|Reading these suicide pages you will find people seeking help and people offering their help. Some witness about suicide from real life experience, others who play along with me would pretend it's a children's game. Some make sick and cruel jokes about it, and angry people blame me for even mentioning the subject. You might also want to read my favourite answers. If you want your answer to be included here, fill in the form.|
What is the best way to kill yourself when you're under 13?
Quelle est la meilleure forme de suicide pour les moins de 13 ans?
|12 Feb 2007||racheal||duct tape a plastic bag over your head|
|11 Feb 2007||ana||I know my life isn't as fucked up as the rest of y'all's. I have never been raped, terribly beaten, kidnapped, almost died due to drugs, or robbed at gunpoint. However, I have a load of mental illnesses. Maybe that's why I'm so smart (I'm in the top 1 percent of the country). I've dealed with depression and anorexia. I think both run in my family. Everyone on my mom's side has had it, and I think my little sister who's only 11 years old is anorexic. My mom has often asked me if I am depressed and if I'm eating enough, but I just smile and act like that would never happen. Do you know why I would do that? Wouldn't it just be easier if I gave in and let the doctors take control of me? I'm too proud. I go to a small school (only 45 kids in the grade), and I wouldn't be able to stand the way kids would treat me if they knew that I took happy pills and had to live off of a tube. I know for sure that if I had the choice, I would die, I just can't kill myself. I could never do that. I've wanted to die since I was in 2nd grade. A couple weeks ago, my mom yelled at me and told me that she wouldn't give a damn if I started to slit my wrists. Since then, the thought hasn't left my mind. I don't have a single reason to live. My parents don't care about me. My mom doesn't love me. And if your mom doesn't love you, who will? I have fallen in love with the same boy millions of times, and each time he has broke my heart in two. It's not that I'm ugly. I'm look like Katie Holmes. I'm not fat either. I always see guys that are like 16 years old checking me out (I'm thirteen). But I'll never have the love of my life. And my best friend is a girl that I always see him checking out. And she could get any boy she wanted if she didn't already have a boyfriend. I don't think she would even miss me. There's only one person I could talk to about this, and I don't know if she'll like this. She thought some kids were gonna blow up the school and she purposely stood near them so she could die. And I convinced her to go anorexic. I think she's the only person who would miss me. I haven't decided what I would write in my letter. I made a rough draft. In it, it said what to do with my money and extra stuff. It said that I was just a waste of everything and I apologize for having to have them see this. It also included enough money for a burial. I have enough money for a funeral, but I don't know if I want one. I haven't decided what my parents would tell my friends. I sort of want them to know, just so they could know the suffering I went through, but my little sister would have to face them. I just wonder if anyone would even show up to the funeral. But I guess I'll never find out. I would leave a personalized letter for every person I know that said my goodbyes and how they have affected me in my short life, either pushing me to kill myself or keeping me here on this Earth. Both would thank them.|
|11 Feb 2007||Alij||What are you about.. your only 13. why would you want to kill yourself you have your whole life ahead of you, you don't know what your future holds for you, it could be one of happiness and everything that anyone could ever want, what about your friends? what about your parents? what about your life? if you feel so deeply about this i think that it would be best for you if you talked to somebody in your area in person on a weeekly basic until you get iover this deep depression you sem to have, just think about it.. how would you feeel if somebody close to you toke there own life, its a very selfish thing to do. there are people out there and they want to live but they have no choose in matter because there lives are taken because of a illness or an accident or watevfer it may be. please seek help|
|11 Feb 2007||Brandon||me again! I am still alive!! i hate life! email me" Soberebos@yahoo.com or IM me at *soberebos* on AIM..... i hate life my myspace- www.myspace.com/imtherealthing|
|10 Feb 2007||i don't see the point in going on if your not here. i don't want to live without you.|
|10 Feb 2007||Melinda||Fuck it...its your life. Ppl say god does things for a reason..well explain why he did all this shit to my life.To god were just a game,really think about|
|10 Feb 2007||scared girl||i am now 13...i have an abusive father, and an obbusive mother...i was raped by my dad...and never told..and molested by my uncle...i have tried to kill myself..but my friend found me...i only told her..and she told her mom..now they adopted me and i am happier..i jsut miss my brother becuase he went into foster care...and i miss him..he is 15 and he was abbused even worse than me..the family that adopted me couldnt adopt him even though they tried..i love him..i say that suicide is helpfull if you need it cause some people who say you dont need ot kill yourself dont understand what you have been through|
|10 Feb 2007||AntiSoc||It simply amazes me that anyone would think, never mind attempt suicide? We're all angry inside. I'm completetly dead inside, but instead of internalizing my angry, I direct it at others. It really feels better. I was beaten regularly by my Father, I fantasize about killing him constantly...but instead of letting that anger destroy me, letting him win, after he had already done so much...well I just can't let him continue punishing me, by me punishing myself. So I say screw it, I am what I am, so I may as well use it to get what I want. But then thats not the topic is it? If you really want to do it the easy way. No mess, use a hose from the car exhaust. Make sure all the windows are sealed up, including the window you run the hose to, use towels. Have a drink or whatever you need to relax, crank the tunes and just drift away. I should mention, there is no God, no heaven or hell, so this is it. If you go, you go no where, I suggest directing that pain and sorrow outwards, rather than internally. Your choice...either way, I live...|
|09 Feb 2007||Jami||to take a mass amount of sleeping pills and then you just dont wake up. Im almost 14 but whatever. I live in a lot of pain so i agree with another post i read its prbly best if you dont go out the same way you came in. no 1 cares neway.|
|09 Feb 2007||Friend||Don't you think suicide should be a last resort? How many alternatives have you tried? Have you tried antidepressants? If the people in your life are causing problems, you can always move somewhere else and start again. One thing I've found is that any amount of suffering you go through can easily be overshadowed by your future happiness, and suicide would stop you from being able to experience that.|
|09 Feb 2007||jeremy||ok i just have to let it out. im 14 and im bipolar. my self esteem can change overnight from very high to very low. now because of this and my sometimes low self esteem, i stopped trying in everything i do and i stopped exceling and things when i am pretty smart and talented and could do so much better. when i have my low self esteem, i think i am very horribly ugly and that i have no real friends (which is probably not true becuz i have 3 best friends who i can count on to be true) unfortunatley one of them is in another continent so that sucks. now i dont have problems that are as horrible as the other ppl on this website. my parents are divorced but they are now like best friends and i see them both equally because i technically live with my dad but my mom comes over every day so yeah. and i have a grandmother that i love more than anyone and that loves me the same way and did more than enough for me. im not poor either. my problem is with friends and school. i have alot of friends but im not sure who my REAL friends are and that bothers me. and also in school i rlly want to be popular but im rlly not. and sometimes i think im terribly ugly and thats why im not popular and girls dont wanna go out with me (even tho i had gfs before and i kno girls who have crushes on me rite now). idk its just that im bipolar and it rlly gets on my nerves.
but the main reason im here is that i have though about suicide before and i cut myself like 3 times (but it wasnt like deep of anything and im rlly embarrased by it and i only have one scar left and it doesnt even look like a cut mark). but i have never attempted suicide because i love life too much i mean sure it may suck now but how do u kno what will happen tommorow? or even if u do kill urself what if theres no afterlife? u shud make the most out of ur life becuz it rlly will get better eventually. so instead of moping around being depressed go do something productive. get a makeover. join a club at school. talk to the new kid. take up a sport.
i realized that being depressed and wanting to end ur life is not the answer and thats pointless. so dont be lazy and work to make ur ideal life a reality. i am and its getting better.
so please take my advice trust me ull be glad you did
|09 Feb 2007||Fuck suicide!!||You only get one shit at this whole living thing, don't be short termist realise that life is your oyster have the patience and strength to fight for your happiness don't write your life of before it's even started. Wait till your a bloated bolding sexual deviant in your forties before you consider inducing the long sleep|
|09 Feb 2007||Dakota||the best way to kill ur self is to hang ur self on ur flag pole at school.
when ur on the no side bridge pretend u lost ur toy out the window, and jump.
Jump off the top of ur school above ur classroom.
watch some of the FINAL DESTINATION MOVIES.
I wil see you in heaven
|09 Feb 2007||Mirsad||dont kill your self!!! its a waste of your life that god made 4 u nd i no ur probaly thinking u have a terrible life cause my sister is also always thinking about suicide and i cant stop her nd it makes me think, WHY DOES SHE DO THIS!!! GOD MADE U THE WAY YOU R AND NOONES LIFE IS HORRIBLE WE ALL HAVE SOEMTHING GOOD IN US AND BESIDES SUICIDE CAN BRING U 2 HELL!!! IF U WANNA GO 2 HELL ND RUIN A PRECIOUS LIFE GO AHEAD BUT I AM TELLING YOU DONT!!!!!! I ALWAYS THINK ABOUT MY SISTER EVERYDAY IN SCHOOL AND THINKIN HOW IS SHE BECAUSE SHE NEVER EATS, CRIES ALL DAY, AND STAYS HOME ALL DAY LONG IT MAKES ME WANNA KILL MYSELF!!!!!!!!!!!
SUICIDE IS THE WORST THINGT TO DO LIVE UR LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!! GOD WANTS YOU TO LIVE ND U SHOULD BE LUCKY OF EVEN BEING HEALTHY TALENTED OR ETC PLEASE DONT KILL YOURSELF!!!!!
|09 Feb 2007||kevin||dont pray... it has no effect... when i was just a little boy i prayed for my pet.. i cried every day. Then i snapped... I then asked questions like: Who wrote the bible? How do we know some retard didnt right the bible? How does god exist... He has powers but... why not us? Does he not know we need to protect ourselves? I guess not. We have no purpose. who knows... We could be in a matrix... just waiting...and waiting... until we awake(DIE). Why not kill yourself while theres still a chance. once you get older you are going to suffer more. Take my advice if your goign to commit soucide... DO IT NOW DONT LET YOUR SELF SUFFER ANY MORE (That what created us wants..it wants us to suffer. Its like were all just a big marble....)|
|09 Feb 2007||kevin||Well god isnt real... If he was he wouldnt let every one want to commit suicide. He wouldnt let kids get diabetes... Its all lies... Whats the point of living if your going to die any ways... God would never let this happen. Hang yourself... shoot yourself in the head. Drown yourself. Pay some one to snap your neck. Take 20 diffrent pills. God isnt real... I have facts thathe isnt real and facts that the devil is real. Who knows. Maybe the devil just made us to torment us and have his own little game... thats it... JUST A DAMN GAME!!!!!|
|09 Feb 2007||Missy||This really won't answer the question. But after reading thru all of the responses, I've woken up into reality. I live a pretty good life compared to so many that have been thru so much. The reason why I even slightly thought about suicide is because of my boyfriend, as dumb as that sounds. Its true. My life is wonderful if you look at it from the outside. I'm healthy, I have a loving family, a job that I enjoy. Seems like I've got everything I want. Except for him. We've been together for a little over a year and a half now, and I just feel so worthless when I'm with him. I love him so much, and all I ask is for him to love me the same way that I love him. But no. Even thats too much for him to do. I love him so much that I actually considered suicide just to make him realize that he hurts me so much. I know I sound really pathetic, and you really don't have to go on reading about my stupid problems. I'm dumb. I know. And I'm weak. I just wish I can do what's best for me, and not just sucker up to my emotions. I know I can't kill myself just for him. There's too many things at stake. I don't want to hurt my family and friends that way, they have been too good to me and they don't deserve it. I certainly do not want to go against God's will. I know He has plans for me. I just wish I listened to Him more. I just wished my boyfriend realizes what he has.
I actually felt really guilty about actually thinking about suicide. And kind of afraid to be honest. I actually CONSIDERED it. Driving home tonight from my boyfriends house, I wondered if he'd realize what I'm worth if I killed myself in a car accident. But thats not going to happen. I don't want to be selfish, and the truth is...I don't have the guts to do it. I guess I'm just writing all this to just vent. To let out my thoughts and hopefully my thoughts to kill or hurt myself will jsut remain as thoughts and that I shall never act upon them.
|08 Feb 2007||name||Judgements of suicide:
I'v heard many things over the past years about how people juge us. Hear are a few.
"suicide is selfish"
I think people say this because killing your self solves your problem but it causes pain to the people around you. I can understand thare reasoning but consider this: Isn't it selfish to have someone stay hear and suffer so that others dont have to deal with the loss of a loved one? They would rather have some one else in pain so that they don't have to fill any. This is one of the most hypocritical jugements I'v heard.
"No one wants to clean up the mess you'll make"
Yea, so... No one wanted to clean up the "mess" you made when you were born. Squeezed out of you mothers fuck hole dripping with embryonic fluid. Wrinkled, naked and ugly. Have you ever seen a woman give birth? It's fucking disgusting. And it stinks to. Someone hade to clean that up you know.
"You cant kill your self because it's not your life. It's Gods"
No, Its's mine! The user is the owner. Enen if God did make me(wich I doubt)He dosn't care enough about my life to let it get fucked up as it hase. If you own something then neglect it and it falls into disarray; It's not to blame, you are. My life is mine because I am the only one living it. I am the only one suffering through it. And yes, it's MINE to take.
"Suicide is weak" "It's the easy way out"
Is it? Life is supposed to have began on this planit about 3.5 billion years ago. You are not the disendent of anything that didn't live long enough to at least reproduce. You'd be surprised what you could live through. Most suicide attempts fail. And the few that are successful aren't vary pritty. You'r programmed to survive weather you like it or not. You'r body will try to keep you alive for as long as it can. And puts up a damn good fight at it to. Suicide is not easy. Not just because of the physical challenge but also the psychological. Death: What is so scary about horror muvies? Why do we put murderers away? What is the worst thing you could do to someone? Why is capital punishment the most severe sentence? Thats right, they all involve death. It is your strongest most naturally based fear. Just think. Someone who is killing them selves hase to not only find a brutal enough way to actually succeed but also hase to look death it self strait in the eye. I wouldn't call these people "weak" and no, it's not "easy".
"depression is a mental illness"
No, it's not. depression is circumstantial. It's rational. It's a natural feeling. Anyone who is depressed hase a logical reason even if they don't want to tell you what it is. People seem to think that because chemical balance in the brain and depression are related it must mean that a chemical imbalance is the cause. The relationship between chemicals in the brain and depression don't say anything about ware it starts any more then saying that chickens and eegs are related. Which came first? Chemical imbalance dose not cause depression. Depression causes a chemical imbalance. Along with many other things. Think of how convenient the "illness" description is. Think of all the people who have hurt you, all the issues in your life. I'v read a bit of this blog and I can see some of the things a lot of you have been through. Just remember, it's not because you parents beat you. It's not because you were raped. Its not because you get made fun of at school. It's not because you were born deformed. Its not because of you boy friend or girl friend or maybe the fact you may have never hade one. No, it hase nothing to do with anything in you life. If you ever fill down it's because you have an "illness"... Thats just a little to convenient for me to belive. People call depression an illness because it makes the problem start and end with you. It's just something that people say to avoid looking into the mirror.
Thare are so many things people say and juge about suicide. And im sure I'v only scratched the surface. No one ever chooses to exist. You can't choose because you have to be alive (or conscious and able to think)in order to make decisions. Even if you did choose this lfe and dont remember you still existed at some time and/or form. You are the only one who is living you'r life. You have no choice in your existence. Be for or after this life. What ever it may have been before this and what ever it may be after, this life right now is yours. You can live it or end it. And no one should judge you for it.
|08 Feb 2007||nameless||Small simple safe price rise the wake and carry me with all of my regrets This is not a small cut that scabs, and dries and flakes and heals
And I'm not afraid to die
I'm not afraid to bleep and fuck and fight
I want the pain of payment
What's left, but a section of pigmy size cuts
Much like a slew of a thousand unwanted fucks
Would you be my little cut?
Would you be my thousand fucks?
And make mark leaving space for the guilt to be liquid
To fill, and spill over, and under my thoughts
My sad, sorry, selfish cry to the cutter
I'm cutting trying to picture your black broken heart
Love is not like anything
Especially a fucking knife
|08 Feb 2007||Patricia||wait 10 years.|