chest. If this website is for the purpose of giving kids a place to vent that ideation, then maybe you are attempting something good.
But, if they are a little off, and truly in pain, with no feedback, they may rely on their introspection alone, and too much introspection can go south -
You need a link for some sort of obvious support. Someone is allowing this site...
i'll probably visit again.
|24 Jul 2006||cyndi||I know that this page is illegal if it is at all sincere. So, you are the one playing the cruel trick.
There is a very real problem for both patients and clinicians (let's not even get into law enforcers or clergy) regarding suicide ideation. The entire problem hinges on the law that if a person presents himself or herself to be a danger to self or others, a clinician must report the person for lock up. Whoever is behind this website should be ashamed of themselves, because you're not going to help reduce this catch 22. Patients need to discuss suicidal ideation. Clinicians (clergy and law enforcers, etc.) must make judgement calls about when they have to lock someone up or else they run the risk of losing their licenses. There needs to be a loosening of this ridiculous law, so that people with suicide ideation can start to get it out of their system and get to the roots of their sadness. In Great Britain, efforts have been made with the Samaritans (who by the way are accessible to people outside of their juridiction via the internet). But, they must follow a script which doesn't allow the person contacting them the release they need. In addition, the States have various suicide hotlines, and they too, for the most part, are trained to use a script. But, in some cases, they will fudge on this rule a little bit if they feel they can provide a listening ear. But, what really needs to happen is for some sort of legislation which will free the proper mental health care provider to do their job. What would happen if someone with a heart condition was told at the onset, "If you tell me about any symptoms where you feel pain in your chest, neck, or arms, I'll have to lock you up"? Pretty obvious, huh?
So, whatever the point of this web page is, I think that you should 'fess up and play straight. Any one who's ever been to a shrink knows the drill.
|24 Jul 2006||marcos||metiendome en una piscina, y quedandome dormido...|
|24 Jul 2006||Terri||There is no best way.
My grandfather killed himself last year. He was 58 and even that was too young.
Suicide is not the answer.
Our whole family is so screwed up now (even more than before).
|24 Jul 2006||whats the best way to kill yourself??
Just Change your identity.?? then you would be dead!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
|24 Jul 2006||Rachael||hmmmmm.. when i was 13 i had tried killing myself many timnes by slashing my wrist open with knives,razors.anything sharp did i really wont to do yes did i have enough stupidity to cut deep enough no.....know that ive gottin older i realize trying to kill myself was the wrost thing that i have ever done..i have ever thing to live for..i live for my niece.my mom,my brother,my friends,and everything else that makes me happy in life realize i didnt list my dad ull find out here in a minute...ohhh yeah people say u cut urself for attention..thats only if u dont try to cover them up..im really ashamed of my scars on my arms.....i original came on this site becuz i had searched "has ur dad ever pionted a gun at you" and i came upon this..yeah my dad has. and then just like 15 minutes ago he pointed the gun at my mom while i was upstairs looking at myspace.so i ran dowstairs cuz i heard my mom screaming..i thought he had slapped her again.put no there my mom was sitting in her sit covering her face and then i see my dad standing over her at point blank range "the gun like a foot away from her face"i thoughtt he had slaped her because she was holding her face but she said he didnt(know that i think of her i wonder if he had pistol whiped her) so my dad starts walking away i get up in hes face and yell at him "did u hit mom?"he doesnt answer oh yeah i forgot to tell you this hes really crazy like no joke and he also has pointed the gun at me before (at my feet hahaha)...so he goes and sits down in hes chair holding the gun so i grab a knife and say what would u do if i sliced your throat!! i laugh i hold the knife to his throat..he has the gun pointed at my stomache..i say do u think that scares me "you pionting a gun at me" i laugh "no" "YOUR FUCKING CRAZY" i scream and then after that i walk away and hes still pointing the gun at me so i just stand there looking at him about 5 feet away from him and tell him to shoot well of coures im writing this now so apperiantly he didnt .i dont think he would have the guts to shoot me.the fucking pussy..i mean seriously i hate it when he fucking acts like this i mean he used to be a "dad" but now hes like psycho.....oh well im just waiting for him to shot me..i wish he would so i can just laugh at him and dial 911 and tell them to come get the crazy bastard yeah yeah i know what ur thinking what if you die my mom will call unless he kills her too. and then my brother will come over find us or dad becuz hes already disposed of the bodys and my brother will ask where we are and my dad will be like 6 feet under my brother will go crazy cuz he knows how our dad is call 911 hopefully after he shoots my dads brains out..so u know he can say my dad commeted suicide after he shoot us..haha revenge is sweet... i guess ill get back on this site and keep u up dated and shit..|
|24 Jul 2006||Nicole||Either cut your wrist until you bleed to death. Or hang yourself. Jump off a building head first. drown yourself. play the pass out game and kill yourself. take a bunch of drugs and you will never wake up. or, find a gun and shoot yourself.|
|24 Jul 2006||chey||overdose on pills|
|24 Jul 2006||Jemma||There has never been a good way to commit suicide! And there never will be! I have tried many times to do it and I have always failed! But now I have slowly come to relise that yes it takes guts to commit suicide but it also takes guts to stand up and say that I will not go without a fight! Life is what you make it out to be! I fought bullies every year at school! i eventually dropped out because i couldn't take the pressure! They laughed and hurt me and dragged me so far down that I did not care about what i was doing to myself or friends/family around me. I wanted to belong so badly, but made myself an outcast! I cut myself, hurt myself in ways that caused so much pain to myself and others, that I felt ashamed! I hid my life and hurt my life, but i am bouncing back! Suicide is no way to go! I am now a football coach, i have 4 beautiful nieces and 2 handsome nephews who look up to me. My best friend sees me as strong when times get rough! I broke my family, but i am now repairing it slowly! Suicide is no way forward! Is is an end to a challenge! So don't stop fighting the challenge! Goodness eventually comes to those who wait! It came to me.....|
|23 Jul 2006||Kayleigh||Hi! i've was once suicidal! but i had ppl that helped me! i thought no body cared bout me! but there was ppl that helped me b happy, that just goes 2 show that there r alot of ppl that care bout u n me! like ppl on this site trying 2 pursuade ppl that want 2 die not 2 do it! coz they care bout u! just coz they dnt no u dnt mean they dnt care! (we dnt care) there r ppl that care bout ppl! i've met ppl that want 2 die! n it really upsets me! coz i care bout ppl! i became their friend! just like u guys can find friends that care bout u n want 2 2 b alive! n enjoy life! coz life changes! things change! please give life a chance! the ppl that want 2 help u tell their own sorty 4 a reason! coz they felt like u once n they want 2 show u that things change just like it did 4 them! n now they r happy! my dad died when i was 7 n i suffered through my child hood coz i am with out a dad! my uncle commited suicide n his children suffered coz they hav no dad! if their dad hadn't commited suicide then they'd b happy n not suffering with their loss! just like i suffered! my uncle shud hav bin happy that he was blessed with children that love him! those of u that r young, u can hav a family 1 day of ur own 2 love n who will love u!! so please! giv life a chance!!
With Much Love
|23 Jul 2006||POSTS!||mouchette! Why the fuck are you not putting your posts out in the second day?????????????
Put them out in the second day after the day they get posted please!!!!!!!
|23 Jul 2006||Maritza||Well I'm not under 13. Actually I'm 17 and I hate my life. I wish every bad day that I have that I want to die. When I say this I am not joking. I have attempted it and I want to attempt it again. I HATE LIFE. No one understand me, no one trys to and I hate it. Me being off this earth and dead will be good for a lot of people. So for those kids whoo are feeling like me... you can get help but if you dont want to, dont get help.|
|23 Jul 2006||HATER FOREVER||Music is everything to me, my heart, my soul, my love, my anger, my fear, my security!
It is my voice. It is through music that I speak, through music that I understand. I have so much to say, so much to express, I must do it all through and with music.
Life is so full of mystery. There is so much to find, so much to discover. I want to learn it all! There seems to be so little time to live. You must take advantage of each and every day as if it were your last. Don't let anything slip through your fingers. Seize it while you have the chance.kill it in so many words! I have so many questions, so many hopes and desires. I can only wait... and keep dreaming...
Where would I be without music? Utterly lost! A girl with no dreams, no hopes, no love. A life with no music is a life of emptiness. How I live for music!
LIFE TO ME IS SHIT WITH OUT MUSIC
MUSIC IS BETTER THAN YOU FUCKING ARSEHOLES!
SO DON'T BOTHER QUESTIONING MY ACTIONS I AM WHO I AM AND I HATE YOU!!
The one and only hater forever
|23 Jul 2006||HATER FOREVER||what i wrote before!
I will tell you my story!
people have screwed my life up! To a point where I wont get better ever again!
I have spent my whole life being scared of people and know i am scared shitless of the out side world!
I wish my family would move us to a different area!
I will tell you the way people have treated me!
WHERE i live i have no friends no realtionships there s nothing here for me!
I have gone completely mad because people wont leave me alone! And keep bullying me because i am not very good looking to a lot of people D:
I have done some things that would make your stomach crawl! well self harmed thats it!
I have been bullied here since i was 3 years old and other places not just where i live all because i am not vey good looking right!
Theres more to come!
Right now i have no one!
I have nothing to do here!
People dont understand me. My family dont understand me, I have a repuation for being someone i am not!
things have happened in my life that as made me angry!
Life is crap for somepeople and not crap for others!
Alll i would like to do is move away but that will never happen!
OH GOD WHAT CAN I DO!
all i get is " your an ugly freak and your ugly etc "
My family dont understand me!
I hope i find a job on line to do and keep it if not its the streets for me!
I am 25 years old and my family keep telling me to get lost but i can't i am too scared to be out there in the out side world!
I have spent most of my time doing things alone and housebound to!
My whole family have never got it easy and neither we wont and we are not close and i feel like i was never ment to be!
Oh christ what a sick uncaring world we all live in!
There are people who are ouitcasts you know the ones who dont fit anywhere
The rejects the losers the outcasts etc!
Well I am one of them outcasts!
I have been called all sorts of things in my time, UGLY,FAT, FREAKY,WEIRDO, SMELLY, GREASY, STUPID and loads more!
I have had bullying which has scared the crap out of me!
I am no longer apart of people around where I live I am a outcast from them!
I have always believed I am the only ugliest person about but I guess I am not really:
I am so starnge you know what I wish I could just get out of here but I am too scared to, plus people where I live are still noseing in my life! They dont care about me..
Just talking about me and I tried to do my self once because of people hateing me for being ugly and they dont care!
I HATE THOSE PEOPLE NOW I HATE THEM!
Why Are The Ugly People Rejects!
Why Is It that no one cares about ugly people!!
When A black person gets Discriminated Against there is a Law for something to be done about it..
But when it is a ugly person being Discriminated against no one cares!
I guess thats what happens when you dont have proper laws in a country to stop things from happening.
You never see an ugly woman with a boyfriend or husband at that.
But the woman do tend to go for the ugly men? Why is that ?
Also its so unfair that people have to end up in a shit life because there not very good looking!
Why are people strange with someone who is different?!
I want to get to the bottom of all this,
I think its about time this stupid behaviour stopped.!
Why is it that ugly people have hardly any life?
If you are ugly and you are a reject it lowers your IQ,
Yes Rejection Lowers IQ and makes people aggressive and that cant be good!
Back to my topic also, I want to know is why people went out to hurt me for real that my life got screwed up over! People have tried to screw with my head growing up! JEZ
Well also I am so well I dunno really because I am just strange to a lot of people where I live.
No one here likes me and someone thinks I have boyfriends WELL A NEWS FLASH FOR THAT PERSON I DONT HAVE A BOYFRIEND DUH!
Anyway back to my topic¬
Thats all for now!
I am stuck at home where everything is controlled by my fucking parents and I want out but I see no hope or end to me ever leaving home,! Or findng friends or even getting married!
Plus I am so wrong in my head I am So depressed in my mind!!!
I want to get rid of it my depression!
I hope my life gets better!
But I bet it wont!
Fuck the whole screwed up fucked up planet we all live on!!
FUCK YOU EARTH!
PS: The best way to kill your self would be to Well check out the bloody stupid ways to go section morons!!
I HATE YOU ME AND EVERYONE ELSE OUT THERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
FUCK YOU ALL!!! TOSSERS!!!
now just to add some more:
Just to add Noone wants me around includeing my family think i am not goodlooking enough! for them , and no its NOT becasue of my selfish way of talking, i DO CARE about the world a FUCKING LOT! So kiss my arse, you tossers, and i think your all scum bags the lot of you!
AND I DON'T CARE WHAT YOU THINK ABOUT THE WRITEING HERE, THIS IS MY ADDING TO THIS STUPID SHITTY CREATION OF MOUCHETTE'S WEBSITE!!!!
The One and Only Hater forever.
Post it all mouchette!
|22 Jul 2006||notalonenemore1||Why do you all want to take the easy way out in life. whose going to know whats on your mind if you fucking kill yourself. And to all of you who have something to say about me being on this website FUCK YOU ALL. I have been in your situation probably in even worser situations. Let me tell you a little about my life. When i was 8 months old i was molested then put in scolding hot water, By the time i was 5 i knew exactly how to give a blow job. When i turned 11 i found out i had to std's and that i was pregnant. This all happened to me by my father. When i turned 12 my father took our baby and sold her to some person off the streets. He then started pimping me out after school to the people he worked with. At school i was labeled a deadbeat a looser, a whore, a bitch , a tramp, what ever you can think i was probably called. I was beaten up at least 4 times a day. When boy bullies came after me they would force me to give them oral sex. That shit happened on a daily basis for years. But thats not all my fucking parents didn't give a shit about me to my mother i was just a fucking mistake to my father i was i was just a bitch with good pussy and great head. i had no one to talk to. No fucking friends i came home to no one there. Black walls. Thats the first time i tried to kill myself. I went to the bathroom and drank 5 different types of cleaner, it worked. I lied on my bathroom floor dead for 2 minutes. Then i woke up in a hospital. I was told that i had only a few seconds left before they couldn't have saved me. I am now 24 years old. I am married and i have a great life now. I want everyone on this website to think about what your about to do or what you are thinking about doing. Believe me i never thought life would be better for me. I am with a counselor, I am also in the military. I travel the world and i talk to people about my life. Life seems like shit when no-one knows whats going on. Tell someone anyone especially a counselor or a teacher go to the hospital talk to a doctor. When your dead, your just that Dead Going out the easy way. I thought suicide was the answer. I found out it was more painful than anything. Drinking cleaner was not the only way it tried to kill myself. Please think about what your doing first. There's always someone out there whose in a worser situation. If you want to talk to me just email me. Don't let everyone out there win. Suicide is the easy way out. Talking to someone about your problem is alot better. And to everyone who thinks i sound like a counselor FUCK YOU. i want to help get someone off this website. Those who don't understand. Take the easy way out. Take away your little pain. I guarentee it will only cause alot more to the ones you thought don't give a damn. I'm finished i hope that my story has helped someone.|