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What is the best way to kill yourself when you're under 13?

Quelle est la meilleure forme de suicide pour les moins de 13 ans?
28 Jul 2006 scors.b Love to you all. Take care, generally.

signed, me. (Still alive).
28 Jul 2006 LIFE IS SHIT!!! Life is shit
And it hurts
The pain is so unbelievably deep
That I don’t know how of rid my tears
Of what my heart is going through.

Life is shit
But I’ve been through it before
So why haven’t I learned
That I am no one’s somebody

He says don’t worry
You’re beautiful and that someone out there wants you
It’s just not me
But how does he know that
I’m not meant to be alone

Because it seems that I know that I’m not meant to be with someone
And what about her?
She would die if she knew I dreamt about her

Life is shit
Because I can’t make up my mind about who I am going to love
Though it should make no difference
Because no one loves me.

My life has been shit
Because he told me loved me then he turned around
Got on top of me and ruined my life
My life is shit
Because he took her away from me
The one person
Who I prayed to him about
The person
Who made me realize that I am someone special
He took her away
And now he wants to take everything away
My dignity, my loves that don’t exist
My life

But I’m not ready to die
But my heart is ready
And has been for some time
It has died so many times before
Why not again?
It’s not as if I did not expect to get hurt this summer
It was something that was destined to happen
I get hurt wherever I go
And I always find someone like you
Who just wants to turn me away
And you said you were always the one that was rejected
Well good for you
Now you get to do the rejecting
It must make you feel just great
But I know that it doesn’t
You told me that this also hurt you
But am I wrong to think that you could not possibly understand my pain in this situation?

Life is shit
Because it always gets you from behind and stabs you in the back

Life is not worth it
If I keep getting hurt

I always say
This time it’s different
This time he really does like me
But all those times and this time
They all end the same
He rejects
And turns away
I cry
He asks why
And I try to explain
That I have never been the one
To go to the movies
I’ve always been the class joke
The one to point at and laugh at
The one that people dared other people to ask out
I’ve been the class outcast
But I’ve never been the Eliza Doolittle
I’ve never been admired from afar, or from up close either
I’m no one
They told me before
Why didn’t I listen?
I didn’t listen because I had dreams
I had dreams of being chosen among all of them
I had dreams that I was beautiful
I had dreams that I didn’t know what it was to cry or to feel the pain
That can only be seen or felt by the edge a razor against my smooth skin
I've loved so many
And I’ll love many more
But they will never love me back
Why can’t I be adored just once in my life
Just once
It’s not really all that much to ask for

I could have loved him
I could have been loyal
I could have loved him even from so far away
But he could never have loved me
Not even just for a second
So why did I even dream that he could?

Life is shit
Because I could love her
But she
Could never love me

Life is shit
Because
Who I love will lead me to trouble
My friends will leave
They will think I dream about them
What little they know about me.

Life is shit
Because I yearn to feel the blood drip down my arm again
I yearn to yell and scream at the world
Why is my life just one big nothing?
Why can’t I be loved too?
Why me?

I had dreams
You don’t think I didn’t dream of being a star
Of singing to the world
Or sharing my passions with the world
I guess not huh?

I wanted the money, the glory, and the spotlight
I wanted it all
What is it all?
Is it love, and trust and family
Love?
Well I don’t have that
Trust?
Sometimes
Family?
One that supports me?
I have half of one
Happiness?
I did
You made me happy
I smiled so much
The first time in a long time
But you have taken that away now
And I don’t know how to get it back

Maybe I want to see you
And think of turning away
But you’ll stop me
And take me in you arms
And tell me that you do love me
Just not like that
You’ll hug me
And say that everything will be alright
You’ll still wave at me
And I will know that I can be happy again
But are those realistic dreams?
Are you a realistic friend?
One that I can always count on?
You say that you are
But I haven’t felt that warmth yet
That embrace
That seals the deal
Please
Be there for me
When times
Are low
Even when
You’re far away
Be there
That way I’ll know that I can be happy again

Life is shit
Because I don’t trust myself to give this to you
So you will know how I feel
Because I don’t want to scare you off again
Because you are so important to me
And I know that I am nothing to you

Life is shit
Because after four pages of this poem
I still cry.
I cry tears that
I didn’t know existed
I cry tears that have been waiting for seventeen long and painful years

Life is shit
Because no one understands
The pressures that I feel
The stress
That goes along
With being
A semi closeted
Bisexual
Life is shit
Because I don’t even understand
The pressures and the stress that lay before me
Because of the lifestyle choice that I have maid

Life is shit
Because I never listen
I never give up
I always push too hard
I pushed too hard this time
And I pushed you away

They say don’t look back
But I know what lies ahead
And I would rather look back than look to a dreary future
I would rather fall in love thousands of times
And not be loved back than to not love at all

Life is shit
Because after five pages of this poem
I still cry.
And I still yell and I still want to be mad at you
But how could I ever be really mad at you
I don’t know how I ever was

Life is shit
Because I cant find another word
One that is more suitable
One that’s not so offensive
But life is offensive
And throws punches at you when you are not ready
So what do I do now?
Do I just go on with my life and pretend
That none of this happened?
Do I hide away my tears so no one sees them so you don’t see them
Or do I weep openly in you arms?
I’ve waited so long to find someone life you
And I can’t let you go
Even when I think that letting you go will let me off the hook with all this hurt and pain

Life sucks
Is that a better word
I don’t know
You tell me

Life sucks
Because it always has
And I don’t know how to get it to not
Suck

Life is life
It hands you what you need to be handed
But did I really need to be handed
This?
Did I?
Really?

Well I don’t agree
I don’t think
That I had to have all of this hurt in my life
A little bit?
Sure
That’s ok
But this much
Over and over and over again?
No one should ever have to go through that
I shouldn't have had to go through that

Life is shit
Because after six pages
I cant seem to end this damn poem

Life is shit
Because after six pages
I still cry.
28 Jul 2006 anonymous i am 13 and i hate life too. i have been a "loner" in school all my life. i only have 1 good friend. && my family like cousins,uncles,aunts etc think i'm so weird and theres something wrong with me cuz i hardly talk. i dont get made fun of at school but like this one time our teacher let us check our grades so i went up and checked mine with everyone else and like EVERYBODY just looked at me weirdly. i felt bad. & my mom always yells at me. i hate school sooo much. i hate shopping for clothes to so i hardly do it and i always go to school wearing a lot of the same clothes. i hate life sometimes i want to commit suicide like right now. but i dont waant to feel the pain. i want to commit suicide painlessly.
28 Jul 2006 eddie dimbleby if you want to die and end a meaningless life painfully swallow 5 balloons and make sure they dont have holes in
28 Jul 2006 Girl from UK Im an english girl, aged 21. My close friend took alot of tablets the other day. It was totally unexpected. I knew she had issues and I tried to help but this? I was just searching on the net about how to deal with it and about depression and got onto this site. Iv been reading entries for the last 2 hours and the stories are truly heart wrenching. I know alot of you dont want sympathy you just want to be wanted etc. I wish I had the power to take all your pain away but thats not possible. Im no agony aunt but if ant of you want to speak to an english girl and you just want a chat email me. ps The entry that 'ugly girl' posted at the beginning of july was truly touching and you are very talented. I know the subject of which you are writing about isnt nice but you describe it so well and the poetry was amazing and im no grade A english student. anyway im off. Reading this has been such an eye opener and I hope you can all find some happiness in your life.
28 Jul 2006 meghan i know how this stuff works, right now im trying to kill my self but it just wont work! the love of my life just broke up with me and everyone hates me! i dont understand why but ive actually made a list of ways im gonna start trying to kill my self! i just cant talk life anymore! i mean whats the point of living if you dont feel alive! everyone just wnt understand my problems and i just can take life anymore
28 Jul 2006 Kasey---Death till the battle ends There isn't a best way to be honest. I'm 13 (14 in a week but) I've tried it. I still don't know the real purpose on why I do it...it's an adiction to me. My mom thinks I'm a druggie and that landed me 2 pills from dying when I was 12. Suicide if it was right for you than you would know what is the best way. I've watched my friends die from it and my best friend from homicide...my world is gone basiclly. I know it's tuff living life and wanting to die everyday but if you were suposed to you'd know what to do.I know what to do but I can't let my boyfriend and my newphew down.Go with what your heart is telling you and if it is right you know how to do it.
27 Jul 2006 manyu guys i have been going through ur stuff and its makes me really sad life is tough if anyone wants help he or she can add me at rock_manu2000@hotmail.com

bye
fuk urself
lol
27 Jul 2006 Pete I am a police officer and have seen not only the effects on the person involved when they dont succeed but the family when they do. You dont want to do this, it hurts and it affects everyone. You, your family and believe it or not, everyone that has to pick up your dead and empty body, no life, no soul, nothing. Do you know what they do to your body when they do a post mortum? Life is important, there is nothing after this life, so make it good and make it worth it NOW!
27 Jul 2006 Tash Drinking nail varnish remover mixed with vodka..Enough of that would kill me? Right?
27 Jul 2006 lorna when i was 13 many times in tried to kill myself frm cuttin myself, pill overdoses to wlkin in front of a car. bt they neva wrkd!!! im nw 16, i gt help tho n nw im ok n really want to live. killin urself is nt the answer to anythin no matter hw bad u feel there is always a way ot, i promise. if ne1 jst wants to chat or feels bad jst add me iluvu4uraqt_123@hotmail.com n we cn tlk. i wnt judge u, im jst trying to help. pls tlk instead of killin urself!!!
27 Jul 2006 you know im right This is site is fucking stupid, telling little kids how to fucking kill themselves and you lot who are posting should know better!!! no matter what you have been through, saying o tht ur gunna kill urself go on then, no-cares so stop posting for attention and go fucking do it.
27 Jul 2006 sas dear who eva wants to listen
wen i was yunger even before primary school i had been bashed by my older brother. then it was just starting as shuving and hitting but as we got older it started to become a mager isue in my life fisicaly and even more so emotionaly. i would come to school everyday realived to get away from home although my life in school was one of the worst in all the worst in all the other student i was a very very shy little girl and didnt make friends easaly and unforchunatly the other kids not noing any beter bulied and piked on me all throught primary school. at night wen i went to bed i would lay there and cry almost every night i cooldnt get to sleep and when i did i i woke up constantly during the night. when i was 4 or 5 i had noticed the razer in the shower and had wondered wat they were for for a long time. then wen i was just twelve i aredy new wat they were for but i discovered another use for it not noing about the proper concept of suiced and all that shit becouse i had all but no friend n teachers dont tell you about these thing i took the blade and made i small insision into my leg ujnsaticfied and intreaged i did it again even deaper i contiues uncontroebly until my hole right leg was full of deep cuts afterweres as i was trying to stop the bleeding with a hole role of toilet paper i cryed and realised the extent of wat i had done. falling asleep that night was easy as i past out about 2 hours after my act i prosume it was due to servire blood lose. but thankfuly i woke up the next moring covered in blood. i removed my sheet and lukely i had a plastis coting under it. i cryed at the grusem sight of the emout of blood that was sitting onto of it i felt like wat i had dont wasnt reel. i plased the sheets in a plasic bad then in my bakpak and disposed of it in the lake. i went to school with nobody noing wat i had don and nothing changed. a few weeks l8ter i did it again rite after my brother ponched me giving me a big bruse and allthough he'd done worse this just set me off and i went out of my mind again and made to deep slits on my uper arm. still nothing changed. to this day i still have surver skaring from those tow and more times i have endolged in those acts but wen i got to high scool i made friends and slowly started to change i became less shy and more happy i now feel disabled in the fact that i cant go swimming with my friend or wear shorts or tshirts but i have cept my secret prity well with only a cople of people seeing but theve been nice about the hole situation. my brother has stopt his ways and now become to buisy with schoolo work n shit to pay atention to me. anyway the point to my story is that no mater how harshly the world treets u theyl always be something good to wait for in the futuer and wen i think about wat couldhave happend that first night i start to cry becoze i love my life now and i cant imagin not having to chance to live it. ive seen alot m,ore things then ive recorded here and even now there are a few mager lows going on that just make me want to cut myself and so i do but i wouldnt dare cut to deep
26 Jul 2006 victor there is no best way. i`m 47 and have thought of it often through my life. i`m thinking about it right now. yes, it would be a very selfish thing to do. but if you find yourself at 47 years old, and friends you can count on one hand, and only need one finger... then you stop and think. you look in the mirror. you know how others see you.you see what you are as well.you may say i tried, crap! i failed. my life sucks! at 47 i would love a chance to go back in time at the same time wishing i were gone. 47 is old and worn out for some of us, but 13 is glory in it`s youth! dont be selfish child! i will hold on as long as i can, and if i choose to take my life away, it was selfish. i had to find peace.
26 Jul 2006 Steph I know what it feels like.

It feels like you will never be able to express all that you want to in words.
It feels like the people that make your life miserable, will never get what they deserve or realize what they have done.

Suicide isn't a way to make them realize that. Be the better person. Suicide is not selfish, it's selfish to want to keep miserable people alive just so YOU wont be hurt by their actions. But still, suicide wont solve anything. If there is no afterlife, a life of misery is better than none at all. You have 80 years to live probably, you wont know if it gets better until it all ends on its own, and if you ask me, it's worth the wait.
25 Jul 2006 Bob I'm 43 and tried to kill myself several times over the years. At age 10 I would pray to god to let me die. I did get that prayer answered and it came by way of hiv, and of course I tried killing myself afer that but I'm still here. I guess I'm writing because I'm bi-polar and so was my neice, I say was because she killed herself 6-6-06. She picked a dozey of a date. Her birthdate was 12-6-78. She like me and likme most of you on here feel hopless and or feel nothing. I promise you, as someone who has lived through the attempts and losing someone that I love so deeply, you will make it. Hold on hold on hold on!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
You never know what the next day will bring. I thought I'd never find love, especially with hiv but I did at 42 years old I got married. I thought life was forever going to be wonderful but then my niece took her life. I could kill my self real easy right now but it want bring her back and it might not put me with her but it would kill everyone I love and that loves me just as a large part of my heart has been killed by her death. If you can't feel consider yourself lucky. I wish I couldn't feel but I do and I don't want to die today cause I know I Will die one day and I can rest till then I'm giving the good fight. I pray for you all and I still pray for myself cause I'm always at risk of falling. That's why I've created my own living death escape. I have fixed a closet just for when I need to escape. It has a pillow a blanket and anything that I might want to have. I sometimes take in a teddybear. Close the door block out all the light put in ear plugs and close my eyes and just float. Try that the next time you feel you need to escape after all thats what killing yourself is all about, escaping. If we really where going to kill ourselves we would do it and we would not be here asking for ideas. Your reaching out, showing your pain and in doing so will releive some of it. But always HOLD ON. You ARE worth being here!!!!!
25 Jul 2006 gemma The best way to kill yourself when you're under 13...I wouldn't know. I've tried trust me...it's impossible. With the pressure that parents put on you what else is there for? I mean if you can't look to your parents to believe in you and they're always putting you down and when you turn to the one person that's meant to help you through all the pain and agony and all they do is make your life even more miserable then what is there left to do other than kill yourself???
25 Jul 2006 HATERFOREVER POST THIS ONE MOUCHETTE!!!!!!!!

It's all right to be filled with hate, people are stupid!!!!!

so what if i hate???
if you don't like my posts don't read them for fuck sake!!


I love to write. I used to hate writing with a passion, when I was in high school. In fact, I often couldn’t do it. “Write a story,” they would say. About what? Whatever you like. Three words that struck terror in my heart. You mean, make something up? Be creative? I can’t do that.! when i was younger i do enjoy WRITEING NOW !! LOL!!!


hate people. More specifically, I hate people who are stupid, self-centred or have no character. And at one time or another, you could fit anyone into one of these categories - yes, including myself! - so there you go. I don’t think those criteria are unreasonable but I suppose they are pretty unrealistic. Anyway I spend quite a bit of time alone. Like now, when I’m toying with the idea of going out but where, and with whom?????????????????????????????
25 Jul 2006 one night stand well i think im gonna kil myself for sure now
so my birthday was on the 19th...and i got drunk......for the first time.....it was fun at first and then i was just hangin with my friend and shit....so we were both prty drunk...me more than her.....and we were talkin to sum a the guys at her bar and then we went outside...me my friend and 3 guys....
so we went to the pier by the lake and me and this 24 yr old guy started to make out and shit.....and im only 15...so thats not good.....so we were jus makin out and touchin and shit....then we ended up havin sex.....without fuckin protection....we didnt do it fo that long cuz my friend stopped us...cuz i told her not to let me have sex.....cuz i was a virgin...but yea so she stopped it...but i thik i mite b fuckin pregnant and if i turn out to b pregnant im gonna fuckin kill myself....i have no one to turn to to help me with this cuz if i tld my mom i wud b fuckin dead and if i tld my dad....we wnt go there.....ither way im fucked....so idk wat to do.....but yea i will kill myslef if i find out i am pregnant......so good bye

One night stand
25 Jul 2006 HATERFOREVER It's all right to be filled with hate, people are stupid!!!!!

so what if i hate???
if you don't like my posts don't read them for fuck sake!!


I love to write. I used to hate writing with a passion, when I was in high school. In fact, I often couldn’t do it. “Write a story,” they would say. About what? Whatever you like. Three words that struck terror in my heart. You mean, make something up? Be creative? I can’t do that.! when i was younger i an NOW !! LOL!!!


hate people. More specifically, I hate people who are stupid, self-centred or have no character. And at one time or another, you could fit anyone into one of these categories - yes, including myself! - so there you go. I don’t think those criteria are unreasonable but I suppose they are pretty unrealistic. Anyway I spend quite a bit of time alone. Like now, when I’m toying with the idea of going out but where, and with whom?????????????????????????????

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