|Reading these suicide pages you will find people seeking help and people offering their help. Some witness about suicide from real life experience, others who play along with me would pretend it's a children's game. Some make sick and cruel jokes about it, and angry people blame me for even mentioning the subject. You might also want to read my favourite answers. If you want your answer to be included here, fill in the form.|
What is the best way to kill yourself when you're under 13?
Quelle est la meilleure forme de suicide pour les moins de 13 ans?
|25 Jun 2005||Suicide Survivor||"Suicide only makes sense to the suicidal." Specht
"Pain is only bearable if we know it will end...not if we deny it exists." Frankl
We grieve for our loss and for our inability to spare each other a pain so deep and so wide that words fail to express its true size.
When sorrow has no words it expresses itself in the body.
Memories are bitter treasures, when each one is clue.
Who knows the battles they won before they lost the war?
So I find words I never thought to speak ~ T.S. Eliot
"My brother shot himself.
He is dead.
I am a survivor of suicide."
~ Me. (Marna)
Pain so deep and buried within that we don't find out until we bury them. ~ Nancy Hodges
How Many Suicides Does It Take to Change the World?
Oysters accept pain and make of it a pearl.
We should all be wealthy beyond our dreams.
So these are the words of Suicide Survivors. Please take some time nd visit http://www.1000deaths.com Each person who takes their life die one death, but those lest behind die a thousand deaths trying to put the pieces back together. We must learn to understand why so many turn to suicide as a last resort...we will never understand if we condemn them for making such a decision and we will never understand if we haven't walked in their shoes. In the words of a dear friend of mine: "You don't know hell until you've walked a mile in my shoes on a good day." Calling them selfish, cowards, and weak makes no difference in this world at all. It only proves that there are much weaker people out there who think it is okay to kick people when they are already down.
After all, it is the strong who don't survive. They are lead to believe that they should just 'grin and bear it.' Try treating cancer by grinning and bearing it!
With that said, think twice before you call someone a coward. Who is the real coward? Help someone out of the hole they are in instead of covering them with dirt.
To those of you in pain.....if you have no one to talk to, email me. I will not condemn you for even thinking of suicide. I know how it feels to die alone and to live in pain....alon. Since my son too his life, I am left to keep his legacy alive. So email me if you need any support at all. Every life is a treasure. Don't forget to visit www://1000deaths.com Thanks for reading this. Happiness will come tomorrow if you let it.
|04 Jun 2005||Christina||what a stupid question.
People that ask dumb shit like that should killthemselves
dumb ass attention seaker
|02 Jun 2005||James Dosman||All you people that think that things will get better if you follow god are the crazy ones.
oh and by the way the people having a hard time killing themselves that is because when we evolved in order to survive our brains had to come up with a survivle instinct that all of have not just humans the main key to this instinct is called fier it is because you feer one thing or a nother and so you never get on with it you fier the pain the way your family will feel etc. etc. you may also beleave in god and the devil and ever lasting life and all that crap but i will tell you rite here that nothing in the bible is going to change your life there is no god no perpice there is just life and if you want to end it more power to you! but realize that you are not going to go to hell because there is no such place it is because of the fier of death that people have invented all thees gods to try to explain why you shood nstay living etc. etc. none of it of course is true they like to say if you try to explain something with out all this god bull then you burn in hells fires never to come out never for realeef i say bollucks to that if our god was so kind and understanding why would he make people all around the world not just the so called chosen ones suffer what did they do to him the reasen that he does not help is because he is not there there is no god ala buta any thing like that the greek gods around the world are called miths and that is just what jesus and god are miths and as soon as you start beleaving that there is nothing to beleave you will have no worries about hevven and hell and ever lasting life because you will relise that that one title hevin and hell and ever lasting life prooves my point man has always ben so fierful of death because he does not know what happens to him after death that is why one git made the idea of a god that would answer ever thing you asked when realy the answers are so simple and flaud that you would think that humans wer making this up witch of course they are why if you want to live wast your life praying and talking to someone who is not there if you ask your do. if talking to people who arnt there or hearing things that no one else can hear and seeing things that no one can see he will tell you that that is a sign of crasyness so that is why all you who beleave in god and think they will go to hell because killing yourselves is killing a living being and there for you shood ask for forgiveness and you will be deade before you could ever hear the gun shot to the head so there fore you will go to hell for killing someone you are all mad any one who thinks like that is mad and i shore as hell don't i know about gods miths and lies that people try to shove down ower throtes please if you must be a beleaver in god christ what ever please do not wast your time ctrying to comvert us we have just as minny disbeleafs as you have beleafs so do not bother who knows we just may convert one of you with out meening to.
any how i will leave you with a little peese from the auther douglas adams that may explain life in genrel oh and by the way he did not beleave in god just like me just science and what ever man made things that are stable not god with is man made and unstable so this is james signing off good by oh and by the way you are welcome to leave me email but i do not care what it is about it will most likely be removed from my inbox before i even read it and please if i do on the off chanse read it do not send any msgs trying to convert me i will let you beleave and you shood let me disbeleave and i do not even want to hear from you unless you refuse to beleave in god good bye
Anything that happens, happens.
Anything that, in happening, causes something else to happen, causes something else
Anything that, in happening, causes itself to happen again, happens again.
It doesn't necessarily do it in chronological order, though.
|01 Jun 2005||Jennifer||How about not killing yourself and giving it all to Jesus Christ he loves you and doesn't want you to kill yourself that is the devil he hates you he wants you to think theirs no plan for you life but their really is Jesus loves you so much so much that he gave his life for you so you could live eternal with him John 3:16 For God so loved the world he gave his only begotton son for who so ever believes in him shall not parish but have every lasting life Let me share my testimony with you Last year my grandmother had cancer in her neck and they put a plate in her neck that collapsed leaving her paralized the doctors said that she only had a 1% chance of ever walking again and guess what shes doing shes walking and Jesus can do wonderful things in your life if you are willing to let him Just hang in there it won't be too long until he comes back I promise just hang on God bless|
|31 May 2005||They call me Sir||Jesus Tap Dancing Christ there's a lot of boring fuckers on this site..
There's only 2 real options in this world. Live or die. And since we ALL die eventually anyway, why the Hell are there so many people trying to prevent suicide?
I say blow your head off, and if yu can't get a gun, slit your throat from ear to ear.
Now this is the 4th time I've posted something and it still hasn't been shown on the site, so show this fucking post or it may just push me over the edge and I'll be forced to do the "unthinkable"...
Oh, and to whoever said this site persuaded their brother to sniff glue and he died - if your brother was stupid enough to sniff glue and expect NOT to die, then this world is better off without him.
Reb and VoDKa - forever.
|27 May 2005||P.D||hey everybody... most people will never get a chance to read this ever... expecially the people who matter. ive been scuicidal since my first sexual experience... it was christmas holidays and i never thought of doing anything with a girl, it didnt even cross my mind (i was a 16 yr old virgin). Next thing u kno we were partying with these girls.. and everybody was making out and havin a good time... cept me... eventually a girl noticed that i was kinda down... and without reason started to kiss me... the night dragged on and i found her in my bed... i didnt have sex with her or anything.. we just made out... i was hella afraid of what shed think of my 5.5 inch (thingie). The next day i asked her out.... and she told me she didnt want a boyfriend.... two days later she was dating my friend... i asked her about it and all she was said was "FUCK, I just wanted to get laid man".... i literally flipped out and wrecked everything in our house.. my brother had to hold me down so i wouldnt hurt myself... my parents made me see these docters who gave me pills.. WHAT A FUCKING JOKE... there like uhhh ya... here are sum pills that will make u uhhhh dizzy and ull just want to fucking kill yurself wearing a goddamn smile... thus the walking in on other people haveing intercourse just fucked me right up... what bad luck, 5 occasions of witnessing your friends fuck since they were 16 and your now 18 drives u insane!!!! WHY CANT I BE IN LOVE?! WHY CANT I MAKE LOVE TO A WOMAN!? AM I JUST TOO THIN AND SCRAWNY?!......
than i met a girl.. she asked me to graduation... she had a boyfriend already and i was SOOO in love with her.. we got along like a perfect match! she told me that if her and her boyfriend werent going out or ever broke up that itd b me shed start to date... hahahahaa wow... i fell for it too. She ditched me 4 days b4 my grad... she broke up with her boyfriend the day b4 grad too.... and she instantly started dating another guy... well... ive tryed to kill myself once... i tell myself every other minuit of every day that i will do it... im now currently in love with the most beautiful girl in the world!!! inside and out!! she flirts with me so much and uses me just like any other girl!! she has a boyfriend tho... she just fuckin taunts me... she knows she can have me at anytime but she just toys me around!!! IM SO FUCKING ANGRY AT HER!!! but im so in love..... i dont want to die i really dont.... but i feel like its the only way to releive an unseen tension... i should knock on her door and shoot myself in the face when she opens the door.... PLEASE HELP ME ANYBODY!!! IM FROM ALBERTA CANADA AND I REALLY NEED HELP!! THIS IS A DESPERATION CALL!! I MIGHT HURT MYSELF!!!!!! Dude_wit_no_name@hotmail.com
Please i need real help from someone with experience's similar to mine or dealking with the same mental issues.
|23 May 2005||nobody lies me||i totally fucking agree with exactly everything [starved to deah says] now to hell with the fucking rest of ur god and christian shit, its totally fake so fuck off.|
|22 May 2005||Starved of Death||I am 14 and I have severe anxiety and depression. I am female and I want to meet others who also want to die. I'm not ready just yet to commit suicide, but I get closer each day. I am a cutter, I also burn myself occasionally and sometimes I bang my head on walls. I have been cutting for about four months. My worst cut was one that needed two stitches, but I never went to a hospital, I just kept it bandaged with antibiotic cream, and now it's fine.
I do NOT want any of you Christian fucks emailing me, telling me to go the way of God to make my life livable. There is no such thing as God, and if there is, then he must think he's one funny guy, making all of us suffer like this.
I am in a lot of emotional pain. Every day I wish to die, and the pain gets so great sometimes that I lose the ability to think straight and I feel like I don't understand anything.
I also smoke when I can get a hold of cigarrettes, I drink when I can get liquor or beer, and if I ever get weed or crystal meth, I will try it.
The human race disgusts me, and I hate all sports except hockey, which is something I'm actually good at. I like writing demented poetry that no one gets.
I want to meet other people like me, people who actually know what I am talking about. I am NOT looking for help. Only understanding. Do not email me if you want to try and talk me out of my misery. It won't work.
|21 May 2005||nobody likes me||hey inoccence faded bitch u dont ever fucking fuck with a mental and sucidal person. and after u have made that comment, eat your moms crayola crayons that she give u for christmas. ive had enough of this bullshit im gonna fucking hunt you down|
|17 May 2005||InnocenceFaded||Eat all the Crayola crayons in the nice new big box your mommy gave you for Christmas.|
|09 May 2005||Revelation||I've dropped in depression before and i've been suicidal. I've cut my wrists, slashed my arms, smashed my head against walls and punched any object which could possibly draw blood. I have not only used knives but other objects which all seem to have a different effect of freedom and relief.
But i am proud to say i have overcome that feeling of nothing and how no one cares. Although my circumstances at home are not like everyone else i hold my head high and smile. I am a christian and i have found a meaning to live. I love life and i love God, it wasn't easy getting out of depression.
I turned against my friends, family and even myself. But despite everything i threw away i found myself not content with the fact that I was the one stopping myself from becoming the person i could be.
I've planned my death before, i even began the typical poem writing of death. You know... honestly... we are so YOUNG! There is a whole life out there that we are only just starting to see. I am 16 and if your younger than me i tell you now, don't throw your life away like no one cares. God loves you and so do i.
If anyone wants to talk them send me an email. I know what it's like and i never want to go down that road again because it's not worth it. Life is too good when you have God by your side.
Come on guys, my mum died when i was 9 years old. Everyone thought i didn't understand so they didn't pay me any attension. I knew everything, i saw years of pain and suffering. I endured hell and i still am till this day i am suffering from the effects of a loved one close to me.
I am a victim of someone who has died, it wasn't her choice either. But you have no idea what your actions do to other people.
Dead isn't the answer.
|04 May 2005||Sarah||I'm 14 tomorrow and it should be really like a great day and stuff and i know my friends have got me great presents and I've been going on about it for ages but I really wasn't supposed to be here for this birthday. Four days before Christmas I took a massive overdose with alcohol. I had planned it for months. My mum found me and I was in hospital for ten days and them moved to a physciatric unit. I will succeed eventually and I already know when I will try again. Loads of people were really shocked when they found out cos I come across as this really bubbly, happy person but I'm not. I wanna cry every minute of every day. I keep a razor blade in the back of my mobile which kind of comforts me. I have cut myself for about 3 years now. I have noticed that the cuts are getting deeper and deeper every time. I know to a lot of people have a great life but I just can't see the point in it. It's hard and painful, you get so hurt. I don't think how I feel will ever go completely away I will always live with it. I want to die. I wish there was a switch. The one thing I want is the last thing I will ever get.|
|03 May 2005||chantel||hi my name is chantel well every one hates me.when i was 10 my dad watched my uncle rape me i sat there in pain and looked in the window and i will never forget the face he had on him it wa sliek he was happy a year later he had hald a gun to my head and that same yeah my sister ( christina) shot her self be cuz of guy problems my mo left me i herd that she talks about me but not in good wasy i here she calls me names and its like shr doe snot even know me i have not seen her for a while but sence i was 13 i have been cutting every day i cut it getts deeper and deeper and deeper i started taking pills i would take 8 and then i would take 14 the next week i started tripping out at 14 i got to the point wher i took 41 oills but it faild it did not kill me my boyfriend and i have been togetaher for a year and 5 months he hits me and calls me names and al iw nat is some one to love me every one tells me what a disappointment i am and it hurts i cut almost every night now ever sence 3 weeksa ago i try and fomd some bare skin on my body that i have not yet cut and slice it i need help i dont wanna cut i do but i do i know i should not take pills and cutt and drink and do drugs like i do i wanna stop but when i try to they drive me crazy and one dat i am ganna end up shotting myself like my sister i am alomist pushed to teh end too...........................can any one help me email@example.com thanks|
|02 May 2005||Princess Oblivious||I don't know. I thought about tylenol when I was 14 but after going to a psychologist, he told me it would hurt (I think he was lying). I can't stand pain. Sometimes things pile up and it really feels like it should end. But I got over it and I want to gie you advice, but I don't know what to say because everyone's case and cause is different. Some people just want attention while others really need someone. I am a christian. I still thought about suicide. Don't blow me off because I think there is a god. All I can say is that it is really good to have someone to talk to sometimes. Find someone.|
|02 May 2005||chrissy||i dunno wat to say, im not gonna encourage ppl to do the 'deed', but here's wat i have to say...ok well my lyf isnt as bad as the pplz on this syt, but like i dunno.im 14 and i've been depressed since i was about 11, but things have gotten really bad this year, i mean i went to a new skool and now they see me for me, the way i am, depressed.a few months ago i crushed a glass in my hand and i had to go to hospital for that, i have butterfly stitches on my arm from cutting myself and i have to take antipsycotics, to help with my depression, alot of my frends are depressed and that doesnt help, ive almost commited suicide a couple of times, and yer, i have to see loads of counselour ppl but nothings seems to work, im close to going to hospital and things just keep getting worse, my mum thinks things are getting better, but they're not.i dont no wat to do ani more!|
|30 Apr 2005||-X-Laura-X-||Hey people!..
Well, In have tried to kill myself three times, and obviously, both times didn't work. Every single day, I'm thinking about death and suicide.
Last Thursday, someone in my school (I'm 14 b the way) told one of my teachers that I was really and depressed and suicidal. I am so pissed off about that! If this teacher ever tells my mum, I think theres only one thing for it..
I'm a Christian, and no way do I wanna go to hell. I brought this up, because many people have been saying to me that I would go to hell if I commit suidide, and I'm not really sure what to believe. I don't even believe in myself for gosh sakes!
Two of my best friends killed themselves last year, and I don't think they are in hell..they were really good people and had no right at all to go there.
Well..I dunno what else to say, but if anyone needs to chat or something, just e-mail me or add me to their MSN..it's firstname.lastname@example.org
See ya's all later..hopefully!
|29 Apr 2005||viciously tempered||the best way to kill yourself ? hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm ....... well i wouldn't know ,but if i had to choose out of all the ways you can go out is to OD. perferible heroin. now Iv'e never in my life did drugs and i probably never will. But I im suffering though a depression of my own. and I am only 14. but life is cruel then and some kid is always going to be an asshole ( aspecially if your different) but you have to think of it this way do you really care that much about some spoiled snotnose bastard that barely knows you? or if you really want to go through with this and u are a christian think about where u would end up. IN Hell! now how smart is that. your coming from a hell on earth going to the real one. but after all it's your life to end and if all else fails go to your local drug dealer and buy a kilo of the H and go fucking crazy!|
|28 Apr 2005||depressed||I am 21, I never thought I would accually make it to be 21. Since I was 14 I have been suicidle. I was raped when I was 15 and a virgin till then. My father left my family when i was in the 2nd grade, and took all his money with him. I was used to being a rich little girl, then thrown into the life of poverty. My mother has always treated me differently than all my brothers. I am the only girl, and I never got anything from my mom. On christmas, my brothers would get new clothes and toys and I would only get like a pair of 5 dollar pj's. What is sad is that my birthday is on christmas too and would get no presents. I am a very quite person and keep to myself. I got kicked out of one school though by one of my failed suicide attempts. I tried to overdose at school. I would get asked out by boys, but I would just walk away because of my anxiety. I cant talk to anyone without shaking, turning red, and then crying. I made good grades in high school, and went away to college with loans. I didn't make it in college though. I have a problem with being with allot of people and have sevear anxiety attacks. I am extreamly depressed all the time, and my anxiety attacks got so bad that I would never leave my room. Another factor of my college failure, is the girls were very mean to me, and threw gum in my hair and in my seat, and would right lesbo on my sign in sheets. Not because i am ugly, but because at that time i was skinny and pretty. Because i wouldnt eat at the cafeteria because of my anxiety. I went a week sometimes without eating. I then had to go back to my home. My mother is not all right in the head, and she thinks she is being followed and there are bugs in the house listening to her and all those crazy things. She now thinks that I am an undercover spy telling "someone" everything she is doing and everywere she is going. When in accuallity I havn't talked to one single person in over a year now. I can't leave the house very often because I get these anxiety attacks and start crying uncontrolibly for hours. My mom doesn't understand anything about me, i told her about my anxiety and that I probobly needed help and she just laughed in my face. I start crying uncrolibly often, and she tells me "who told you to act this way, your just trying to make me look like a bad mother" she has kicked my out of the house before, and that is when i try to kill myself. I tell my mom I have tried to kill myself over 10 times, and she doesnt believe me. I am starting to think I can't die, I have tried so many times. I have tried sliceing my rists, and I guess i didnt cut deap enough. I have tried electricution. Puting a hair dryer in my bath with me didnt work. It just broke my hair dryer. I tried it with the toaster too. It also didnt work. I have tryed overdoasign many times. I took 100 zanex bars that I bought by taking money out of my credit card, with a bunch of alcehol. I woke up 3 days later, not dead :(. Just with a large bill I cant pay. I would get extreamly drunk and try to crash my car, and i ended up getting a dwi. My life is worthless. I want to die. I think about killing myself at least 20 times a day. I am now stuck with colleg loan bills, credit card bills, adn court fees with no way to make money. My mom pays for my brothers school, and will never help me though. I have no money to get profeshional help, or maybe some anxiety meds or anti depressants. My mom wont help me, because she thinks she will make her look like a bad mother. I get yelled at constantly by my mom telling me to just act normal. She doesnt get that I can't. I want to die. When I get my hands on a gun, then my hell on earth will finually be over. Till then my suffering continues, unless I get lucky and find a way to just die.|
|24 Apr 2005||B u b b a W o r s h i p||Start by listening to music of depression. Kurt Cobain would be a very , very good way to start. Any grunge music, goth music, metal , thrash, punk, glam , doom, and my personal style of writing music which I call possessed is a hell of a goddamned way to start.. Then while you listen and learn to love the music, start drinking lots of alcohol, clear liquor specially. then move to marijuana, the to every kind of pill you can think of, then cocaine, the lsd and shrooms, the more and more alcohol and beer, 3 packs of cigarettes a day, then eventualy heroin and strong doses of morphine.. Oh and another thing, the pill valium really aggravates heroin and the like.. So basically become a fucking junkie and die a slow death from drugs and alcohol and cigarettes. Or become a junkie and get so depressed that you shoot yourself, throw yourself in front of a train, hanging, jump from tall building or bridge, poisin urself with just about any house hold cleaning prducts from drain o to furniture polish, or all of that at the same time.. Oh and a couple other things,,,,,, if you want to hang yourself use thin metal wire for it will most likley cut your whole head off when you jump. AND ONE LAST SPECIALLY WORD FROM MYSELF. IF YOU ARE GOING TO KILL YOURSELF BEFORE YOU DO IT CUSS GOD UNTILL YOU CANT TALK OR SHIT YOURSELF. cAUSE HE IS MOST LIKELY THE MAIN PERSON YOUR PISSED AT FOR PUTTING YOU ON THIS GODDAMNED EARTH AND GIVING YOU ALL THE ABILITIES TO MAKE YOU DEPRESSED AND WANT TO KILL YOUR SELF IN THE FIRST PLACE.. iF GOD WAS AS REAL AND PERFECT AS CHRISTIANS SAY HE IS THEN WHY HASNT HE MADE A CURE FOR NOT KILLING YOURSELF.... SO BASICALLY WHAT I AM SAYING IS TO KILL GOD, KILL YOURSELF, KILL EVERYONE THAT FUCKS WITH YOU AND HOPEFULLY WE CAN ALL GO TO HELL WHERE AT LEAST THERE WOULD BE INTERESTING PEOPLE UNLIKE HEAVEN WHERE YOU WORSHIP THAT BASTARD FOR ETERNITY.. BY AND I HOPE YOU GET YOU KILLING DONE ON THE FIRST TRY CAUSE IT IS THAT MUCH HARDER THE SECOND TIME AROUND|
|14 Apr 2005||Connor||hey, my name is Connor and Im 13 right now. well, i think about suicide alot, when i was a little kid, i would sit on my bed in my room listening to my parents scream at eachother, my dad would push my mom around and i think he hit her once, by the time i was 5 my dad was whipping me with a big leather workout belt. When i was 10 he starting making me humiliate myself when he did that by making me take off my pants and underwear and having me lean over his bed in his room, where he would whip for awhile. Now he is like, uber religious and he had me going to this christian school. Whenever i would mess up on something it would be the whipping, he also gave me a fat lip, hit me in the head with a cloths hanger and through me across the hallway, he would mentally abuse me too, now im one of those guys that just cant seem to lose weight and its not something im proud of, he would tell me things like im a fat selfish pig and that he shouldnt feed me, so maybe id look a little better. Well anyways, he beat me up a few time, i mean he would start in the car, rapping his arm across the seat and into my stomach and chest. then when we got inside he would take me to the basement and push me down, he would then start kicking me in the back and hitting me in the face. well, finally i told me real mom(my parents are divorced and i called the police on him) i dont think i have ever felt as free as i did when that happened. Its just a feeling of triumph, listen, i seriously contemplated suicide, many times, i ended holding a knife to my throat one night after a beating. but the only thing that stopped me was my other family and the fact that, come on, anyone can do great things, everyone has a future, dont you wanna see that future? now dont get me wrong, i think about suicide, what teenager dosent? but just think about all that, and if your family does still love, imagine how much you will hurt them, the world dosent hate you, you can find help, someone is always willing to help, especially teenager and below.|