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What is the best way to kill yourself when you're under 13?
Quelle est la meilleure forme de suicide pour les moins de 13 ans?
|28 Nov 2007||THebigfriendlyBallsack||...
|28 Nov 2007||Jeff||I don't know if you all noticed but
the reality of our world is that
it is a cold and bitter place.
There is no love here,
I wake up every morning
only to go out and get hurt by world the again.
All friends will eventually betray you
and prove that they were never
really your friend to begin with.
My own family turns their back and walks away.
I cry out to God, but no god answers.
When it comes to the things that really matter,
that are really important,
that really mean something,
there is nothing to be found
here on this cold and bitter earth.
|28 Nov 2007||Allen||Hi Alice,
I just read your post. I would love to talk. I was also bullyied when I was in school. It hurts like nothing else, I know, but there is hope. You can happy no matter what people think of you. I'd love to explain more what I mean. I would email you, but you didn't leave an email address. Please email me, I'd love to talk more. Area51boca@aol.com
|28 Nov 2007||depressed english girl||me nd my friend never went out:(
everythings just falling to pieces, i don't talk anymore, i dnt smile anymore, i used to be known as the girl who always smiled now, i feel my minds deteriorating and im slowing becoming someone else, someone i dont like......Help :'(
|27 Nov 2007||combat barbie||hey all i never thought that i would have ever thought about taking my own life, but i did and the other night i almost went through with it. it was hard but i thought about all the accomplishments that i have made, i mean i have a daughter and a beautiful one at that, ive been to iraq and i made it back alive. i was a good soldier and a great mom and for a minute i almost let that all go. i want to thank everyone for their support, al the emails and the concer from people that i dont even know. it was amazing! a life changing experience. thank you all! if anyone is thinking about commiting suicide please dont its really not worth it! there are people to help!|
|27 Nov 2007||anti suicide||If you're giving up at age 13, then your stupid. 13 years of your life is nothing, its still immature, you have so much more time to live. You're rediculous for even thinking about this. Boyfriend problems and marriage shit is no reason to kill yourselves--get over it... people suffer from diseases everyday and you guys want to kill yourselves? The people who are encouraging you are low lifes.. get some help... talk to a parent ... and dont encourage suicide...if your bored with your life.. and you want to kill yourselves.. do something with your life.. travel.. study... socialize.. DONT GIVE UP... suicide is permanent ... while this little problem your suffering from is temporary.. don't let it end your life..don't let it be stronger than you... and hurt the people who love u ... think smart... you can make a difference in someone's life just by walking away from suicide... you can save others.. you may even save the world... after you get over this thing that makes you sad or depressed you will feel so relieved you didn't go through with it... just wing life... cuz you only live once!!!|
|27 Nov 2007||Allen||Hi "Depressed english girl" it sounds like you're going through a whole lot. I'm really sorry to hear how you guys broke up. I can't imagine how painful it must be. I would email you, but you didn't leave an email address. You can definitely work through this. Your life is not over; it's just beginning. You will make it through this and have happy times again. Please email me, I'd love to talk more. Area51boca@aol.com|
|27 Nov 2007||alice||iv rely needd 2 find a place 2 talk abot my problems 4 a wile im 14yrs old nd iv bn badly bulyd sins i was abot 8 i always usd 2 fink abot endin it but i cud stop myself by thinkin abot starvin african kids nd that eventaly wen i was 11 the bulyin stopd wen i movd scols nd i was fine 4 a few yrs but abot 6 months ago i startd havin a bunch mor problems agen nd the starvin kids in africa thing didnt work anymor afta that i atemptd suicide bt faild nd was ultra depresd a month l8a my dad was diagnosd with cancer wich wirdly stopd my depresoin/ suicide atempts cos i couldnt let 2 pepl die in my family it didnt seem fair now im depresd nd suicidl agen cos dads got the al clear nd iv got loads of problems im so glad i found this website cos b4 i cudnt say a word as my m8s r al self harmers, suicidl thinkin abot self harmin or just wud h8 me 4 it soz 2 warfl on thanx|
|27 Nov 2007||ian||I am 21, my first memories of feeling depressed date to the fifth grade. I had thoughts of hurting myself, and other schoolmates in the seventh grade. Since then, the only progress made is now I don't want to hurt anybody but myself, because it is not right or fair to hurt somebody else. The only happiness I found was a 2 year long relationship, I put so much into it that when I was dumped suddenly I never dated, or attempted to again. I have no desire for sex, children, love, relationships, companionship. I can have the greatest day, with everyone being nice, with me receiving positive reinforcement, love from others, money, whatever it may be. And I will still go home and feel empty, sad, unappreciated. I am too paranoid, others are not nice to me because they want to be, but because they feel they have to be, or don't want to directly insult me. I know I am smart, I have always been, and I have thought logically about life and death. Why go on when, even when I get exactly what I want, it is never enough? I can't help the greed I feel, I can't help the chemical imbalance that causes my depression and anxiety. Everytime I feel I do the right thing, I end up regretting it. I'm glad for the experiences I've had since my first suicide contemplation, and I know there will be many more good times to be had, but do I want to bother with them? Should I wait for them to happen? Are they worth experiencing when I'm just going to cry about it the first chance I get? I can be happy, with nothing going wrong, then a few minutes later, for no reason at all, I will want to hide myself away, in a small room alone, and cry. I sneak into the bathroom at work sometimes just so nobody will see me break apart. I've opened up to "good friends", I've been so psychiatrists, I've taken the meds, and nothing works. Nothing seems to free me of this. I'd rather not feel anything at all, than feel the feelings (good and bad) of life. I've been used by others to get closer to other people I know, for my material possessions, as a last resort, for comedic purposes, all unappreciated in the end. I will call or text friends who I see regularly, and not so regularly, just to ask how they are doing. I have never had anyone do that for me. I can't bear to be close with my family, I can't bear to have those connections. They have never expressed love for me, even if they do, I will never express love for them, even if I do. I know my suicide would hurt them, but, because of how I am, I somehow don't care. I have given and given, but never received. I only found happiness once, and now I can never trust enough to get into that situation again. I don't believe in religion, and if I'm wrong, oh well, I'll burn in Hell, but there's so many contradictions of the Bible, so many OTHER religions/societies with the exact same stories that the Bible stole (the story of Jesus has been told millions of times with other prophets), so no Bible quotes or religious reasoning will change me. I tried to accept Jesus once, and it was a complete joke. I am not sure if, or when I will kill myself, but I think about it daily. And a train seems to be the most sure way to do it, I've never heard of anyone surviving standing in the middle of an Amtrak's path.|
|26 Nov 2007||Sorry I might survive this||Disclaimer: The following is coming from the unedited emanations of my heart, a 13 year old has SO FAR saved my life
My sarcasm, cynicism, or seeming lack of humanism is merely the result of that which I have witnessed in last few months of my life. But for one more day I choose not to see my peers as vile and depraved, they
like myself are afraid
I choose this for you Megan, whoever you were.
How to Kill Yourself- for 13 year olds:
Well all you really need is the help of your neighbor girl friend's deranged mother. Let me illustrate-
Hypothetically- say your name was, Megan Meier, again.., just for example. Youre 13, suburban girl, boy-crazy probably total drama queen and lovin it! Goin to the movies, the mall that normal 13 year old stuff. However, at that age the social bombs are flying, of course, because he said she said, that she thought she heard But what are the usual casualties? BFFs obliterated one week and new alliances constructed the next.
Except if you are Megan. See, you and a neighborhood girlfriend, Sarah, have a little political spat. Though because you and Sarah are 13 it seems more like the Cuban Missile Crisis.
Enter Sarahs so-called mother: She decides, instead mixing her fabulous martinis with her fellow desperate housewives, to come riding to the rescue of Sarahs precious junior high reputation. In her valiant attempt to save Sarah from the fleeting pangs of sophomoric gossip, Mother creates an online boyfriend for you (Megan), for spying purposes of course. His name is Josh Evans. Hes home schooled, from a broken home, and most peculiarly, Josh doesnt have a phone right now. This mother NEVER intended to humiliate you by dragging your heart along, via Josh, only to expose the prank to all the students for some sick self serving satisfaction of revenge? Would she?
Ok Megan, heres your minuet:
Youre self conscious about your weight and on anti-depressants. However, the braces are FINALLY coming off; youre passing out invitations to your up-coming 14th B-Day; you just dropped 20 pounds; and finally, you have a little flutter in your heart from meeting this super cute new guy! According to your father, Ron, "[You are] the happiest [you] ha[ve] ever been in [your] life.
Until he turns on you and tells you how youre not nice to your friends, youre a bad person and the world would be better with out you. Unbeknownst to you, the password for Joshs reality was passed around the neighborhood for all your depraved neighbors to Play Josh. The bulletins are flying, parents are yelling that computer time is over, youre panicking wondering why everyone is posting bulletins about you, Megan Meiers is fat or Megan Meier is a slut. Youre last words to your mother might be, "You're supposed to be my mom! You're supposed to be on my side!" As you run past your father, he might say, They obviously dont know [you], and that [youll] be fine.
The Grand Finale:
Youre hanging with a belt, YOUR belt, tied around your neck. Its getting tight and an instinctual fear begins to pervade your consciousness. Well, whats left of it. You know they say you change your mind when the rope gets tight
As long as your mom takes at least 20 minutes to find you, youll be pronounced dead the following day at the hospital. Josh Evans will recede into the obscurity (or the back of the neighborhood parents minds- if you will) from which he emerged.
Thats all it takes: just one suburban mom with a vengeance; too much time on her hands; some cesspool borne neighborhood adults; oh a myspace account and a 13 year old and you have the perfect recipe for a suicide.
Megan, you saved my life today I can face this world, today.
|26 Nov 2007||aashley||why would you want to know "what is the best way ti kill yourself when you're under 13?" encouraging people to kill themselves? i DO believe this relieves people's emotions because, they can talk about it with strangers. They have to let it out.|
|26 Nov 2007||Depressed english girl||Im only 16, iv been feeling down for the last few months, deteriorating day by day.
It started with my best friend, who is a boy, he meant the world to me, and we would meet up, but he always had feeling for my best mate, but one day we kissed, i got the butterflies in my stomach, iv liked him ever since then and that was two years ago!
I thought things were getting better after he stopped liking my friend, we started to meet up more, getting physically closer, then one night a year later, we lost our virginitys to each other, and it meant the world to me, i thought he liked me, until the day came where he told me he dint want to meet up anymore, my heart sank, and iv never been able to properly cry it all out to someone, coz no1 understands how i feel, he says his sorry that i got the wrong impression, yet he heard the three words i always told him, i love you, and he saw how much he meant to me in person, i even LOST MY VIRGINITY TO HIM! and it all meant nothing, now im in 6th form, and i hate it, im soo stressed out, i cnt cope, im suffering from psychosis, majoy paranoia, and this girl who claims to be my friend, is all over him in my face, things couldnt b much worse, his the only person i can talk to bout anything, if i dnt have him i mayas well have no1 :(
iv tried ending it once with overdosing, but im scared of the thought of death, yet i cnt cope living anymore,
what do i do!? :'(
please help me
|26 Nov 2007||Lil Veg aka rachel||everything happend so long ago and i stopped the suicide life i was leading but then i met him and i love him so much that i would take my own life to know he could never leave or cheat. I really dont know why i feel this way because i know he proberly wont do anything to hurt me but i always think he will and its hard coz im in melbourne and he lives in bendigo i really dunno why im so fuked up|
|26 Nov 2007||seasha2003||Sometimes life sucks, but whether you relize it or not there is always someone who cares or you taking your own life will affect someone. It may not seem like it but there is. It could be friend, a teacher, co-worker, a class mate that you did not know that they even knew you. Believe it or not there are always people worse off then you are. I had a friend that tried to commit suicde because her husband left her for something she did wrong in their marriage that was bad enough for her to try and leave her ex-husband and her 2 kids behind. Personally I have had a lot worse happen to me. I was rapped,I had my jaw broken, a knife to my throat and lived in an abusive relationship for 5 yrs. On top of that the guy I was in an abusive relationship with was abusive to one of our kids. I have been away from my kids for about 5 months do to my job. I dont know when the next time I will to get to see them. Bottom Line someone always has it worse, you may not think so. The one thing that got me through and still gets me through is knowing that one person cares. You may not know them, but someone does and if they didn't you wouldn't have people on here saying it's not worth it. People care.|
|26 Nov 2007||whocares||your parent's drug prescrptions
|25 Nov 2007||F||You could always hire me..I mean, either way, we both win. I get paid, I get to kill someone, and you get to die.
Or you could die in a more..grandeur, way.
Like, for instance, slitting your wrist with a poisoned and oiled razor. Then put a match to yer skin. See which comes first. Dieing of poison, er having yer bloody arm explode. Sounds like fun to me.
Then again, there is mi friend Brett's idea..put yourself in a bathtub partially full of gasoline, and partially full of water, and drop a match in there. Set yerself on fire, then drop a plugged in hair dryer. Lots of fun to clean up, ay.
|25 Nov 2007||MOM SNOW||you precious tormented children ....I HAVE BEEN THROUGH SO MUCH IN LIFE ...THE HURTS TEARS AND SUFFERING BUT ALSO THE HAPPINESS OF RAISING CHILDREN ..AND KNOWING HOW TO LOVE AND FORGIVE THINGS PEOPLE DO AT TIMES TO HURT YOU...LIFE HAS ITS GOOD AND BAD THINGS .IT TAKES GUTS TO LIVE IN THIS WORLD ..BUT AS YOU GET OLDER YOU LOOK BACK AND REMEMBER YOUR THOUGHTS OF WANTING TO TAKE YOUR LIFE..AND THEN THANK GOD YOU DIDN'T ..YOUR SPECIAL AND YOUR LOVED ...NO MATTER WHAT ..GOD LOVES YOU ...BELIEVE IT OR NOT.....I GREW UP BEING AN UNWANTED CHILD..BUT I DIDN'T SIT IN A CORNER AND COMPLAIN OR EVEN THINK OF KILLING MYSELF...I WAS PUT IN ONE FOSTER HOME AFTER ANOTHER...BUT KIDS , I MADE I BY KEEPING BUSY ..HAVING GOOD FRIENDS THEN CHILDREN OF MY OUN....MUCH TO MY SHOCK AND SURPRISE MY OLDEST SON SHOT AND KILLED HIMSELF...HE WAS SPERATED FORM HIS WIFE AND KEPT TRYING TO MAKE UP.....HIS HURT WAS SO BAD HE TOOK THIS WAY OUT TO HEAL HIS PAIN..BUT HE WILL NEVER KNOW HOW MANY PEOPLE LOVED AND CARED FOR HIM ...BROKEN HEARTS DO MAKE PEOPLE DO THINGS LIKE THIS..(KILLING THEMSELVES) BUT ITS NOT THE ANSWER FOR PROBLEMS...GETTIING HELP AND TALKING TO SOMEONE THAT CAN HELP YOU IS THE BEST THING....THERE IS ALWAYS SOMEONE YOU CAN TALK TO..GO TO YOUR PRIEST OT PASTOR ..BUT PUT THOUGHTS OUT OF YOUR MIND OF KILLING YOURSELF AS ITS NOT THE ANSWER...LIFE IS TOO PRECIOUS ....GOD DOSEN'T MAKE JUNK AND WHEN HE MADE YOU HE MADE SOMEBODY SPECIAL..THERES NOONE JUST LIKE YOU...AND YOU WILL LIVE FOREVER ..IT DEPENDS ON YOUR CHOISES HERE ON EARTH..AND YES MY DEAR CHILDREN OF ANY AGE , YOU WILL LIVE IN HEAVEN OR HELL....GOD IS REAL .....WHEN I HEAR SOME OF YOU CURSING ..I SEE AN ANGRY HURTING PERSON.....THIS IS HOW MY SON GOT...HE WAS ANGRY AT EVERYTHING AND EVERYBODY...GOD DIDN'T PROMICE US A ROSE GARDEN HERE ..BUT HE DID GIVE US STRENGTH TO GET THROUGH THE BAD TIMES ...I WILL PRAY FOR YOU ALL AND WISH I WAS THERE TO HUG EACH ONE OF YOU TO GIVE YOU COURAGE TO FACE YOUR HURT AND NOT GIVE UP....YEAH LIFE DOSEN'T SEEM FAIR AS I LEARNED THIS PAST WEEK LOOSING MY SON IN SUCH AN AWFUL WAY...BUT NOW I HAVE TO TRY GO ON WITHOUT THAT BEAUTIFUL MAN....MY PRECIOUS SON) SO BE BRAVE NOW AND P[ICK YOURSELF UP ,WIPE THE TEARS FROM YOU EYES AND BE BRAVE TO FACE TOMORROW...GOD BLESS YOU AND HOPE YOUR GOING TO BE OK ..I May not know you but i will still pray for you....mom snow|
|25 Nov 2007||combat barbie||i came back from iraq so fucked up that i cant sleep or eat! the only thing that i want to do is just end my life. i wish that i would have died over there, that would have been great, then my daughter would think that her mother died a hero instead of a coward. i have had enough with the lies and the games. im going to kill myself tonight im going to start by drinking then take the pills(that the army gave me) and one by one im going to take them till the bottle is gone, then im going to start on the other bottle until i am gone. i served my country and look what it did to me|
|25 Nov 2007||dead inside.||When I made my first post on November 4th 2006, this site hadn't been updated or used (i'm not sure which) since August 21st 2006. Maybe its just fate because as soon as I posted, the site was updated and I got an email the very next day from a stranger who turned out to be the love of my life. Its been a little over a year now. See, life is full of secrets and surprises. You gotta stick around to discover them.|
|24 Nov 2007||Melissa Reed||Hey ya'all... I'm here to try and help anyone who wants it... you can e-mail me at firstname.lastname@example.org or IM me at jokercamaro87 on yahoo messenger. I just want to help... suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem... and if you wait long enough the rain will go away...|