|Reading these suicide pages you will find people seeking help and people offering their help. Some witness about suicide from real life experience, others who play along with me would pretend it's a children's game. Some make sick and cruel jokes about it, and angry people blame me for even mentioning the subject. You might also want to read my favourite answers. If you want your answer to be included here, fill in the form.|
What is the best way to kill yourself when you're under 13?
Quelle est la meilleure forme de suicide pour les moins de 13 ans?
|20 Aug 2007||mariah||you people are all dumb.Saying your life is hard and etc.If you think your lifes hard YOU ARE WRONG!!!!YOUR SO DUMB...i know whats a hard life is like. and ive seen it. you people are a bunch of wimps. GET A LIFE!!!!!!!|
|20 Aug 2007||Waiting||Ever since middle school I've thought of killing myself. I was always part of the picked on group. The small group to the side not many people wanted to hang out with. I think my suicide thoughts back then were more of a way to show people how much hate was built up inside. I always thought of walking out in the courtyard in front of everyone and shooting myself in the head.
But I'm a different person now. I think of suicide for different reasons now. Perhaps as equally selfish or stupid, but I can't help it.
While I used to be picked on a part of the nerdy type group, I've always been the guy who everyone likes. I've had friends from all different groups of people, though I have still felt pressure. In my second year of high school, all my friends had left for other schools and the only friend left was a loner just like me who ended up leaving the school because he punched a bastard who probably deserved it anyways. It seemed his goal in school was to torment those as much as they tormented him. Unfortunately it left me in the dust.
Even though I've had friends, I've been a loner every since 7th grade. I hated going over to friend's houses. I don't know what in me changed because I use to be a normal kid, despite being picked on.
I was also raised in a middle class home, despite going to a fairly upper class private school paid for in part by my grandparents and a grant. I always felt slight pressure from that. But even moreso are the dreams my parents have for me. My dad doesn't want me to have his life. He didn't go to college because his father didn't want him to. My grandfather owns a bowling alley and my dad has been working in the back of the bowling alley in a screenprinting shop his whole life. He figured he was working his way to eventually own the bowling alley. My grandfather recently passed away and left the bowling alley to his wife.
I've lived primarily with my mom for my whole life. She's been overprotective, to the point where I never had much contact with girls even though I had the chance. I've had chances with girls but never took them or was held back. I'm 20 and I've never touched a girl in any way.
I've always quit before I ever excelled in anything. Piano lessons...quit, even though I play the keyboard to let my emotions out quite frequently. I can't dedicate myself to anything. I've always considered myself fairly well balanced. I'm good at many things. I've never had to strive for good grades. I'm always complimented on my artistic abilities, even though I know I could be ten times better if I devoted myself.
But I can't. And there I was in college trying to figure out what I want to do. Computer science...I quit. Graphic design...I quit college altogether. I took a break from school over the summer. Figured I'd get a job. Took a job from my step-dad but ended up doing a screen printing job because the other job was too hard and I was interested in screen printing. I disliked the people. I hated feeling like, even after months, like I'm this new guy and every thing I do is wrong or they have to make some comment on it.
So I quit because I have anger management issues and I shoved my mom and yelled in her face and had the cops called on me. Betrayed because she was scared. As if I'd do something to harm her. I spend my time harming myself. When I fuck up, I hurt myself. I bash my hand. I bash my chest. I don't cut. I don't take too many pills. I just like the feeling of blunt pain.
So now I'm stuck. Should I go back to college? If I don't, I have loans and other issues to pay for. Should I work? For what? My own survival? I don't even want to live, so how can I be motivated to do anything.
I've never felt apart of this world. I have no desire to grow up and make money and live, no matter how successful I may be. I have great potential, it's not like I'm some waste of blood. Perhaps my ego is too big. I consider myself greater than many people. I have a hard time creating bonds with people because I see through bullshit. I see through stupidity. I see too many carbon copies of people walking around.
So here I am. I think to myself, if I had a gun right now, I would most likely try. I don't know why a gun. It just seems right. I can't stand the though of self strangulation. Poisoning myself. Bleeding myself. Something about a loud noise and and explosion of blood just seems right.
But now you see the other side of me. I quit because I'm lazy. I quit because I have no motivation. Where am I going to get a gun? Even if I knew where, I'd have to go out and get it. A young looking guy who's never used a gun and would look green in some gunshop buying a gun. Too much pressure just to get the thing I need. So maybe I'm not ready. I'm not ready for life and I'm not ready to die. What am I supposed to do. Sooner or later my parents will kick me out. I will feel constant pressure from them to get a job before that. I can't just be lazy. But if I go to college it would be for them, not me.
I left college to figure out who I was. But I haven't. I haven't even tried. I can't. How am I supposed to tell my family that I just want to go away where no one knows me. I don't want to be in contact with you. How do I tell them that? I'm too strapped in here where I am. I need to start anew.
But life is all about pressure. All about what people will think. All about obligation.
I've always had this weird notion that I'm supposed to die in some heroic way. I've thought of joining the military. Throwing my life on the line. Fearless. Forcing myself in bad situations so that I don't have to do the honors of killing myself.
But I'm waiting for something to happen. Something to bring me back. But I doubt it will happen. You have to go out and actively seek things in life but I just have no motivation to do so and I don't know how to change my motivation.
So maybe one day. Maybe one day I'll be gone. Maybe one day I'll build up enough willpower to kill myself. Until then, I'm stuck here feeling pressures that I don't wish to feel because I'm to cowardly and unmotivated to make myself a better person.
|19 Aug 2007||mel||I don't want to talk you out of your feelings because your feelings are real. Suicide happens when you can't cope with your problems or to better explain, when your problems or pain exceed your ability to cope with them. (I hope I'm not being confusing.)
There are many instances when a persons threshold of coping is reached. It varies from person to person. What can be devastating to one person can be not quite as devastating to the next.
It doesn't mean that you are weak or stupid for feeling this way.
For 13 years old it's an incredible burden to have these feelings and I want to tell you that you are not alone and that there are people who care enough to want to help. Open your phone book and find the sucide phone number in your area or better yet search for the number on the internet. Then call and talk.
Don't call or seak help for anyone other than yourself. This is about YOU and nobody else.
|18 Aug 2007||C Raven||Why create a Permanent solution to a temporary problem. Really Go read the Book "the prayer of jabez"|
|18 Aug 2007||Ellie||Ok first of all Jr the reason the survivors go to this site is because we know what it's like to feel like shit, and we know how hard it is to get better, and once you've been through something like that you don't want anybody else to feel like you did. You know maybe coming here is my way of making up for everything I did when I was depressed, it's taken me a long time to accept what I tried to do when I attempted suicide and the grief I caused everybody who knew about it. I don't want anybody to go threw what I did. I am fourteen and it feels like I've been through a lifetime of tears and pain, just because one night I decided to play with fire... and you know what sometimes when you play with fire you get burned. At least that's what happened to me. Anyway if theres anybody out there who wants to talk my email address is email@example.com, I promise I won't judge you.|
|18 Aug 2007||Oh sweet heart I know you hate people like me and this is not the type of reply you wanted, I recognise your pain and total feeling of desolation, but please hang on, I know its hard but I swear it will get better, and if u feel no one else cares I swear I do. please please xx your so special you just dont know it yet|
|18 Aug 2007||I am deeply hurt whenever Mouchette doesn't post my answer. Why am I judged even in here?|
|17 Aug 2007||mandy||im so depressed i cant help but think what a failure i am at everything my family call me names like whore brat my dad treats me like shit cause i was "the accidental" child my dad and mom bash me i even got bruses on my arms and legs to prove it i just wanna see her face after i die i got the best suicide plan laid out im gonna cut my throte in front of them and when i drop dead theyll see what i am they probebley wont even do a funeral theyll put me in a cardboard box and throw me away i cant wait to see there faces :( you know what stuff the world no one knows i exsist.|
|17 Aug 2007||jay||wow u ppl r all psycho lol but i guess i am too since im here but anyways to the 13 year old come on now u dont really want to kill urslf or u would of already done it by now|
|17 Aug 2007||Dexter||If you want a spectacular death, I know a way that will get you lots of attention. Here's how you do it:
Get yourself a handgun and get to the roof of a tall building. Let people see you and wait for the rescue team to arrive. There'll be a big crowd and some guys standing ready to catch you.
Inevitably someone will come up to 'talk you down'. Give him/her a big smile and say: "Relax, I'm not going to jump". The look on their faces when you pull out the gun and shoot yourself will be priceless.
For the greatest effect, make sure that you fall down after killing yourself. The people down below will be relieved they managed to catch you in time. Double the fun when they see they didn't.
|17 Aug 2007||because there's no way out. simple as that.|
|17 Aug 2007||keisha||i am 10 my parents r split my aunts twins died n my dad moved to sudbury n my dad has anither fuckin kid with a different woman the kids name is lenny ever stupid name my mom drinks so how is a good way to kill my self???email me.please|
|17 Aug 2007||Resentment||My mother shouldn't have had sex with my father.|
|17 Aug 2007||ashley||At this very moment my wrist are bleeding im tied up bu the neck with a strong rope. the blood is dripping down my arms onto mu laptop into the little spaces of my keypad. im 17 and my birthday is in 5 hrs. i cant stand the sight of myself anymore ive been in too many situations where i passd up the chance of death. well not anymore. i can feel my self going as my hands and fingers get weaker and unable to finish typing. here i go. goodbye world ........................... ........... ................... ............... .......... ......... ............................ ........ ........................ ............ .............. ..................................................................................................................... ................... ................ ................................ ............ ............. ............... ........................................... .................. .............................. ...................................................................... ..................................... ................... ......................................................... ...................... ......................... ...................................................... .............. .................... ..................... ...............|
|16 Aug 2007||bubba||age doesn't matter.
you have a lot of weird favorite answers so apparently its not an honest question.
**depression is a chemical imbalance/a disease.
i have suffered uncontrollably for years and have tried suicide many many times.
even though i have suffered brain and nerve dammage i am still alive, so far i am invincable,rrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!
soon i will use a gun to the heart,then to the head. if i had a poison snake in my back yard, it would be my best friend!! why you ask for email?
|16 Aug 2007||Jack||rub lots and lots of honey all over your body and go for a walk in the woods. look for a bear.|
|15 Aug 2007||yesterday the milk went bad. if i drink it maybe it will poison me and i will die.|
|15 Aug 2007||Silas||if your under 13.. your an idiot if your gonna kill yourself.. at least come up with a good reason. none of that family bullshit, intamacy, or relationship problems, if people cant depend on themselves to live and want attention then fucking blow your brains out. Try having REAL fucking problems like dreaming of becoming a musician.. playing guitar every since i was 7 and i get a fuking record deal 2 weeks before i lost both of my FUCKING HANDS. SEE WHAT HAPPENS WHEN YOUR DREAMS ARE SHATTERED THEN MAYBE ITS OK TO KILL YOURSELF IF YOU THINK AND KNOW THERES NOTHING LEFT. I KNOW I SHOULD BLOW MY BRAINS OUT CUZ I have 2 godamn fingers on my right hand and no balls because some how somebody decided there wasnt anybody under the construction beams picking up blue prints. i cant think of a godamn way to kill my self with two fingers i cant even lift a godamn presciption container to pain kill my painless death. so you know what to do?? LIVE DEAL WITH IT FUCK EVERYONE YOU DONT NEED THEM depend on yourself. i cant afford proper prosthetics to even play again so fuckit. ill just answer the question.. best way to kill yourself under 13. hmm.. cyanide? gotta be knocked out before then so its assisted but its painless and 2 minutes and as long as your knocked youll be fine.. but those who wish to kill themselves i think.. deserve the pain before death. throwin life away an all that/|
|15 Aug 2007||anonomous.||Dont kill yourself.
Everything will be okay in the end.
If it's not okay, its not the end.
Killing yourself is just proving to everyone that you gave up.
Then everyone will think lesser of you.
If you make it through it, People will think of you more highly.
I know this for a fact.
|15 Aug 2007||JR||Oh, or read ALL the "don't do it little girl I was depressed but now I'm happy" shit in a row.
Endless pro life bore guaranteed.
And WHY the hell these survivors browse a site containing the word SUICIDE?