|Reading these suicide pages you will find people seeking help and people offering their help. Some witness about suicide from real life experience, others who play along with me would pretend it's a children's game. Some make sick and cruel jokes about it, and angry people blame me for even mentioning the subject. You might also want to read my favourite answers. If you want your answer to be included here, fill in the form.|
What is the best way to kill yourself when you're under 13?
Quelle est la meilleure forme de suicide pour les moins de 13 ans?
|07 Jan 2007||Strength||As a child I watched my mom and dad argue every night until I was about 13. It was completely terrifying. It feels like no one understands how I feel even though I know thats not true. Yet in a way it is true because its my world I am stuck in. This is my pain even if another person should want to stop the bullet from going any deeper its already through the skin. As a child I would scream in complete utter terror every single night and now... now I have absolutely nothing to show for my life. I do have a girlfriend who loves me though and when we met it didnt matter what I or she looked like or how much money we made in a year or anything else at all. Ive been with her for over 8 years now and Ill be 23 in May. I love her with all my heart and soul but that does not take the scars away. They are always there, demons, taunting me and laughing inside my head. Even when I make love they watch from behind the glass with empty faces, an entire legion, just watching. But I cant give up. Not because its justice. Not because my father deserves to die for physical abuse or because my mother egged him on enough to do it. Not because of my insane grandmother who took her frustrations out on everyone else and not for any of you. I will remain for that woman who is waiting for me to return to bed. You may not have a woman, or man, like that yet... but you will someday, if you want to. So anyway Im not going to tell you not to kill yourself. But to be perfectly honest with you its a lot more difficult to kill yourself than you may think. Most of the time its really painful and if you fail you can risk actually living through it with all the physical and mental deformities on top of whats already going on in your head. If you do it be sure you are successful. If you shoot yourself in the head make sure you hit the brain stem or you will live. If you hang yourself jump from above 8 stories or your neck wont snap. If you take a lot of pills realize your chances of dying are very slim and the only likely thing that will happen will youll piss blood for the rest of your life or some shit like that. Or you could stop fucking whining. Where is your confidence? Did they rape your soul from you too? If you accept your demise you were not raped... you were willingly fucked, and you are already dead!!! As you read this you are already fucking dead. Now what the fuck are you going to do about it? ANYTHING. Live on. Kill someone. Rob a bank. Speak out against your parents in ways never done before. Become artistic in your pain and let it run from your throat like the very fires of hell itself. They are not the monsters. They are nothing. YOU are the fucking monster.|
|06 Jan 2007||maanai1500||Do you know have you ever try to make a look for the life you, if you had done you will see that the life is like the gambling game either you make drop and it win or you lose everything in the life.
That what is happening to me from the moment I have born I was having some health problem that I cant live without the medicine after that I was bad treated from the teacher in the school that my family was traveling for a lot of places that had made me change a lot of school and new culture that is hard to begin study from the beginning.
When I join the university it was so nice in the first year but after that it was miserable a lot of enemy and a lot of study and little friend cause I was fat and as the people say stupid so I decide to become thin and loose some weight that may make me better that my was 150KG after the diet I had done I become 70KG so some how my life change and in the last year of the university I had meet some guys that had told me that they are friends but the things that was looking for from me is to fool me and to steel money from me and to make you more laugh I never had a girl friend in the university.
After that I had graduate as engineer and go to the work life find a job that was bad that I had look to become better but there was a lot of people who dont want that and in my time in the work I had barn my face and hand but I am now ok nothing you can see from it after the surgery I had and cut my finger with three time car accident and one time in the jail because of a girl that had said that I had steal here and the end they discovered that she is layer and just they told me sorry without saying the money that I had lost in that time.
So I had decide to change my work so I join a company on Saudi Arabia to work with them after I had join them they take a project in the desert so they move me there with labors with no other people that at least smell good and I shall remain here to three years.
So isnt my life is wonderful and must be end you tell me until now I hadnt ever have girl friend and no such good friend and no good work and and and a lot so these days I am thinking to die and finish my life what do you think you tell me
Please tell me what shall I do and my e-mail is
|06 Jan 2007||Kyu||The best way to kill yourself is overdosing....always. If you are sad enough to kill yourself then you must have a lot of pills in your house, if you are lucky then you might also have something like mouse poison. Mine even had regular poison. Take them all, even if it is just advil, take the whole bottle(this is mosre effective on an empty stomach). Be sure to take any prescription meds you have too, especially if they are for depression. That way you can make sure the dumbass who sent you to therapy thinking it would make you better can feel really guilty. Wash everything down with cleaning products, windex always smells so good anyways. Go into your bathroom, lock the door, and sit in the bathtub. I also recomemd slitting your wrists, but that just might be cause im dramatic. If you dont have a bathtub hang yourself in your shower.|
|06 Jan 2007||no.||People underestimate mental illness.
"if you're 13 why would you want to kill yourself"
for the same reasons anyone of any age would.
"why don't you get some help?"
I think probably 80%+ of these people have tried to get help. It just isn't that easy.
"you're all so selfish"
What else in the world can you call your own apart from your life? Yes suicide is selfish. Everything to do with yourself is selfish. I wonder though, if you would call someone who has no friends or family selfish for taking their own life? afterall it's not effecting anyone else. People only seem to be bothered by suicide if it effects someone else. theres a lot more wrong with suffering every day so that everyone you know won't have to be inconvinienced.
"just cheer up"
Won't you share how ? cheering up is a great way to overcome other diseases right?
"someone out there has it worse"
Ok so you're saying that you're not allowed to feel pain, because someone else is in more pain? I wonder what you'd say to the person in the world who is in the most pain? 'Cheer up... because.. everyone is better off then you!' 'your mum just died but don't you dare complain because someone somewhere just lost BOTH their parents you horrible horrible person'
"you obviously don't want to die because you're still here."
Consider this. It's very rare for anyone to WANT to die. They would much rather just be happy and have a good life - or get better from this crippling illness.
Trouble is, no one knows how to do that, how to advise to do that or how to help do that. Whats left when you've tried getting all the help there is avaliable and you still have nothing left?
I'd like you to all think about that.
I'd also like to say.. I'm not pro-suicide. I'm pro-choice. I will always advise against suicide and help in any way I can when someone is suffering. I view some suicides more as euthanasia. their suffering wasn't worth it. For example - someone is dying slowly over the next 3 months with no chance of recovery.. call it selfish on their part but I wouldn't wait either.
There is always an answer other then suicide but it's just so difficult to find. I'm still waiting to stop feeling like theres nothing left then death. I've been in the mental health services for 8 years. I wonder how much longer it will take before I wake up without regretting still being alive?
good luck to all of you, especially the ignorant people who react with anger rather then understanding. You will die one day aswell - it might even be your own fault. How could you do that to your family you horrible slefish worthless being? nice.
|06 Jan 2007||Brittneey||I care to much what people thinjk about mee,,
& lately its been getting to me.
I have no friends what so ever at school.
im always getting beat up , wether its at schoo lor by my mom.
but it will all be over tonight,,
|06 Jan 2007||Stephen||Cancer
By Stephen Lassa
Where did I go wrong?
I always thought I held stronge
Did I drink too much?
Did I take for granted my wifes sweat touch?
My thoughts, they feel so blurred
Is it to late for me to be cured?
Never have I before felt so much hate!
I wont let this be my fate!
As I realize the end is near,
I begin to feel the wet trickle of a tear.
My son is here, to watch me die
How will I ever say good-bye?
Curse you God! I never sinned.
Now here I am, forever pinned
Its time to go, I hear my calling,
Consumed in a black hole, forever falling
|06 Jan 2007||Stephen||When Will It End?
By Stephen Lassa
Why do people constantly torture me?
What have I done?
Why cant they just let me be?
This isnt fun
They dont know me. They dont care
Why does life have to be so unfair...
No one can understand how I feel,
Does my life even matter?
They all just act like its no big deal.
Pretty soon Im just going to shatter
Theres nowhere left to turn,
Ill I want to do is burn..
I am haunted day and night,
Time no longer has meaning
How much longer can I keep up this fight?
There is no way to stop the bleeding
All there is left to do is die?
So why can I only cry?
|05 Jan 2007||Stephen Lassa||Sad Day: by Stephen Lassa
I can no longer take all this pain,
Has everything I have accomplished been in vein?
Its time to depart on this lonely train,
All I have left is my shame
All people do is watch and stare,
While my parents act as if they care.
No one ever does hear my cries,
But I can see through all their lies
The knife is as sharp as it will ever be,
Mom Im scared, please dont leave me!
With one thrust all is left amiss,
As I am thrown into an eternal abyss
No longer can I feel the cold,
I never thought I could be so bold.
I can no longer see, it is much too bright,
My lungs, why do they feel so tight?
Now the time has come,
None of this can be undone!
Whyd I have to leave so fast?
Everything seems like a distant past
|05 Jan 2007||a fool||you all wana know about hopelessness? if i'm actually lucky enough that i get 2 fall asleep then when i wake up i think oh shit, here we go again. i dont often get to sleep though. when i was six my older brother devised a game called the list. it was basically his way of getting to molest his baby sister. my parents let him get away with it. i'm 19 now not far from being 20 and although it was 13 years ago i still remember, and of course have never had the chance to talk about it with any1. since then i become a very sick and twisted person, i dont blame my brother, i probably would have been this way anyway. first of all i lie, i mak stuff up for sympathy, i dnt like lying but i cant seem to stop myself, but i'm not lying now cos i dnt need 2. none of you will eva know who i am. second of all, i hurt myself, i'm a fool like that. i dont have any1 anymore, and i never will have. i've dreamt about killing myself for as long as i can remember, i've tried a few times 2. i plan 2 try again, and this time i will suceed. i am of no use to this world. i am of no use to any1. why am i writing all this crap on here? well because my life is that lonely that i have no1 else to tell. to all of you out there who do plan on killing yourself, think first, because if you suceed then there is no turning back, and if you fail your life will be even more fucked up than it is now because people will know and will always know that you're another kid that tried to kill themself. please think. dont end up like me.|
|05 Jan 2007||suicide||hi.....well u noe wat im soooooooo deppressed today.......im so upset and m feeling so faithless....i dun noe 4m where should i start my story......u noe wat iam a sucidal too but wanna honestly tell u one thing that I REALLY DUN WANNA DIE cox i also want to live ma life n also wanna enjoy......but enjoy....HUH......can sum budy tell me that how could a person enjoy while living in a poor family.......who has a heart patient mother a veryyy self fish father who only care about him self and earn alot of money just to spent on things he like.......well i think i should tell u about me not about ma fukin father u noe wat the only thought i have always in ma mind is that NO ONE LOVES ME i have two brothers both of them are elder 4m me and ma parents speacially my father only love them and hates me he really dun care about me and my brothers hates me too cox well i dun noe the reason but this really hurts me......i have no life no one who cares about me no one who loves me....but iam still alive with this hope that one day every thing will get better........dis world is so selfish the people in this world dun care about any one.....they only cares about them self......but still i have a best frnd who always makes me happy when ever i am sad and.....ma best frnd is ma BLADE...i have so many scares on ma body which ma best frnd has given me.....well i still dun noe y m doing all dis but n this all is getting worse and worse..I HATE DIS WORLD.....BUT M STILL ALIVE ON THIS HOPE THAT SOON THIS ALL WILL BE OVER AND I WOULD HAVE A GUD LIFE LIKE MA FRNDS HAVE.......|
|05 Jan 2007||Dreaming Of Death||This is my favourite website of all time. I can relate to all you suicidal people.|
|05 Jan 2007||OneUponTheFence||I've read posts on this site for upwards of three years, and every time I feel awful, somehow it's cathartic to read posts of how comparably terrible others are feeling too.
Even though it would be simple for me to say that people need you and that you are loved and 'oh-my-god-dont-do-it-its-not-worth-it' there are so many others on this not-so-little blog ready and willing to say it besides me.
So I'll just say that no matter what, don't be afraid of getting the help that you need. Don't let others make you feel 'crazy' because everyone has a scruple that can't be changed, and sometimes that scruple is crippling depression.
The important thing is making it through to the next day. Anything that gets you through to another morning is important, and I have some huge scars on my arm to attest to that.
Everything in life is temporary.
|04 Jan 2007||jak||remember to lvoe forget to hate learn to forgive
nothin is worth death
no one is worth your life
find solitude in god if in doubt..and he will help you
find a place of your own where u can be who u r and think.. if u kill yourself.. that means that u r giving up and letting everyone win .. but u cant do that .. u r worth soemthign ..u r worth so much.. more than u cna even know.. u mean somethign to someone.. find that someone..and move on.. time flies by and one day all of your problems will be gone.. and u will be happy u were put on this earth.. so happy
|04 Jan 2007||Carrie||what the fuck! 13 year olds shuldnt even think about killing them selvs.thats so sad to me. breaks my heart when i found this site.no 13 yr old should be sad. no 13 yr old should think about such things. and if they do. theres something wrong. they need help. ya ive had a fucked up life and im soon to be 19. and thought manytimes i want to die. and still do. but at 13 i never did. and i dealed with so much shit by the time i was 13. i was born with aids.dad left my family when i was 6 months old.when i was 6 i had a bad heart problem.didnt think i would make it to christmas that year.when i was 12 i had cancer. and i was becoming a teenager at 13.and i never once thought about killing my self at that age or younger.deff been threw a lot of shit.and here i am 18. and i just feel like nothing ever goes rite.and i still cry. and im still hurt by my childhood and things that go on in my life. i started to do a little bit of drugs. lots and lots of pot smoking.dont some coke. took some pills. but never tired to kill my self with them.and still at my age i sit and cry in the shower.in my room.in my car. where ever i feel sad. and i just tell my self "I WISH I WAS DEAD" and im so sad and just hate my life and dont understand why everything goes wrong.this this the first time i have ever even wrote about things in my life. its probable because i dont know anyone whos reading this.but i dont think its ok for someone to kill them self. even tho i get these feelings that i want to be dead bc life is so fucked up. and i know some of its my fault life is fucked up for me.i still could never do it. and it breaks my heart when people do :( but thats just a little about my life. i know no one cares.but im just saying. thats so sad to kill your self.someone does love you even if you dont think it.thanks for taking your time and reading this if you do.|
|04 Jan 2007||LL||I am a lot older. I have been around the block a few times and I just feel like I am done. Not so much I want to kill myself but I am tired and just want to go.
I have really no family expect for my mother who had a bad stroke last year. She lives alone in Pittsburgh I live in MD. I think with the insurance money from my death my sisters could get my mother the right care and maybe a better place to live. I just go on being sad and feeling sick all of the time I do not even have the interest to drink anymore. My sisters would and maybe my mother would feel bad for awhile but with time that would fade...they would be better of with the money.
I have money for a funeral and I will not make a mess.
You guys are younger and you really need to think about the choices you make so you will not end up pathetic like me when you are older. Study, something, stay away from drugs, use condoms and think about where you want to be in 10 years. I tried all of that but it did not work out...I am done I an ready to move on and make space for someone esle. I have no complains nor regrets.
|04 Jan 2007||n/a||suicide makes the perspective of the world fall into place. i recently had a friend try to commit suicide and it was the scaries thing that i have ever experienced in my life everybody makes a difference.|
|04 Jan 2007||Sam Kite||Weil, Ich bin 14 Jahre und Ich habe aspergers und tourettes. Mein Es bildet die Welt ein fucking Elend, so Ich sich schnieden. meine Hälfte -Bruder ist solch ein glücklicher kleiner Stichel.meine so-genamte Mutter interessiert sich mehr für ihre fucking Pillen als mich, und sie haßt mich und alle weiteren weißen Leute--so weiß ich nicht, warum sie ein bumstw-vermutlich betrunken, wie üblich. Du kanst Vogelgrippe erhalten und in deinem eigenen Blut ertrinken. Das ists die einfachste Weise. Alle du benötigst bist ein toter fucking Vogel......|
|04 Jan 2007||UNKNOWN HERE!||when i was a teenager, years ago! i went through very dark depression! cuz of other people an my looks then! i was a self harmer blood all over my body! tryed to take my life a couple of times hated everyone around, was bullied everywhere i went,( still bullied a bit now ) but i can cope,
My life got better i no longer feel the need to end my life or feel doen or self harm which is a good thing!
There is help out there get it please!
|03 Jan 2007||Kekoa||Hi, I'm a 16 year old girl and I've wanted to commit suicide since I was very young. At first when I was in elementary I was never really liked by any of the kids at school. So I developed an attitude to where everyone, including the very few friends I had, was afraid of me. That didnt make me feel any better at all. What made it even worse was that my brother hated me. Im not exaggerating and Im not only thinking he hated me cause hes a mean big brother. He told it to me everyday. He told me he hated me and told me I was a worthless little shit. I was 4 years old the first time he said that to me and all my parents did was send him to his room and tell me to suck it up and get over it. He tripped, socked, bothered, hit, chocked, held me under a blanket (Im claustrophobic), I even had to get stitches in my head because of him. He still till this day says Im a little bitch that needs to die. Well anyway, so when I entered Middle school I made friends with almost the entire school. I knew almost everyone. Then in 8th grade I met a boy who hated life like I used to and hated humanity and he still does till this day. I started to feel everything I used to when I was young and then I started getting in trouble with the law and with my parents. I started developing more and more enemies as I started going out with him. My parents began hating including my mother, which she still says I'm an embarrassment to my family. My father well there was really no hope for him to love me, as he should anyway. He has never gone to any school function in my entire life. He refuses to take me to school or pick me up and if he has to he complains like no other. He yells at me almost everyday calling me a lazy bitch and such and he has never said, I am so proud of you or I love you or even the simplest how was your day without being pushed by my mother or my cousin who lives with us. He yells at my mother for being such a bad parent and telling her that what I had become was all her fault. So she comes to me and starts yelling at me. Telling me that I need to be perfect so that daddy doesnt get mad at her telling me its all my fault for not being the perfect daughter. Anyways I fell in-love with the boy and we started helping each other. For me seeing him everyday made me so much happier. I stopped cutting, seriously cut down on drinking, and I was an overall happier person. He told me he loved me everyday. But then we started fighting a year later and he said he didnt love me that he never did and he broke up with me. I went right back to where I started except now I had a broken heart, a broken home, and friends who treat me like shit. So now I've been hooking up with guys all the time sneaking out at night and everything. I thought it would make me feel better about myself (I dont have a very high opinion of the way I look) but it only makes me happy for the amount of time Im with them. Afterwards I feel like shit and I just want the man I love back and loving me how he used to. I've been in counseling every since he broke up with me (My mother's idea) it hasnt been helping. All it does is give me someone to talk to about shit I cant tell anyone else. The advice she gives is good but it doesnt make me feel better about myself all it does is make me feel stupid. For any other person it would be ok for but for me its a little different for some reason. Please I'm trying to stay here on earth and just try to live through these 2 years until I can legally move out and get away from this place. But nothing I seem to do works it just makes me worse. Please help me get through this living hell.|
|03 Jan 2007||fuckyou||jumping off a building|