|Reading these suicide pages you will find people seeking help and people offering their help. Some witness about suicide from real life experience, others who play along with me would pretend it's a children's game. Some make sick and cruel jokes about it, and angry people blame me for even mentioning the subject. You might also want to read my favourite answers. If you want your answer to be included here, fill in the form.|
What is the best way to kill yourself when you're under 13?
Quelle est la meilleure forme de suicide pour les moins de 13 ans?
|16 Sep 2006||Raz||Well where should I start from? Some of you might judge me and call me weak for doing this but I'd have to say "FUCK YOU". On this day 17th September Sunday 2006, I will commit an awesome suicide by taking an overdose of some random drugs..they could even tylenol...Im gonna take around 50 tabs so im sure i'll die. Don't wanna' get up in a hospital and hear my mom n dad bitchin' alll daaaay long. I feel like killing my brother with me. Fucking kike. My mom n dad think he's great just cus once in a while he talks about computer studies..Fucker is on anti psychotic drugs and still smokes weed everyday. I hate weed btw..made me all paranoid. So whoever reads this...ummmm What's up? We ll meet in heaven or hell...or Comedy Central. Im scared as hell though...cus i wanna make sure it goes well...ok adios|
|16 Sep 2006||lisa||ok... so i wana kill myself, and im sat here wondering whose gona stop me? no one... cos if im to do it properly no one will no im doing it. until its too late until its ova... but will suicide end my pain, or will my tortured spirit watch my family and frends suffer the consequence of my death. therefore.. does pain eva end? or are we eternally punished? i read this once and it touched me... tell me what u think...
To stand on top of the highest cliff.
To feel the wind tearing at my clothes, the elements.
The only truth left in a world of lies and hypocrisy.
The beauty of the abyss.
The anticipation, like anticipating the greatest sex, an existential foreplay.
Looking down into oblivion and voidness.
The ground far, far away as it seems from here, but in reality only a couple of seconds away.
Feeling eternity in a restricted world.
Feeling a decision in a prefabricated existence.
To draw the final breath,
To make that little step,
To know, that for once a decision was made,
To feel one foot above the abyss,
To think for a split second you can float in the air like the cartoon characters on TV,
To feel losing balance,
To gain speed,
To have the air tear at your hair and clothes,
To feel the cold wind violently caress you,
To see the ground coming closer,
To scream in orgiastic excitement,
To know what you have done,
To know that you have done something for once.
Maybe even: To doubt,
To wish yourself back to the top of the peak that you are pacing away from.
To fly into annihilation,
To see the truth, whether it is a beautiful or an unbearable truth for the fraction of a second only.
Those 10 seconds would be - must be - will be much more revealing than 10 years of most other people,
Than the whole life of most other people. More true, essential, focused, divine. Purer. 70 years forced into seconds. Refined into pure knowledge and truth.
Those 10 seconds would be - must be - will be worth a lifetime.
A worthy payment for endless agony
No more endless, unbearable pain.
No more routine.
No more repetition.
To sleep, perchance to dream.
To give in to the tiredness.
To fall asleep.
To find solace.
No more agony.
|16 Sep 2006||Danielle the Depressingly Melancholic Dancing Queen||Death
Whose cold abrupt stare holds us down
And forgives our impatience to achieve each moment
Who pushes us towards it by holding us in life
Death the unforgiving
The fearful sovereign who governs our lives
Who secures morality and destroys sanity
In truth does man need death to die?
Wed die of enough, die of each other.
Inside of me is the eventual death, it can live nowhere
But the body that lets it die, lest we are death.
|16 Sep 2006||marie||this is the only place that came to mind wer i cud come and say stuf since no one knows me. i ve always been a quiet and reserved person and tend to keep my problems bottled up inside nd try somehow to solve them myself and go through alot of pain which tears me up and make me see like a cold and evil person whereas Im a sensitive persons and I feel too much for ppl. lately i ve been feeling like pratically dirt and i cant take it anymore, i just dont want to live anymore and i know it sounds mediocre but its my truth and nobody elses. im a selfish person and I make people suffer and hurt just so I can just feel that bit of happiness that wears after a bit and im back to my old self. its so hard to explain how I feel.
Thers this guy who has been talking to me and he seems he wants to get to know me and more.. hes the only guy that I have ever liked but when he wants to meet I make up an excuse or somtin so that I dnt face him coz im shy and scared that things wot go well or that he wnt like me. I dont feel normal but I really just wanna fit in and be really hpy for the first time in my life. Its as if I dont want to love someone coz im scared of being heart broken or ridiculed . The latter has made me self conscious all my life. When I was sent to a new class I didnt knw the ppl in it nd I went through hell all year round trying to get a friend but no one realy took any notice of me. So I just hung out by myself. I love my family with all my heart. They have no idea wot im going through and even if they knew they wud tell me that it will pass, thats grls my age dont have serious problems, that I ll feel better and its nt a big deal. My friends are not like extremely hapy wit their life (no one is) but I seem to be the worst one out of them. Im so depressed and death seems like the only solution : a) when I try I always get scared b) I love my family and I dont want to see them hurt because of me.
Id really appreciate if you guys help me .. pls I need it
p.s dont bother making fun of me coz i dont really give a shit right now
|16 Sep 2006||Ashley McBride||life has its up and downs just try the best to get thruogh and suicide does not do the job!! talking to someone can really help!! believe me. cuz cutting makes it worse!!! and talking to your bff or some one u trust can help too. so please contact me here for some help ill help in any way so that youll please stop!! i dont want to see you go thruogh this then not have anyone there to help i know i can help and i know if you trust me youll beable to stop so please stop and take a good look at what risk your taking!! and for all the people who are influencing this kids or teens to do it, your not any help contact me at Cheys_lady_10@hotmail.com|
|16 Sep 2006||Ashley McBride||sorry i thought this was a help line but i think its really retared that your trying to screw your chance into living!!! cuttings not going to solve anything!|
|16 Sep 2006||Ashley McBride||when i was 13 it was ether takeing an over dose on sleepin medicene or taking a knife to my arms and going really deep|
|16 Sep 2006||anon...x||I didn't really get this til I realised you're not really a 13yr old wanting to commit suicide! I'd still like to give my opinion though.
I used to be a great person. But now I'm not. I know I could still be great, I could be anything...but I really cant be bothered,it's too much effort. I'm so happy being shit..so why bother being anything more.I don't want to be happier than I already am. In my head I'm as happy as Tom Cruise is! So I'm not jealous of him really! He may have more money etc,but I equal him in happiness (thats if he is happy I don't personally know him to ask).
I used to dwell on the past and think of how shit my life is, suicide crosses my mind everyday still! But I know I'd never do it!
If people want to commit suicide...and their lives are shit I say it's better to exist, even if your existence is going to be shitty and hard, than not exist at all.
I mean really, I'd rather be beaten up and feel the pain of punches than be 6feet under...who's gonna beat me up down there? There's nothing to be felt there!
Every feeling is beautiful because it's something. And something is always better than nothing to me. And even if you've got nothing thats still something! Nothing is a great thing to have because its not bad..its not negative. It's a starting point.
Mouchette I think i love you.ha.
This place is amazing. x
|15 Sep 2006||Yizhe Wu||I have posted a post that i'm going to help some times ago, but it was largely ignored. So again, I say here I do understand why people are suicidal and I will help you if you are...IM me at vivaitalia1989 or send an email :)|
|15 Sep 2006||harry||holy shit man sum of you guys r a ctually thinkin of doin this i waz just searching for sumfin cus i waz bord but i hear about mental people and people hu do this to get bak at their parents. why? listen 2 music and think about love not h8 and dpression. listen 2 da beatles all there musics about love. nd if ur mental hang on to the very end and prove how strong u r 2 urself.hold on cus u will get better. and as 4 the people who just want to get bak at there parents think of all the things they hav dun 4 u your mom gave birth to you and this is how you repay her. dam u guys. both my uncles hav bin 2 mental homes so's ma nan and ma mum but they all found sumthin they loved and u will to. so dont be doin this crazy shit no more you hear keep the love nd stay happy.|
|15 Sep 2006||selina||that's a hard one, guess pills are da best way. my life sucks really, i'm my sister's shadow. she's perfect. beatiful, smart, she does ballet,has an amazing voice. everybody loves her at school. me? I'm just da "dumb blond", the village bike everybody had a ride on.i won't deny the fact thatt i am pretty, but brain wise. my mom hits me all the time.sometimes my dad joins in. i don't know why dey do it,i don't understand what i have done. my sister? she doesn't care, she told me to "forget about it", how can i forget? i'm sick of lying to my friends and teachers everytime they see me coming wt a black eye or a gash.i am tired of being picked on all the time, being called "brain dead" or "whore". i know i am a big disapointment to all my family. and i know i have made so many mistakes. but what is done cannot be undone. i'm christian, but deep inside i doubt there is a god. if there really was, why does it hurt so much? why can't he help me? all of us? why make a 13 year old like urself want to kill herself? but truth is i'm scared of dying. scared of what's in the "other side". I will follow some of the advices and wait a little. but it's getting harder as years go by. i am know grounded, havebeen for 2 years. i haven't gon out with my friends for years. just studied, when i finally got the grades, my mom told me to work harder. what's higher than an A? when pleaded to go ou, just one miserable night, she beat me up pretty bad, my dad even arrived at the wrong momment. i will never forget what happened. i know my english teacher suspects something, i wonder if i should tell her. i've neverbeen close to teachers, unless i had a detention that is. ( not in that sense). infact i've never been close to anyone. but please, if someone is reading this, please say something, anything. i figured i might as well talk to someone that doesn't know me, it's better for all of us.|
|15 Sep 2006||tulip||jump in front of a truck?|
|15 Sep 2006||i always hear about people dieing on the news, leaning about our histery and so on. all these things makeing me feel obliged to feel sad and sorry. but im not. not that i dont find it sad. it's always sad but it's non of my buisnes. i did'n no these people they had no more effect on me then anyone else in the world and if we shed a tear or brout a flower for every single person who dyes it would be a very pore and sad and lonly world.
eggsample: resantly steve erwin dyed and it was all over the place on the net on tv on peoples lips. it was hard to escape. some people through he desirved it others thought it wasnt right for such a legend to go down at such a yung age. but i think its not my place to say he was simply a mun you can make it sound realy complicated or simple but he was no more significant to some other mun who dyed that day so why aren't we crying for him. becouse you've never new why care........
|15 Sep 2006||sask||everyone tryes to look for answere and solution for life and sercumstanses and things in witch they dont even know the question to. but these things aren't simple enuph to give an over all, one and only, perfectly correct answer and although we know this we still don't or can't change our ways.
since and maths just dills into to our head that there is an answer to all that is and isn't. it drills it in so far, past our thoughts, past our mind it's just drilled into the way we work. slowly driving us to suicide
|14 Sep 2006||Just another survivor||The best way to kill yourself at any age would be whatever works best for you. Do you have access to large doses of prescription medication that can be fatal? Do you have any rope and the knowledge on how to make a noose to hang yourself? Do you have a blowdryer, bathtub, and running water in your house? There is no painless way to go. SO SUCK IT UP!!! If you want to die it will hurt. However, the bright side is in a few ticks the pain will cease. Now if I were you I wouldnt kill myself. Why? Because I am not weak like you. I understand that no one cares about you. I understand how life sucks and how life ages like milk instead of wine. And because i dont set myself up for failure. If you think it will get better you will get disappointed. Again and again and again. Do you know what hope is? Its a lie. Its a high pedestal with a crumbiling foundation. This is life. This is reality. Now you can accept this or live in denile (live a lie). If you accept this you will become stronger. If not you will remain weak and suicidal. And besides, if you dwell on your problems they will only become bigger. If you ignore them they wont go away BUT, you will have more time to concentrate on things in life that bring you happiness and then maybe life will seem more meaninful. Maybe you should get a hobbie. Because after all, if you were really going to kill yourself you wouldnt still be reading this. You would already have those wrists slit open so many times you couldnt even find fresh skin. If you think you got it bad why dont you go live in the woods? Why dont you go to a bad neighborhood and wait for someone to kill you. I bet when someone tries to kill you, you run like hornets are after you. Why? Becase you dont really want to die. You want someone to hug you and tell you they love you and its gonna be ok and this just isnt going to happen. All people will turn on you. Just remember one thing. You can have your feelings but your feelings cant have you. Thats why they are YOUR feelings. Are you your feelings? NO! You are bigger than your feelings. And if you want to kill yourself behind your feelings you are truly weak. Its ok. Now you realize it. Grow. Live. Learn. Everyone has a different perspective on life. What you are going thru is just how you will find your perspective. One day you will look back(if you dont kill yourself) and say this is who i freakin am. This is my life. And you will be proud to be you and have lived what you have lived. Because inside you know that you are a survivor. And no one will ever be able to take that away from you.|
|14 Sep 2006|| Hi Guys,
I am an adult on this site. This is VERY scary. Don't kill yourself- when you are in your 30's and you have /will work your life out- you will feel satisfied to know you didn't kill yourself.
|14 Sep 2006||Shane||Not sure if my message made it in so i'm going to type my complaint/story again...I hate everyone on this site who thinks suicidal people are weak. You have absoulutly NO IDEA how hard it is. I'm 13 and I have extreme anxiety about anything i do in life. I"m terrified and paranioa'd of being sent back to a mental hospital. The town i moved to went well for about 4-6 months and NOW IT"S RELAPSE AGAIN FUCK...I avoid anything that freaks me out and panics me...I'm so scared of every day of my fucking life...I have tried pill overdoses and posions like acne treat crap and stuff alot of times...i always just end up vomiting my guts out... I'm going to keep trying different pill overdoses and maybe i'll get lucky...Before i break if im not dead im'm going to run away from home....NOW MY QUESTION...How do i tell my parents i need to move away from this town without them freaking and sending me to a mental hospital...I'm just so scared so scared...I just want to feel normal and no doctors or mental hospitals can do that...im loosing the battle with myself...close to breaking...|
|14 Sep 2006||Shane||I hate all of you bastards who get mad and call us weak for looking for ways to end our lives. You have no idea what I/Others go through. I have extreme anxiety about anything i do in life afraid to do something wrong. So i avoid people and places that freak me out and panic me. I've been to 2 mental hospitols and all they've done to me is given be extrememe paranoia about being sent back. I'm 13 and am either going to keep trying pill overdoses or run away from home.|
|14 Sep 2006||Nikkie||well.... when i was younger i used to look in the mirror an see nothing, feel nothing and everyday i thought, why the hell am i really here, people used to put me down and everyday i would sit there with a blade to my wrists... but i couldnt do it..
and im pretty glad i didnt do it either.. u see 13?..ure only just growing up and all different emotions, hormones an feelings will b mixing with your head, making you think of these things when you get angry or upset...but wait until u turn 14, u'll be even more attractive thn u were wen u was 12 or 13..then when your 15 or 16... u look in the mirror, see how beautiful u are, not just your appearance but everyone has a beautiful person inside thm...all it takes for true happiness is to b strong and confident, find yourself a true love...thn u would loom bk on your life when your happy at 21 thinking " why the hell did i even think these things back thn"...everyone finds true hapiness one day but it just takes time and patience...im 16 now and the happiest i could ever be, and i used to think suicidal thoughts when i was under 13... but eventually it will come...strong people would try and tackle this problem themself but if you still cant bring yourself to stop thinking these thoughts...talking does help.. i hope this message reaches you all in time.xxx
|14 Sep 2006||Meghan||PLEASE READ THIS!!!!!
I'm not here to say that your crazy or creapy, or anything, your a person just like all of us! And if you think that there's no way in hell that you cant live your life anymore, or that everything hurts so much, your wrong...very wrong!! I want to help you, even though that sounds so stupid, its true, I have been down that path once before, and I asure you that I can help. If you want to regain your life back, PLEASE im beggin you, please contact me firstname.lastname@example.org!! I dont know how else to explaine it, but i want to help everyone, and I know that I cant, and it really hurts me that i know i cant, but if i can try and help as many people as posible.... I KNOW I CAN HELP ... its just the fact if you want help ...