|Reading these suicide pages you will find people seeking help and people offering their help. Some witness about suicide from real life experience, others who play along with me would pretend it's a children's game. Some make sick and cruel jokes about it, and angry people blame me for even mentioning the subject. You might also want to read my favourite answers. If you want your answer to be included here, fill in the form.|
What is the best way to kill yourself when you're under 13?
Quelle est la meilleure forme de suicide pour les moins de 13 ans?
|12 Apr 2007||don't die||don't kill yourselves. there is so much to live for. you just have to find it.|
|12 Apr 2007||sedated mess||i died on the inside a long time ago.|
|12 Apr 2007||steve-o||eat pie till u explode.|
|12 Apr 2007||The Bitter End||Ego loaded and swallow, swallow, swallow.|
|12 Apr 2007||Peggy||Later on in this message, I will tell you the easy, painless way to "do the deed", but, I want you to really, really listen and think first.
You all say that you have nothing to live for. You are all wrong! I firmly believe that we were all put on this earth for a purpose. We have all been exposed to horrible lives and childhoods. Have any of you thought that there may be a "higher" reason that you were chosen?
In this world, there are millions of people who are going through what you have. You aren't alone. Instead of sitting there, wallowing in the pain, get out there and try to HELP someone else. You have knowledge and skills, that came about through your experiences; that people who merely get that knowledge through books (at college) will NEVER understand. I'm sure you all know others who feel like you do. Start a support group. Spend time at a homeless shelter or a battered women's shelter. See a doctor about getting on anti-depressants, and TAKE the medications.
You are probably saying, "She doesn't know what I am going through". You're wrong. At one time, I felt the same way all of you do right now. I went through repeated physical, emotional and sexual abuse as a child. My dad was psychotic and my mom turned a blind eye. I was told I was useless, had no friends and felt isolated. I saw the world as a gray, ugly place and felt it would be better without me.
Then, long after I moved away from home, someone told me that, "God put you on this earth for a reason. Sometimes, the reason is "shown" to you early on. Other times, you must look beneath the surface to find that reason. But, when you DO find the reason, it is like a light bulb turning on. Suddenly, your life has purpose, and, if you follow the signs, you will find your purpose in life". They also said, "God NEVER creates a child to commit suicide. He ALWAYS has a reason". Look for your reason and you will find it. It may come in a dream. It may come while you are in your room. It may come while you stroll among nature. You will know your reason.
For me, the answer was going to college and getting a Social Services degree. I wanted to help children who had gone through/were going through the same kind of childhood I did. I got on anti-depressants, and now am realizing my "calling". That's not to say that God does not have other "callings" for me. This is just the first.
If you are still set on doing it, then I told you that I would tell you how to do it. I hope that you will think twice or three times before you end your life. Someone also told me "Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem". They were right. So use nitrogen gas if you want to do it. I won't tell you how it works. If you really want to do it, then you will have to research this method. I did a report for my speech class on the death penalty in college. I stumbled upon this little known way of ending a life. I suggest you go to the library and look it up. I won't make it easy for you to turn your back on God's wishes, or easy on satan's plans (which is what suicide is).
I am hoping that you will choose life. I don't know you, but I feel for you. Perhaps we can talk online, once you start your path towards the goal(s) that God has for you. I check my email once or twice a day you can reach me at: Perkypurrkat2002@yahoo.com.
Choose life, we'll miss you if you left this planet. So would those people you were meant to help!
|12 Apr 2007||Stop||Heyaa Well DONT COMMITE SUCIIDE i have never done it and even when live gets ruff i still wouldent dream off it you never no later in lyf you could be tha nxt beyonce or hale berry!!!
I am not saying your stupid yes..you might av been or going through alot but hasent or doesent every1?
Well I would like to think that you relise u av a whole life ahead off you and remeber people that have tryed doing it before hav regretted it so just think what you could be missing out on you never no what lies ahead for you x most people with terrible lifes come up 2 be the next superstar or actor well hope i elped xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx :):):):):):):):P
|12 Apr 2007||suicide. it is ur fault all u pathetic emo kids u wana die? Jst||To the creator of this website u r an evil and sick thing ur a heartless bitch and il curse u til kingdom come. Im abt to murder myself at mid nyt 2 nyt and im fuckin scared ! bt b4 that i want u to know that all these ppls misery and suicides wil be on ur conscience til ur damned in eternity on judgement day wen god asks u wat u did wit ur lyf u can say u whole heartidly led hundreds of people to|
|12 Apr 2007||marcus||head pointed down off your window and fly off.|
|11 Apr 2007||chloe||why do u people even comment on this shit, its ridiculous, your not doing anyone any favors.|
|11 Apr 2007||Lafawnduh||Hahaha why do you wanna kill yourself people!If people call you names kill them not yourself who cares if you go to jail at least they wont be calling you names and you would feel better!Dont you think?|
|11 Apr 2007||flick||i passed out after slitting my wrists at school in the bathroom when i was 13.
but im 16 now.
AND WITH A VENGEANCE
trust me. dont get mad get even
|11 Apr 2007||skyla||I need help.
I hate life more than anything right now. i need a way to commit suicide. I'm thinking about overdosing on anti depressants but idk if it will work.
someone please talk to me.
|11 Apr 2007||leonard||The best way to kill your self when your under 13 is... outside.|
|11 Apr 2007||Brandon Morgan||I have been here before, I am Brandon Morgan... I now live with my grandmother... She is going through chemo-therapy, she has shingles, she has has over 3 surgeries in the past 4-5 months! My sister lives with her, and hse hates me and she hates my grandmother! I am 12 going on 13 in May. My Myspace URL is; www.myspace.com/imtherealthing and my screename for AIM is soberebos! I need help! I am about to kill myslef! Please talk to me ASAP!|
|11 Apr 2007||Tom||I wish I knew.
I'm 17 and I'm in a fairly serious relationship with a girl. We've been going out for nearly two years and about six months ago we had sex. I wasn't really sure if i wanted to but I did it cos i knew she wanted it, and because i love her.
The problem is, I think i might be gay. I'm so confused, when i'm with her everything is perfect but when we're apart I find that i'm not attracted to her and my mind drifts to guys at my school.
Before we started going out i told my best friend i was gay, but she blabbed to everybody and i suppose i only started going out with her to prove i'm not. i was happy for a while but now it kills me to think of what all ths is gonna do to her. I just need to find out who i really am.
I can't sleep right anymore and i'm a recovering anorexic. and i'm beginning to get feelings for this guy who's a really close friend of my girlfriend.
i just want to die and leave it all behind. i don't want to have to worry about who i am anymore
|11 Apr 2007||fuckubrent||Meet Brent Portman. u wont only wanna kill urself but kill him too. hes a bakstabbing asshole!|
|11 Apr 2007||alex n||dear god,
today i stopped beliving in you
i stopped because i just thought that how can you be real,
i have prayed and prayed asking you to heal my pain
and i have never got a responce, my heart is still broken as it ever was
so what will it take, i want to be in a relationship with you,
but i dont know what i am worshiping is real
i cry out to you almost every night in one way or another
how i long for us to be together
are you ignoring every word i said?
where are you now, as i am writing this with my heavy heart
where where you last month when i tried to kill myself?
why do you just sit back and watch me go though this emotional pain
when will it end?
because i need to feel happy again
and it feels like it will never happen
i cant see the light
all i can see i darkness
why are you ignoring me god
it feels like i am fighting everyday by myself
and i need somebody, maybe that somebody is you?
what happens after death
cuz i came close the other week
where were you, why wernt you there, helping me along though this shitty life?
pain, pain, pain, thats all i ever feel, and you are supposed to help heal this pain
but you never do, i pray and pray, so why are you ignoring me?
i have even prayed to you saying that i want to die tonight, in my sleep,
and wake up in the kindom, or limbo
why should i worship something that isnt real,
why am i loosing my faith
i was starting to believe in you,
but not anymore
i give up on you god!!!!
you dont want to know me
whats the problem, arnt i good enougth for you, is that it?
you do not bring me happiness,
you do not heal my broken heart
you just ignor ever word that i say to you
so god,whats the deal, i want to know you, i want to let you into my heart
so why are you ignoring me
i have tried, i pray, i go to church, i tell people how awsome you are
but not any more,
i am giving up on you, like you seem to be giving up on me
are you there now?
are you listning now.
i give up
i hate you
has that got your attention!!!!!
you need to make me feel like ive got somebody
you need to make me feel like i am somebody
not just a nobody
because that is what i feel like all the time
ANSWER ME GOD!!!!!!
you seem to answer other people
so why not me?
why dont you heal my broken heart
why cant you end my pain?
oh, i know, next time, i'll pray to get ran over by a trian
fuck u god
i hate you
i dont want to know you
i dont want to be with you
i suddenly feel happy when i rebel against you
whats up with that
im better off without you god!!!!!
i dont need you
i dont want to know you anymore
goodbye god, its been shit knowing you
now that i am giving up on you my life should get better
so ye, goodbye god, goodbye chirstianity
i was never good enougth to get into there anyway
fuck u god, i h8 you and i always will do, from now on,
I GIVE UP ON U GOD!!!!
|11 Apr 2007||i love you isf.||"i ask myself what do i have to lose?
the same thing hapens to us all.
nothing i do that is good will last."
what do those lines mean love?
i hope your not quitting on me.
you just need to hang in there.
i know you wouldn't just leave me like this....but then i think maybe you just wanted to leave...and not have me stop you...
you have to be okay love.
i don't understand why you wouldn't just email me or something.
i wait for you ever single night...and each night my heart breaks a little more because your never there....
please be okay.
i love you.
"we all flirt with the tiniest notion of self conclusion in one simplified motion. you see the trick is that your never suppose to act on it, no matter how unbearable this misery gets"
i'll always be there for you love.
please come talk to me soon.
i can only take this for so long...
love you and miss you so so much.
|11 Apr 2007||erin||go to the train tracks, wait for a train and run in front of it so it hits you|
|10 Apr 2007||HLM||OK, I was in a bad mood when I posted on 4-10-07 about the guy who said girls should just leave guys who are mean to them. I'm sorry especially for swearing and spilling my anger all over the place. It was hard to read all the depressed messages from unhappy children on the message board and know that so many kids are suffering and so many other kids have died b/c of their pain and seeing no way out. I think that pretending suicide is a game is a bad way to go, b/c it's so very real and so very bad when it really does happen. I have been suicidal on and off a lot in my life and I'm mostly VERY GLAD that I did NOT KILL MYSELF. Some days are hard and some days are good. But I have seen what suicide does to the survivors and I do not want to do that to my loved ones, especially the ones who have already suffered such losses before. If you are in a situation where you feel like killing yourself is the only option, please reach out to other people for help; find a safe adult to talk with, call a suicide hotline, write in a journal, go to sleep, play with your pet dog or cat, listen to music, write music, do any thing you can think of that is safe and keeps you from taking away your own life. I do not have the answers for why we are on the planet, but I do believe that each person is unique and special, but most of us think we are lower than dirt, just for things that other people also do or think or feel. We have these mean messages in our heads and these awful pains in our hearts that tell us LIES about ourselves and these feelings and thoughts are very powerful, but that does not make them accurate or correct or even "real" as in "true" so we have to find ways to dismantle their power, to build up friendships and good things to do and say and think and feel in our lives. If you cannot stay alive for a whole day, then break it down into little manageable pieces, like 1 hour or 1 minute, and just keep adding up the time until you get past the feeling and thinking of wanting to kill yourself. I think it's important not to "play" suicide, but I also think a lot more people under 13 are thinking about it than grown-ups want to recognize or let on, and we have to find ways to make it okay to talk about feeling that bad. Childhood is not all easy and happy and shiny and fun like some people pretend it is when they tell you it's the best time in your life, what are you complaining about. But suicide is not the answer, especially when you are still a kid and you haven't even gotten to live on your own yet, b/c sometimes that can make things a lot easier on your mind and heart, when you are no longer under the control of people who do not have your best interests as their goals. I have also read that most of the methods that people use to attempt suicide are (1) VERY PAINFUL, and (2) OFTEN UNSUCCESSFUL, so you should not risk it unless you are willing to end up paralyzed or with other problems b/c of brain damage and stuff from what you did to yourself. Again, it's not the best choice to make; you can find so many other things to do with your time and energy, including reaching out to other people who are hurting and helping them understand that they are not alone b/c you know what it's like to feel bad too. And you can play video games or read books or sleep or swim or make friends or go for walks or make art or poetry or sing or study or play sports or hang out with your siblings or meditate or pray or make jewelry or friendship bracelets or play frisbee or get a job and save up money to do something cool in the future. And you can ask for help from teachers, friends, parents, peers, hotlines, support groups. There is NOTHING wrong with needing help; I think that's why we are on this planet for one reason, is to be there for each other, b/c we are not meant to do it all alone. If you are hurting so much that you want to die, you probably have a good reason to feel that way, usually b/c of something bad that someone else did to you or that happened to you or that someone or something made you believe about yourself. Some people want to die b/c they masturbate a lot or are gay or lesbian or because they have been sexually abused or had someone break their heart. These are real reasons to feel really bad for a while, b/c they are hard things to cope with in this world, but they are survivable things too. No matter what you have done or had done to you, you can make a difference in your life right now by choosing not to hate and/or kill yourself, by choosing to believe that you really are already okay just who you are. That I can promise you. Life is hard, I won't lie; and it's not often "fair" either; but it's worth the risk to stay alive. Please have compassion for yourself and understand that you have are not crazy to feel pain or to think you want to die; and that you can choose not to die even when you feel like you want to die; you do not have to act on these feelings. You can find ways to stay alive for another hour or another day and you can find people and things that will help you heal whatever made you feel so awful. I am so amazed by the open and honest sharing of so many kids and adults about their suicidal feelings and the terrible pain of losing a sibling or friend to suicide. You all have inspired me to keep going and I hope I have helped you a little too.|