|Reading these suicide pages you will find people seeking help and people offering their help. Some witness about suicide from real life experience, others who play along with me would pretend it's a children's game. Some make sick and cruel jokes about it, and angry people blame me for even mentioning the subject. You might also want to read my favourite answers. If you want your answer to be included here, fill in the form.|
What is the best way to kill yourself when you're under 13?
Quelle est la meilleure forme de suicide pour les moins de 13 ans?
|23 Sep 2007||Me||I will say that I am shocked to have found this page while doing a search for helping children deal with the suicide death of a parent. Its been a little over a year now that my partner of 10 years turned our lives upside down. we have 2 boys ages 9 and 4 now at the time 8 and 3. This happened a week prior to my oldest sons birthday. and the destruction thats it has caused is beyond description. I dont think people actually realize that the life you live isn't yours and yours alone. its a part of everyone you know and everyone you've met. and thinking that your demise will make it better and others just sad is a huge understatement. it makes the lives of those left behind stop. There left feeling empty and numb. The things that were important are no longer. Its my belief that those who succeed in this die once, and those who live, the ones who have to attempt to pick up the pieces to try an create some sense of normal in there everyday lives die over and over again. My life nor my childrens,his family as well as mine, we'll never be what we were. The person I was doesnt exist anymore. And wondering the what ifs drains me that much more. I think its important to talk to someone and if the first person doesnt listen find another theres always some one who will. Im only writing on here because I can relate to both sides of this. The intense guilt Im plagued with now sometimes has had my thought twisted. I think we all need to tell ourselves and eventually believe that were important. And that we matter. Take into consideration there is nothing to be gained and that life can be a beautiful thing , And the down points some of you have are points in which most everyone has felt and someone can relate to . its a matter of how you deal with them. As I said a few lines up find someone that you can confide in and trust, and the talk. Get it out, the more its bottled up the harder it will be to deal with. I wish for hope and happiness to find you all.|
|23 Sep 2007||Jordan||Im not 13 but 16 but age is nothing. When you look for the day its not there.
I thought alot about suicide I use to cut myself but all that did was get me in a mental hospital! That was the worst. It made me want to kill myself even more. Im not like anyone else (or it feels like it) I drinked smoked dope, had horrible friends who were bad.
Didnt go to my classes (Mc minn county High) The only reason was that I was afraid people wouldnt like me. I had to be moved out of the school or be sent off. I had a horrible tobbaco problem but recently I quit cold turkey that was horribly misserble. Now Im 16 and home schooled no friends absolutely 0! IM lonley and I dont do my work.
You probably would say get over yourself you fuking idiot (sound like my dad.) and do your work but Im so depressed I coundnt find the will to do anything exept sit and get even more deppressed. I almost blew my brains out with my shotgun He he That would be wierd seeing my brains and not finding my mind. Mind is nowere to be found or blamed. I read that the only way you can truly die is your ego. When you die
Physically your body just goes right to the earth again. A never ending cycle life is there is no end. Exept your mind thinking theres an end.
Not even death is an escape for me exept sometimes I want to go numb and drop dead but I go back wondering how I got here. Death is going to hurt physically or mentally hurt. I figure just zoning out in meditation and then there is no me. The only me is the me looking for the me and thats endless.
Thanks for reading
|23 Sep 2007||John||i was waiting for my post to show..up..
it didnt i wonder why..
i feel sad...i guess ill just kill
myself..now i hope mom doesnt get mad
|23 Sep 2007||amazinglystillherepenguinspooky||hey um...
You're seriously the only undead factor to this site. How many god damn emails must you get?! Geez man; You should get paid for this kind of work. I protest, this sub-journalistic blogging inside of possibly the strangest site I know is fucking nuts. This bloody domain is 25% your own. you surpass me in so many ways. I don't even understand it nor do I have any idea what the fuck I'm talking about. I'm Sorry to rant mindlessly about nothing- but for fucks sakes bro write a god damn novel!!
Oh, and on a different note I do believe you have miss judged me. In the past you have aknoledgments me as a reader of this site. Which is remarkably untrue (from time to time) and however even with me recognizing your presence i still must say I have read little to none of your work, sorry man. I am so uninformed and 'out of contents' it just makes me laugh sometimes. :D
ta ta for now.
|22 Sep 2007||Kieren||the best way 2 kill urself is hang yourself shot your self or jump off a very high cliff so itl work!unlike hanging jumping off a cliff is best because itl work.i have tried 2 hang myself 3times now and hasn't worked:(|
|22 Sep 2007||Death Star||My life is so fucked it aint funny. I just want to shoot my head off at times with a 44. or maybe hang myself from a tree or something. I just want to have someone that will love me for me and not treat me so bad. I hate the fact that I am all alone now because after I lost my fiance to cancer every thing in my world seems to keep falling apart. Would people really miss me if I was gone? I doubt it. Fuck them for what they did to me. I never had a family type thing ever in my life so I look for a family role model that I can look up to. Maybe a father or maybe an Uncle or something.. I just wish sometimes I could kill myself and then everything would be ok. Well I will write again later if I am still alive.|
|22 Sep 2007||A-licia||The best way is to kill the Others|
|22 Sep 2007||dead inside.||Micheal, I cried for you. Whether your still out there or long gone...I cried for you. I'm sorry that life was so harsh. Where ever you are, I hope your at peace. Take care.|
|22 Sep 2007||Mourner||Mouchette has died ages ago.|
|22 Sep 2007||anonomous||well i have attempted suicide soo many times i have ran out of things to try. ive overdoasing, hanging, poison, jumping, suffacating, cutting, burning, drowning etc. name anything ive tried it but the only thing i havent tried is shooting myself but i cant get hold of a gun so that rules it out but anywayz 2moz im going to jumpin front of a train right outside of the logan hospital, brisbane Australia. i would just like to say that samuel ilove you so much dont do any thing stupid like me i dont want you making any mistakes like i am gonna so please stat strong find a better girlfriend than me move on just please promise me one thing. dont blame yoursef it wasnt u it was me alright dont ever EVER!! blame yourself ok i love you, ill never forget you, ill miss you samuel.|
|21 Sep 2007||Joseph Marty Juanderson||there is this girl i know. i have wanted her for years. just, wanted her. i want her so bad. i masturbate every day and every moment i think of her. i want her so bad. but i can't have her. she won't ever want me. she has a boyfriend and i am just "too gross for her". she is such a beautiful girl. i am 17. she is 14. so what. i still dream to be with her, every day. i want to...i won't even go into detail. yes, i believe i am a nymphomaniac. i am. i think about her 99% of the day. at night i dream about her. that is only one of my confessions.
another confession is that i often think about killing my friends, girlfriend and myself. i know i fantasize about another girl quite often. even when i am "making love" to her, i dream of penetrating the other. but my girlfriend is a whore. i know she is. i have not caught her yet but i know she has cheated on me many times. i know she flirts with other guys all of the time. i know she lets them hold her, lets them touch her, lets them be sexually active with her. she loves it all. it is all new cock for her. i swear to god once i catch her i am going to rip her eyes out and torture her so bad that she will be begging me through sliced lips to pull that trigger. but i wont. i want her to suffer. for all of the years she has made me suffer. and all of my friends. they think the worst of me. they put up with me because they are to lazy to think of a way to remove me from their life for good. i wish them all death. except my girlfriend, because i love her. i want to be the only one she wants to see and talk to. the only one. and i want her and the other together with me. the three of us. making hot spurts on the sheets every day. i want to be married to both and have them married to each other. a married 3some. yes, my dream. my dream of domination by the other and her. i can smell it now. it is delecious. lord why have you given me these problems. i am thankful these are all i have, because i can put up with whacking to people and thinking of her. for now...
|21 Sep 2007||DeathStar||I can relate to alot of you so if anyone here needs someone to talk to you can email me at Death420Star@aol.com I am always happy to make a friend or too and would love the opportunity to help someone else. Come on, you know you want to so dont be shy.|
|21 Sep 2007||JG||rather kill the idee in your head of commitng suicide...God has a Gr8 plan for you,ho is going 2 complete it if you are gone... The onley you the is, you are placed here on earth for a reson. You cant take the responsibility of deciding when your death will be, you are so so so young!!!! There is so much fun left for you, joy and happiness!!! Just think about everything you will left behind...the people who loves you...
There is stil time to do the right thing!!!
|21 Sep 2007||newtonian||i never thought about suicide before and this only popped out my mind a few hours ago only after my english teacher told the whole class about this suicide website...to be true,i never realise that the world is totally sick now..how come we become a suicidal??or even think about committing suicide??when i go through almost most of the suicide websites..at one moment i feel relief for there's someone who still discourage people from committing suicide..at least they have the guts,courage,and the courtesy to let people to continue their lives..all the words,all the stories may perhaps hold this kind of committig suicide thinking..for my own point of view..it's just not worth it for committing suicide...it's obviously wrong for you to tae away your own precious life..even if you are 650 years old and you are sick of living because you have been through so much in this pathetic world,it's still a wrong thing to do..and perhaps i hope that you'll somehow might rethink back that at the age of 13,you still have lots of thing to do,to experience for..eventhough thousands of obstacles waiting for you ahead,and sometimes people are afraid of the true real life situations when you have to overcome it on your own,how are you gonna handle all problems,al difficulties ahead..can you solve it or can you deal with it..don't be afraid of all these kind of things..maybe these can drive you crazy..but committing suicide isn't the right way..even if you think that it's right to do that.but always remember that the right thing to do isn't the right thing to be done..when we are sick,the brain doen't work in proper condition..the brain controls everything through the body systems..and when you're thinking about suicide,just realise that,you are not thinking well because you brain is not funcioning well..heal yourself first..give time to yourself..don't play god...only god have the right to take our lives,,be thakful because somehow,god still spare us our lives..appreciate it...and my religion tought me that,whenever god is testing us,just remember that it's not beyond our ability, or our strength to face it..and to solve it..we somehow can manage it..pray to god n he'll help you in an invisible way..|
|20 Sep 2007||Jandrea||Keep trying, suicide isn't the answer. Remember things will always get better, your all young. There is always some way to find enjoyment in life, simply playing with an animal, or reading a book. If you think your life isn't good, I can't imagine death being much better. Find a space where you feel comfortable, reach out, talk to someone, talk to your teacher, or a counselor at school. It is always possible for things to get better, start going to the gym or get a job. Life is a wonderful thing, a wonderful gift given to each one of us, remember nothing is easy in this world and living is the most difficult task we are presented with. You will be okay, there is no other option, people persevere through horrible times, and as a human you will find a way to be okay.|
|20 Sep 2007||Dexter||Micheal, it doesn't matter who or where you are. Someone will always cry for you. You touch more lives than you may know.
I have shed a tear, because of your story. I understand why you wish to leave us forever.
There is only one person who can decide what's the right thing to do. That's you. Suicide requires lots of bravery. It's better to it right, than to be paralyzed for the rest of your misery.
There is no half-way trough. Either end it cleanly or try to save yourself. Get a job. Work hard. Live below a bridge for some weeks till you can rent a place. Slowly work yourself up to the top.
I realize you might never read this. No matter what your choice is. I hope you will be at peace. Take care of yourself Michael.
|20 Sep 2007||Scors.b|| "When things are bad, we take comfort in the thought that they could always be worse. And when they are, we find hope in the thought that things are so bad that they have to get better."
I think this has to be the most true thing I have ever read. Take another look. This pretty much sums up why I'm still alive, and maybe it also does for you. No matter how bad things are, there is always hope. Hope is the most important thing in the world. Without it we would all be doomed - hope is what makes you study at school, take a job interview, try out for a team. Hope can make you get up in the morning and I suppose it can also keep you living a life that you really wish you never had.
For me, it feels like just whenever I'm maybe about to find the one thing that would make it all worthwhile, it just fucks up. It fucks up so much that I wish i was more than dead... because right now i can't even explain the pain and frustration. It's maddening, like a beautiful summers day.. but then the thick black clouds come rushing in from all four corners of the sky and fill the chest with deadening pressure. Uncontrollable, like something eating away at you from the inside. I just don't fucking like it. Get it out, before it eats my soul.
I just wanna be me and feel like thats ok. I just wish I could get to know 'me' before I keep trying to get to know 'you'. I just wish god would stop fucking around and just let me out. I wanna be free. So stop the fear and the pain and unlock me so i can get out. Let me out, i wanna get out.
Maybe if there was one thing i have learnt, it is that you have to look after yourself. Because no-ones really there looking out for you.
"No-one except yourself that is,
No-one except you"
So be kind with yourself (but not unforgiving) and remember that there is always one thing that can keep you alive- hope. Pretty shit I guess but then if you can accept this and forget everything else that you are living for life should be a damn sight easier.
If you've read this far and can see any sense in this post, email me.
|19 Sep 2007||Dead tomorrow||I just want to say I am going to kill myself tomorrow after work , there is no piont to be here anymore. ive tried so ha. this life is pain so why dont we all just leave it for the better. good bye all of course i know NONE OF YOU really care so|
|19 Sep 2007||tom||tell God you dont need him or believe in him .............
then see what happens .
or go into a biker bar an tell all the drunkers to go to hell . then see what happens
or ask jesus to come into your life and help you an forgive you of your sins .the see what happens ........
|19 Sep 2007||Broken||Well, i dont know the best way to kill yourself when your under 13, i would say its the same way you could do it when your under 100. I want to do it, reading this site has in a way helped talk me out of it a little.
But when your contemplating suicide, some days its "i dont want to die" other times its "i cant wait to die..and soon!"
Just a small comment to those who think suicide is dumb, stupid, selfish or whatever other insults you want to say..it doesnt help, it makes me feel worse, i want to do it more.. Hows this.. I feel like a failer because I chicken out in committing suicide-- I do think of friends and family who will get upset, my dog, what will happen to her? But then I feel like a failer while I am alive. So either way I feel like a failer.
Im not a rich kid, but rich kids get sad to, I have been thin and fat, felt pretty and ugly, been a captain, champion, leader, popular, and been teased, abused, and scared.
People dont want to live for many different reasons, and no persons reason is less worthy of suicide then the other. Because im no expert but when it comes to suicide, everyone is in the same boat, all in a dark place, suicide taking over the brain day and night, thinking if you ask for help it means your not that serious about doing it.
I just want the pain to stop, so if its not going to stop while im alive, i hope it will stop when im dead.