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What is the best way to kill yourself when you're under 13?
Quelle est la meilleure forme de suicide pour les moins de 13 ans?
|27 Apr 2007||alex N||dear god
please help me
im begging you
ive fallen down
can you help me up?
i just feel like i cant go on living this life anymore
everyday just seems like an uphill struggle
im so worthless
lord, i feel so alone, i feel like i have nobody.
i am crying out to you to pick me up out of this hole i have fallen down
at the moment, i dont even have a reason to get out of bed in the morning
i just lie there and think, wots the point
im such a looser
im such a big dissapointment
lord, please help heal this heart of mine,
it feels like its being pulled down by the most heavy weight
and i dont know how much more i can take
im holding on, by a thread
i just wanna go, take all this pain away
i just wanna leave this place
i feel so worthless
i feel so down
lord, please help me, please! help me stop feeling this pain
i just cant take it
i want to die
so y shoudnt i
i mean, people say they will miss me, but they will get over it
it may take time but they will.
lord, i never cry, but i just did, for the first time this year.
so why when i need to cry i cant?
i feel like all the happiness in my life has gone
i force a smile, but deep down, im bleeding
and hurting, my heart id really hurting
and for the best part, i dont even know why?
i hate myself, lord, why cant you just kill me
just make me die in my sleep, go on, 2night, just do it
i cant take living anymore
i cant take this pain
i cant take the way im feeling
i know you are there lord
i know that you can hear me
i know you havent abandoned me
although sometimes it feels like you have
lord, i get this lump in my throught for the first time this year
and i have to hold it in, untill my mum goes upstairs
but then i just let it all out, it feels good to cry, so y dont i?
everything is lost, my whole life feels like it is crashing down all around me
i mean, lets face it, im not gonna b ok,
things are only gonna get worse
i feel so alone
so fragile, like i am just gonna break at any second
people, my friends, think im happy, im not! i have never been so low
i am hitting new lows every day!!
and no, its not getting better, its getting worse and worse
why am i feeling this way?
oh, here comes that feeling again
hopelessness, worthlessness, DEPRESSION!!
Stuck on the end of this ball and chain
And Im on my way back down,
Stood on a bridge, tied to the noose
Sick to the stomach
i loose my hunger for food
as my heart sinks lower and lower into the ground
why dont i just collapse here on the floor and die
will anyone notice when im gone?
will i go to a better place?
love, i so desperatly need, sometimes, just a long hug
but it never happens
i just go home and i have my mum shouting at me, oh yes, thats very comforting
thankyou lord, for giving me a mum, who hates depressed people, she doesnt know the first thing about how im feeling
and yet i have to hide it all from her
i book an appointment to see my doctor
does she know? NO
i love you jesus
i just want someone to say that they love me
i hate having to hide the way im feeling, and pretending that everything is ok
last month i tried to top myself
i am saying to everyone that this month is much better
but, its actually, much worse
i just want to go, dissapear, vanish, be gone from this world
i really dont want to be me anymore
so if i do die, please help me lord, please say there is something better than this?
theres got to be?
i wish i could make sense of all these thoughts going round my head
my heart is empty, i feel like i am going into a black hole
despair??? lord please tell me why i am feeling this way
please tell me why i am feeling so alone
please help me!!!!!!!!!!!!!
its not going to be ok
im on my way back down
and i will never be able to turn my frown upside down
i will never be ok
i will never be anything
im just one big fuck up!!!
|27 Apr 2007||just a guy||"When things are bad, we take comfort in the thought that they could always be worse. And when they are, we find hope in the thought that things are so bad that they have to get better."
I think this has to be the most true thing I have ever read. Take another look. This pretty much sums up why I'm still alive, and maybe it also does for you. No matter how bad things are, there is always hope. Hope is the most important thing in the world. Without it we would all be doomed - hope is what makes you study at school, take a job interview, try out for a team. Hope can make you get up in the morning and I suppose it can also keep you living a life that you really wish you never had.
For me, it feels like just whenever I'm maybe about to find the one thing that would make it all worthwhile, it just fucks up. It fucks up so much that I wish i was more than dead... because right now i can't even explain the pain and frustration. It's maddening, like a beautiful summers day.. but then the thick black clouds come rushing in from all four corners of the sky and fill the chest with deadening pressure. Uncontrollable, like something eating away at you from the inside. I just don't fucking like it. Get it out, before it eats my soul.
I just wanna be me and feel like thats ok. I just wish I could get to know 'me' before I keep trying to get to know 'you'. I just wish god would stop fucking around and just let me out. I wanna be free. So stop the fear and the pain and unlock me so i can get out. Let me out, i wanna get out.
Maybe if there was one thing i have learnt, it is that you have to look after yourself. Because no-ones really there looking out for you.
"No-one except yourself that is,
No-one except you"
So be kind with yourself (but not unforgiving) and remember that there is always one thing that can keep you alive- hope. Pretty shit I guess but then if you can accept this and forget everything else that you are living for life should be a damn sight easier.
If you've read this far and can see any sense in this post, email me.
|27 Apr 2007||my name is sandi in RI||Honey Please You are under 13 You have so much to live for What is causing you to think like this ? There are alot of people willing to help if you'd like What is your name ? and where do you live ?|
|27 Apr 2007||AltaRehab||PLZ VISIT MY SITE IM TRYNA DO GOOD AND NOT COPY UR SITE BUT KINDA THE SAME SITUATION ON JUST STARTED IT BUT GO ON THE SUICIDE PAGE AND WRITE ANYFINK U WANT THAT IS RELATED TO THE SUBJECT
|27 Apr 2007||the person||If u want 2 kill urself and r under 13 reconsider. it is a horrible thing to do how would your parents feel? I no that ( unless u r abused) that they would be sad and think about killing thamselves. how could you do something like that it is co cruel to them.|
|27 Apr 2007||BLAM||YOU GUYS ARE FUCKING STUPID!!!
I'VE ALREADY KILLED 5 PEOPLE WHO HAVE HURT ME AND I PLAN TO KILL MANY MORE.
AND WHEN I GET CAUGHT IM GONNA KILL MYSELF.
STUPID FUCKING KIDS!
|27 Apr 2007||You grow up and stop being so over-exaggerated.
Your not at the age to decide whether you should kill yourself or not.
|26 Apr 2007||play my song.||wicked clowns got more than some pie for ya face.
with a drip drip drip,
its blood on the strip
3 disassembled bodies in the trunk of the whip.
hear the saw saw saw
right below ur jaw
see your own head roll off the table and fall.
see the puk puk puk flaming arrows in ur truck
one in yo lung stuck,
you fucked outta luck.
feel the hack hack hack
knives in yo back
blood down you spine all in yo spine all in yo ass crack.
with a swing swing swing ur throats whistling
the incisions i made are as fine as g-strings.
its the pat pat pat from behing with a bat
and splatter every crack till ur whole head flat
hit you with a jab jab jab
ill punch you in the flab
and drag u to the butcher shop and chop you into slabs.
|26 Apr 2007||Mouchette is a typical Goth girl.|
|26 Apr 2007||what i want to no is how this site came about? its so crazy to hear all these people asking and telling ways of suicide. if you think about it the law would have shut this down years ago. somethings up, and im not too sure what it is and why this site is a .org because those are organizations. id be a little less surpruised if this was a .com site because those are comercial.|
|26 Apr 2007||Homer Simpson||Hey every1, big suicide party at my house on sat at 10! Don't be late or u'll miss out on all the fun. All u freaks r invited, so please make it to sat n enter the kill-off competition. Whoever has the coolest suicide gets their corpse thrown at their parents! This party is bring-your-own-beer, so no moochin! Ok crazies, so don't forget 2 bring your sharpest n most dangerous objects 2 the party n we'll have 1 hell of a time! Call ahead n tell me ur comin, 1-800-I-KILL-ME|
|25 Apr 2007||HansVonG.||i know a few folks that hung themselves. sad really. couple of years later LIFE is still moving foward without them. no one remembers them. and thier suicide solved nothing. we where just kids. i played with them. ate and drank with them. cheated on school tests with them. got in trouble with them.
whats really bad about the whole thing is the reason they commited suicide was serious at the time but several years down the road it would have been a mere bump, a pot hole. something trivial. something that wouldnt naturally stop life.
im not gonna tell you not to kill yourself. its your life. you have to make your own way.
what i will say to you is this is my LIFES experiences. maybe they will help you. maybe you have already made up your mind. but i wanted to die many times already. and im still here. living. surviving. and yes suffering.
the cold hard matter-in-factly truth about life is that it isnt fair. i didnt make the rules. and these rules cant be broken or bent. accept this and it will get easier.
you cant change the weather. storms happen. whatever your storm is you survive it. it will pass.
|25 Apr 2007||remember to feel real.||if you just need someone to listen to you...i'm here for you.
if you need a shoulder to cry on...i'm here for you.
if you just need a hug...i'm here for you.
if you need some advice...i'm here for you.
i guess i can't really give you all a hug, as much as i'd like to. but i'll do whatever i can to make it a little better. if you need someone to talk to, please come talk to me. i want to help. if you've already added me on msn, then come talk to me, send me an email, or something. i want to help. i care. i swear i do. reading these posts makes me sad. i just want to help. please keep holding on. its all one can do. hang in there.
lots of love.
|25 Apr 2007||ANSWER||put a gun to your head and paint the walls with your brain|
|25 Apr 2007||Ame||I have reasons to end this life. when I was around 8, my classmates picked on me about my weight, and when I was 10, I did something and they all hated me for it even though I have no consciousness about that incident,I didn't know what I was doing, and so I had no real friend up until elementary graduation, but I had one. Yet she turned back on me when I needed it most. When I was sick, i tried to overdose on different medicine but that only prolonged my hospital stay. I was really depressed that time. When I got out, I took an exam at a different school a long way away from them. I was happy that I passed. I thought I had a chance. And there's where I met my real friends. But on the next year, we were separated in different class. Call it shuffle system. And there's where my feel to end kicked back in me. I was in second year then, I have some of my old freshman students with me and others from different sections. I thought that they will be my friends but NO. I was happy that I could help them as much but one time, the entire class asked me for all the materials we needed. the materials can be easily bought. that's where I thought they abuse me. And so they did. I always do the hard work, and they dish out the credit. I only smiled at them but the pain and pressure severes me so. Then, when I visited my best friend, she called me by the name of her classmate. I was shocked, although I didn't show it. I just smiled at her and left. When there are events concerning our class, I get left out especially when it means pairs. I was the only one alone. I was always the one left out.But the face I show was not being pissed but a happy one, a fake one. To tell you the truth, all of my emotions are fake outside. Until someone realized it and has seen through me. During one of out camps, I tried to sleep face down on my pillow to stop breathing. Bad luck, that person was beside me. She tried to wake me up but no use. I passed out. Another time, when we were making bows and arrows, I pretended to practice shooting, the head facing me. Noone notices until blood spilled out. I missed by a few feet from the heart and shot my arm near the wrist instead. I felt alive.
They sent me to the clinic and left me there. No treatment. No first aid. Noone. I was alone. Again. I was muttering to myself,
I want to die
really, I do,
I can't live any further
It will only cause others pain,
If I die,
Then they won't be hurt,
because of me...
Now i'm 13 and about to enter third year high school( I knew you wouldn't believe me), the pain is only starting.
My list of reasons is a long way from what I have told. I hope that there can be a way to end everything, suicide is a permanent solution to an eternal problem.
|25 Apr 2007||LK||today was another fuked up day. im thirteen my lifes slowly falling apart and im trying to find some reasons to live. I'm to scared to cut myself and im not much of a fan of the hanging. but jumping off of a building seems the easiest way. My parents are the worst. They dont talk to me. They dont know whats going on in my life and they dont seem to care. They love my baby brother way more than me and they spoil him like crazy. and im guessing deep down inside they wish i was never born. Well im not an outcast and i have a lot of friends. i dress normal and im self concious way too much. i never have time to sit and think to myself about things and its tearing me apart. im always busy and sometimes i wish i had someone who was here to make my life easier. i think the main reason i want to die is because i cant handle all the pain and stress and i dont think anyone understands me.
i wish someone did. i know there are people who will act like they do but truly no one ever really does understand.
i know people will be sad if i killed myself. but i just want to make them realize how much they hurt me. and i want them to hurt as much. then maybe they would understand how it really feels to be in so much pain.
|25 Apr 2007||SuicidalBob||i helped kill my friend he lives in cali i got a gun and blew his brains out it was really fun he wanted me to do it. i did it 12 more times after that to other people :D. I started to get off on it. i found its my passion to help people committ suicide without them knowing it.|
|24 Apr 2007||Scott||Wow i find this odd and interesting being an artist myself. As an artist i see that this is attempting to make people think. I find it sad to read the posts where people blindly throw up an answer and i also find it sad to see people takeing it for truth and ranting about not doing it. In both cases you are all missing the point and not thinking. which in turn makes this whole thing a waste. As an artist our goal in life is to analyze everything and make people see what they normaly wouldn't, or what they try to ignore. and that is all i will say about that. from here on out it's time for you to change your view and open your own eyes.
So my suicide kit is just an empty box. because all i need to kill myself is in my head and not using it to speed up my death.
|24 Apr 2007||Marge||I Don'T Think That GOD intended for you to Kill Yourself He Sent you to this earth for A reason, you really are here because GOD wanted you here For something,Please take the BIBLE And Read about GOD'S Promises, He Will Help you Get Through Everything in your LIFE If You Only Give HIM A chance. HE Will Fill Your LIFE WITH JOY AND PEACE> TRY GOD.If YOU Have any more questions Please email me, I Care About you TOO. LOVE YOU|
|24 Apr 2007||the killer||when i was 8 my step dad beat me for 5 years. then he told me i was an actident. so i did him a favor i jumped off a three storie school. and 6 months in a nut house. then i got his gun but i did not use it. and now i am 21 and today i am going to kill him....|