|Reading these suicide pages you will find people seeking help and people offering their help. Some witness about suicide from real life experience, others who play along with me would pretend it's a children's game. Some make sick and cruel jokes about it, and angry people blame me for even mentioning the subject. You might also want to read my favourite answers. If you want your answer to be included here, fill in the form.|
What is the best way to kill yourself when you're under 13?
Quelle est la meilleure forme de suicide pour les moins de 13 ans?
|26 Aug 2007||Sandy||Stand in the kitchen and tell your mom on New Years Eve that you figured out the perfect way to kill yourself. She's heard these kind of comments before, she looks at you annoyed, and shakes her head. But you go on, and say that carbon monoxide poisoning is the ideal way. She recalls a real life story of a friend who is still haunted by the death of her mother and sister. Mother was in an enclosed garage with the car running, her sister found her and tried to save her and died trying to save her. Now she takes meds to deal with the pain and even thinks of ending it herself, It seems like the only way to escape her pain. I am the mother of that 19 year old daughter in the kitchen. Her 20 year old cousin shot himself in the head and died. She was close to him and his death ate at her. She was only 12 at the time, but his death consumed her. Whenever life got rough, she thought of him, and the way he solved his problems. Jan 1 2005 Lauren Eileen McDowell died. Today is August 26 2007. On September of this month it will be 2 years and 8 months since she died. I die every day thinking of that evening in the kitchen. I regret so much. I am full of should of's, and could of's. Why didn't I call her and say Happy New Years that night? I would have heard the pain in her voice. I would have known somehting was wrong. I could have stopped her. I could have saved her. I wish I had the chance, but then again I guess I did. She did after all tell me that night. Why didn't I hear her call for help? I miss her so much. I cry daily,|
|26 Aug 2007||dsdff||i wish i was at the point where i just didnt give a shit anymore i wish i was jaded already i cant stand crying any more this is too much for me|
|26 Aug 2007||karma||im 13 and i want to commit suicide Sooo bad im sick of ym fucking life i got raped when i was 12 by my step dad my mom doesnt beleive me and he does it to my older sister as well my mom doesnt beleive any shit that comes out of our mouths shes on his side when i get back from school my sister is always crying her eyes out she left home like a week ago now im just wanna die end my life and go to a better place soo the world can just get fucked i hate you all no one even cares if i tell police they will just give him a fine or something he also cheats on my mom i saw a women walking out of the house with cash in her hand fucking slut he does it all the time he comes home drunk my moms a slut everyone i know is a slut... im so depressed im gonna hut my fucking hand off|
|26 Aug 2007||marshall fisher||hey its me again (the one tear away kid) is final, life sucks but not for long cuz im breaking my window consume al the mother f¤¤king meds in the house cut my wrists with the broken glass and jump. i want to die so bad please talk me out of it.|
|26 Aug 2007||hanging on||I've been suicidal since i was bullied at school for guess what??????? being pretty! i tried everything and even tho im not like totally over trying to take my life, I KNOW its not the way out and at 13 you really only just need people to talk to...i dont have anyone who understands me..i never really have but trust me if i can live this long knowing each day when i wake up that i have no one n so many problems then u can. I suggest (if u can't talk to ur folks im assuming) u try to get an appointment with a consellor of some sort and just let everything out, and even though u never go back to see them..that one day can help u live through the problems ur having. Like someone said before, u have someone even if its just one person in this whole world that actually loves you please hang on to that.
You probably have a great future ahead of u...most people from my former school who were bullied like me are now popular teens that everyone just wants to hang out with. Life's like that, u could be the king of the playground in kindergarten and a street sweeper as an adult, and in most cases the bullied, no friends, standing on the wall unnoticed kid in skul becomes mr/ms so successful as an adult.
I know i sound hypocritical as i am suicidal myself but i must know life gets better coz im still here...n planning to be...
|26 Aug 2007||Everyone's Mom||I am a 41 year old mother of 3. On 8/16/07 (Thursday a week ago) I went to check on a friend that did not show up for dinner and found she had committed suicide. It was HORRIBLE beyond anything I've every experienced myself. I will NEVER be the same. She chose a violent end to her life, the big F-U to everyone. It has changed my life in so many ways but all of them are for the better.
As a teen, young adult and even as long ago as a month ago, I had considered this same path for myself. I WAS WRONG! There is NOTHING in this world worth leaving it. Tomorrow is a better day and if not the next day gets better. I've stood in my front yard screaming at my friend for leaving me with this horrific image in my mind to carry, alone for the rest of my life. My children have had to watch me hallucinate and sob for days over this but as I come out on the other side, I realize, and I have shared with everyone around me, that there is KINDNESS in this world. There is beauty in EVERY step we take, every breath we breath, every tear we shed.
My friend was consumed with rage, anger, hopelessness. She bathed all of us in it with her passing. If she had thought with the part of her that cared for others she NEVER would have left this burden behind for the rest of us. She left me a note. Her soon to be ex-husband won't give it to me because he's a jerk (one of the reasons she chose this path). I refuse to let it bother me. I refuse to let this man make me miserable the way he did to her. I know she loved me.
If you are considering leaving this life, please take a moment to think about your future. You can and will escape those that have wronged you in the past. Especially if you are young. The BEST revenge is to live well and prosper. You can, but you have to make the concious decision to do so. You are worthy of this life. You are here for a reason, you have hope and beauty whether you believe it or not.
I've chosen to channel my grief into making sure that EVERYONE who crosses my path knows that they are WORTHY of life and value. The fact that you are here means you still have the chance to make a difference in the lives of society. Hang on to your future. There is HOPE.
I came to this site hoping to find a way to cope with my own loss and I see that there are others that have shared my own pain and thoughts of leaving this world. Now that I have been touched by someone who has I can tell you that IT'S NOT WORTH IT! You will never be able to "SHOW THEM" from the grave. You CAN show those who have caused you pain by walking away from them, step by step into the bright light of THIS world. Don't leave us. Whether you actually feel this from the people close to you, there are those of us that truly understand your pain. We have had those moments of despair and RAGE. Ending your life will not exact revenge on those that have hurt you because they still have life. They will move on. Stay here, with us. SHOW them that you are of value. I don't even know you but right now as I sit here I'm telling you that YOU HAVE VALUE! Go outside, look at the full moon. Look at a sunset, look at your child, look at yourself. Words and hurtful actions of others cannot bring you down. There's someone out here holding on for you and you don't even know it.
Please, please, please, don't leave us. This life is worth living and your are worth living it. Whether or not you realize it you are loved, you will be loved and life will go on.
|26 Aug 2007||Lady||I wish I was die...I have tryed some many times and nothing each time I wake up the next day and cry because I am still here...|
|25 Aug 2007||Dylan||well suicide attempt 1 didn't work instead i ended up getting completely smashed i know the pain will never stop hurting but i wish letting it all go is as easy as turning of a lightbulb i want to end it.|
|25 Aug 2007||Harry||If you're really bored of living firstly do fuck loads of drugs and struggle with OD's at least u enjoy a year or two of happiness then rap around u alot of gelatine and exploives go to school and explode with a big smile.|
|24 Aug 2007||me||are you all out of your fucking minds your giving a fucking 13 year old advise on how to kill yourself holy shit u are all fucked up seriously dont give a kid instructions on how to kill urself fuck you all|
|24 Aug 2007||blythe||I've been where you're at. Please read this entire entry.
Five years ago, at 3 a.m., I was moments away from taking my life. At that moment I called a friend, his name was Ryan. Over the next few vital minutes, he spoke to me of my worth to him. He helped me through it. (This is the condensed version of the story, as there is a much greater story I have to tell you).
On July 6, 2007, a little over five years from the night I almost took my life, Ryan took his own life. He walked into a wooded area just outside of Washington, D.C., and hung himself. He was 25-years-old.
Ryan was the closest person to me in my entire life. No one, not friends or family knew me like he knew me. No one accepted me as he did. No one let me know how important I was to them like he did. He was my rock and my strength. He was the person I turned to. I've cursed God that he's taken him away from me, but somehow I understand. Somehow I understand that Ryan was only meant to live this life for 25 years. I understand what he did because I too was there.
So, what is the best way to kill yourself when you're under 13? Or, what is the best way to kill yourself? If that's the only way you see out of what ever dark hole you're in, ask yourself who your Ryan is. Ask yourself what your Ryan would think, how he would feel. Is your Ryan your mother? Your dad? Maybe a sibling? A teacher? Maybe, like me, a friend.
Please know that there is someone, if not many people, that wouldn't be able to live their lives they way they do if you're not a part of it.
Every hour I think of him. Everyday I cry. Every hour I ask myself why he would take his life? I ask myself why he didn't turn to me to help him the way he helped me. He is the reason why I am still here, so why I couldn't be his?
You're too young.
He was too young.
Ryan had a lot of mental issues he was struggling with that no one knew about. If we would have known about them (he shut a lot of family/friends out of his life over the past 10 months), then we would have done EVERYTHING in our power to help him. Why? Because we loved him. I loved him. Now, I sit alone writing this to you in hopes that you never do what Ryan has done to me.
Life is a struggle.
It's a bitch.
You're probably sick of people saying, "Think positively," or, "It'll get better."
That's the last thing you want to hear.
Well, the last thing I ever want to hear is that another friend selfishly took their life. Find your Ryan.
|24 Aug 2007||silence||I'm nearly seventeen years old, I've been trying to commit suicide for over eight years.
Every time I tried it wouldn't work, no matter how deep I cut or whatever I did.
I've been there, and I can't say if I'll ever recover but I can say that it is a great waste of human life. And it is the cowards way out.
I'm not being hypocritical, but when it looks like there's no way out, let go. Don't take it out on yourself.
I tried for so many reasons, bullying, a loved one's ongoing terminal illness and just pure despair. But they were mistakes I was lucky enough to come away from.
I'll be here if anyone needs a friendly ear, you can email me.
|24 Aug 2007||john paul||i have ben reading this site all day to find out that killing your self is not the way to make things better event thow some times i dought my own words .i have lerned alot from here one of the many things i came to realyze is every one here is alone and it feels like no one understands u no one loves u well as hard as it is i em going thought the same thing u guys are going thourght right now and i came to the conclusion that in a way we HAVE EACH OTHER BECAUSE WE KNOW THE PAIN IN EACH OTHER VANES this site is very powere full in a way it can be nagative or possitive depending on how u try to face it but honest le this site is perfect for thouse seeking help because u look on how to kill your self and u see other people testemonys and how they try and try and how they share but who knows maybe that is what we need to now from each other because DEPRESSION IS EVIL AND IT CAN AND I WILL KILL U if u dont evercome it so realy look at your selfs and think of things u can do to change who u are because its not easy and i will never be easy if you dont try to fight it and if u thing people dont love u because of the way u are maybe its time to take in some consideration and changing who u are for the better but death is never the awnser i em still learnig that fell free to email me if u feel confortable and i will be there to listen and try to understant but dont forget YOU ARE NOT ALONE BECAUSE WE HAVE THE SAME PROBLAMS AND THAT MAKES US UNITED!!!!!|
|24 Aug 2007||El Cid||If you are under 13, and wish to kill yourself, it can be done. But understand that one experiences the most emotional and philosophic time of their life at this age. It is traumatic, but as fire to the phoenix you emerge brilliant and worthy of awe.
If you are young and wish to die, I humbly submit these alternatives: angst. contempt. honor. defiance. courage. grace. duty. indifference. respect. allegiance. spite. bravado.
There is no better way to tell the world to fuck off than to spit in the face of adversity. Suicide is an admission of defeat. Why fall on the knife when you can twist it in another's ribs? Figuratively speaking, of course...
|23 Aug 2007||Pete||swallow two massive spiders and sit back and enjoy as they fight their way out of your stomach.|
|23 Aug 2007||deepster||No easy way to say this. I'm suicidal. My life totally blows. When I was a little girl my aunt molested me. I have so many issues. I am looking for an easy way at least not to painful.|
|23 Aug 2007||Dushawn Mandick||doode if ur mad about mouchette not posting your posts you should totally just eat a tub of hagen daas and have yourself a good cry and then you will feel better. she has not posted more of my posts than she has posted. and honestly, if she didnt post it, it dosent have a place on the internet. anywhere. or maybe she enjoys making you angry. sure, we can disect this all day long but hey life is too short for well, even for me to write this. but sometimes you just got to let it all out. anger will get u in trouble. and crying only ruins homework assignments and pictures of some bitch you used to love, but otyher than that no matter what, you have to eliminate the negitive from your life. so you have room for positive. oh and by the way mouchette made an ass of you. can you say hee-haw? hee-haw hee haw hee-haaw.
ok ok im sorry that was a bit malicious. and probably negitive to you.
well i have to go back to my life now. yall take care now
everyone has one. im gonna wash mine.
|23 Aug 2007||samrita||Overdose on paracetamol. I'm gonna do it myself in about 2 hours. I've got 80 (they're easily available!) but the more, the better. Also drink lots of alcohol, maybe steal some from your parents cupboard. It'll work. God bless you, I don't know why you want to kill yourself...but I feel your pain...I'm a total failure =(|
|23 Aug 2007||Observer||Why doesn't Mouchette comment on answeres as she did in 1999?|
|23 Aug 2007||Dylan||im 13 and i need help how do i commit suicide qick and and painlessly. i suck at school i think i have no life so ni do what ever i want to do. 2 dyas ago i called my english teacher a bitch. i just ant to end it so if some one could give me a few i dears about it thanx|