|Reading these suicide pages you will find people seeking help and people offering their help. Some witness about suicide from real life experience, others who play along with me would pretend it's a children's game. Some make sick and cruel jokes about it, and angry people blame me for even mentioning the subject. You might also want to read my favourite answers. If you want your answer to be included here, fill in the form.|
What is the best way to kill yourself when you're under 13?
Quelle est la meilleure forme de suicide pour les moins de 13 ans?
|03 Nov 2007||Eliot||Tell your parents you love them and watch the astonishment on their faces if youhave two that is. tey may be so shocked that they dont feed you hay presto your DEAD.My attempts werr'nt so imagineitive so alass i'm still alive.|
|02 Nov 2007||WhoHasToKnow||Day, you need to tell someone. What happened wasn't your fault. That guy is a bastard and needs to be put behind bars. You aren't a dirty slut and you have nothing to be ashamed of.|
|02 Nov 2007||Death Star||suicide is the last thing u do when all else fails...
so up until this point u should at least try!! dont tell me you have either because thise under18 have not tried!! if you are over 40 and still feel this way then be my guest and kill yourself!! kids have it better than me, you, and every fucking one else!! i on the otherhand am old enough to make the decision of suicide so peace out mother fuckers.
ps eminem is my lover in my heart!!! because we all know i can never have him in reality well fine he is my lover in heart mind and spirit!! i love my husband marshall mathers aka eminem!!
|02 Nov 2007||UbiK||rana, you've just expressed my own feelings, I'm also so bored of reading these "life defender", "humanists" or anything these people are calling themselves or want to be called. That's it "words are just words", stop naming the things they still are what they are. "words are words" but here you just wrote what I could have written. It won't change anything, I won't feel better but I just wanted to inform you of that.
|02 Nov 2007||Li||Colocha: yes im here...e-mail me at li_Dao05@yahoo.com Im here for you **hugs**|
|01 Nov 2007||Emily||Im 23, cant find a job for months..now on welfare..in bad relationship..In hurt my kids..Im so depressed..I drink all the time..wish I had a bottle of Xanax..why cant I be happy? hats with the mood sings that never end and the never answered prayers? I hate feelin like this, I hate who I am and turned out to be..No family, no friends. Im so freakin lonely..Bulimic, suicidal, scared to live...and to die. Im so numb I have to cut myself to feel anything. My kids would be better off w/o me.. other than that everyone would rejoice the day I finally get enough courage to do it. Drugs do help escape the pain, so does drinking but Id rather die than continue that. Id rather die than be a failure and Id rather die than to be hated.|
|01 Nov 2007||Day||I tried four months ago and obviously failed. I cut, but i wasn't very good at it i guess. I was put into a hospital; I hated it there. I felt like a slave. I had tried to kill myself because i felt like such a slave to my emotions and i wanted freedom and here i was locked up. After the couple weeks i spent there, i gained a lot of confidence and i wanted to live again. About a month after getting out i was still doing fantastic. I took my drugs and i had not hurt myself since. But one day i was walking along a road near my house and a male family friend picked me up. He asked if i wanted a ride home. I said sure. But he didn't take me home. He raped me in the back of his van. I didn't want to lose my virginity to him so i begged him not to fuck me. He agreed not to fuck me in my pussy. I though i was going to be fine. I could handle a guy sucking my tits and deepthroating me. I was a woman, i could be strong. But than he flipped me over and he fucked me up my ass. It hurt sooo much. I have nighmares about him now. I am returning to my habit of self loathing. I have cut 13 times since then. I am afraid of men and now i feel sexually atracted to women. I am scared and i am confused especialy because i see him sometimes. I want to die again. I cant live with this inside me anymore. I feel him inside of me all the time. I am a dirty, slut now. I don't know how much longer i can hold on. I can't tell anyone, not my dad or my mom or my siblings. I feel alone. I don't know what to do. I am so afraid not to give love, recieve love, or even feel love. If anyone has gone through a similar experiance please write about it so i can find inspiration to keep on fighting.|
|01 Nov 2007||Alison||No. Do not do it. At our school over the past 5 months we have lost two kids to a suicide. The first time, it was my best friend. The second time, it was one of my brother's extremely close friends. All I'm saying is that there is no best way to kill yourself. Especially when you are 13 or younger. I just turned 14. My mom has depression, and I have been dealing with it since i was 9 years old. I completely and totally know what you are dealing with. And I totally understand why you want to do this. I've been there. I've wanted to kill my self too. But then I think about how it would effect the other people in my life. Honestly, do you want your parents to live with the regret of knowing that they probabaly contributed to the factors of your death? What about your siblings? I know everyone's said it before, but there is help out there. Even if it's from just another person like me. Whether it be from a psychiatrist or just another teenager there, just know that there ARE people out here who DON'T want to see you go. E-Mail me Please if you need anything.
|01 Nov 2007||ConqueredKing||I can't tell you the easiest way to commit suicide or where we go when we die. I'm just here to vent(maybe I can provide some insight).
My father died when I was 18. Not that I blame her, but my mom fell asleep at the wheel while my dad was sleeping in shotgun. He was thrown from the vehicle and killed. Distraught, I stopped talking to my absolutely "perfect for me" girlfriend and my mother.
Now I'm 25 years old, out of work and live with my mother and step father. Everyday I wake up and wonder what the fuck I'm going to do for the rest of my life, or what the bullshit American standard of living is these days. Because of my lack of interest in regularity, I refuse to work at any retail store or swindle some idiot into buying an overpriced piece of equipment whether it be a car or a fucking copy machine. Bottom line: I made a promise to myself that I would not work to live and be miserable for the rest of my life.
When I was 13, my dad bought me a guitar for Christmas. Him being a drummer, maybe he felt music was in our blood. However, I didn't get into the guitar until 17 thanks to a horrible defect called rap music.
Since then, I have developed a love for music, mainly metal, and decided that's what interests me most. That doesn't tend to go over well with my family or my friends even though I gleam with musical confidence. Yet, everyone was so happy with me(American standard) 2 years ago when I was making 17 dollars an hour slinging concrete for a non-union company that refused to upgrade its technology since 1986. It was the toughest job I have ever had but I worked with friends which made it bearable.
At 3 different times in my life, I attended college. My hatred for high school rolled over into a hatred for college when I realized they were basically one and the same. Besides, I'm not social enough for that kind of action. Don't get me wrong, I have some of the best friends money can't buy but people, in my opinion, today have lost the code of chivalry and honor. Men think with their dicks and women fuck for money. As cynical as this sounds, I believe it to be true.
At 19, I became a Christian, or at least I thought I did. After 2 years of that nonsense, I started researching religion and science. Realizing that a majority of the Christian bible was plagiarized from ancient Jewish and Mesopotamian/Sumerian stories, I quickly lost faith and started to become more Jewish than anything(believing in "a" God rather than "the" God and His son). Today my belief system is a complex structure teetering on the brink of total annihilation. However, I have to believe in an Intelligent Designer due to the fact that our universe is too goddamn orderly.
They say God is supreme truth. Well I know of 1 truth:
No one on the face of this entire planet can tell you what God is because they know as much as you or I know, which is we know absolutely nothing.
So don't let people try to sell you the idea of Hell because they don't know a fucking thing, but if you decide to leave this shitbox world, I would suggest you leave with a sound mind or it might project you into darkness.
Die happy and thanks for reading.
|01 Nov 2007||just another soul lost in space||I'm lost..
I shall bid thee farewell, for I do hope I will be lost no more..
Let me leave, forget about me.. I have no wish to stay alive, not in body, nor in memory..
|31 Oct 2007||WhoHasToKnow||I've been feeling suicidal for the last 15 years and I'm 21 now. I always thought that maybe I'd grow out of it but it hasn't happened lately. I think this forum is interesting because I read all the post s from the younger people and their reasons for wanting out are interesting. They remind me a lot of myself. My life really isn't THAT bad. I have a wonderful family and even though my father died years ago, my mother is good to me and supportive of my goals. When I look in the mirror, I know I'm not the prettiest girl but I know I look alright. I'm not rich but I'm not really poor either. I have enough money in my account to just buy what I need and not have to worry.
I just have this problem, I feel impossible to please. I feel like the way a lot of us did when we were in middle school- wanting to be perfect in every single way. I wanted to be the smartest, the prettiest, the most popular and the years keep passing by and I still feel this way. I'm single but this doesn't bother me that much, what does bother me is that nobody good seems to show interest in me, but that's not enough to kill myself so whatever, shouldn't get off topic here.
Anyway I want to go out because I can't seem to love me. I know lots of people love me and I dread how they are going to feel when I finally do it. That was really the only thing that ever stopped me before, also the failure/ fear of it. I think I might actually make my departure this time. I found the perfect place and I may do it when it snows- I've always had this fantasy about dying during a snowstorm for some reason, it's strange I know. I doubt I actually will, there's always that glimmer of hope I remember from when I was a child, that this will all go away and I'll be a happy adult; but realisticaly why would it go away? It hasn't yet and it's been fifteen years.
Anyway sorry about the narritive, I just stumbled across this page and decided to post my little story too. I'm almost afraid to share but whatever. Good luck everyone.
|31 Oct 2007||Toni||To the 13-year-old that wants to kill him/her-self: DON'T!!! I felt that way for years. I grew up believing that no-one loved me, and that I was better off dead. I'm 27 now, and I still look at suicide pages to see if anyone thinks I'll still go to heaven if I commit suicide. I've never been picked as anyone's favorite person or BFF, but I'm sure you have a best friend, which is more than some people have. Sure, your mom seems uncaring, but I think she feels that if she ignores it, it'll stop you from thinking about it, or wanting to carry it out. That doesn't mean she doesn't love you, she's just in denial. Baby, you've got your whole life ahead of you, and you'll still meet so many people who'll get to know you and love you just as you are, so, please, don't give up on life yet till you've experienced all that is coming to you. What I think you should do now is try to get to know and love yourself, cos no one will love you if you don't love or respect yourself first. Please try.|
|30 Oct 2007||Confuzed2night||I don't know the best way to kill yourself when you're under 13 as I'm trying to find a way to kill myslef right now as I write this. I was looking up easy ways to commit suicide in google and I came across this website. I am a 22 year old female and I have a hormonal imbalance which causes me to grwo hair practically all over my body. I'm tired of being different from everyone else and having to shave like a dude and I have always felt ugly. I am failing everything in school because I'm so depressed about everything and people are constatly taking advantage of me. I think about killing myself every day that goes by now. I feel that I don't want to live because I don't deserve it and it doesn't deserve an unworthy person like me living through it.|
|30 Oct 2007||colocha||im in highschool and two of my best friends moved away one ive known snce 3rd grade and he moved to malibu california and one ive known since only 9th grade and she moved to tauton mass and w/o them i feel deppressed well ........ yeah
I KNOW THIS GIRL ON THIS WEBSITE HER NAME IS LI AND IF YOU GET THIS MESSAGE EMAIL ME PLEASEEEEEEE THANKS HOPE TO HEAR FROM YOU SOON STILL ALIVE LOL HOPE TO HEAR FROM YOU SOON
|30 Oct 2007||Sebastian||It's the hardest nobody cares for you. When you know deep down that your useless, ugly and a waste of space. This is what makes life the hardest for me. I've tried to kill myself so many times that i cannot remember a time that didn't contain sometype of attempt at death. I don't try it anymore because I know it's no use. I'm trapped here.. . like a fly stuck on a sticky trap. My entire family hates me and I have know friends. Yesterday I cut so deep into my arm that sliced through the flesh and some of the meat beneath it. It hurt so bad but it felt so relieving. Somebody plaese tell me why I'm here.|
|30 Oct 2007||Eliot||With a soft drink can lid|
|29 Oct 2007||lok stok & 2 smokin barrels||the best way to kill yourself is plan a bank or jewlery store robbery, have a high powered rifle or smg. rob the fuck out of the store threatening ne1 who stands in your way. if the cops rock up then take as many down as you can and they will most likley kill you. if you get away but are caught later you will probz go to prison where youll get raped and probly shanked for being such a whiny pussy. and if you manage to pull off the robbery and not get caught then your fucking rich, buy an xbox 360 a hooker and some weed and you wont wanna kill yourself ne more :)|
|28 Oct 2007||no name||don't do it|
|28 Oct 2007||sarah||become an overweight White middle class American kid with conservative parents and a big room all to yourself so you can sit in it everyday after school alone and drive yourself mad with selfpity and sel hatred all in one. Then do something stupid and self and never realize how huge the world is and that if only you had waited to grow up a little you would've been old enough to watch American Beauty and Girl Interrupted and felt better about the fact that pain is beautiful adn we all deal and that's how we connect in the first place with one another. Pointless?? Only the old man on his death bed can truly testify to that. So go ask him, see what he says.|
|27 Oct 2007||dead inside.||Broken down and hungry for your love
With no way to feed it
Where are you tonight?