|Reading these suicide pages you will find people seeking help and people offering their help. Some witness about suicide from real life experience, others who play along with me would pretend it's a children's game. Some make sick and cruel jokes about it, and angry people blame me for even mentioning the subject. You might also want to read my favourite answers. If you want your answer to be included here, fill in the form.|
What is the best way to kill yourself when you're under 13?
Quelle est la meilleure forme de suicide pour les moins de 13 ans?
|26 Apr 2006||Paige||ive tried to kill myself 2ce. and im 17 years old. my parents are divorved, my sisters hate me, my boyfriend scares me sometimes, and i hate everything. ive given up on all hope. ive been with my boyfriend for 2 years and seriously hass been a long 2 years. all we do is fight. i sit up till 5am every night. i cant sleep i havnt eaten in a week.. im slowly killing myself. ive taken pills and ended up in the hospital bcuz i said goodbye to the wrong person who called an ambulance to my house. i just wanna say goodbye to everyone. and i hope that everyone thinks 2ce before killing themselves. depression is hard to go through . and dont take anti-depressants. they fuck with ur head.. so goodbye everyone.. good bye life. i hate myself and i cant wait to be gone.|
|25 Apr 2006||Sokputhychhorvywin||the best way to kill yourself is either to drown yourself or have an over dose. ive tried having an od but it didnt work i just became restless and colapsed.no one ever knew about this only my closest friends. i also tried to drink toxic liquids, i drank a lid full of nail polish remover and it stung like hell and i coughed alot. that day i was angry because my mum was bribing me about my birthday. she said that if i had the party i couldnt go to Cambodia this was around the middle of february. Now we are going to Cambodia on the 14th of May and i want to go sleep over at my closest friends house for the second time ever and she said that if i go sleep over i cant go to Cambodia and she isnt my mother anymore. Although i have waited for this day since the begginning of school so i didnt sleep over at anyone elses house this year and now i cant go sleep over at anyones house ever again just becaused i asked to sleep over at my closest friends house for the first time this year. I have no choice but to go to Cambodia because if i dont i wont have any food until they come back and i will eventually die because they were going for about 6 weeks. Whenever i am going somewhere special like the city or overseasor to a birthday party or a wedding etc. a special occassion and it was a few days away or a day before the occasion she would bribe me. if you do this you cant go to this or if you dont do this you cant go to this so thats y i always try to kill myself at times and at school there is a girl who is my friend but she acts more like a bully and she gets credit that i want from lying and i am behind and dont lie i try my best and i get ahead so she gets the credit and she can like tease me for fun but when i do it she gets pissed off and just isnt your friend for the day and ive told her to stop and if she doesnt ill do something that she cant stop, she stopped doing these things for ONE day and started again the next day.when i talk to her about this stuff in the morning she says "but i didn't do anything to you" and i say im not just talking about now she gets angry says that she only does because i do it to her and i was just wondering how am i strong enough to push her onto the road and when do i tease her. when do i hit her. when do i trash her room, when do i offend her, when do i go up to teachers and tell them how annoying i am and try to sound like her in a squeaky vioce like im so weak and stupid. she gets praised for lying. when there is a test and i study and get one of the lowest marks but when it comes to my friend she doesnt pay attention in class and doesnt study for a test and she gets one of the highest marks. she acts childish and jokes around and annoys everyone and im mature helping people when they need help and trying to get along with everyone but it just seems that everyone likes her more and im happy for her but i dont annoy and poke people and jump around like a 5 yr old and yet they dislike me. i try so hard to fit in but i never do except once this was when i changed and everyone liked me until high school and now i cant change back to the way i was. i only changed so i could fit in and now i dont fit in with anyone im so different from everyone i cant do anything right anymore and when i try it never works because im short and i try to fit in but i never can and everyone looks at me like im a weirdo and deserves to be in the lowest class ever.|
|25 Apr 2006||I AM READY TO DIE...BUT ARE YOU?||I dont know what is the best way. I have my way - tablets - amitriptyline (ELAVIL) an lots of them, but dont know for certain if they will work. have tried seriously once and another 2 times were crys for help. the next time wont be a cry for help, but a real serious try at self destruction. I AM NOT JOKING PEOPLE I CANNOT TAKE IT NOMORE!! I FIND IT HARD TO BELIEVE THAT MANY PEOPLE FEEL LIKE I DO, LIKE LIFE HAS JUST GONE BEYOND A JOKE AND LIFE IS NOW JUST SOMETHING TO EITHER ENDURE OR GET RID OFF. I HAVE CHOSEN TO GET RID OF MY LIFE, I WANT NOMORE HOPES AN NOMORE TEARS, NOMORE MUSIC NOMORE FIGHTS NOMORE STRIFF NOMORE WOUNDERING NOMORE BADLUCK NOMORE LET DOWNS AND NOMORE FAILURES AND ALSO NOMORE HEARTACHE AND PRAYING. PRAYING HAS GOT ME NOWHERE. it is all crap.
I DO SERIOUSLY WANT OUT, I WANT TO MAKE THE FEELINGS OF LIFE AND CONCIOUSNESS DISAPPEAR. I WANT IT ALL GONE, I DONT KNOW WHY IM TYPING THIS - MAYBE BECAUSE I AM SCARED OF WHAT WILL BECOME OF MYSELF ONCE I SWALLOW THE GET OUT OF JAIL FREE CARD PILLS. ONLY THE PEOPLE WHO FEEL REAL DESPAIR LIKE ME WILL UNDERSTAND WHAT IM SAYING.
OK EVERYDAY ISENT THAT HARD I CAN COPE......BUT.........I CANT.......I DONT WANT TO TRY ANYMORE.....I DONT WANT TO PUT UP WITH THIS LIFE SENTENCE NOMORE.........DONT WANT TO STRUGGLE NOMORE....OK I USED TO WANT TO FIGHT IT AND I USED TO WANT TO LIVE BEFORE....ON AND OFF.
BUT I DONT WANT TO NOW. I HAVE MADE MY CHOICE NOW, WE ALL MUST & I DONT KNOW WHO YOU ARE OR WHAT YOU WANT? TO DIE OR TO LIVE? TO HAVE PAIN OR BE AT PEACE? YES THERE ARE PEOPLE WHO LIKE PAIN....BUT I DONT...........I HATE PAIN VERY MUCH SO....SO MUCH THAT I HAVE CHOSEN TO OPT OUT OF LIFE AND EXCUSE MYSELF FROM THE FEELING OF PAIN AND ALSO OF PLEASURE........I AM NOT A CHILD NOR AM I AN ATTENTION SEEKER I AM JUST TELLING PEOPLE HOW I HAVE COME TO THIS CONCLUSION AND END OF LIFE..........FOR WE WILL ALL COME TO THE END OF OUR LIVES.
AND OK IM ONLY 19 AND MAYBE I AM TO YOUNG TO BE TALKING IN THIS WAY.........BUT......I AM!!! I AM AND I WILL ALWAYS BE WOUNDERING IF LIFE IS WORTH IT.....IS IT WORTH THE STRIFF AND THE PAIN AND THE ARGUMENTS AND ALSO THE PLEASURE AND HAPPINESS THAT IS WHAT I HAVE BEEN WOUNDERING............IS IT??? TO ME TAKING MY OWN LIFE IS WORTH IT, BUT TO YOU IT MAY NOT BE. I HAVE MADE MY MIND UP BUT HAVE YOU? ARE YOU CERTAIN YOU REALLY WANT OUT? PLEASE LISTEN TO ME, I AM GOING TO BE GONE SOON, BUT WHY SHOULD YOU? IM NOT TRYING TO TALK ANYONE OUT OF IT, BUT IF YOU THINK YOU HAVE THE SLIGHTEST GLIMMER OF HOPE THEN MAYBE JUST MAYBE YOU SHOULD HOLD ONTO LIFE.
IF NOT THEN PLEASE JOIN ME IN HELL OR HEAVEN OR NOWHERE ATOL, JUST IN YOUR DREAMS....BUT PLEASE, I BEG YOU BE SURE.....IF YOU THINK YOU HAVE A CHANCE AT LIFE AND HAPPINESS PLEASE GRAB ONTO IT, IF NOT THEN COME WITH ME TO THE PLACES WE DONT KNOW ABOUT AT THE MOMENT, AND REST WITH ME IN ETERNAL PEACE AND ETERNAL NOTHINGNESS (thats if you are not religious, which i am not, i dont believe in any god) BUT IF YOU ARE RELIGIOUS THEN MAYBE YOU SHOULD'NT DIE, ITS UP TO YOU THOUGH, I WOULD HATE TO SWAY ANYONE WHICH WAY BUT.....IF YOU TRUELY CANNOT TAKE IT ANYMORE THEN PLEASE GRAB ONTO THIS HAND......GRAB IT AND TAKE THE GREATEST LEAP OF YOUR LIFE AND JUMP AND MAYBE JUST MAYBE YOU WILL SEE ME IN HEAVEN........OR HELL......OR MAYBE YOU WONT SEE ME ATOL BUT IF YOU WANT TO, LETS ESCAPE THIS EMPTY WORLD TOGETHER AND ENTER ANOTHER PLACE, A PLACE WHICH IS PEACEFUL BUT EMPTY ALSO A PLACE WHERE YOU CAN SCREAM BUT YOU WONT WAKE UP ANOTHER SOUL.
DO YOU ACCEPT MY HAND OR NOT? DO YOU WANT TO END IT OR NOT? MAKE YOUR MIND UP NOW OR LATER. I DO NOT MIND WHICH WAY YOU DECIDE TO GO.................BUT MAYBE YOU SHOULD DECIDE PROPERLY AND IF YOU DECIDE TO COME WITH ME NOW, THEN MAYBE I WILL SEE YOU SOON IN HELL OR HEAVEN...BUT I DONT BELIEVE IN EITHER,,,,,,,,,OR MAYBE I WONT SEE YOU ATOL, MAYBE I WILL HEAR YOUR SCREAMS AND YOUR MIND PONDERING, OR MAYBE I WILL SEE YOU AND SAY HELLO WELCOME TO PEACE? WHICH IS ALL I WANT I JUST WANT PEACE..........DO YOU? OR DO YOU WANT TO HAVE PEACE ALIVE? ALL IS UP TO YOU THO. I GUESS I HAVE MADE MY CHOICE.....YOUR CHOICE IS NOW! HOPEFULLY YOU WILL MAKE THE RIGHT ONE. (MY OWN WORDS AND REALLY HOW I FELT)
|25 Apr 2006||Lynn||This message is for Ben and for all those who read his message. I know there are some people who are motivated to not kill themselves or not do a lot of things for the fear of going to hell where you burn forever and ever. But there are several problems with this theory:
1) The Bible says that only God is immortal, and that the soul that sins will die (1 Timothy 6:15, 16; Job 4:17)
2) Would a loving parent torture a child for one misdeed the way God supposedly tortures every sinner? Isn't that sadistic and cruel?
3) The Bible says that the wicked are burned up and that the saints walk on the ashes (Malachi 4:1, 3). How can that be if they are still burning?
There are other points, but I need to go to bed. If you have questions, write me.
|25 Apr 2006||Ben||Weve all heard it said: Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. And this is true with no exceptions. Im 21 and started having suicidal thoughts around 15. Tried to end it all few times hanging twice, suffocation, and just starting cutting bout two months ago. Grew up in a good family, my mom and dad were always good to me, but I was always unhappy. Always feel like shit, completely empty and worthless inside and my soul is black. My grandparents on both sides were abusive and men in my church were too. Ive been physically and sexually abused and am a victim of satanic ritual abuse. If you want to know what that is, email me. Ive been fucked in the ass so many times I could care less anymore. Whats one more fuck? Really, Im already screwed up so much I dont care anymore. But theres always been one thing thats kept me hanging on. I want everyone to listen to this cause what Im gonna say is true. I also know there is a lot of anti-religious feelings among you all but hear me out. I do go to church - in part of keep me sane - have read the bible in search of meaning, and have learned a few things along the way. But just because Im religious dont think I cant relate to you cause Ive been to the edge more than once.
Ok heres what Ive got to say: I want you to know what happens when you die. If you are not in Christ, you are condemned to hell. When youre body dies, your soul leaves the body and the first thing youll see are angels. They will escort your soul to Sheol Hades (aka hell), which is only a temporary holding place before eternal torment. I dont know what happens there but its not pleasant. Its painful and torturous. But its only temporary because at the end of all things Christ will return to earth, destroy his enemies, and judge all of mankind. This is called the Great White Throne Judgment where all who have not accepted Jesus as their savior will be judged according to what they did with their life. Earth and sky will flee and one by one each person will have to stand before Jesus who is seated on a white throne. All mouths will be shut and arguments ceased. How will you be able to argue with the One who created you and gave you life? And when it is shown that you are deserving of eternal judgment, Christ will say Depart from me because I never knew you, and at this point angels will seize you and throw you into the Lake of Fire. This is the second death, its different from hell, and its forever. In the Lake of Fire there will be no partying. There you will be all alone, not able to see anyone because it will be deathly black. But you will be able to hear the screams and crying of every other person there because there will be millions. A fire will continually burn at your skin but you wont die because you will have an eternal body to go with your eternal soul. You will be in absolute agony but the soul will hurt the most. You will have eternal regret about your earthly life and you will scream at God in anger and hate for condemning you there and then when you cant scream any more you will weep uncontrollably. Weep because of the pain and because you wont be able to handle it but you wont have a choice. And you will be forever alienated from God, who is the source of all life and everything good. And this will go on forever and ever and ever and ever and will never end.
Im not saved yet and if I were to die right now this would be my fate. And this is what keeps me hanging on. Everytime I want to end my life I think of life after death and what awaits me and I decide I can go on. I have to. I dont want to die the second death. And I dont want you to either. And you dont have to. Every time you think of committing suicide think of this: First, that Jesus loves you and he bled and died for you to save you from eternal torment; and second, if you hate Jesus and dont give a fuck, then you will be condemned to the Lake of Fire forever. And that will be far worse than what youre suffering right now.
You probably think Im crazy for believing this but what do you believe? And what credible source do you have for youre beliefs? Go read the bible if you dont believe me cause this is what it says. Read Revelations. But just remember, anything youve suffered Jesus has suffered too and He knows what you are going through. He cries when you cry and He loves you even when nobody else give a crap about you. His love has kept me hanging on. Maybe his love will touch you too.
|25 Apr 2006||funny boy||im 15 an iv tryed to kill my self 4 times by od in hangin (2 times) cutin my wrists. frends only know a bout wen i slit my wrises (dident cut deep enuth) tellin them that was a bad idea i should of just sed i tryed to kill myself. cuz every time they talk about suicide they all look at me. im so ashamed. my mum & dad hav no idea i feel this way an my frends think im over it cuz i hide it with joks yep im the asshole funny boy every one hates.
its like a cach 22
the more i feel deprsed
the more i hide it
the more i hide it
the more people hate me
the more people hate me
the more i feel deprsed
and so on and so forth
|25 Apr 2006||(sigh)|| well i just lost the last reason to live. im 15 and in love with a girl who diched me for sum twat who got her drunk an convinsed her to wank him off! and even thow this is the sadisd day of my life i cant cry. its strange i cant realy feel any thing NOTHING all i feel is pain and love.
my head is pritty messed up so im goin to spred it all over the wall l8r.
|25 Apr 2006||damon magnus||thats why i came here.. 4 years to late though|
|25 Apr 2006||Melissa sky||hi!!!i've posted something here b4 im melissa sky and let me tell u ya all just have 2 get a shrink it works i've got a shrink and im doing much better i do not want 2 die im seeing life 4 what it really is and it is not worth it dont do it u bolive it or not u have people that love u and will be soooooooo hurt if u do it just do aint notthing worth it nothing just talk 2 some 1 and if u were like me and didn't have i write 2 me my email addres is email@example.com or DaTpHiLlYdImE@MSN.COM PLEASE HIT ME UP B4 U DO ANYTHING OKAY GOD LOVES AND SO DO I EVEN DO I DONT KNOW U OKAY PLEASE WRITE TO ME LOVE YA MELISSA SKY!!!|
|25 Apr 2006||dave paradise||If you are ready to die, you should just do crazy, risky stuff: skydiving, slacklining, rock climbing. SO that you can have a little fun before you die.|
|25 Apr 2006||death clock||check out when you are going to die for fun....
|25 Apr 2006||My life sucks||What is it that makes people seemingly want to give up their life so quickly? Many people have problems in their lives; some more than others. To one person, they feel that breaking up with their boyfriend/girlfriend is the end of the world and think as such. To another person, the death of a family member, a financial loss, or a friends death are real problems where these thoughts are somewhat natural. These are all reasons to think of committing suicide, but there is a small catch. All these scenarios, people no more than thirteen years old have to deal with. These people, feeling that their parents "Won't understand", lock their feelings to themselves. Some lucky souls have friends to turn to when these troubling times arise; some have nothing but themselves to turn to.
For myself, I never had friends to turn to during these times. I had to rely on myself for every traumatic experience I ever had; it's not a fun thing. Where as some can cry on a friends shoulder and hear their comforting words, I, instead, would have to cry into my pillow with no one to talk to. Through my own personal experience and life, I've learned a great deal about people and the world; in fact, I learned too much too soon. I always believed that I had been condemned since I was born, an idea that still is always with me.
I am so pissed off with everything i never knew my life could end up so fucked up..why me :roll:
I hate my life..
My life was over before it started. i see no end to this life..
LIKE WHAT IS THE POINT IN ANYTHING..
and it seems i am so depressed about life that i cant do anything with it God why me.
Its very hard knowing you are going to be alone the rest of your life and that your such a big loser that you cant even live right,
I have a miserable life. All my life, all I ever wanted to do was to fit in some where like everyone else and i can't even have anyone Not One friend.
My life was perfect antill i was 11 then thats when my life started to get ruined by other people.:sigh:
my life is now ruined...
I have realized no matter how good i am at anything - i will always be that werid person that no one likes.
It does suck being different.
What I'm talking about is being an outcast. Yes, I consider myself one, and there are only certain people I can feel at ease with; people like myself.When i was a teenager, I was the one who sat alone at the lunch table, the one who was last picked over a game of dodgeball, the one that no one really cared for at all. It hurt,
it also gave me a low self esteem, no self worth, and formed me into a very pessimistic person.
My personal definition of an outcast is; a person who is somehow different, and treated as such; a "black sheep" so different from others around them, that instead of understanding, people instead hurt. This is the only way I've ever been treated.....
People are mean; that's a given, but some are meaner than others. Where one person might hurt another once, regret and brood over it, truly sorry, another would do it just for the pleasure of showing who is in control.
|25 Apr 2006||Nolan||Hi.My name is Nolan and I am 25.I have wanted to commit suicide for years.I have tried pills and one day I sat down in my room for an hour with a gun pointing to my head just hoping I could get the courage to pull the trigger.My mom didnt want me nor my dad.When I tried to find love outside of my house I was emotionally destroyed.There are six girls I have became lovesick over in my lifetime that I hoped would give me a reason to live.The 5th one sent me an email last night saying if I didnt leave her alone that she would have the law involved.I had no idea that she was married.The 6th girl works with me but what is the use in going after her? It will be the same old story.Guy likes girl,guy tries to get close to girl,girl has guy fired.Soon I may try the old carbon monoxide trick.I am not sure how painful that is but it would be living after a gunshot.|
|25 Apr 2006||xXxKILL-ME-NOWxXx||I'm 17 and hope to commit suuicide very soon. If all goes well I'll send a message from hell to tell you how I did it. If not.....I'll send you a message to let you know what not to do.|
|25 Apr 2006||polo||i am 15 ,im in love with a girl who dosent feel the same way ,i dont hav any frends that i can trust ,i suck in school ,my mum an dad dont understand me ,no one knows that i am alive and the guy i hate most is myself ,im depresed all the time i hav insomnia (i cant sleep)and the only thing i think about is ending my misribul life.
bout 20 minits ago i got the guts up to do it. i tryed to hang my self just as i got light headed and started to slip away i could feel my self die it was great but then the knot came loose it was so heartbraking finding my self alive. i couldnt get the guts to try again i cept thinking of my lil sis seeing me hangin i juct couldent do that 2 her. any way i'll try agian after i tell this girl that im in love with her. i your gowing to slit your wrists you cant be afrade of blood and wot ever you do dont tell any one. i tryed that (lots of blood) ond i told my now ex-freind now i get called suicide boy. also a frend told me if you drink lighter fluid youll die it just made me pass out and have a shit taste in my mouth. iv never tryed o.d.in but i might so dont try them
a buv if your goin to hang your self tie a proper nuce plz dont emale me but your well cum to add me on msn
|25 Apr 2006||Joseph||eating mexican food|
|25 Apr 2006||Laura||Im Laura. Im 14 yrs old. I used to self harm quite a bit a few months ago. The only reason I did this was because my mum and dad split up and then my mum got married a couple of years later to this other man who lives at the other side of the country. She is forcing us to make a decision between movin or staying. I dnt know what to do coz i cnt decide n its drivin me crazy. Also i cnt do anythin ryte at skeewl n its all my fault. I tried to improve the way i am but with this decision thing and my mum n dad always arguin it gets to much sometimes n i wnna hurt myself because im so mad with what ive become. I dnt think id have the bottle to kill myself allthough ryte now because ive ran out of school im thinkin seriously about it before my mum gets home from work. But i get the feeling that when u kill urself uve let everyone else win ova u. Id rather stay here n annoy da shit out of da people who hate me den let em die n win. But i neva wnna leave da house again tho n if i dnt i myt aswell not be here because i wnt experience anything anymore.No one actually respects me it hrts when i lose he respect of lots of people at the same time bt ive lost all respect for myself aswell n i just cnt take dat. I dnt even hve any respect for me now. Ive done to much n i wnna take it all back but whats happened has happened and it drags along with u all ur life n u cnt get away from the memories of it all. I dnt kno what ive become i take it to the extremes to mch n now ive dne everything the opposite to wat i should. All i can say is ive tried and to anyone who knows me whos reading this, im sorry x|
|24 Apr 2006||Felicia The Great||To the people inclined to hate me!
So yes you may say that I post stupid posts on this website but...
...That's what I do. And do you know why? (Not involving Lucy Cortina or Billy the Weeping Freak. But to the KNOWN CRITIC who promises a freaking rose garden to me, a diamond, and LATER gives me lip and calls me a cunt because I refused to bone him!)
All because my boobs are bigger than all the girls that he HE-WHOREs with and he is just freakin jealous. The only time he masturbates is with bread and later he calls it his ham sandwich. I could tell him to eat me, but he can eat himself.
In the long run, he might enjoy it. But if he is flexible enough, he can do an encore by leaving a suicide note, sticking his nose up his ass, and farting his way to Jamaica.
|24 Apr 2006||Rebeca||I feel bad, I have realized that people are reading this, and they read my tips and they think they are good! I want to die, but I don't want others to die with the tips I give.|
|24 Apr 2006||Lynn||Before you decide to do it, why don't you write me? My email is firstname.lastname@example.org. I have a secret formula that can solve all your problems, but you have to write me to get it.
Waiting to hear from you,